Thea was still under the first excitement of teaching, and was terribly

in earnest about it. If a pupil did not get on well, she fumed and

fretted. She counted until she was hoarse. She listened to scales in

her sleep. Wunsch had taught only one pupil seriously, but Thea taught

twenty. The duller they were, the more furiously she poked and prodded

them. With the little girls she was nearly always patient, but with

pupils older than herself, she sometimes lost her temper. One of her

mistakes was to let herself in for a calling-down from Mrs. Livery

Johnson. That lady appeared at the Kronborgs’ one morning and announced

that she would allow no girl to stamp her foot at her daughter Grace.

She added that Thea’s bad manners with the older girls were being

talked about all over town, and that if her temper did not speedily

improve she would lose all her advanced pupils. Thea was frightened.

She felt she could never bear the disgrace, if such a thing happened.

Besides, what would her father say, after he had gone to the expense of

building an addition to the house? Mrs. Johnson demanded an apology to

Grace. Thea said she was willing to make it. Mrs. Johnson said that

hereafter, since she had taken lessons of the best piano teacher in

Grinnell, Iowa, she herself would decide what pieces Grace should

study. Thea readily consented to that, and Mrs. Johnson rustled away to

tell a neighbor woman that Thea Kronborg could be meek enough when you

went at her right.

Thea was telling Ray about this unpleasant encounter as they were

driving out to the sand hills the next Sunday.

“She was stuffing you, all right, Thee,” Ray reassured her. “There’s no

general dissatisfaction among your scholars. She just wanted to get in

a knock. I talked to the piano tuner the last time he was here, and he

said all the people he tuned for expressed themselves very favorably

about your teaching. I wish you didn’t take so much pains with them,

myself.”

“But I have to, Ray. They’re all so dumb. They’ve got no ambition,”

Thea exclaimed irritably. “Jenny Smiley is the only one who isn’t

stupid. She can read pretty well, and she has such good hands. But she

don’t care a rap about it. She has no pride.”

Ray’s face was full of complacent satisfaction as he glanced sidewise

at Thea, but she was looking off intently into the mirage, at one of

those mammoth cattle that are nearly always reflected there. “Do you

find it easier to teach in your new room?” he asked.

“Yes; I’m not interrupted so much. Of course, if I ever happen to want

to practice at night, that’s always the night Anna chooses to go to bed

early.”

“It’s a darned shame, Thee, you didn’t cop that room for yourself. I’m

sore at the _padre_ about that. He ought to give you that room. You

could fix it up so pretty.”

“I didn’t want it, honest I didn’t. Father would have let me have it. I

like my own room better. Somehow I can think better in a little room.

Besides, up there I am away from everybody, and I can read as late as I

please and nobody nags me.”

“A growing girl needs lots of sleep,” Ray providently remarked.

Thea moved restlessly on the buggy cushions. “They need other things

more,” she muttered. “Oh, I forgot. I brought something to show you.

Look here, it came on my birthday. Wasn’t it nice of him to remember?”

She took from her pocket a postcard, bent in the middle and folded, and

handed it to Ray. On it was a white dove, perched on a wreath of very

blue forget-me-nots, and “Birthday Greetings” in gold letters. Under

this was written, “From A. Wunsch.”

Ray turned the card over, examined the postmark, and then began to

laugh.

“Concord, Kansas. He has my sympathy!”

“Why, is that a poor town?”

“It’s the jumping-off place, no town at all. Some houses dumped down in

the middle of a cornfield. You get lost in the corn. Not even a saloon

to keep things going; sell whiskey without a license at the butcher

shop, beer on ice with the liver and beefsteak. I wouldn’t stay there

over Sunday for a ten-dollar bill.”

“Oh, dear! What do you suppose he’s doing there? Maybe he just stopped

off there a few days to tune pianos,” Thea suggested hopefully.

Ray gave her back the card. “He’s headed in the wrong direction. What

does he want to get back into a grass country for? Now, there are lots

of good live towns down on the Santa Fé, and everybody down there is

musical. He could always get a job playing in saloons if he was dead

broke. I’ve figured out that I’ve got no years of my life to waste in a

Methodist country where they raise pork.”

“We must stop on our way back and show this card to Mrs. Kohler. She

misses him so.”

“By the way, Thee, I hear the old woman goes to church every Sunday to

hear you sing. Fritz tells me he has to wait till two o’clock for his

Sunday dinner these days. The church people ought to give you credit

for that, when they go for you.”

Thea shook her head and spoke in a tone of resignation. “They’ll always

go for me, just as they did for Wunsch. It wasn’t because he drank they

went for him; not really. It was something else.”

“You want to salt your money down, Thee, and go to Chicago and take

some lessons. Then you come back, and wear a long feather and high

heels and put on a few airs, and that’ll fix ’em. That’s what they

like.”

“I’ll never have money enough to go to Chicago. Mother meant to lend me

some, I think, but now they’ve got hard times back in Nebraska, and her

farm don’t bring her in anything. Takes all the tenant can raise to pay

the taxes. Don’t let’s talk about that. You promised to tell me about

the play you went to see in Denver.”

Any one would have liked to hear Ray’s simple and clear account of the

performance he had seen at the Tabor Grand Opera House—Maggie Mitchell

in _Little Barefoot_—and any one would have liked to watch his kind

face. Ray looked his best out of doors, when his thick red hands were

covered by gloves, and the dull red of his sunburned face somehow

seemed right in the light and wind. He looked better, too, with his hat

on; his hair was thin and dry, with no particular color or character,

“regular Willy-boy hair,” as he himself described it. His eyes were

pale beside the reddish bronze of his skin. They had the faded look

often seen in the eyes of men who have lived much in the sun and wind

and who have been accustomed to train their vision upon distant

objects.

Ray realized that Thea’s life was dull and exacting, and that she

missed Wunsch. He knew she worked hard, that she put up with a great

many little annoyances, and that her duties as a teacher separated her

more than ever from the boys and girls of her own age. He did

everything he could to provide recreation for her. He brought her candy

and magazines and pineapples—of which she was very fond—from Denver,

and kept his eyes and ears open for anything that might interest her.

He was, of course, living for Thea. He had thought it all out carefully

and had made up his mind just when he would speak to her. When she was

seventeen, then he would tell her his plan and ask her to marry him. He

would be willing to wait two, or even three years, until she was

twenty, if she thought best. By that time he would surely have got in

on something: copper, oil, gold, silver, sheep,—something.

Meanwhile, it was pleasure enough to feel that she depended on him more

and more, that she leaned upon his steady kindness. He never broke

faith with himself about her; he never hinted to her of his hopes for

the future, never suggested that she might be more intimately

confidential with him, or talked to her of the thing he thought about

so constantly. He had the chivalry which is perhaps the proudest

possession of his race. He had never embarrassed her by so much as a

glance. Sometimes, when they drove out to the sand hills, he let his

left arm lie along the back of the buggy seat, but it never came any

nearer to Thea than that, never touched her. He often turned to her a

face full of pride, and frank admiration, but his glance was never so

intimate or so penetrating as Dr. Archie’s. His blue eyes were clear

and shallow, friendly, uninquiring. He rested Thea because he was so

different; because, though he often told her interesting things, he

never set lively fancies going in her head; because he never

misunderstood her, and because he never, by any chance, for a single

instant, understood her! Yes, with Ray she was safe; by him she would

never be discovered!

XVI

The pleasantest experience Thea had that summer was a trip that she and

her mother made to Denver in Ray Kennedy’s caboose. Mrs. Kronborg had

been looking forward to this excursion for a long while, but as Ray

never knew at what hour his freight would leave Moonstone, it was

difficult to arrange. The call-boy was as likely to summon him to start

on his run at twelve o’clock midnight as at twelve o’clock noon. The

first week in June started out with all the scheduled trains running on

time, and a light freight business. Tuesday evening Ray, after

consulting with the dispatcher, stopped at the Kronborgs’ front gate to

tell Mrs. Kronborg—who was helping Tillie water the flowers—that if she

and Thea could be at the depot at eight o’clock the next morning, he

thought he could promise them a pleasant ride and get them into Denver

before nine o’clock in the evening. Mrs. Kronborg told him cheerfully,

across the fence, that she would “take him up on it,” and Ray hurried

back to the yards to scrub out his car.

The one complaint Ray’s brakemen had to make of him was that he was too

fussy about his caboose. His former brakeman had asked to be

transferred because, he said, “Kennedy was as fussy about his car as an

old maid about her bird-cage.” Joe Giddy, who was braking with Ray now,

called him “the bride,” because he kept the caboose and bunks so clean.

It was properly the brakeman’s business to keep the car clean, but when

Ray got back to the depot, Giddy was nowhere to be found. Muttering

that all his brakemen seemed to consider him “easy,” Ray went down to

his car alone. He built a fire in the stove and put water on to heat

while he got into his overalls and jumper. Then he set to work with a

scrubbing-brush and plenty of soap and “cleaner.” He scrubbed the floor

and seats, blacked the stove, put clean sheets on the bunks, and then

began to demolish Giddy’s picture gallery. Ray found that his brakemen

were likely to have what he termed “a taste for the nude in art,” and

Giddy was no exception. Ray took down half a dozen girls in tights and

ballet skirts,—premiums for cigarette coupons,—and some racy calendars

advertising saloons and sporting clubs, which had cost Giddy both time

and trouble; he even removed Giddy’s particular pet, a naked girl lying

on a couch with her knee carelessly poised in the air. Underneath the

picture was printed the title, “The Odalisque.” Giddy was under the

happy delusion that this title meant something wicked,—there was a

wicked look about the consonants,—but Ray, of course, had looked it up,

and Giddy was indebted to the dictionary for the privilege of keeping

his lady. If “odalisque” had been what Ray called an objectionable

word, he would have thrown the picture out in the first place. Ray even

took down a picture of Mrs. Langtry in evening dress, because it was

entitled the “Jersey Lily,” and because there was a small head of

Edward VII, then Prince of Wales, in one corner. Albert Edward’s

conduct was a popular subject of discussion among railroad men in those

days, and as Ray pulled the tacks out of this lithograph he felt more

indignant with the English than ever. He deposited all these pictures

under the mattress of Giddy’s bunk, and stood admiring his clean car in

the lamplight; the walls now exhibited only a wheatfield, advertising

agricultural implements, a map of Colorado, and some pictures of

race-horses and hunting-dogs. At this moment Giddy, freshly shaved and

shampooed, his shirt shining with the highest polish known to Chinese

laundrymen, his straw hat tipped over his right eye, thrust his head in

at the door.

