CHAPTER XXII.

THE PARISH CHURCH.—REMBRANDT.—THE SNOW SCENE.—MASTER SWIFT’S

AUTOBIOGRAPHY.

IN most respects, Jan’s conduct and progress were very satisfactory. He

quickly learned to read, and his copy-books were models.

The good clerk developed another talent in him. Jan learned to sing, and

to sing very well; and he was put into the choir-seats in the old church,

where he sang with enthusiasm hymns which he had learned by heart from

the schoolmaster.

No wild weather that ever blustered over the downs could keep Jan now

from the services. The old church came to have a fascination for him,

from the low, square tower without, round which the rooks wheeled, to the

springing pillars, the solemn gray tints of the stone, and the round

arches that so gratified the eye within. And did he not sit opposite to

the one stained window the soldiers of the Commonwealth had spared to the

parish! It was the only colored picture Jan knew, and he knew every

line, every tint of it, and the separate expression on each of the wan,

quaint faces of the figures. When the sun shone, they seemed to smile at

him, and their ruby dresses glowed like garments dyed in blood. When the

colors fell upon Abel’s white head, Jan wished with all his heart that he

could have gathered them as he gathered leaves, to make pictures with.

Sometimes he day-dreamed that one of the figures came down out of the

window, and brought the colors with him, and that he and Jan painted

pictures in the other windows, filling them with gorgeous hues, and pale,

devout faces. The fancy, empty as it was, pleased him, and he planned

how every window should be done, and told Abel, to whom the ingenious

fancy seemed as marvellous as if the work had been accomplished.

Abel was in the choir too, not so much because of his voice as of his

great wish for it, and of the example of his good behavior. It was he

who persuaded Mrs. Lake to come to church, and having once begun she came

often. She tried to persuade her husband to go, and told him how sweetly

the boys’ voices sounded, led by Master Swift’s fine bass, which he

pitched from a key which he knocked upon his desk. But Master Lake had a

proverb to excuse him. “The nearer the church, the further from GOD.”

Not that he pretended to maintain the converse of the proposition.

Jan learned plenty of poetry; hymns, which Abel learned again from him,

some of Herbert’s poems, and bits of Keats. But his favorites were

martial poems by Mrs. Hemans, which he found in an old volume of

collected verses, till the day he came upon “Marmion,” and gave himself

up to Sir Walter Scott. He spouted poetry to Abel in imitation of Master

Swift, and they enjoyed all, and understood about half.

And yet Jan’s progress was not altogether satisfactory to his teacher.

To learn long pieces of poetry was easy pastime to him, but he was dull

or inattentive when the schoolmaster gave him some elementary lessons in

mechanics. He wrote beautifully, but was no prodigy in arithmetic. He

drew trees, windmills, and pigs on the desks, and admirable portraits of

the schoolmaster, Rufus, and other local worthies, on the margins of the

tables of weights and measures.

Much of his leisure was spent at Master Swift’s cottage, and in reading

his books. The schoolmaster had marked an old biographical dictionary at

pages containing lives of “self-made” men, who had risen as inventors or

improvers in mechanics or as discoverers of important facts of natural

science. Jan had not hitherto studied their careers with the avidity

Master Swift would have liked to see, but one day he found him reading

the fat volume with deep interest.

“And whose life are ye at now, laddie?” he asked, with a smile.

Jan lifted his face, which was glowing. “’Tis Rembrandt the painter I be

reading about. Eh, Master Swift, he lived in a windmill, and he was a

miller’s son!”

“Maybe he’d a miller’s thumb,” Jan added, stretching out his own, and

smiling at the droll idea. “Do ’ee know what _etchings_ be, then, Master

Swift?”

“A kind of picture that’s scratched on a piece of copper with needles,

and costs a lot of money to print,” said Master Swift, dryly; and he

turned his broad back and went out.

It was one day in the second winter of Jan’s learning under Master Swift

that matters came to a climax. The schoolmaster loved punctuality, but

Jan was not always punctual. He was generally better in this respect in

winter than in summer, as there was less to distract his attention on the

road to school. But one winter’s day he loitered to make a sketch on his

slate, and made matters worse by putting finishing touches to it after he

was seated at the desk.

