REMINISCENCES.
"What is the matter with Dorothy?" asked Henry Martin of his wife. "A
great change has come over her lately. She looks pale, has grown very
thin, and speaks in a subdued voice, as if oppressed by some great
sorrow."
"I think, Henry, it has some reference to her lover. Mrs. Barford hinted
as much to me the other day as we walked together from church. Don't
speak of it to her. She will tell you all about it in her own time."
"He was a fine, well-grown young man," remarked the curate, "but very
inferior to her in worth or intellect. I have often wondered that
Dorothy could fancy him. But this trial is doubtless sent for her good,
as all such trials are. For her sake, I am not sorry that he has cast
her off."
"It may be for the best, Henry, but such a disappointment is very hard
to bear, and though she never alludes to it, I know she feels keenly his
desertion."
"It is singular," mused the curate, and speaking as if to himself, "the
deep interest that Lord Wilton takes in this girl. Do you know, Rosina,"
turning to his wife, "I sometimes think that his regard for her is
stronger than that of a mere friend."
"Why, Henry, you don't mean to insinuate that he wishes to make her his
wife. He is old enough to be her father."
"And what if he be her father," continued Martin, in his abstracted way.
"To his sin be it spoken. Sit down, Rosina, and take up your sewing. I
want to have a serious talk with you about this matter.
"I met Lord Wilton the other day riding in the vicinity of Heath Farm.
He drew up beside me, and asked how Dorothy was coming on with her
lessons. I spoke of her highly as she deserves.
"He seemed strangely agitated. 'Martin,' he said, grasping my shoulder,
as he leant towards me from the saddle, 'you can do me no greater favour
than by making that sweet girl a good Christian. I wish you to educate
her thoroughly, both for earth and heaven, God bless her! I would give
all I possess to see her happy.'
"He put spurs to his horse, and rode off at a reckless pace, like one
who wished to get rid of painful recollections. I thought--but I may
wrong him--that some connection existed between him and Dorothy, of
which the world was ignorant, which would account for the deep
melancholy that always clouds his face. Lord Wilton is a kind man, a
benevolent man, but some hidden sin is wasting his frame, and robbing
him of peace."
"Has Dorothy any idea of this?"
"None, I am certain, and mark me, Rosina. This is a mere fancy of my
own. You must not mention what I have said to her."
"Certainly not."
The good man walked to the window, and looked abstractedly across his
small garden plot for a few minutes, then returned as suddenly to his
seat.
"Rosina," he said, looking with a half smile at his gentle partner,
"these suspicions with regard to Dorothy, brought back to my memory a
strange story. You will not be jealous, my dear wife, if I relate to you
a tale of boyish love and its disappointments. It happened many years
before I saw or had learned to love you."
"Henry, that is a sad cut to my vanity," returned his wife, laughing, "I
always had flattered myself that I was your first love. However, I
promise to give you a fair hearing, and will not be affronted, until I
know the end of your story. But what connection it can have with Dorothy
Chance puzzles me."
"There may be none. It is only mere conjecture, as I said before. Of the
probabilities I will leave you to judge.
"My father was curate of the neighbouring sea-port town during the few
years of his married life. He conducted the morning and evening service,
in that large beautiful old church that stands on the edge of the cliff,
and had to walk over to Hadstone in the afternoon, through all weathers,
to preach in our little church here. It was hard work, and very poor
pay, his salary amounting, like mine, to eighty pounds a-year."
"How did you contrive to live, Henry?"
"Not very luxuriously. Sprats and herrings were plentiful, however; my
mother was an excellent manager, the neighbours were kind, and I was an
only child; my parents worthy, pious people, and I a happy, hopeful boy.
"We lived in a little cottage near the sea, just before you turn into
the main street. The first house in that street, and the one nearest to
us, was occupied by a Mrs. Knight.
"She was an old woman, and must have numbered her threescore and ten
years, when we came to Storby. She kept a small shop, confined entirely
to the sale of French kid gloves, French laces, silks, shoes, and such
articles of women's wear.
"It was always suspected that these were smuggled goods, but Mrs. Knight
was patronized by all the ladies in the place, and most likely, bribed
the excise officer, a drunken, worthless fellow, to keep her secret.
"This woman, had been the wife of a trading captain, who sailed between
that port and London, and old people who knew her in her young days,
described her as having been a very handsome woman; but a darker, more
repulsive-looking being I never saw. She had a terrible temper, and was
morose and miserly in the extreme. I had read in the Bible of the witch
of Endor, and I always fancied that she must have resembled Mrs. Knight.