“What in hell—” he brought out furiously. His good humored, sunburned

face seemed fairly to swell with amazement and anger.

“That’s all right, Giddy,” Ray called in a conciliatory tone. “Nothing

injured. I’ll put ’em all up again as I found ’em. Going to take some

ladies down in the car to-morrow.”

Giddy scowled. He did not dispute the propriety of Ray’s measures, if

there were to be ladies on board, but he felt injured. “I suppose

you’ll expect me to behave like a Y.M.C.A. secretary,” he growled. “I

can’t do my work and serve tea at the same time.”

“No need to have a tea-party,” said Ray with determined cheerfulness.

“Mrs. Kronborg will bring the lunch, and it will be a darned good one.”

Giddy lounged against the car, holding his cigar between two thick

fingers. “Then I guess she’ll get it,” he observed knowingly. “I don’t

think your musical friend is much on the grub-box. Has to keep her

hands white to tickle the ivories.” Giddy had nothing against Thea, but

he felt cantankerous and wanted to get a rise out of Kennedy.

“Every man to his own job,” Ray replied agreeably, pulling his white

shirt on over his head.

Giddy emitted smoke disdainfully. “I suppose so. The man that gets her

will have to wear an apron and bake the pancakes. Well, some men like

to mess about the kitchen.” He paused, but Ray was intent on getting

into his clothes as quickly as possible. Giddy thought he could go a

little further. “Of course, I don’t dispute your right to haul women in

this car if you want to; but personally, so far as I’m concerned, I’d a

good deal rather drink a can of tomatoes and do without the women _and_

their lunch. I was never much enslaved to hard-boiled eggs, anyhow.”

“You’ll eat ’em to-morrow, all the same.” Ray’s tone had a steely

glitter as he jumped out of the car, and Giddy stood aside to let him

pass. He knew that Kennedy’s next reply would be delivered by hand. He

had once seen Ray beat up a nasty fellow for insulting a Mexican woman

who helped about the grub-car in the work train, and his fists had

worked like two steel hammers. Giddy wasn’t looking for trouble.

At eight o’clock the next morning Ray greeted his ladies and helped

them into the car. Giddy had put on a clean shirt and yellow pig-skin

gloves and was whistling his best. He considered Kennedy a fluke as a

ladies’ man, and if there was to be a party, the honors had to be done

by some one who wasn’t a blacksmith at small-talk. Giddy had, as Ray

sarcastically admitted, “a local reputation as a jollier,” and he was

fluent in gallant speeches of a not too-veiled nature. He insisted that

Thea should take his seat in the cupola, opposite Ray’s, where she

could look out over the country. Thea told him, as she clambered up,

that she cared a good deal more about riding in that seat than about

going to Denver. Ray was never so companionable and easy as when he sat

chatting in the lookout of his little house on wheels. Good stories

came to him, and interesting recollections. Thea had a great respect

for the reports he had to write out, and for the telegrams that were

handed to him at stations; for all the knowledge and experience it must

take to run a freight train.

Giddy, down in the car, in the pauses of his work, made himself

agreeable to Mrs. Kronborg.

“It’s a great rest to be where my family can’t get at me, Mr. Giddy,”

she told him. “I thought you and Ray might have some housework here for

me to look after, but I couldn’t improve any on this car.”

“Oh, we like to keep her neat,” returned Giddy glibly, winking up at

Ray’s expressive back. “If you want to see a clean ice-box, look at

this one. Yes, Kennedy always carries fresh cream to eat on his

oatmeal. I’m not particular. The tin cow’s good enough for me.”

“Most of you boys smoke so much that all victuals taste alike to you,”

said Mrs. Kronborg. “I’ve got no religious scruples against smoking,

but I couldn’t take as much interest cooking for a man that used

tobacco. I guess it’s all right for bachelors who have to eat round.”

Mrs. Kronborg took off her hat and veil and made herself comfortable.

She seldom had an opportunity to be idle, and she enjoyed it. She could

sit for hours and watch the sage-hens fly up and the jack-rabbits dart

away from the track, without being bored. She wore a tan bombazine

dress, made very plainly, and carried a roomy, worn,

mother-of-the-family handbag.

Ray Kennedy always insisted that Mrs. Kronborg was “a fine-looking

lady,” but this was not the common opinion in Moonstone. Ray had lived

long enough among the Mexicans to dislike fussiness, to feel that there

was something more attractive in ease of manner than in absentminded

concern about hairpins and dabs of lace. He had learned to think that

the way a woman stood, moved, sat in her chair, looked at you, was more

important than the absence of wrinkles from her skirt. Ray had, indeed,

such unusual perceptions in some directions, that one could not help

wondering what he would have been if he had ever, as he said, had “half

a chance.”

He was right; Mrs. Kronborg was a fine-looking woman. She was short and

square, but her head was a real head, not a mere jerky termination of

the body. It had some individuality apart from hats and hairpins. Her

hair, Moonstone women admitted, would have been very pretty “on anybody

else.” Frizzy bangs were worn then, but Mrs. Kronborg always dressed

her hair in the same way, parted in the middle, brushed smoothly back

from her low, white forehead, pinned loosely on the back of her head in

two thick braids. It was growing gray about the temples, but after the

manner of yellow hair it seemed only to have grown paler there, and had

taken on a color like that of English primroses. Her eyes were clear

and untroubled; her face smooth and calm, and, as Ray said, “strong.”

Thea and Ray, up in the sunny cupola, were laughing and talking. Ray

got great pleasure out of seeing her face there in the little box where

he so often imagined it. They were crossing a plateau where great red

sandstone boulders lay about, most of them much wider at the top than

at the base, so that they looked like great toadstools.

“The sand has been blowing against them for a good many hundred years,”

Ray explained, directing Thea’s eyes with his gloved hand. “You see the

sand blows low, being so heavy, and cuts them out underneath. Wind and

sand are pretty high-class architects. That’s the principle of most of

the Cliff-Dweller remains down at Canyon de Chelly. The sandstorms had

dug out big depressions in the face of a cliff, and the Indians built

their houses back in that depression.”

“You told me that before, Ray, and of course you know. But the

geography says their houses were cut out of the face of the living

rock, and I like that better.”

Ray sniffed. “What nonsense does get printed! It’s enough to give a man

disrespect for learning. How could them Indians cut houses out of the

living rock, when they knew nothing about the art of forging metals?”

Ray leaned back in his chair, swung his foot, and looked thoughtful and

happy. He was in one of his favorite fields of speculation, and nothing

gave him more pleasure than talking these things over with Thea

Kronborg. “I’ll tell you, Thee, if those old fellows had learned to

work metals once, your ancient Egyptians and Assyrians wouldn’t have

beat them very much. Whatever they did do, they did well. Their

masonry’s standing there to-day, the corners as true as the Denver

Capitol. They were clever at most everything but metals; and that one

failure kept them from getting across. It was the quicksand that

swallowed ’em up, as a race. I guess civilization proper began when men

mastered metals.”

Ray was not vain about his bookish phrases. He did not use them to show

off, but because they seemed to him more adequate than colloquial

speech. He felt strongly about these things, and groped for words, as

he said, “to express himself.” He had the lamentable American belief

that “expression” is obligatory. He still carried in his trunk, among

the unrelated possessions of a railroad man, a notebook on the

title-page of which was written “Impressions on First Viewing the Grand

Canyon, Ray H. Kennedy.” The pages of that book were like a

battlefield; the laboring author had fallen back from metaphor after

metaphor, abandoned position after position. He would have admitted

that the art of forging metals was nothing to this treacherous business

of recording impressions, in which the material you were so full of

vanished mysteriously under your striving hand. “Escaping steam!” he

had said to himself, the last time he tried to read that notebook.

Thea didn’t mind Ray’s travel-lecture expressions. She dodged them,

unconsciously, as she did her father’s professional palaver. The light

in Ray’s pale-blue eyes and the feeling in his voice more than made up

for the stiffness of his language.

“Were the Cliff-Dwellers really clever with their hands, Ray, or do you

always have to make allowance and say, ‘That was pretty good for an

Indian’?” she asked.

Ray went down into the car to give some instructions to Giddy. “Well,”

he said when he returned, “about the aborigines: once or twice I’ve

been with some fellows who were cracking burial mounds. Always felt a

little ashamed of it, but we did pull out some remarkable things. We

got some pottery out whole; seemed pretty fine to me. I guess their

women were their artists. We found lots of old shoes and sandals made

out of yucca fiber, neat and strong; and feather blankets, too.”

“Feather blankets? You never told me about them.”

“Didn’t I? The old fellows—or the squaws—wove a close netting of yucca

fiber, and then tied on little bunches of down feathers, overlapping,

just the way feathers grow on a bird. Some of them were feathered on

both sides. You can’t get anything warmer than that, now, can you?—or

prettier. What I like about those old aborigines is, that they got all

their ideas from nature.”

Thea laughed. “That means you’re going to say something about girls’

wearing corsets. But some of your Indians flattened their babies’

heads, and that’s worse than wearing corsets.”

“Give me an Indian girl’s figure for beauty,” Ray insisted. “And a girl

with a voice like yours ought to have plenty of lung-action. But you

know my sentiments on that subject. I was going to tell you about the

handsomest thing we ever looted out of those burial mounds. It was on a

woman, too, I regret to say. She was preserved as perfect as any mummy

that ever came out of the pyramids. She had a big string of turquoises

around her neck, and she was wrapped in a fox-fur cloak, lined with

little yellow feathers that must have come off wild canaries. Can you

beat that, now? The fellow that claimed it sold it to a Boston man for

a hundred and fifty dollars.”

Thea looked at him admiringly. “Oh, Ray, and didn’t you get anything

off her, to remember her by, even? She must have been a princess.”

Ray took a wallet from the pocket of the coat that was hanging beside

him, and drew from it a little lump wrapped in worn tissue paper. In a

moment a stone, soft and blue as a robin’s egg, lay in the hard palm of

his hand. It was a turquoise, rubbed smooth in the Indian finish, which

is so much more beautiful than the incongruous high polish the white

man gives that tender stone. “I got this from her necklace. See the

hole where the string went through? You know how the Indians drill

them? Work the drill with their teeth. You like it, don’t you? They’re

just right for you. Blue and yellow are the Swedish colors.” Ray looked

intently at her head, bent over his hand, and then gave his whole

attention to the track.