It was not a day to suggest sketching, but, turning round when he was

about half way to the village, the view seemed to Jan to be exactly

suitable for a slate sketch. The long slopes of the downs were white

with snow; but it was a dull grayish white, for there was no sunshine,

and the gray-white of the slate-pencil did it justice enough. In the

middle distance rose the windmill, and a thatched cattle shed and some

palings made an admirable foreground. On the top and edges of these lay

the snow, outlining them in white, which again the slate-pencil could

imitate effectively. There only wanted something darker than the slate

itself to do those parts of the foreground and the mill which looked

darker than the sky, and for this Jan trusted to pen and ink when he

reached his desk. The drawing was very successful, and Jan was so

absorbed in admiring it that he did not notice the schoolmaster’s

approach, but feeling some one behind him, he fancied it was one of the

boys, and held up the slate triumphantly, whispering, “Look ’ee here!”

It was Master Swift who looked, and snatching the slate he brought it

down on the sharp corner of the desk, and broke it to pieces. Then he

went back to his place, and spoke neither bad nor good to Jan for the

rest of the school-time. Jan would much rather have been beaten. Once

or twice he made essay to go up to Master Swift’s desk, but the old man’s

stern countenance discouraged him, and he finally shrank into a corner

and sat weeping bitterly. He sat there till every scholar but himself

had gone, and still the schoolmaster did not speak. Jan slunk out, and

when Master Swift turned homewards Jan followed silently in his footsteps

through the snow. At the door of the cottage, the old man looked round

with a relenting face.

“I suppose Rufus’ll insist on your coming in,” said he; and Jan rushing

in hid his face in Rufus’s curls, and sobbed heavily.

“Tut, tut!” said the schoolmaster. “No more of that, child. There’s

bitters enough in life, without being so prodigal of your tears.”

“Come and sit down with ye,” he went on. “You’re very young, lad, and

maybe I’m foolish to be angry with ye that you’re not wise. But yet

ye’ve more sense than your years in some respects, and I’m thinking I’ll

try and make ye see things as I see ’em. I’m going to tell ye something

about myself, if ye’d care to hear it.”

“I’d be main pleased, Master Swift,” said Jan, earnestly.

“I’d none of your advantages, lad,” said the old man. “When I was your

age, I knew more mischief than you need ever know, and uncommon little

else. I’m a self-educated man,—I used to hope I should live to hear folk

say a self-made Great Man. It’s a bitter thing to have the ambition

without the genius, to smoulder in the fire that great men shine by!

However, it’s something to have just the saving sense to know that ye’ve

not got it, though it’s taken a wasted lifetime to convince me, and I

sometimes think the deceiving serpent is more scotched than killed yet.

However, ye seem to me to be likelier to lack the ambition than the

genius, so we may let that bide. But there’s a snare of mine, Jan, that

I mean your feet to be free of, and that’s a mischosen vocation. I’m not

a native of these parts, ye must know. I come from the north, and in

those mining and manufacturing districts I’ve seen many a man that’s got

an education, and could keep himself sober, rise to own his house and his

works, and have men under him, and bring up his children like the gentry.

For mark ye, my lad. In such matters the experiences of the early part

of an artisan’s life are all so much to the good for him, for they’re in

the working of the trade, and the finest young gentleman has got it all

to learn, if he wants to make money in that line. I got my education,

and I was sober enough, but—Heaven help me—I must be a poet, and in

_that_ line a gentleman’s son knows almost from the nursery many a thing

that I had to teach myself with hard labor as a man. It was just a

madness. But I read all the poetry I could lay my hands on, and I wrote

as well.”

“Did you write poetry, Master Swift?” said Jan.

