The candles were burning brightly, and the cheerful bog-fire was blazing
on the hearth, as I drew near the window of the priest's cottage; but
yet there was no one in the room. The little tea-kettle was hissing on
the hob, and the room had all that careful look of watchful attention
bestowed upon it that showed, the zeal of his little household.
Uncertain how I should meet him, how far explain the affliction that
had fallen on me, I walked for some time up and down before the door;
at length I wandered to the back of the house, and passing the little
stable, I remarked that the pony was absent. The priest had not returned
perhaps since morning; perhaps he had gone some distance off--in all
likelihood accompanied the Bellews; again the few words he had spoken
that morning recurred to me, and I pondered in silence over their
meaning. As I thus mused, a strong flood of mellow light attracted me as
it fell in a broad stream across the little paved court, and I now saw
that it came from the kitchen. I drew near the window in silence, and
looked in. Before the large turf-fire were seated three persons; two
of them, who sat in the shining light, I at once recognised as the
servants; but the third was concealed in the shadow of the chimney, and
I could only trace the outline of his figure against the blaze. I was
not long, however, in doubt as to his identity.
'Seemingly, then, you're a great traveller,' said Patsey, the priest's
man, addressing the unknown.
A long whiff of smoke, patiently emitted, and a polite wave of the hand
in assent was the reply.
'And how far did you come to-day, av I might be so bould?' said Mary.
'From the cross of Kiltermon, beyond Gurtmore, my darlin'; and sure
it is a real pleasure and a delight to come so far to see as pretty a
crayture as yourself.' Here Patsey looked a little put out, and Mary
gave a half smile of encouragement. 'For,' continued the other, breaking
into a song--
'Though I love a fox in a cover to find,
When the clouds is low, with a sou'west wind,
Faix, a pretty girl is more to my mind
Than the tally-high-ho of a morning.'
I need scarcely say that the finale of this rude verse was given in a
way that only Tipperary Joe could accomplish, as he continued--
'And just show me one with an instep high,
A saucy look, and a roguish eye,
Who 'd smile ten times for once she 'd sigh,
And I'm her slave till morning.'
'And that's yoursel', devil a less--ye ho, ye ho, tally-ho! I hope the
family isn't in bed?'
'Troth, seemingly,' said Patsey, in a tone of evident pique, 'it would
distress you little av they were; you seem mighty well accustomed to
making yourself at home.'
'And why wouldn't the young man?' said Mary, apparently well pleased
to encourage a little jealousy on the part of her lover, 'and no harm
neither. And ye do be always with the hounds, sir?'
'Yes, miss, that's what I be doing. But I wonder what's keeping the
Captain; I've a letter here for him that I know ought to have no delay.
I run all the way for fourteen miles over Mey'nacurraghew mountain to be
here quick with him.'
I opened the door as I heard this, and entered the kitchen.
'Hurroo! by the mortial,' cried Joe, with one of his wild shouts, 'it 's
himself! Arrah, darlin', how is every bit in your skin?'
'Well, Joe, my poor fellow, I am delighted to see you safe and sound
once more. Many a day have I reproached myself for the way you suffered
for my sake, and for the manner I left you.'
'There's only one thing you have any rayson to grieve over,' said the
poor fellow, as the tears started to his eyes, and rolled in heavy drops
down his cheeks, 'and here it is.'
As he spoke, he drew from his bosom a little green-silk purse, half
filled with gold.
'Ah, Captain, jewel, why wouldn't you let a poor fellow taste happiness
his own way? Is it because I had no shoes on me that I hadn't any pride
in my heart? And is it because I wasn't rich that you wouldn't let me
be a friend to you, just to myself alone? Oh, little as we know of grand
people and their ways, troth, they don't see our hearts half as plain.
See, now I 'd rather you 'd have come up to the bed that morning and
left me your curse--ay, devil a less--than that purse of money; and it
wouldn't do me as much harm.'
He dropped his head as he spoke, and his arms fell listlessly to his
side, while he stood mute and sorrow-struck before me.
'Come, Joe,' said I, holding out my hand to him--'come, Joe, forgive me.
If I didn't know better, remember we were only new acquaintance at that
time: from this hour we are more.'
The words seemed to act like a spell upon him; he stood proudly up, and
his eyes flashed with their wildest glare, while, seizing my hand, he
pressed it to his lips, and called out--
'While there's a drop in my heart, darlin'----'
'You have a letter for me,' said I, glad to turn the channel of both our
thoughts. 'Where did you get it?'
'At the Curragh, sir, no less. I was standing beside the staff, among
all the grand generals and the quality, near the Lord Liftinint, and
I heard one of the officers say, “If I knew where to write to him, I'd
certainly do so; but he has never written to any of us since his duel.”
“Ah,” said another, “Binton's an odd fellow that way.” The minit I heard
the name, I up and said to him, “Write the letter, and I'll bring it,
and bring you an answer besides, av ye want it.”
'“And who the devil are you?” said he.
'“Troth,” said I, “there's more on this race knows me nor yourself, fine
as ye are.” And they all began laughing at this, for the officer grew
mighty red in the face, and was angry; and what he was going to say it's
hard to tell, for just then Lord Clonmel called out--
'“Sure, it's Tipperary Joe himself; begad, every one knows him. Here,
Joe, I owe you half-a-crown since last meeting at the lough.”