“I’ll tell you, Thee,” he began after a pause, “I’m going to form a

camping party one of these days and persuade your _padre_ to take you

and your mother down to that country, and we’ll live in the rock

houses—they’re as comfortable as can be—and start the cook fires up in

’em once again. I’ll go into the burial mounds and get you more

keepsakes than any girl ever had before.” Ray had planned such an

expedition for his wedding journey, and it made his heart thump to see

how Thea’s eyes kindled when he talked about it. “I’ve learned more

down there about what makes history,” he went on, “than in all the

books I’ve ever read. When you sit in the sun and let your heels hang

out of a doorway that drops a thousand feet, ideas come to you. You

begin to feel what the human race has been up against from the

beginning. There’s something mighty elevating about those old

habitations. You feel like it’s up to you to do your best, on account

of those fellows having it so hard. You feel like you owed them

something.”

At Wassiwappa, Ray got instructions to sidetrack until Thirty-six went

by. After reading the message, he turned to his guests. “I’m afraid

this will hold us up about two hours, Mrs. Kronborg, and we won’t get

into Denver till near midnight.”

“That won’t trouble me,” said Mrs. Kronborg contentedly. “They know me

at the Y.W.C.A., and they’ll let me in any time of night. I came to see

the country, not to make time. I’ve always wanted to get out at this

white place and look around, and now I’ll have a chance. What makes it

so white?”

“Some kind of chalky rock.” Ray sprang to the ground and gave Mrs.

Kronborg his hand. “You can get soil of any color in Colorado; match

most any ribbon.”

While Ray was getting his train on to a side track, Mrs. Kronborg

strolled off to examine the post-office and station house; these, with

the water tank, made up the town. The station agent “batched” and

raised chickens. He ran out to meet Mrs. Kronborg, clutched at her

feverishly, and began telling her at once how lonely he was and what

bad luck he was having with his poultry. She went to his chicken yard

with him, and prescribed for gapes.

Wassiwappa seemed a dreary place enough to people who looked for

verdure, a brilliant place to people who liked color. Beside the

station house there was a blue-grass plot, protected by a red plank

fence, and six fly-bitten box-elder trees, not much larger than bushes,

were kept alive by frequent hosings from the water plug. Over the

windows some dusty morning-glory vines were trained on strings. All the

country about was broken up into low chalky hills, which were so

intensely white, and spotted so evenly with sage, that they looked like

white leopards crouching. White dust powdered everything, and the light

was so intense that the station agent usually wore blue glasses. Behind

the station there was a water course, which roared in flood time, and a

basin in the soft white rock where a pool of alkali water flashed in

the sun like a mirror. The agent looked almost as sick as his chickens,

and Mrs. Kronborg at once invited him to lunch with her party. He had,

he confessed, a distaste for his own cooking, and lived mainly on soda

crackers and canned beef. He laughed apologetically when Mrs. Kronborg

said she guessed she’d look about for a shady place to eat lunch.

She walked up the track to the water tank, and there, in the narrow

shadows cast by the uprights on which the tank stood, she found two

tramps. They sat up and stared at her, heavy with sleep. When she asked

them where they were going, they told her “to the coast.” They rested

by day and traveled by night; walked the ties unless they could steal a

ride, they said; adding that “these Western roads were getting strict.”

Their faces were blistered, their eyes blood-shot, and their shoes

looked fit only for the trash pile.

“I suppose you’re hungry?” Mrs. Kronborg asked. “I suppose you both

drink?” she went on thoughtfully, not censoriously.

The huskier of the two hoboes, a bushy, bearded fellow, rolled his eyes

and said, “I wonder?” But the other, who was old and spare, with a

sharp nose and watery eyes, sighed. “Some has one affliction, some

another,” he said.

Mrs. Kronborg reflected. “Well,” she said at last, “you can’t get

liquor here, anyway. I am going to ask you to vacate, because I want to

have a little picnic under this tank for the freight crew that brought

me along. I wish I had lunch enough to provide you, but I ain’t. The

station agent says he gets his provisions over there at the post office

store, and if you are hungry you can get some canned stuff there.” She

opened her handbag and gave each of the tramps a half-dollar.

The old man wiped his eyes with his forefinger. “Thank ’ee, ma’am. A

can of tomatters will taste pretty good to me. I wasn’t always walkin’

ties; I had a good job in Cleveland before—”

The hairy tramp turned on him fiercely. “Aw, shut up on that, grandpaw!

Ain’t you got no gratitude? What do you want to hand the lady that

fur?”

The old man hung his head and turned away. As he went off, his comrade

looked after him and said to Mrs. Kronborg: “It’s true, what he says.

He had a job in the car shops; but he had bad luck.” They both limped

away toward the store, and Mrs. Kronborg sighed. She was not afraid of

tramps. She always talked to them, and never turned one away. She hated

to think how many of them there were, crawling along the tracks over

that vast country.

Her reflections were cut short by Ray and Giddy and Thea, who came

bringing the lunch box and water bottles. Although there was not shadow

enough to accommodate all the party at once, the air under the tank was

distinctly cooler than the surrounding air, and the drip made a

pleasant sound in that breathless noon. The station agent ate as if he

had never been fed before, apologizing every time he took another piece

of fried chicken. Giddy was unabashed before the devilled eggs of which

he had spoken so scornfully last night. After lunch the men lit their

pipes and lay back against the uprights that supported the tank.

“This is the sunny side of railroading, all right,” Giddy drawled

luxuriously.

“You fellows grumble too much,” said Mrs. Kronborg as she corked the

pickle jar. “Your job has its drawbacks, but it don’t tie you down. Of

course there’s the risk; but I believe a man’s watched over, and he

can’t be hurt on the railroad or anywhere else if it’s intended he

shouldn’t be.”

Giddy laughed. “Then the trains must be operated by fellows the Lord

has it in for, Mrs. Kronborg. They figure it out that a railroad man’s

only due to last eleven years; then it’s his turn to be smashed.”

“That’s a dark Providence, I don’t deny,” Mrs. Kronborg admitted. “But

there’s lots of things in life that’s hard to understand.”

“I guess!” murmured Giddy, looking off at the spotted white hills.

Ray smoked in silence, watching Thea and her mother clear away the

lunch. He was thinking that Mrs. Kronborg had in her face the same

serious look that Thea had; only hers was calm and satisfied, and

Thea’s was intense and questioning. But in both it was a large kind of

look, that was not all the time being broken up and convulsed by

trivial things. They both carried their heads like Indian women, with a

kind of noble unconsciousness. He got so tired of women who were always

nodding and jerking; apologizing, deprecating, coaxing, insinuating

with their heads.

When Ray’s party set off again that afternoon the sun beat fiercely

into the cupola, and Thea curled up in one of the seats at the back of

the car and had a nap.

As the short twilight came on, Giddy took a turn in the cupola, and Ray

came down and sat with Thea on the rear platform of the caboose and

watched the darkness come in soft waves over the plain. They were now

about thirty miles from Denver, and the mountains looked very near. The

great toothed wall behind which the sun had gone down now separated

into four distinct ranges, one behind the other. They were a very pale

blue, a color scarcely stronger than wood smoke, and the sunset had

left bright streaks in the snow-filled gorges. In the clear,

yellow-streaked sky the stars were coming out, flickering like newly

lighted lamps, growing steadier and more golden as the sky darkened and

the land beneath them fell into complete shadow. It was a cool, restful

darkness that was not black or forbidding, but somehow open and free;

the night of high plains where there is no moistness or mistiness in

the atmosphere.

Ray lit his pipe. “I never get tired of them old stars, Thee. I miss

’em up in Washington and Oregon where it’s misty. Like ’em best down in

Mother Mexico, where they have everything their own way. I’m not for

any country where the stars are dim.” Ray paused and drew on his pipe.

“I don’t know as I ever really noticed ’em much till that first year I

herded sheep up in Wyoming. That was the year the blizzard caught me.”

“And you lost all your sheep, didn’t you, Ray?” Thea spoke

sympathetically. “Was the man who owned them nice about it?”

“Yes, he was a good loser. But I didn’t get over it for a long while.

Sheep are so damned resigned. Sometimes, to this day, when I’m

dog-tired, I try to save them sheep all night long. It comes kind of

hard on a boy when he first finds out how little he is, and how big

everything else is.”

Thea moved restlessly toward him and dropped her chin on her hand,

looking at a low star that seemed to rest just on the rim of the earth.

“I don’t see how you stood it. I don’t believe I could. I don’t see how

people can stand it to get knocked out, anyhow!” She spoke with such

fierceness that Ray glanced at her in surprise. She was sitting on the

floor of the car, crouching like a little animal about to spring.

“No occasion for you to see,” he said warmly. “There’ll always be

plenty of other people to take the knocks for you.”

“That’s nonsense, Ray.” Thea spoke impatiently and leaned lower still,

frowning at the red star. “Everybody’s up against it for himself,

succeeds or fails—himself.”

“In one way, yes,” Ray admitted, knocking the sparks from his pipe out

into the soft darkness that seemed to flow like a river beside the car.

“But when you look at it another way, there are a lot of halfway people

in this world who help the winners win, and the failers fail. If a man

stumbles, there’s plenty of people to push him down. But if he’s like

‘the youth who bore,’ those same people are foreordained to help him

along. They may hate to, worse than blazes, and they may do a lot of

cussin’ about it, but they have to help the winners and they can’t

dodge it. It’s a natural law, like what keeps the big clock up there

going, little wheels and big, and no mix-up.” Ray’s hand and his pipe

were suddenly outlined against the sky. “Ever occur to you, Thee, that

they have to be on time close enough to _make time?_ The Dispatcher up

there must have a long head.” Pleased with his similitude, Ray went

back to the lookout. Going into Denver, he had to keep a sharp watch.

Giddy came down, cheerful at the prospect of getting into port, and

singing a new topical ditty that had come up from the Santa Fé by way

of La Junta. Nobody knows who makes these songs; they seem to follow

events automatically. Mrs. Kronborg made Giddy sing the whole twelve

verses of this one, and laughed until she wiped her eyes. The story was

that of Katie Casey, head diningroom girl at Winslow, Arizona, who was

unjustly discharged by the Harvey House manager. Her suitor, the

yardmaster, took the switchmen out on a strike until she was

reinstated. Freight trains from the east and the west piled up at

Winslow until the yards looked like a log-jam. The division

superintendent, who was in California, had to wire instructions for

Katie Casey’s restoration before he could get his trains running.