“Ay, Jan, of a sort. At one time I worshipped Burns. And then I wrote

verses in the dialect of my native place, which, ye must know, I can

speak with any man when I’ve a mind,” said Master Swift, unconscious that

he spoke it always. “And then it was Wordsworth, for the love of nature

is just a passion with me, and it’s that that made the poet Keats a new

world to me. Well, well, now I’m telling you how I came here. It was

after my wife. She was lady’s-maid to Squire Ammaby’s mother, and the

old Squire got me the school. Ah, those were happy days! I was a

godless, rough sort of a fellow when she married me, but I became a

converted man. And let me tell ye, lad, when a man and wife love GOD and

each other, and live in the country, a bit of ground like this becomes a

very garden of Eden.”

“Did your wife like your poetry, sir?” said Jan, on whom the idea that

the schoolmaster was a poet made a strong impression.

“Ay, ay, Jan. She was a good scholar. I wrote a bit about that time

called Love and Ambition, in the style of the poet Wordsworth. It was as

much as to say that Love had killed Ambition, ye understand? But it

wasn’t dead. It had only shifted to another object.

“We had a child. I remember the first day his blue eyes looked at me

with what I may call sense in ’em. He was in his cradle, and there was

no one but me with him. I went on like a fool. ‘See thee, my son,’ I

said, ‘thy father’s been a bad ’un, but he’ll keep thee as pure as thy

mother. Thy father’s a poor scholar, but he’s not _that_ dull but what

he’ll make _thee_ as learned as the parson. Thy father’s a needy man, a

man in a small way, but he and thy mother’ll stick here in this dull bit

of a village, content, ay, my lad, right happy, so thou’rt a rich man,

and can see the world!’ I give ye my word, Jan, the child looked at me

as if he understood it all. You’re wondering, maybe, what made me hope

he’d do different to what I’d done. But, ye see, his mother was just an

angel, and I reckoned he’d be half like her. Then she’d lived with

gentlefolks from a child, and knew manners and such like that I never

learned. And for as little as I’d taught myself, he’d at any rate begin

where his father left off. He was all we had. There seemed no fault in

him. His mother dressed him like a little prince, and his manners were

the same. Ah, we _were_ happy! Then”—

“Well, Master Swift?” said Jan, for the schoolmaster had paused.

“Can’t ye see the place is empty?” he answered sharply. “Who takes bite

or sup with me but Rufus? _She died_.

“I’d have gone mad but for the boy. All my thought was to make up her

loss to him. A child learns a man to be unselfish, Jan. I used to

think, ‘GOD may well be the very fount of unselfish charity, when He has

so many children, so helpless without Him!’ I think He taught me how to

do for that boy. I dressed him, I darned his socks: what work I couldn’t

do I put out, but I had no one in. When I came in from school, I cleaned

myself, and changed my boots, to give him his meals. Rufus and I eat off

the table now, but I give ye my word when he was alive we’d three clean

cloths a week, and he’d a pinny every day; and there’s a silver fork and

spoon in yon drawer I saved up to buy him, and had his name put on. I

taught him too. He loved poetry as well as his father. He could say

most of Milton’s ‘Lycidas.’ It was an unlucky thing to have learned him

too! Eh, Jan! we’re poor fools. I lay awake night after night

reconciling my mind to troubles that were never to come, and never

dreaming of what _was_ before me. I thought to myself, ‘John Swift, my

lad, you’re making yourself a bed of thorns. As sure as you make your

son a gentleman, so sure he’ll look down on his old father when he gets

up. Can ye bear that, John Swift, and _her_ dead, and him all that ye

have?’ I didn’t ask myself twice, Jan. Of course I could bear it.

Would any parent stop his child from being better than himself because

he’d be looked down on? I never heard of one. ‘I want him to think me

rough and ignorant,’ says I, ‘for I want him to know what’s better. And

I shan’t expect him to think on how I’ve slaved for him, till he’s

children of his own, and their mother a lady. But when I’m dead,’ I

says, ‘and he stands by my grave, and I can’t shame him no more with my

common ways, he’ll say, “The old man did his best for me,” for he has his

mother’s feelings.’ I tell ye, Jan, I cried like a child to think of him

standing at my burying in a good black coat and a silk scarf like a

gentleman, and I no more thought of standing at his than if he was bound

to live for ever. And, mind ye, I did all I could to improve myself. I

learned while I was teaching, and read all I could lay my hands on.

