CHAPTER IV.

AN EXPLOSION.

Dr. P—— having accomplished his object in visiting this country, and

being invited home by his family, took his leave of us in the summer of

1840, and returned to the West Indies. I have not seen him since. But he

left behind a large number of disciples, and we had no lack of

mesmerizers, and mesmerizers to whom he was a mere child. Some of these

made mesmerism a trade, and gave public lectures and experiments as a

means of gaining notoriety and filling their pockets. Others made their

experiments in private circles, and from curiosity, or in the interests

of science, and not unfrequently by way of amusement. Mr. Winslow

devoted much time to a series of experiments intended to prove the

reality of what he called the demonic element of human nature. He wished

to be able to accept and explain the miracles recorded in sacred and

profane history on natural principles, without the recognition of the

supernatural. Jack Wheatley continued his experiments, apparently more

in jest than in earnest, and was remarkably successful. He had no theory

on the subject, said nothing of the use to which mesmerism might be

applied, and never speculated on the cause of the mesmeric phenomena. He

contented himself with producing them, and leaving others to use or

explain them as they saw proper.

A year had passed without my seeing Jack. In the winter of 1840-41,

while on a visit to Boston, I met him one day accidentally in the

street, and was startled at his altered appearance. His look was wild

and oppressed, his face was pale and sallow, his youth and bloom were

gone, and his body was wasted to a skeleton. He made as if he would

avoid me, and with reluctance and a certain timidity replied to my

greeting.

“Why, Jack, what is the matter?”

“Don’t you see? I see her night and day,” he replied with a shudder, as

if he beheld some strange and horrible vision from which he would avert

his looks, but could not.

“See what?” said I. “I see nothing.”

He trembled all over, and seemed unable to speak. Seeing that he had

either lost his wits, or was fast losing them, I took his arm in mine,

and with gentle violence led him to my lodgings, at no great distance,

conducted him to my room, and induced him to repose himself on the sofa.

I closed the door, and seated myself by his side. I took his hand, and

caressed his forehead and temples as if he had been a child. He seemed

soothed. “Tell me, Jack,” said I, in a voice almost as gentle and

affectionate as that of a mother, “tell me what has happened.”

“I am lost, I am damned.”

“Say not that. As long as life lasts no one is lost, and nothing is

irreparable.”

“Life no longer lasts. I do not live. I killed her.”

“No, no. But of whom do you speak?”

“You did not know. I never told you. You seemed to be a cast-iron man,

as Miss Martineau says of Mr. Calhoun, and disposed to put every

sentiment in your crucible, and subject it to your retorts and

blowpipes.”

“But Mr. Calhoun has a heart, as I have had ample occasion to prove.”

“I was always light and trifling, careless, gay, and joyous, yet I truly

and deeply loved.”

“And none the less deeply and truly because gay and joyous.”

“But you know nothing of love?”

“No man is always wise.”

“But you will laugh at me.”

“My dear Jack, there are few hearts without some little romance, in some

hidden or unhidden corner. There are not many persons unwilling to

listen to a story of true and genuine love.”

“I was young and foolish, but I loved one, and one whom I thought every

way worthy, a thousand times worthy, of my love. I felt myself

infinitely her inferior, and unworthy even to kiss the ground on which

she had trodden.”

“That is easily comprehended.”

“Now you are laughing at me.”

“No, I am not. But you may leave something to my imagination, if not to

my experience. I do not doubt that she whom you loved had all imaginable

charms, all conceivable graces, and all possible and impossible

perfections.”

“But my Isabel _was_ the most beautiful, sweet, amiable, and glorious

creature that ever gladdened the earth with her presence.”

“Unquestionably. He who doubts that his mistress is an angel, is divine,

is a goddess, has his liver whole, and I will warrant him sound in wind

and limb. The lover never finds his mistress mortal till after the

wedding.”