Giddy’s song told all this with much detail, both tender and technical,

and after each of the dozen verses came the refrain:—

“Oh, who would think that Katie Casey owned the Santa Fé?

But it really looks that way,

The dispatcher’s turnin’ gray,

All the crews is off their pay;

She can hold the freight from Albuquerq’ to Needles any day;

The division superintendent, he come home from Monterey,

Just to see if things was pleasin’ Katie Ca—a—a—sey.”

Thea laughed with her mother and applauded Giddy. Everything was so

kindly and comfortable; Giddy and Ray, and their hospitable little

house, and the easy-going country, and the stars. She curled up on the

seat again with that warm, sleepy feeling of the friendliness of the

world—which nobody keeps very long, and which she was to lose early and

irrevocably.

XVII

The summer flew by. Thea was glad when Ray Kennedy had a Sunday in town

and could take her driving. Out among the sand hills she could forget

the “new room” which was the scene of wearing and fruitless labor. Dr.

Archie was away from home a good deal that year. He had put all his

money into mines above Colorado Springs, and he hoped for great returns

from them.

In the fall of that year, Mr. Kronborg decided that Thea ought to show

more interest in church work. He put it to her frankly, one night at

supper, before the whole family. “How can I insist on the other girls

in the congregation being active in the work, when one of my own

daughters manifests so little interest?”

“But I sing every Sunday morning, and I have to give up one night a

week to choir practice,” Thea declared rebelliously, pushing back her

plate with an angry determination to eat nothing more.

“One night a week is not enough for the pastor’s daughter,” her father

replied. “You won’t do anything in the sewing society, and you won’t

take part in the Christian Endeavor or the Band of Hope. Very well, you

must make it up in other ways. I want some one to play the organ and

lead the singing at prayer-meeting this winter. Deacon Potter told me

some time ago that he thought there would be more interest in our

prayer-meetings if we had the organ. Miss Meyers don’t feel that she

can play on Wednesday nights. And there ought to be somebody to start

the hymns. Mrs. Potter is getting old, and she always starts them too

high. It won’t take much of your time, and it will keep people from

talking.”

This argument conquered Thea, though she left the table sullenly. The

fear of the tongue, that terror of little towns, is usually felt more

keenly by the minister’s family than by other households. Whenever the

Kronborgs wanted to do anything, even to buy a new carpet, they had to

take counsel together as to whether people would talk. Mrs. Kronborg

had her own conviction that people talked when they felt like it, and

said what they chose, no matter how the minister’s family conducted

themselves. But she did not impart these dangerous ideas to her

children. Thea was still under the belief that public opinion could be

placated; that if you clucked often enough, the hens would mistake you

for one of themselves.

Mrs. Kronborg did not have any particular zest for prayer-meetings, and

she stayed at home whenever she had a valid excuse. Thor was too old to

furnish such an excuse now, so every Wednesday night, unless one of the

children was sick, she trudged off with Thea, behind Mr. Kronborg. At

first Thea was terribly bored. But she got used to prayer-meeting, got

even to feel a mournful interest in it.

The exercises were always pretty much the same. After the first hymn

her father read a passage from the Bible, usually a Psalm. Then there

was another hymn, and then her father commented upon the passage he had

read and, as he said, “applied the Word to our necessities.” After a

third hymn, the meeting was declared open, and the old men and women

took turns at praying and talking. Mrs. Kronborg never spoke in

meeting. She told people firmly that she had been brought up to keep

silent and let the men talk, but she gave respectful attention to the

others, sitting with her hands folded in her lap.

The prayer-meeting audience was always small. The young and energetic

members of the congregation came only once or twice a year, “to keep

people from talking.” The usual Wednesday night gathering was made up

of old women, with perhaps six or eight old men, and a few sickly girls

who had not much interest in life; two of them, indeed, were already

preparing to die. Thea accepted the mournfulness of the prayer-meetings

as a kind of spiritual discipline, like funerals. She always read late

after she went home and felt a stronger wish than usual to live and to

be happy.

The meetings were conducted in the Sunday-School room, where there were

wooden chairs instead of pews; an old map of Palestine hung on the

wall, and the bracket lamps gave out only a dim light. The old women

sat motionless as Indians in their shawls and bonnets; some of them

wore long black mourning veils. The old men drooped in their chairs.

Every back, every face, every head said “resignation.” Often there were

long silences, when you could hear nothing but the crackling of the

soft coal in the stove and the muffled cough of one of the sick girls.

There was one nice old lady,—tall, erect, self-respecting, with a

delicate white face and a soft voice. She never whined, and what she

said was always cheerful, though she spoke so nervously that Thea knew

she dreaded getting up, and that she made a real sacrifice to, as she

said, “testify to the goodness of her Saviour.” She was the mother of

the girl who coughed, and Thea used to wonder how she explained things

to herself. There was, indeed, only one woman who talked because she

was, as Mr. Kronborg said, “tonguey.” The others were somehow

impressive. They told about the sweet thoughts that came to them while

they were at their work; how, amid their household tasks, they were

suddenly lifted by the sense of a divine Presence. Sometimes they told

of their first conversion, of how in their youth that higher Power had

made itself known to them. Old Mr. Carsen, the carpenter, who gave his

services as janitor to the church, used often to tell how, when he was

a young man and a scoffer, bent on the destruction of both body and

soul, his Saviour had come to him in the Michigan woods and had stood,

it seemed to him, beside the tree he was felling; and how he dropped

his axe and knelt in prayer “to Him who died for us upon the tree.”

Thea always wanted to ask him more about it; about his mysterious

wickedness, and about the vision.

Sometimes the old people would ask for prayers for their absent

children. Sometimes they asked their brothers and sisters in Christ to

pray that they might be stronger against temptations. One of the sick

girls used to ask them to pray that she might have more faith in the

times of depression that came to her, “when all the way before seemed

dark.” She repeated that husky phrase so often, that Thea always

remembered it.

One old woman, who never missed a Wednesday night, and who nearly

always took part in the meeting, came all the way up from the depot

settlement. She always wore a black crocheted “fascinator” over her

thin white hair, and she made long, tremulous prayers, full of railroad

terminology. She had six sons in the service of different railroads,

and she always prayed “for the boys on the road, who know not at what

moment they may be cut off. When, in Thy divine wisdom, their hour is

upon them, may they, O our Heavenly Father, see only white lights along

the road to Eternity.” She used to speak, too, of “the engines that

race with death”; and though she looked so old and little when she was

on her knees, and her voice was so shaky, her prayers had a thrill of

speed and danger in them; they made one think of the deep black

canyons, the slender trestles, the pounding trains. Thea liked to look

at her sunken eyes that seemed full of wisdom, at her black thread

gloves, much too long in the fingers and so meekly folded one over the

other. Her face was brown, and worn away as rocks are worn by water.

There are many ways of describing that color of age, but in reality it

is not like parchment, or like any of the things it is said to be like.

That brownness and that texture of skin are found only in the faces of

old human creatures, who have worked hard and who have always been

poor.

One bitterly cold night in December the prayer-meeting seemed to Thea

longer than usual. The prayers and the talks went on and on. It was as

if the old people were afraid to go out into the cold, or were

stupefied by the hot air of the room. She had left a book at home that

she was impatient to get back to. At last the Doxology was sung, but

the old people lingered about the stove to greet each other, and Thea

took her mother’s arm and hurried out to the frozen sidewalk, before

her father could get away. The wind was whistling up the street and

whipping the naked cottonwood trees against the telegraph poles and the

sides of the houses. Thin snow clouds were flying overhead, so that the

sky looked gray, with a dull phosphorescence. The icy streets and the

shingle roofs of the houses were gray, too. All along the street,

shutters banged or windows rattled, or gates wobbled, held by their

latch but shaking on loose hinges. There was not a cat or a dog in

Moonstone that night that was not given a warm shelter; the cats under

the kitchen stove, the dogs in barns or coal-sheds. When Thea and her

mother reached home, their mufflers were covered with ice, where their

breath had frozen. They hurried into the house and made a dash for the

parlor and the hard-coal burner, behind which Gunner was sitting on a

stool, reading his Jules Verne book. The door stood open into the

dining-room, which was heated from the parlor. Mr. Kronborg always had

a lunch when he came home from prayer-meeting, and his pumpkin pie and

milk were set out on the dining-table. Mrs. Kronborg said she thought

she felt hungry, too, and asked Thea if she didn’t want something to

eat.

“No, I’m not hungry, mother. I guess I’ll go upstairs.”

“I expect you’ve got some book up there,” said Mrs. Kronborg, bringing

out another pie. “You’d better bring it down here and read. Nobody’ll

disturb you, and it’s terrible cold up in that loft.”

Thea was always assured that no one would disturb her if she read

downstairs, but the boys talked when they came in, and her father

fairly delivered discourses after he had been renewed by half a pie and

a pitcher of milk.

“I don’t mind the cold. I’ll take a hot brick up for my feet. I put one

in the stove before I left, if one of the boys hasn’t stolen it.

Good-night, mother.” Thea got her brick and lantern, and dashed

upstairs through the windy loft. She undressed at top speed and got

into bed with her brick. She put a pair of white knitted gloves on her

hands, and pinned over her head a piece of soft flannel that had been

one of Thor’s long petticoats when he was a baby. Thus equipped, she

was ready for business. She took from her table a thick paper-backed

volume, one of the “line” of paper novels the druggist kept to sell to

traveling men. She had bought it, only yesterday, because the first

sentence interested her very much, and because she saw, as she glanced

over the pages, the magical names of two Russian cities. The book was a

poor translation of “Anna Karenina.” Thea opened it at a mark, and

fixed her eyes intently upon the small print. The hymns, the sick girl,

the resigned black figures were forgotten. It was the night of the ball

in Moscow.

Thea would have been astonished if she could have known how, years

afterward, when she had need of them, those old faces were to come back

to her, long after they were hidden away under the earth; that they

would seem to her then as full of meaning, as mysteriously marked by

Destiny, as the people who danced the mazurka under the elegant

Korsunsky.

XVIII

Mr. Kronborg was too fond of his ease and too sensible to worry his

children much about religion. He was more sincere than many preachers,

but when he spoke to his family about matters of conduct it was usually

with a regard for keeping up appearances. The church and church work

were discussed in the family like the routine of any other business.