Books of travels made me wild. I was young still, and I’d have given a

deal to see the world. But I was saving every penny for him. ‘He’ll see

it all,’ says I, ‘and that’s enough,—Italy and Greece, and Egypt, and the

Holy Land. And he’ll see the sea (which I never saw but once, and that

was at Cleethorpes), and he’ll go to the tropics, and see flowers that

’ud just turn his old father’s head, and he’ll write and tell me of ’em,

for he’s got his mother’s feelings.’ . . . My GOD! He never passed the

parish bounds, and he’s lain alongside of her in yon churchyard for five

and thirty years!”

Master Swift’s head sank upon his breast, and he was silent, as if in a

trance, but Jan dared not speak. The silence was broken by Rufus, who

got up and stuffed his nose into the schoolmaster’s hand.

“Poor lad!” said his master, patting him. “Thou’rt a good soul, too!

Well, Jan, I’m here, ye see. It didn’t kill me. I was off my head a

bit, I believe, but they kept the school for me, and I got to work again.

I’m rough pottery, lad, and take a deal of breaking. I’ve took up with

dumb animals, too, a good deal. At least, they’ve took up with me. Most

of ’em’s come, like Rufus, of themselves. Mangy puppies no one would

own, cats with kettles to their tails, and so on. I’ve always had a bit

of company to my meals, and that’s the main thing. Folks has said to me,

‘Master Swift, I don’t know how you can keep on schooling. I reckon you

can hardly abide the sight of boys now you’ve lost your own.’ But

they’re wrong, Jan: it seemed to give me a kind of love for every lad I

lit upon.

“Are ye thinking ambition was dead in the old man at last? It came to

life again, Jan. After a bit, I says to myself, ‘In a dull place like

this there’s doubtless many a boy that might rise that never has the

chance that I’d have given to mine. For what says the poet Gray?—

“But Knowledge to their eyes her ample page,

Rich with the spoils of Time, did ne’er unroll.”’

“I think, Jan, sometimes, I’m like Rachel, who’d rather have taken to her

servant’s children than have had none. I thought, ‘If there’s a genius

in obscurity here, I’ll come across the boy, being schoolmaster, and I’ll

do for him as I’d have done for my own.’ Jan, I’ve seen nigh on seven

generations of lads pass through this school, but _he’s never come_!

Society’s quit of that blame. There’s been no ’mute, inglorious Miltons’

here since I come to this place. There’s been many a nice-tempered lad

I’ve loved, for I’m fond of children, but never one that yearned to see

places he’d never seen, or to know things he’d never heard of. There’s

no fool like an old one, and I think I’ve been more disappointed as time

went on. I submitted myself to the Lord’s will years ago; but I _have_

prayed Him, on my knees, since He didn’t see fit to raise me and mine, to

let me have that satisfaction to help some other man’s son to knowledge

and to fame.

“Jan Lake,” said Master Swift, “when I found you in yon wood, I found

what I’ve looked for in vain for thirty-five years. Have I been

schoolmaster so long, d’ye think, and don’t know one boy’s face from

another? Lad? is it possible ye don’t _care_ to be a great man?”

Jan cared very much, but he was afraid of Master Swift; and it was by an

effort that he summoned up courage to say,—

“Couldn’t I be a great painter, Master Swift, don’t ’ee think?”

The old man frowned impatiently. “What have I been telling ye? The Fine

Arts are not the road to fame for working-men. Jan, Jan, be guided by

me. Learn what I bid ye. And when ye’ve made name and fortune the way I

show ye, ye can buy paints and paintings at your will, and paint away to

please your leisure hours.”

It did not need the gentle Abel’s after-counsel to persuade Jan to submit

himself to the schoolmaster’s direction.

“I’ll do as ye bid me, Master Swift; indeed, I will, sir,” said he.

But, when the pleased old man rambled on of fame and fortune, it must be

confessed that Jan but thought of them as the steps to those hours of

wealthy leisure in which he could buy paints and indulge the

irrepressible bent of his genius without blame.

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