“You are incorrigible. You promised not to laugh at me. Indeed, indeed,

Doctor, I do not deserve to be laughed at.”

“I own it, my dear Jack, and nothing is farther from my heart than to

laugh at you. But do tell me what has happened. I am really grieved to

see you so afflicted.”

“Well, I loved Isabel, and had the happiness of believing that she

returned my love. I gained her consent, and that of her parents and my

own, and we were only waiting till I was fairly established in my

profession to be married. Notwithstanding Shakspeare’s _dictum_, the

course of our true love _did_ run smooth. There never was a lover’s

quarrel between us, and there were no obstacles interposed by friends,

enemies, or fortune. My acquaintance accidentally formed with you

brought me into company with Dr. P——, and interested me in Animal

Magnetism. In mere sport, as a pastime, I began trying my mesmeric

powers on one and another of my young friends. Capital fun we found it.

None of us dreamed of there being any harm in it, or that we might not

sport with it as we pleased without any unpleasant consequences. I know

not how it was, but I proved to be a powerful magnetizer, although I was

said not to have the right sort of temperament for a mesmerizer. My

experiments rarely failed, and were almost always unusually brilliant.

“One evening at a friend’s house, where some ten or a dozen of my

companions and acquaintances were assembled, I mesmerized a boy about

twelve years old. I found him completely under my control, and perfectly

docile to all my intentions. His behavior was admirable. I asked him

mentally a large number of questions which it was certain that in his

normal state he could not answer, and which he answered explicitly, with

surprising accuracy. He had never been taught music, and in his normal

state could not distinguish even one tune from another. I willed him to

seat himself at the piano, and play for us a favorite waltz of Mozart.

He obeyed, and performed it with accuracy, with spirit, a delicacy of

touch, and brilliancy of effect, which none of us had ever heard

equalled, or even approached. I then mentally ordered him to sing us, to

his own accompaniment, one or two songs from Fra Diavolo, which were

then in fashion. He obeyed. We were all surprised, and began talking

among ourselves of the apparent miracle, when, to our still greater

astonishment, he commenced playing of his own accord a strange piece,

which none of us knew or had ever heard, and which, for its wild and

unearthly character, for its brilliancy, depth, and pathos, surpassed

all that we had ever conceived of music. We were all entranced. Here was

some agency not the boy’s, not mine, not that of any one present. Such

strains had never had mortal composer.

“I knew not what to think, and so contrived not to think at all, but

enjoyed the music, and looked no farther. _Carpe diem_, you know, was my

philosophy. I saw I had a brilliant subject, and I resolved to make the

most of him. I had heard of the marvellous powers of clairvoyance and

second sight exhibited by some somnambulists. I blindfolded the boy, and

gave him a letter. He read it with ease. I placed another at the back of

his neck, he read that also; I placed another, folded up, on the back of

his head. He told me who was the writer, described his appearance, his

complexion, size, and character, with more accuracy than I could have

done, although the writer was well known to me, and must have been a

total stranger to the boy. I took the boy with me on a journey, that is,

mentally. We stopped at Providence, went on to Stonington, took the

steamer for New York, landed and went up Broadway, down the Bowery, and

through several other streets. He named the hotels, churches, and other

public buildings we passed, and read the signs over the shop doors. We

went up the Hudson, to Albany, from there on to Utica, Rochester,

Niagara Falls, and then returned, and on our way back stopped at your

house in Genesee county, with which you know I am familiar. We went into

the library, and the laboratory, in each of which he named and

accurately described the principal objects. Having come back, we took an

excursion into the other world, of which he told us strange things,

which none of us believed, for we were all Unitarians, Universalists, or

unbelievers, and his revelations seemed to favor what is called

Orthodoxy.