Sunday was the hard day of the week with them, just as Saturday was the

busy day with the merchants on Main Street. Revivals were seasons of

extra work and pressure, just as threshing-time was on the farms.

Visiting elders had to be lodged and cooked for, the folding-bed in the

parlor was let down, and Mrs. Kronborg had to work in the kitchen all

day long and attend the night meetings.

During one of these revivals Thea’s sister Anna professed religion

with, as Mrs. Kronborg said, “a good deal of fluster.” While Anna was

going up to the mourners’ bench nightly and asking for the prayers of

the congregation, she disseminated general gloom throughout the

household, and after she joined the church she took on an air of

“set-apartness” that was extremely trying to her brothers and her

sister, though they realized that Anna’s sanctimoniousness was perhaps

a good thing for their father. A preacher ought to have one child who

did more than merely acquiesce in religious observances, and Thea and

the boys were glad enough that it was Anna and not one of themselves

who assumed this obligation.

“Anna, she’s American,” Mrs. Kronborg used to say. The Scandinavian

mould of countenance, more or less marked in each of the other

children, was scarcely discernible in her, and she looked enough like

other Moonstone girls to be thought pretty. Anna’s nature was

conventional, like her face. Her position as the minister’s eldest

daughter was important to her, and she tried to live up to it. She read

sentimental religious story-books and emulated the spiritual struggles

and magnanimous behavior of their persecuted heroines. Everything had

to be interpreted for Anna. Her opinions about the smallest and most

commonplace things were gleaned from the Denver papers, the church

weeklies, from sermons and Sunday-School addresses. Scarcely anything

was attractive to her in its natural state—indeed, scarcely anything

was decent until it was clothed by the opinion of some authority. Her

ideas about habit, character, duty, love, marriage, were grouped under

heads, like a book of popular quotations, and were totally unrelated to

the emergencies of human living. She discussed all these subjects with

other Methodist girls of her age. They would spend hours, for instance,

in deciding what they would or would not tolerate in a suitor or a

husband, and the frailties of masculine nature were too often a subject

of discussion among them. In her behavior Anna was a harmless girl,

mild except where her prejudices were concerned, neat and industrious,

with no graver fault than priggishness; but her mind had really

shocking habits of classification. The wickedness of Denver and of

Chicago, and even of Moonstone, occupied her thoughts too much. She had

none of the delicacy that goes with a nature of warm impulses, but the

kind of fishy curiosity which justifies itself by an expression of

horror.

Thea, and all Thea’s ways and friends, seemed indecorous to Anna. She

not only felt a grave social discrimination against the Mexicans; she

could not forget that Spanish Johnny was a drunkard and that “nobody

knew what he did when he ran away from home.” Thea pretended, of

course, that she liked the Mexicans because they were fond of music;

but every one knew that music was nothing very real, and that it did

not matter in a girl’s relations with people. What was real, then, and

what did matter? Poor Anna!

Anna approved of Ray Kennedy as a young man of steady habits and

blameless life, but she regretted that he was an atheist, and that he

was not a passenger conductor with brass buttons on his coat. On the

whole, she wondered what such an exemplary young man found to like in

Thea. Dr. Archie she treated respectfully because of his position in

Moonstone, but she _knew_ he had kissed the Mexican barytone’s pretty

daughter, and she had a whole _dossier_ of evidence about his behavior

in his hours of relaxation in Denver. He was “fast,” and it was because

he was “fast” that Thea liked him. Thea always liked that kind of

people. Dr. Archie’s whole manner with Thea, Anna often told her

mother, was too free. He was always putting his hand on Thea’s head, or

holding her hand while he laughed and looked down at her. The kindlier

manifestation of human nature (about which Anna sang and talked, in the

interests of which she went to conventions and wore white ribbons) were

never realities to her after all. She did not believe in them. It was

only in attitudes of protest or reproof, clinging to the cross, that

human beings could be even temporarily decent.

Preacher Kronborg’s secret convictions were very much like Anna’s. He

believed that his wife was absolutely good, but there was not a man or

woman in his congregation whom he trusted all the way.

Mrs. Kronborg, on the other hand, was likely to find something to

admire in almost any human conduct that was positive and energetic. She

could always be taken in by the stories of tramps and runaway boys. She

went to the circus and admired the bareback riders, who were “likely

good enough women in their way.” She admired Dr. Archie’s fine physique

and well-cut clothes as much as Thea did, and said she “felt it was a

privilege to be handled by such a gentleman when she was sick.”

Soon after Anna became a church member she began to remonstrate with

Thea about practicing—playing “secular music”—on Sunday. One Sunday the

dispute in the parlor grew warm and was carried to Mrs. Kronborg in the

kitchen. She listened judicially and told Anna to read the chapter

about how Naaman the leper was permitted to bow down in the house of

Rimmon. Thea went back to the piano, and Anna lingered to say that,

since she was in the right, her mother should have supported her.

“No,” said Mrs. Kronborg, rather indifferently, “I can’t see it that

way, Anna. I never forced you to practice, and I don’t see as I should

keep Thea from it. I like to hear her, and I guess your father does.

You and Thea will likely follow different lines, and I don’t see as I’m

called upon to bring you up alike.”

Anna looked meek and abused. “Of course all the church people must hear

her. Ours is the only noisy house on this street. You hear what she’s

playing now, don’t you?”

Mrs. Kronborg rose from browning her coffee. “Yes; it’s the Blue Danube

waltzes. I’m familiar with ’em. If any of the church people come at

you, you just send ’em to me. I ain’t afraid to speak out on occasion,

and I wouldn’t mind one bit telling the Ladies’ Aid a few things about

standard composers.” Mrs. Kronborg smiled, and added thoughtfully, “No,

I wouldn’t mind that one bit.”

Anna went about with a reserved and distant air for a week, and Mrs.

Kronborg suspected that she held a larger place than usual in her

daughter’s prayers; but that was another thing she didn’t mind.

Although revivals were merely a part of the year’s work, like

examination week at school, and although Anna’s piety impressed her

very little, a time came when Thea was perplexed about religion. A

scourge of typhoid broke out in Moonstone and several of Thea’s

schoolmates died of it. She went to their funerals, saw them put into

the ground, and wondered a good deal about them. But a certain grim

incident, which caused the epidemic, troubled her even more than the

death of her friends.

Early in July, soon after Thea’s fifteenth birthday, a particularly

disgusting sort of tramp came into Moonstone in an empty box car. Thea

was sitting in the hammock in the front yard when he first crawled up

to the town from the depot, carrying a bundle wrapped in dirty ticking

under one arm, and under the other a wooden box with rusty screening

nailed over one end. He had a thin, hungry face covered with black

hair. It was just before suppertime when he came along, and the street

smelled of fried potatoes and fried onions and coffee. Thea saw him

sniffing the air greedily and walking slower and slower. He looked over

the fence. She hoped he would not stop at their gate, for her mother

never turned any one away, and this was the dirtiest and most utterly

wretched-looking tramp she had ever seen. There was a terrible odor

about him, too. She caught it even at that distance, and put her

handkerchief to her nose. A moment later she was sorry, for she knew

that he had noticed it. He looked away and shuffled a little faster.

A few days later Thea heard that the tramp had camped in an empty shack

over on the east edge of town, beside the ravine, and was trying to

give a miserable sort of show there. He told the boys who went to see

what he was doing, that he had traveled with a circus. His bundle

contained a filthy clown’s suit, and his box held half a dozen

rattlesnakes.

Saturday night, when Thea went to the butcher shop to get the chickens

for Sunday, she heard the whine of an accordion and saw a crowd before

one of the saloons. There she found the tramp, his bony body

grotesquely attired in the clown’s suit, his face shaved and painted

white,—the sweat trickling through the paint and washing it away,—and

his eyes wild and feverish. Pulling the accordion in and out seemed to

be almost too great an effort for him, and he panted to the tune of

“Marching through Georgia.” After a considerable crowd had gathered,

the tramp exhibited his box of snakes, announced that he would now pass

the hat, and that when the onlookers had contributed the sum of one

dollar, he would eat “one of these living reptiles.” The crowd began to

cough and murmur, and the saloon keeper rushed off for the marshal, who

arrested the wretch for giving a show without a license and hurried him

away to the calaboose.

The calaboose stood in a sunflower patch,—an old hut with a barred

window and a padlock on the door. The tramp was utterly filthy and

there was no way to give him a bath. The law made no provision to

grub-stake vagrants, so after the constable had detained the tramp for

twentyfour hours, he released him and told him to “get out of town, and

get quick.” The fellow’s rattlesnakes had been killed by the saloon

keeper. He hid in a box car in the freight yard, probably hoping to get

a ride to the next station, but he was found and put out. After that he

was seen no more. He had disappeared and left no trace except an ugly,

stupid word, chalked on the black paint of the seventy-five-foot

standpipe which was the reservoir for the Moonstone water-supply; the

same word, in another tongue, that the French soldier shouted at

Waterloo to the English officer who bade the Old Guard surrender; a

comment on life which the defeated, along the hard roads of the world,

sometimes bawl at the victorious.

A week after the tramp excitement had passed over, the city water began

to smell and to taste. The Kronborgs had a well in their back yard and

did not use city water, but they heard the complaints of their

neighbors. At first people said that the town well was full of rotting

cottonwood roots, but the engineer at the pumping-station convinced the

mayor that the water left the well untainted. Mayors reason slowly,

but, the well being eliminated, the official mind had to travel toward

the standpipe—there was no other track for it to go in. The standpipe

amply rewarded investigation. The tramp had got even with Moonstone. He

had climbed the standpipe by the handholds and let himself down into

seventy-five feet of cold water, with his shoes and hat and roll of

ticking. The city council had a mild panic and passed a new ordinance

about tramps. But the fever had already broken out, and several adults

and half a dozen children died of it.

Thea had always found everything that happened in Moonstone exciting,

disasters particularly so. It was gratifying to read sensational

Moonstone items in the Denver paper. But she wished she had not chanced

to see the tramp as he came into town that evening, sniffing the

supper-laden air. His face remained unpleasantly clear in her memory,

and her mind struggled with the problem of his behavior as if it were a

hard page in arithmetic. Even when she was practicing, the drama of the

tramp kept going on in the back of her head, and she was constantly

trying to make herself realize what pitch of hatred or despair could

drive a man to do such a hideous thing. She kept seeing him in his

bedraggled clown suit, the white paint on his roughly shaven face,

playing his accordion before the saloon. She had noticed his lean body,

his high, bald forehead that sloped back like a curved metal lid. How

could people fall so far out of fortune? She tried to talk to Ray

Kennedy about her perplexity, but Ray would not discuss things of that

sort with her. It was in his sentimental conception of women that they

should be deeply religious, though men were at liberty to doubt and

finally to deny. A picture called “The Soul Awakened,” popular in

Moonstone parlors, pretty well interpreted Ray’s idea of woman’s

spiritual nature.