'“Faix, you do,” says I, “and ten shillings to the back of it for Lanty
Cassan's mare that I hired to bring you home when you staked the horse;
you never paid it since.” And then there was another laugh; but the end
of all was, he writ a bit of a note where he was on horseback, with a
pencil, and here it is.'
So saying, he produced a small crumpled piece of paper, in which I could
with some difficulty trace the following lines:--
'Dear Jack,--If the fool who bears this ever arrives with it, come back
at once. Your friends in England have been worrying the duke to command
your return to duty; and there are stories afloat about your western
doings that your presence here can alone contradict.--Yours, J. Horton.'
It needed not a second for me to make up my mind as to my future course,
and I said--
'How can I reach Limerick the shortest way?' 'I know a short cut,' said
Joe, 'and if we could get a pony I'd bring you over the mountain before
to-morrow evening.'
'And you,' said I--'how are you to go?' 'On my feet, to be sure; how
else would I go?' Despatching Joe, in company with Patsey, in search of
a pony to carry me over the mountain, I walked into the little parlour
which I was now about to take my leave of for ever.
It was only then when I threw myself upon a seat, alone and in solitude,
that I felt the full force of all my sorrow--the blight that had fallen
on my dearest hopes, and the blank, bleak prospect of life before me.
Sir Simon Bellew's letter I read over once more; but now the mystery it
contained had lost all interest for me, and I had only thoughts for my
own affliction. Suddenly, a deep burning spot glowed on my cheek as I
remembered my interview with Ulick Burke, and I sprang to my legs, and
for a second or two felt undecided whether I would not give him the
opportunity he so longed for. It was but a second, and my better reason
came back, and I blushed even deeper with shame than I had done with
passion.
Calming myself with a mighty effort, I endeavoured to pen a few lines to
my worthy and kind friend, Father Loftus. I dared not tell him the real
cause of my departure, though indeed I guessed from his absence that he
had accompanied the Bellews, and but simply spoke of my return to duty
as imperative, and my regret that after such proofs of his friendship I
could not shake his hand at parting. The continued flurry of my feelings
doubtless made this a very confused and inexplicit document; but I could
do no better. In fact, the conviction I had long been labouring under,
but never could thoroughly appreciate, broke on me at the moment. It
was this: the sudden vicissitudes of everyday life in Ireland are sadly
unsuited to our English natures and habits of thought and action. These
changes from grave to gay, these outbreaks of high-souled enthusiasm
followed by dark, reflective traits of brooding thought, these noble
impulses of good, these events of more than tragic horror, demand a
changeful, even a forgetful temperament to bear them; and while the
Irishman rises or falls with every emergency of his fate, with us
impressions are eating deeper and deeper into our hearts, and we become
sad and thoughtful, and prematurely old. Thus at least did I feel, and
it seemed to me as though very many years had passed over me since I
left my father's house.
The tramp of feet and the sounds of speaking and laughter outside
interrupted my musings, and I heard my friend Joe carolling at the top
of his voice--
'Sir Pat bestrode a high-bred steed,
And the huntsman one that was broken-kneed,
And Father Pitz had a wiry weed
With his tally-high-ho in the morning.'
''Faith, and you're a great beast entirely; and one might dance a jig on
your back, and leave room for the piper besides.'
I opened the window, and in the bright moonlight beheld the party
leading up a short, rugged-looking pony, whose breadth of beam and
square proportions fully justified all Joe's encomiums.
'Have you bought this pony for me, Joe?' cried I. 'No, sir, only
borrowed him. He'll take you up to Wheley's mills, where we'll get
Andy's mare to-morrow morning.'
'Borrowed him?' 'Yes.'
'Where 's his owner?'
'He 's in bed, where he ought to be. I tould him through the door who it
was for, and that he needn't get up, as I 'd find the ways of the place
myself; and ye see so I did.'
'Told him who it was for! Why, he never heard of me in his life.'
'Devil may care; sure you're the priest's friend, and who has a better
warrant for everything in the place? Don't you know the song--
“And Father Fitz had no cows nor sheep,
And the devil a hen or pig to keep;
But a pleasanter house to dine or sleep
You 'd never find till morning.”
“For Molly, says he, if the fowls be few,
I 've only one counsel to give to you:
There's hens hard by--go kill for two,
For I 've a friend till morning.”
By the Rock of Cashel, it 'ud be a hard case av the priest was to want.
Look how the ould saddle fits him! faix, ye 'd think he was made for
it!'
I am not quite sure that I felt all Joe's enthusiasm for the beast's
perfections; nor did the old yeomanry 'demi-pique,' with its brass
mountings and holsters, increase my admiration. Too happy, however, to
leave a spot where all my recollections were now turned to gloom and
despondence, I packed my few traps, and was soon ready for the road.
It was not without a gulping feeling in my throat, and a kind of
suffocating oppression at my heart, that I turned from the little room
where in happier times I had spent so many pleasant hours, and bidding a
last good-bye to the priest's household, told them to say to Father Tom
how sad I felt at leaving before he returned. This done, I mounted the
little pony, and escorted by Joe, who held the bridle, descended the
hill, and soon found myself by the little rivulet that murmured along
the steep glen through which our path was lying.