“My God, I would not live, save that I think this gross,
hard-seeming world
Is our misshapen vision of the Powers behind the world that make
our griefs our gains.”
A BROAD-BUILT, hulking fellow with a coarse, brutal face shouldered his
way towards Muriel. It was one of the men’s evenings, and she had
dropped in a moment to speak to the superintendent, and to give one of
the men something to take home to his sick wife. When the man reached
her she led him to a quiet corner of the room. She had never felt afraid
yet, nor did she feel so now; only as she looked at the flushed,
scowling face she felt a little hopeless.
“They said as ’ow you wanted to speak to me, miss.”
“Yes, Dick, I do.” She paused, wondering how best to make her appeal to
him—where in fact was that spark of the Divine she so passionately
believed in, so seldom touched, yet trusted that she touched more often
than she knew. “Lizzie is with me, Dick,” she said at last. “Do you
think that you have treated her quite fairly?” The scowl changed to a
senseless, meaning smile. Muriel felt her eyes flash, but she had
herself well in hand. “Do you think it is quite a brave, manly thing to
do,” she asked with slow, quiet intensity, “to ruin a girl’s life—a
girl you pretend to care for—who has trusted in you? Would you not be
ashamed of breaking your word to another man? Yet you seem to think it
no great harm to betray a woman! A woman like Lizzie too, who is only a
child after all, and who kept so straight. She is very ill indeed, Dick,
and when—when the child is born I think she will die. Wouldn’t you call
a man who had behaved so to your sister a—a murderer?” The man’s sullen
eyes were fixed on the floor; he shifted awkwardly from one leg to the
other.
“I don’t see has ye ’ave hany call to speak to me like that, miss. I
ain’t no worse than the other chaps I knows on. I’d like to do fair by
Liz, but I ain’t earning enough to keep a wife.”
“You should have thought of that before you made Lizzie a mother,” said
Muriel sternly. “And now you will leave her alone to starve,” she added
with quiet scorn, “after having taken away her only chance of earning
her living, and—and having done the very worst you could.”
The man said nothing; his face was heavy with inarticulate rage; she
felt that he wanted intensely to knock her down. One of his mates
remarked to a group of men that “’Obbs looked horful hugly.” It did not
occur to him though to walk away. Suddenly her voice softened.
“Dick,” she said, “you’re not that sort of man at all—you know you are
not. You hadn’t thought of it before—that was all, wasn’t it? You
didn’t mean to harm poor Lizzie so. And she loves you, Dick—she wasn’t
a bit angry with you—she doesn’t blame you at all.” (It had not exactly
occurred to the man that she did. It was a new idea to him that she had
a right to.)
“And—and so I can tell her that you _want_ to marry her—will marry her
at once, Dick, won’t you, before—before it’s too late? You will let me
tell her that, won’t you?” Still no answer. “I trust you,” she said
softly; “I feel so sure that you have the makings of a good man.”
His eyes were glued on the floor. He felt more bewildered than angry,
and still obstinately clung to silence, which could not, as he phrased
it, “let him in for anything.”
Muriel took a rose she was wearing. With a sudden impulse she held it
out to him. “I gave Lizzie one,” she said gently, “one like this. Would
you like to wear it?” It seemed easier to take it than to speak, but
somehow he was impelled to look at her. Her eyes were fastened on him
with a look he never forgot—grave, earnest, truthful—as if she had
weighed his soul and was simply waiting for the proof of her judgment.
A voice he scarcely recognized for his own growled, “Well, then, what if
I does?”
“Thank God!” she murmured softly. “Thank God!” He waited for his answer.
She smiled at him so wonderfully that he felt the tears rise to his
eyes. Her own eyes swam in them. “I will help you all I can,” she said.
“Now come with me to Lizzie.” He followed unwillingly.
The men by the door shouted something after him as he passed. He did not
hear. He followed her clumsily with creaking boots into a room that
resembled nothing he had ever seen before, though it was simply
furnished; and sitting in a large chair by the fire was Lizzie. Her eyes
were fastened on the door with a dumb, questioning look. She moved her
lips as if they were dry. Then she saw him.
“Oh, my man! my man!” she cried. Muriel shut the door quietly, and left
them alone together. She felt suddenly as if she could never feel
hopeless again.