One evening when she was haunted by the figure of the tramp, Thea went

up to Dr. Archie’s office. She found him sewing up two bad gashes in

the face of a little boy who had been kicked by a mule. After the boy

had been bandaged and sent away with his father, Thea helped the doctor

wash and put away the surgical instruments. Then she dropped into her

accustomed seat beside his desk and began to talk about the tramp. Her

eyes were hard and green with excitement, the doctor noticed.

“It seems to me, Dr. Archie, that the whole town’s to blame. I’m to

blame, myself. I know he saw me hold my nose when he went by. Father’s

to blame. If he believes the Bible, he ought to have gone to the

calaboose and cleaned that man up and taken care of him. That’s what I

can’t understand; do people believe the Bible, or don’t they? If the

next life is all that matters, and we’re put here to get ready for it,

then why do we try to make money, or learn things, or have a good time?

There’s not one person in Moonstone that really lives the way the New

Testament says. Does it matter, or don’t it?”

Dr. Archie swung round in his chair and looked at her, honestly and

leniently. “Well, Thea, it seems to me like this. Every people has had

its religion. All religions are good, and all are pretty much alike.

But I don’t see how we could live up to them in the sense you mean.

I’ve thought about it a good deal, and I can’t help feeling that while

we are in this world we have to live for the best things of this world,

and those things are material and positive. Now, most religions are

passive, and they tell us chiefly what we should not do.” The doctor

moved restlessly, and his eyes hunted for something along the opposite

wall: “See here, my girl, take out the years of early childhood and the

time we spend in sleep and dull old age, and we only have about twenty

able, waking years. That’s not long enough to get acquainted with half

the fine things that have been done in the world, much less to do

anything ourselves. I think we ought to keep the Commandments and help

other people all we can; but the main thing is to live those twenty

splendid years; to do all we can and enjoy all we can.”

Dr. Archie met his little friend’s searching gaze, the look of acute

inquiry which always touched him.

“But poor fellows like that tramp—” she hesitated and wrinkled her

forehead.

The doctor leaned forward and put his hand protectingly over hers,

which lay clenched on the green felt desktop. “Ugly accidents happen,

Thea; always have and always will. But the failures are swept back into

the pile and forgotten. They don’t leave any lasting scar in the world,

and they don’t affect the future. The things that last are the good

things. The people who forge ahead and do something, they really

count.” He saw tears on her cheeks, and he remembered that he had never

seen her cry before, not even when she crushed her finger when she was

little. He rose and walked to the window, came back and sat down on the

edge of his chair.

“Forget the tramp, Thea. This is a great big world, and I want you to

get about and see it all. You’re going to Chicago some day, and do

something with that fine voice of yours. You’re going to be a number

one musician and make us proud of you. Take Mary Anderson, now; even

the tramps are proud of her. There isn’t a tramp along the ‘Q’ system

who hasn’t heard of her. We all like people who do things, even if we

only see their faces on a cigar-box lid.”

They had a long talk. Thea felt that Dr. Archie had never let himself

out to her so much before. It was the most grown-up conversation she

had ever had with him. She left his office happy, flattered and

stimulated. She ran for a long while about the white, moonlit streets,

looking up at the stars and the bluish night, at the quiet houses sunk

in black shade, the glittering sand hills. She loved the familiar

trees, and the people in those little houses, and she loved the unknown

world beyond Denver. She felt as if she were being pulled in two,

between the desire to go away forever and the desire to stay forever.

She had only twenty years—no time to lose.

Many a night that summer she left Dr. Archie’s office with a desire to

run and run about those quiet streets until she wore out her shoes, or

wore out the streets themselves; when her chest ached and it seemed as

if her heart were spreading all over the desert. When she went home, it

was not to go to sleep. She used to drag her mattress beside her low

window and lie awake for a long while, vibrating with excitement, as a

machine vibrates from speed. Life rushed in upon her through that

window—or so it seemed. In reality, of course, life rushes from within,

not from without. There is no work of art so big or so beautiful that

it was not once all contained in some youthful body, like this one

which lay on the floor in the moonlight, pulsing with ardor and

anticipation. It was on such nights that Thea Kronborg learned the

thing that old Dumas meant when he told the Romanticists that to make a

drama he needed but one passion and four walls.

XIX

It is well for its peace of mind that the traveling public takes

railroads so much for granted. The only men who are incurably nervous

about railway travel are the railroad operatives. A railroad man never

forgets that the next run may be his turn.

On a single-track road, like that upon which Ray Kennedy worked, the

freight trains make their way as best they can between passenger

trains. Even when there is such a thing as a freight time-schedule, it

is merely a form. Along the one track dozens of fast and slow trains

dash in both directions, kept from collision only by the brains in the

dispatcher’s office. If one passenger train is late, the whole schedule

must be revised in an instant; the trains following must be warned, and

those moving toward the belated train must be assigned new

meeting-places.

Between the shifts and modifications of the passenger schedule, the

freight trains play a game of their own. They have no right to the

track at any given time, but are supposed to be on it when it is free,

and to make the best time they can between passenger trains. A freight

train, on a single-track road, gets anywhere at all only by stealing

bases.

Ray Kennedy had stuck to the freight service, although he had had

opportunities to go into the passenger service at higher pay. He always

regarded railroading as a temporary makeshift, until he “got into

something,” and he disliked the passenger service. No brass buttons for

him, he said; too much like a livery. While he was railroading he would

wear a jumper, thank you!

The wreck that “caught” Ray was a very commonplace one; nothing

thrilling about it, and it got only six lines in the Denver papers. It

happened about daybreak one morning, only thirty-two miles from home.

At four o’clock in the morning Ray’s train had stopped to take water at

Saxony, having just rounded the long curve which lies south of that

station. It was Joe Giddy’s business to walk back along the curve about

three hundred yards and put out torpedoes to warn any train which might

be coming up from behind—a freight crew is not notified of trains

following, and the brakeman is supposed to protect his train. Ray was

so fussy about the punctilious observance of orders that almost any

brakeman would take a chance once in a while, from natural perversity.

When the train stopped for water that morning, Ray was at the desk in

his caboose, making out his report. Giddy took his torpedoes, swung off

the rear platform, and glanced back at the curve. He decided that he

would not go back to flag this time. If anything was coming up behind,

he could hear it in plenty of time. So he ran forward to look after a

hot journal that had been bothering him. In a general way, Giddy’s

reasoning was sound. If a freight train, or even a passenger train, had

been coming up behind them, he could have heard it in time. But as it

happened, a light engine, which made no noise at all, was

coming,—ordered out to help with the freight that was piling up at the

other end of the division. This engine got no warning, came round the

curve, struck the caboose, went straight through it, and crashed into

the heavy lumber car ahead.

The Kronborgs were just sitting down to breakfast, when the night

telegraph operator dashed into the yard at a run and hammered on the

front door. Gunner answered the knock, and the telegraph operator told

him he wanted to see his father a minute, quick. Mr. Kronborg appeared

at the door, napkin in hand. The operator was pale and panting.

“Fourteen was wrecked down at Saxony this morning,” he shouted, “and

Kennedy’s all broke up. We’re sending an engine down with the doctor,

and the operator at Saxony says Kennedy wants you to come along with us

and bring your girl.” He stopped for breath.

Mr. Kronborg took off his glasses and began rubbing them with his

napkin.

“Bring—I don’t understand,” he muttered. “How did this happen?”

“No time for that, sir. Getting the engine out now. Your girl, Thea.

You’ll surely do that for the poor chap. Everybody knows he thinks the

world of her.” Seeing that Mr. Kronborg showed no indication of having

made up his mind, the operator turned to Gunner. “Call your sister,

kid. I’m going to ask the girl herself,” he blurted out.

“Yes, yes, certainly. Daughter,” Mr. Kronborg called. He had somewhat

recovered himself and reached to the hall hatrack for his hat.

Just as Thea came out on the front porch, before the operator had had

time to explain to her, Dr. Archie’s ponies came up to the gate at a

brisk trot. Archie jumped out the moment his driver stopped the team

and came up to the bewildered girl without so much as saying

good-morning to any one. He took her hand with the sympathetic,

reassuring graveness which had helped her at more than one hard time in

her life. “Get your hat, my girl. Kennedy’s hurt down the road, and he

wants you to run down with me. They’ll have a car for us. Get into my

buggy, Mr. Kronborg. I’ll drive you down, and Larry can come for the

team.”

The driver jumped out of the buggy and Mr. Kronborg and the doctor got

in. Thea, still bewildered, sat on her father’s knee. Dr. Archie gave

his ponies a smart cut with the whip.

When they reached the depot, the engine, with one car attached, was

standing on the main track. The engineer had got his steam up, and was

leaning out of the cab impatiently. In a moment they were off. The run

to Saxony took forty minutes. Thea sat still in her seat while Dr.

Archie and her father talked about the wreck. She took no part in the

conversation and asked no questions, but occasionally she looked at Dr.

Archie with a frightened, inquiring glance, which he answered by an

encouraging nod. Neither he nor her father said anything about how

badly Ray was hurt. When the engine stopped near Saxony, the main track

was already cleared. As they got out of the car, Dr. Archie pointed to

a pile of ties.

“Thea, you’d better sit down here and watch the wreck crew while your

father and I go up and look Kennedy over. I’ll come back for you when I

get him fixed up.”

The two men went off up the sand gulch, and Thea sat down and looked at

the pile of splintered wood and twisted iron that had lately been Ray’s

caboose. She was frightened and absent-minded. She felt that she ought

to be thinking about Ray, but her mind kept racing off to all sorts of

trivial and irrelevant things. She wondered whether Grace Johnson would

be furious when she came to take her music lesson and found nobody

there to give it to her; whether she had forgotten to close the piano

last night and whether Thor would get into the new room and mess the

keys all up with his sticky fingers; whether Tillie would go upstairs

and make her bed for her. Her mind worked fast, but she could fix it

upon nothing. The grasshoppers, the lizards, distracted her attention

and seemed more real to her than poor Ray.