“My betrothed was present at all these experiments. She was greatly

excited. Time and again she wished that I would mesmerize her. She

wished this much more after she had heard the boy describe what he saw

in the other world. I know not why, but I shrunk from complying with her

wish. I saw no harm in others being mesmerized, and I had, without any

scruple, mesmerized young ladies by the dozen; but some how or other I

could not bear to have my Isabel mesmerized, or even to mesmerize her

myself. I instinctively felt that there would be something indelicate in

it, something hardly modest, and that it would be a sort of desecration.

She was modest, retiring, even timid, but her curiosity was excited, and

she would brook no denial.

“A true daughter of Eve. Women are timid creatures, but will brave Satan

himself to gratify their curiosity, or their passions.”

“That now is malicious.”

“Never mind; go on.”

“I was at length obliged to consent, but only to magnetize her at her

father’s house, and at first only in presence of her mother or her

sister. She yielded very readily to the mesmeric influence, and became a

remarkable clairvoyant. She had, when in the magnetic slumber, not only

a clear view of remote terrestrial things, of which she had no previous

knowledge, and which were equally unknown to me, but also of heaven and

hell, and revealed to me strange things of angels and spirits, of the

state of departed souls, good and bad, and of their intercourse with the

living. We both became deeply interested, and took every opportunity to

make our investigations. We were left much alone, and she remained in

the mesmeric state from one to two hours almost every day or evening. If

I was unable to visit her, she would, though I knew it not, invite some

female friend to mesmerize her, for gradually she seemed to wish to live

only in the mesmeric state, and appeared restless and uneasy when out of

it. Her physical system began to suffer. She complained, when awake, of

a universal lassitude. The bloom faded from her cheek, her eye assumed a

wild, lustreless glare, and her motions were heavy and languid. She was

listless, absent, forgetful, taking little or no interest in anybody or

any thing. I beheld her, as you may well believe, with great anxiety and

alarm.

“One evening, about two months ago, I visited her. I found her alone,

and in a few minutes threw her into the mesmeric sleep, for it was only

in that state that her mind retained its strength and brilliancy. She

was attacked with convulsions and spasms as I had never seen her before.

I hastened to awake her. It was too late! I had killed her; and that

countenance which had been so dear to me, which had so often beamed on

me with the sweet smile of love, now bore only the expression of fear,

horror, rage, and anguish. It was the face of a demon. It froze my blood

to behold it.

“I had my own grief to bear, I had to endure the tortures of my own

remorse and utter despair, and to face the grief, silent, but deep, of

her father, and the rage of her mother, who cursed me, cursed me as only

a mother in the violence of her wrath and grief can curse. How I lived

through that dreadful night I know not. The relations agreed to conceal

the circumstances of Isabel’s death. I followed her to the tomb, and

returned to my own home, blasted, withered, worse than dead.

“All this was bad enough, but worse followed. The day after the funeral,

while sitting alone in my office, I saw, at a few feet from me, partly

behind me, a grayish appearance, without any sharply defined outline. I

looked at it for a moment, and it assumed then the well-known form of

her I the day before followed to the grave, and, horror of horrors, with

that fearful expression of face with which she had died. It came nearer

to me, I receded; it followed, I rushed into the street; it pursued, I

turned aside my face, it turned as I turned, so as to be always within

my view. From that day to this has it haunted me; I have scarcely a

moment’s respite. Day or night, light or dark, with my eyes opened or

closed, always does it stand before me, and glare on me with that

terrible look. I cannot sleep; I cannot eat; I have no rest. The only

few moments of quiet I have had are those since I have been with you in

this room. I do not see it now. O, it was a sad day for me when I chose

Animal Magnetism for a plaything!”

I was much affected by Jack’s sufferings. I was not surprised at the

fatal effects of mesmerism on the young lady; for death, I had been

assured, is no unfrequent result of what the physicians who practise it

call its injudicious use. The form which haunted him gave me no

uneasiness, as it was, in my opinion, clearly a case of hallucination, a

species of monomania, well known to the physicians of our lunatic

hospitals, and our writers on mania or insanity. The shock my young

friend had received had probably produced some slight lesion of the

brain, and the imagination gave shape to the deceptive appearance, as in

dreams we see often reproduced, following us, preceding us, or dancing

around us, the shapes and images which had deeply impressed us when

awake. But I was fond of poor Jack, and my great anxiety was to console

him, and to prevent what might be only a temporary hallucination from

becoming a confirmed insanity. Finding him better when with me, I

persuaded him, with the consent of his family, who understood very

little of his case, and feared for his reason, to accompany me to my

home in Western New York, and to place himself under my care.

He remained very much depressed for several months, but gradually his

appetite returned; he was able to get some sleep, and his health began

to improve. The vision did not entirely leave him, especially when

alone, or not with me, but its visits became less and less frequent, and

less and less appalling. The expression of the face gradually became

less horrible, and more human, but still indicated great suffering and

profound grief. In the course of a year, however, he seemed to have

recovered, and returned to Boston. But in proportion as he seemed to be

regaining his health and peace of mind, as far as peace of mind he could

hope to have, a very singular change began to come over me.

I had spent my time, since leaving college, in literary ease and

scientific pursuits. I had had few strong or violent passions to trouble

me, and few things had wounded me very deeply. I had had, it is true, my

little romances, but not being of a sentimental turn, and having a

strong constitution and most excellent health, they had hardly rippled

the surface of the ordinarily smooth current of my life. I had pursued

science as a pastime. I took an easy, pleasant interest in it, but had

no passion for it. I had no enthusiasm, and found in the pursuit only a

gentle excitement, as in reading one of James’s novels, which, by the

by, are the best of all novels, for you can take them up or lay them

down when you please. Spare me, I always say, those much-be-praised

works of fiction which deal with strong and violent passions, which

produce in the reader a painfully intense interest, and which, when you

once begin reading them, you cannot lay down till you have read to the

end. I avoid reading such a novel, as I avoid a night’s debauch.

But now a change came over me. I became restless, and had an intense

longing to explore the secrets of things, and to look within the veil

with which nature kindly shrouds her laboratory. I longed to make myself

acquainted with the primal elements of being, and to be able to command

them; I burned to enlarge not only my knowledge, but my forces. I would

be able to raise the tempest on the deep, to fly through the air, to

wield the lightning, to leave and enter my body at will, to succor my

friends or overwhelm my enemies at a distance. I would read the stars,

comprehend their influences, and command their courses. I envied the old

Chaldean sages, the mighty magicians of the East, and the wizards and

weird sisters of the North. Why should it not be literally true that

mind is omnipotent over matter? Is not man called the lord of this lower

creation? Why then should he fear, or not be able to exercise his

lordship? Had we not seen the wonders of science? Had not man learned to

make the lightnings his steeds, and flames of fire his ministers? What

are the mighty forces of nature? May not man seize them, use them, and

wield their might at his pleasure?

Such thoughts were new to me, still more new were those intense

longings. The horizon of human power seemed to enlarge around me, and I

seemed to rise in the majesty and might of my nature. I was becoming, as

it were, a new man. The ethereal fire within had hitherto slumbered. It

was now kindled, and its flames aspired to their native heaven. I would

no longer be the puny thing I had been. Henceforth I would be a man; a

man in the full and lofty sense of the word. Now suddenly my soul seemed

to grow, and to become too large for my body, against which it beat as

the prisoner beats his head against the walls of his prison-house. I

knew not then the source or nature of these feelings, and I cherished

them as precious intimations of my affinity with the Origin and Source

of all things. At times I was elated; my eye glowed with an unwonted

fire, and sparkled with an unearthly brilliancy; my step was elastic,

and my whole frame seemed to have received new youth and buoyancy, and

to be in some measure withdrawn from the ordinary laws of gravitation.

It seemed as if all the great forces of nature flowed into me, and

become subject to my will. Nothing was impossible to me.

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