On their way to the sand bank where Ray had been carried, Dr. Archie

and Mr. Kronborg met the Saxony doctor. He shook hands with them.

“Nothing you can do, doctor. I couldn’t count the fractures. His back’s

broken, too. He wouldn’t be alive now if he weren’t so confoundedly

strong, poor chap. No use bothering him. I’ve given him morphia, one

and a half, in eighths.”

Dr. Archie hurried on. Ray was lying on a flat canvas litter, under the

shelter of a shelving bank, lightly shaded by a slender cottonwood

tree. When the doctor and the preacher approached, he looked at them

intently.

“Didn’t—” he closed his eyes to hide his bitter disappointment.

Dr. Archie knew what was the matter. “Thea’s back there, Ray. I’ll

bring her as soon as I’ve had a look at you.”

Ray looked up. “You might clean me up a trifle, doc. Won’t need you for

anything else, thank you all the same.”

However little there was left of him, that little was certainly Ray

Kennedy. His personality was as positive as ever, and the blood and

dirt on his face seemed merely accidental, to have nothing to do with

the man himself. Dr. Archie told Mr. Kronborg to bring a pail of water,

and he began to sponge Ray’s face and neck. Mr. Kronborg stood by,

nervously rubbing his hands together and trying to think of something

to say. Serious situations always embarrassed him and made him formal,

even when he felt real sympathy.

“In times like this, Ray,” he brought out at last, crumpling up his

handkerchief in his long fingers,—“in times like this, we don’t want to

forget the Friend that sticketh closer than a brother.”

Ray looked up at him; a lonely, disconsolate smile played over his

mouth and his square cheeks. “Never mind about all that, _padre_,” he

said quietly. “Christ and me fell out long ago.”

There was a moment of silence. Then Ray took pity on Mr. Kronborg’s

embarrassment. “You go back for the little girl, _padre_. I want a word

with the doc in private.”

Ray talked to Dr. Archie for a few moments, then stopped suddenly, with

a broad smile. Over the doctor’s shoulder he saw Thea coming up the

gulch, in her pink chambray dress, carrying her sun-hat by the strings.

Such a yellow head! He often told himself that he “was perfectly

foolish about her hair.” The sight of her, coming, went through him

softly, like the morphia. “There she is,” he whispered. “Get the old

preacher out of the way, doc. I want to have a little talk with her.”

Dr. Archie looked up. Thea was hurrying and yet hanging back. She was

more frightened than he had thought she would be. She had gone with him

to see very sick people and had always been steady and calm. As she

came up, she looked at the ground, and he could see that she had been

crying.

Ray Kennedy made an unsuccessful effort to put out his hand. “Hello,

little kid, nothing to be afraid of. Darned if I don’t believe they’ve

gone and scared you! Nothing to cry about. I’m the same old goods, only

a little dented. Sit down on my coat there, and keep me company. I’ve

got to lay still a bit.”

Dr. Archie and Mr. Kronborg disappeared. Thea cast a timid glance after

them, but she sat down resolutely and took Ray’s hand.

“You ain’t scared now, are you?” he asked affectionately. “You were a

regular brick to come, Thee. Did you get any breakfast?”

“No, Ray, I’m not scared. Only I’m dreadful sorry you’re hurt, and I

can’t help crying.”

His broad, earnest face, languid from the opium and smiling with such

simple happiness, reassured her. She drew nearer to him and lifted his

hand to her knee. He looked at her with his clear, shallow blue eyes.

How he loved everything about that face and head! How many nights in

his cupola, looking up the track, he had seen that face in the

darkness; through the sleet and snow, or in the soft blue air when the

moonlight slept on the desert.

“You needn’t bother to talk, Thee. The doctor’s medicine makes me sort

of dopey. But it’s nice to have company. Kind of cozy, don’t you think?

Pull my coat under you more. It’s a darned shame I can’t wait on you.”

“No, no, Ray. I’m all right. Yes, I like it here. And I guess you ought

not to talk much, ought you? If you can sleep, I’ll stay right here,

and be awful quiet. I feel just as much at home with you as ever, now.”

That simple, humble, faithful something in Ray’s eyes went straight to

Thea’s heart. She did feel comfortable with him, and happy to give him

so much happiness. It was the first time she had ever been conscious of

that power to bestow intense happiness by simply being near any one.

She always remembered this day as the beginning of that knowledge. She

bent over him and put her lips softly to his cheek.

Ray’s eyes filled with light. “Oh, do that again, kid!” he said

impulsively. Thea kissed him on the forehead, blushing faintly. Ray

held her hand fast and closed his eyes with a deep sigh of happiness.

The morphia and the sense of her nearness filled him with content. The

gold mine, the oil well, the copper ledge—all pipe dreams, he mused,

and this was a dream, too. He might have known it before. It had always

been like that; the things he admired had always been away out of his

reach: a college education, a gentleman’s manner, an Englishman’s

accent—things over his head. And Thea was farther out of his reach than

all the rest put together. He had been a fool to imagine it, but he was

glad he had been a fool. She had given him one grand dream. Every mile

of his run, from Moonstone to Denver, was painted with the colors of

that hope. Every cactus knew about it. But now that it was not to be,

he knew the truth. Thea was never meant for any rough fellow like

him—hadn’t he really known that all along, he asked himself? She wasn’t

meant for common men. She was like wedding cake, a thing to dream on.

He raised his eyelids a little. She was stroking his hand and looking

off into the distance. He felt in her face that look of unconscious

power that Wunsch had seen there. Yes, she was bound for the big

terminals of the world; no way stations for her. His lids drooped. In

the dark he could see her as she would be after a while; in a box at

the Tabor Grand in Denver, with diamonds on her neck and a tiara in her

yellow hair, with all the people looking at her through their

opera-glasses, and a United States Senator, maybe, talking to her.

“Then you’ll remember me!” He opened his eyes, and they were full of

tears.

Thea leaned closer. “What did you say, Ray? I couldn’t hear.”

“Then you’ll remember me,” he whispered.

The spark in his eye, which is one’s very self, caught the spark in

hers that was herself, and for a moment they looked into each other’s

natures. Thea realized how good and how great-hearted he was, and he

realized about her many things. When that elusive spark of personality

retreated in each of them, Thea still saw in his wet eyes her own face,

very small, but much prettier than the cracked glass at home had ever

shown it. It was the first time she had seen her face in that kindest

mirror a woman can ever find.

Ray had felt things in that moment when he seemed to be looking into

the very soul of Thea Kronborg. Yes, the gold mine, the oil well, the

copper ledge, they’d all got away from him, as things will; but he’d

backed a winner once in his life! With all his might he gave his faith

to the broad little hand he held. He wished he could leave her the

rugged strength of his body to help her through with it all. He would

have liked to tell her a little about his old dream,—there seemed long

years between him and it already,—but to tell her now would somehow be

unfair; wouldn’t be quite the straightest thing in the world. Probably

she knew, anyway. He looked up quickly. “You know, don’t you, Thee,

that I think you are just the finest thing I’ve struck in this world?”

The tears ran down Thea’s cheeks. “You’re too good to me, Ray. You’re a

lot too good to me,” she faltered.

“Why, kid,” he murmured, “everybody in this world’s going to be good to

you!”

Dr. Archie came to the gulch and stood over his patient. “How’s it

going?”

“Can’t you give me another punch with your pacifier, doc? The little

girl had better run along now.” Ray released Thea’s hand. “See you

later, Thee.”

She got up and moved away aimlessly, carrying her hat by the strings.

Ray looked after her with the exaltation born of bodily pain and said

between his teeth, “Always look after that girl, doc. She’s a queen!”

Thea and her father went back to Moonstone on the one-o’clock

passenger. Dr. Archie stayed with Ray Kennedy until he died, late in

the afternoon.

XX

On Monday morning, the day after Ray Kennedy’s funeral, Dr. Archie

called at Mr. Kronborg’s study, a little room behind the church. Mr.

Kronborg did not write out his sermons, but spoke from notes jotted

upon small pieces of cardboard in a kind of shorthand of his own. As

sermons go, they were not worse than most. His conventional rhetoric

pleased the majority of his congregation, and Mr. Kronborg was

generally regarded as a model preacher. He did not smoke, he never

touched spirits. His indulgence in the pleasures of the table was an

endearing bond between him and the women of his congregation. He ate

enormously, with a zest which seemed incongruous with his spare frame.

This morning the doctor found him opening his mail and reading a pile

of advertising circulars with deep attention.

“Good-morning, Mr. Kronborg,” said Dr. Archie, sitting down. “I came to

see you on business. Poor Kennedy asked me to look after his affairs

for him. Like most railroad men he spent his wages, except for a few

investments in mines which don’t look to me very promising. But his

life was insured for six hundred dollars in Thea’s favor.”

Mr. Kronborg wound his feet about the standard of his desk-chair. “I

assure you, doctor, this is a complete surprise to me.”

“Well, it’s not very surprising to me,” Dr. Archie went on. “He talked

to me about it the day he was hurt. He said he wanted the money to be

used in a particular way, and in no other.” Dr. Archie paused

meaningly.

Mr. Kronborg fidgeted. “I am sure Thea would observe his wishes in

every respect.”

“No doubt; but he wanted me to see that you agreed to his plan. It

seems that for some time Thea has wanted to go away to study music. It

was Kennedy’s wish that she should take this money and go to Chicago

this winter. He felt that it would be an advantage to her in a business

way: that even if she came back here to teach, it would give her more

authority and make her position here more comfortable.”

Mr. Kronborg looked a little startled. “She is very young,” he

hesitated; “she is barely seventeen. Chicago is a long way from home.

We would have to consider. I think, Dr. Archie, we had better consult

Mrs. Kronborg.”

“I think I can bring Mrs. Kronborg around, if I have your consent. I’ve

always found her pretty level-headed. I have several old classmates

practicing in Chicago. One is a throat specialist. He has a good deal

to do with singers. He probably knows the best piano teachers and could

recommend a boarding-house where music students stay. I think Thea

needs to get among a lot of young people who are clever like herself.

Here she has no companions but old fellows like me. It’s not a natural

life for a young girl. She’ll either get warped, or wither up before

her time. If it will make you and Mrs. Kronborg feel any easier, I’ll

be glad to take Thea to Chicago and see that she gets started right.

This throat man I speak of is a big fellow in his line, and if I can

get him interested, he may be able to put her in the way of a good many

things. At any rate, he’ll know the right teachers. Of course, six

hundred dollars won’t take her very far, but even half the winter there

would be a great advantage. I think Kennedy sized the situation up

exactly.”

“Perhaps; I don’t doubt it. You are very kind, Dr. Archie.” Mr.

Kronborg was ornamenting his desk-blotter with hieroglyphics. “I should

think Denver might be better. There we could watch over her. She is

very young.”

Dr. Archie rose. “Kennedy didn’t mention Denver. He said Chicago,

repeatedly. Under the circumstances, it seems to me we ought to try to

carry out his wishes exactly, if Thea is willing.”

“Certainly, certainly. Thea is conscientious. She would not waste her

opportunities.” Mr. Kronborg paused. “If Thea were your own daughter,

doctor, would you consent to such a plan, at her present age?”

“I most certainly should. In fact, if she were my daughter, I’d have

sent her away before this. She’s a most unusual child, and she’s only

wasting herself here. At her age she ought to be learning, not

teaching. She’ll never learn so quickly and easily as she will right

now.”

“Well, doctor, you had better talk it over with Mrs. Kronborg. I make

it a point to defer to her wishes in such matters. She understands all

her children perfectly. I may say that she has all a mother’s insight,

and more.”

Dr. Archie smiled. “Yes, and then some. I feel quite confident about

Mrs. Kronborg. We usually agree. Good-morning.”

Dr. Archie stepped out into the hot sunshine and walked rapidly toward

his office, with a determined look on his face. He found his

waiting-room full of patients, and it was one o’clock before he had

dismissed the last one. Then he shut his door and took a drink before

going over to the hotel for his lunch. He smiled as he locked his

cupboard. “I feel almost as gay as if I were going to get away for a

winter myself,” he thought.

Afterward Thea could never remember much about that summer, or how she

lived through her impatience. She was to set off with Dr. Archie on the

fifteenth of October, and she gave lessons until the first of

September. Then she began to get her clothes ready, and spent whole

afternoons in the village dressmaker’s stuffy, littered little

sewing-room. Thea and her mother made a trip to Denver to buy the

materials for her dresses. Ready-made clothes for girls were not to be

had in those days. Miss Spencer, the dressmaker, declared that she

could do handsomely by Thea if they would only let her carry out her

own ideas. But Mrs. Kronborg and Thea felt that Miss Spencer’s most

daring productions might seem out of place in Chicago, so they

restrained her with a firm hand. Tillie, who always helped Mrs.

Kronborg with the family sewing, was for letting Miss Spencer challenge

Chicago on Thea’s person. Since Ray Kennedy’s death, Thea had become

more than ever one of Tillie’s heroines. Tillie swore each of her

friends to secrecy, and, coming home from church or leaning over the

fence, told them the most touching stories about Ray’s devotion, and

how Thea would “never get over it.”

Tillie’s confidences stimulated the general discussion of Thea’s

venture. This discussion went on, upon front porches and in back yards,

pretty much all summer. Some people approved of Thea’s going to

Chicago, but most people did not. There were others who changed their

minds about it every day.

Tillie said she wanted Thea to have a ball dress “above all things.”

She bought a fashion book especially devoted to evening clothes and

looked hungrily over the colored plates, picking out costumes that

would be becoming to “a blonde.” She wanted Thea to have all the gay

clothes she herself had always longed for; clothes she often told

herself she needed “to recite in.”

“Tillie,” Thea used to cry impatiently, “can’t you see that if Miss

Spencer tried to make one of those things, she’d make me look like a

circus girl? Anyhow, I don’t know anybody in Chicago. I won’t be going

to parties.”

Tillie always replied with a knowing toss of her head, “You see! You’ll

be in society before you know it. There ain’t many girls as

accomplished as you.”

On the morning of the fifteenth of October the Kronborg family, all of

them but Gus, who couldn’t leave the store, started for the station an

hour before train time. Charley had taken Thea’s trunk and telescope to

the depot in his delivery wagon early that morning. Thea wore her new

blue serge traveling-dress, chosen for its serviceable qualities. She

had done her hair up carefully, and had put a pale-blue ribbon around

her throat, under a little lace collar that Mrs. Kohler had crocheted

for her. As they went out of the gate, Mrs. Kronborg looked her over

thoughtfully. Yes, that blue ribbon went very well with the dress, and

with Thea’s eyes. Thea had a rather unusual touch about such things,

she reflected comfortably. Tillie always said that Thea was “so

indifferent to dress,” but her mother noticed that she usually put her

clothes on well. She felt the more at ease about letting Thea go away

from home, because she had good sense about her clothes and never tried

to dress up too much. Her coloring was so individual, she was so

unusually fair, that in the wrong clothes she might easily have been

“conspicuous.”

It was a fine morning, and the family set out from the house in good

spirits. Thea was quiet and calm. She had forgotten nothing, and she

clung tightly to her handbag, which held her trunk-key and all of her

money that was not in an envelope pinned to her chemise. Thea walked

behind the others, holding Thor by the hand, and this time she did not

feel that the procession was too long. Thor was uncommunicative that

morning, and would only talk about how he would rather get a sand bur

in his toe every day than wear shoes and stockings. As they passed the

cottonwood grove where Thea often used to bring him in his cart, she

asked him who would take him for nice long walks after sister went

away.

“Oh, I can walk in our yard,” he replied unappreciatively. “I guess I

can make a pond for my duck.”

Thea leaned down and looked into his face. “But you won’t forget about

sister, will you?” Thor shook his head. “And won’t you be glad when

sister comes back and can take you over to Mrs. Kohler’s to see the

pigeons?”

“Yes, I’ll be glad. But I’m going to have a pigeon my own self.”

“But you haven’t got any little house for one. Maybe Axel would make

you a little house.”

“Oh, her can live in the barn, her can,” Thor drawled indifferently.

Thea laughed and squeezed his hand. She always liked his sturdy

matter-of-factness. Boys ought to be like that, she thought.

When they reached the depot, Mr. Kronborg paced the platform somewhat

ceremoniously with his daughter. Any member of his flock would have

gathered that he was giving her good counsel about meeting the

temptations of the world. He did, indeed, begin to admonish her not to

forget that talents come from our Heavenly Father and are to be used

for his glory, but he cut his remarks short and looked at his watch. He

believed that Thea was a religious girl, but when she looked at him

with that intent, that passionately inquiring gaze which used to move

even Wunsch, Mr. Kronborg suddenly felt his eloquence fail. Thea was

like her mother, he reflected; you couldn’t put much sentiment across

with her. As a usual thing, he liked girls to be a little more

responsive. He liked them to blush at his compliments; as Mrs. Kronborg

candidly said, “Father could be very soft with the girls.” But this

morning he was thinking that hard-headedness was a reassuring quality

in a daughter who was going to Chicago alone.

Mr. Kronborg believed that big cities were places where people went to

lose their identity and to be wicked. He himself, when he was a student

at the Seminary—he coughed and opened his watch again. He knew, of

course, that a great deal of business went on in Chicago, that there

was an active Board of Trade, and that hogs and cattle were slaughtered

there. But when, as a young man, he had stopped over in Chicago, he had

not interested himself in the commercial activities of the city. He

remembered it as a place full of cheap shows and dance halls and boys

from the country who were behaving disgustingly.

Dr. Archie drove up to the station about ten minutes before the train

was due. His man tied the ponies and stood holding the doctor’s

alligator-skin bag—very elegant, Thea thought it. Mrs. Kronborg did not

burden the doctor with warnings and cautions. She said again that she

hoped he could get Thea a comfortable place to stay, where they had

good beds, and she hoped the landlady would be a woman who’d had

children of her own. “I don’t go much on old maids looking after

girls,” she remarked as she took a pin out of her own hat and thrust it

into Thea’s blue turban. “You’ll be sure to lose your hatpins on the

train, Thea. It’s better to have an extra one in case.” She tucked in a

little curl that had escaped from Thea’s careful twist. “Don’t forget

to brush your dress often, and pin it up to the curtains of your berth

to-night, so it won’t wrinkle. If you get it wet, have a tailor press

it before it draws.”

She turned Thea about by the shoulders and looked her over a last time.

Yes, she looked very well. She wasn’t pretty, exactly,—her face was too

broad and her nose was too big. But she had that lovely skin, and she

looked fresh and sweet. She had always been a sweet-smelling child. Her

mother had always liked to kiss her, when she happened to think of it.

The train whistled in, and Mr. Kronborg carried the canvas “telescope”

into the car. Thea kissed them all good-bye. Tillie cried, but she was

the only one who did. They all shouted things up at the closed window

of the Pullman car, from which Thea looked down at them as from a

frame, her face glowing with excitement, her turban a little tilted in

spite of three hatpins. She had already taken off her new gloves to

save them. Mrs. Kronborg reflected that she would never see just that

same picture again, and as Thea’s car slid off along the rails, she

wiped a tear from her eye. “She won’t come back a little girl,” Mrs.

Kronborg said to her husband as they turned to go home. “Anyhow, she’s

been a sweet one.”

While the Kronborg family were trooping slowly homeward, Thea was

sitting in the Pullman, her telescope in the seat beside her, her

handbag tightly gripped in her fingers. Dr. Archie had gone into the

smoker. He thought she might be a little tearful, and that it would be

kinder to leave her alone for a while. Her eyes did fill once, when she

saw the last of the sand hills and realized that she was going to leave

them behind for a long while. They always made her think of Ray, too.

She had had such good times with him out there.

But, of course, it was herself and her own adventure that mattered to

her. If youth did not matter so much to itself, it would never have the

heart to go on. Thea was surprised that she did not feel a deeper sense

of loss at leaving her old life behind her. It seemed, on the contrary,

as she looked out at the yellow desert speeding by, that she had left

very little. Everything that was essential seemed to be right there in

the car with her. She lacked nothing. She even felt more compact and

confident than usual. She was all there, and something else was there,

too,—in her heart, was it, or under her cheek? Anyhow, it was about her

somewhere, that warm sureness, that sturdy little companion with whom

she shared a secret.

When Dr. Archie came in from the smoker, she was sitting still, looking

intently out of the window and smiling, her lips a little parted, her

hair in a blaze of sunshine. The doctor thought she was the prettiest

thing he had ever seen, and very funny, with her telescope and big

handbag. She made him feel jolly, and a little mournful, too. He knew

that the splendid things of life are few, after all, and so very easy

to miss.