She seldom spoke to me, but when she did I felt a tremor creep through
my limbs.
"She carried on a flourishing trade during her husband's life. His ship
was lost in a heavy gale on the coast, and she was left a widow with one
son.
"This happened long before my time.
"Mrs. Knight's great ambition was to make a fortune, and bring up her
son John a gentleman. In both these projects she was disappointed.
"John Knight was born with marine propensities, and insisted on going to
sea.
"After many desperate battles with the lad, of whom, however it appears,
she was passionately fond, for he was eminently handsome, she gave a
reluctant consent, and he went as junior mate in an East Indiaman.
"A voyage to the East Indies and back, in those days, could not be
accomplished in less than eighteen months; and during those long
intervals, Mrs. Knight toiled on at her illicit trade, to make money for
this beloved son.
"While he was absent, an only sister died, a widow in poor
circumstances, who on her death-bed sent for Mrs. Knight and implored
her to take under her protection her daughter, a young girl of sixteen,
as she had no friends by the father's side, who could or would do so.
"After some demur on the part of Mrs. Knight, she gave the required
assent, and the poor woman died in peace, and Maria returned with her
aunt to Storby.
"The girl was very pretty, brisk, clean and handy; could read and write,
and was a good accountant; and the aunt began to think that her advent
was quite a godsend in the little shop. Maria was an especial favourite
with the customers, and was so obliging and useful that even the cross
aunt often spoke of her as quite a treasure.
"All things went on smoothly until John Knight returned from sea; and,
finding a cousin in the house of whom he had never before heard, and
that cousin a pretty winning creature, he naturally fell desperately in
love with her, and wished to establish a closer relationship between
them.
"Seeing that the girl was on good terms with his mother, and that their
own position might be considered in the lower walks of life, John lost
no opportunity to make himself agreeable to Maria, till the young folks
were over head and ears in love.
"Some neighbours, who thought that the match had been agreeable to all
parties, complimented Mrs. Knight on her son's approaching marriage with
her niece.
"Then the clouds gathered, and the storm burst upon the luckless pair.
Mrs. Knight raged, John swore, and Maria cried. The rebellious son
declared that he would marry the girl he loved, in spite of all the
mothers in England; that if she refused her consent, and persuaded Maria
to yield obedience to her unreasonable demands, he would leave England
for ever, and never let her hear from him again.
"This threat did frighten the cold, hard woman. There was only one thing
she loved in the world, and that was her son. For him she toiled and
took no rest, saving and accumulating to make him rich, and now he was
going to frustrate all her plans for his advancement by marrying a girl
who was a beggar depending upon her bounty. What was to be done? She
saw that he was determined to have his own way, that violent opposition
to his wishes would only make him obstinate, that she must use some
other means to circumvent his wishes.
"She accordingly let the subject drop, forbidding either of them to
mention a word of it to her again; and John went off to visit a shipmate
who resided in the country, hoping to find his mother in a better temper
when he returned.
"He was to be absent a month, and Mrs. Knight took this opportunity of
informing Maria that her services were no longer required, and if she
did not leave the town immediately and seek service elsewhere, it would
be the worse for her. That she had acted most ungratefully in daring to
inveigle the affections of her son; and that she would never forgive her
to her dying day.
"The girl wept and entreated, said that she knew no one in the town, who
would take her in; that she had no money, and on her knees promised her
aunt, that she would never marry John without her consent, if she would
only for this once forgive an offence which was quite involuntary on her
part.
"John was so handsome, and had been so kind to her, that
she had fallen in love with him without knowing it. Her aunt had not
warned her that she was not to look at him or speak to him, or she would
have been more circumspect.
"Mrs. Knight was deaf to reason and nature. She had been a young woman
herself, and might have been in love, but it seems she had forgotten all
about it, and, after venting upon her niece all the pent up wrath she
was afraid of bestowing upon her son, she turned the poor girl into the
streets.
"Fortunately for Maria, she had received a very tender note that morning
from John, by the hands of a sailor who was returning to his friends at
Storby, and the man informed her of the place where her lover was to be
found; for he had left the house in a rage without telling his mother or
Maria the name of the parties with whom he was going to stay.
"The town was a sea-port thirty miles distant, and she walked the whole
way without a penny in her purse, or a morsel to eat. When she got to
the house where young Knight was staying, she sat down on the door-step,
overcome with shame and fatigue, and began to cry. John, returning from
a frolic with a set of jolly tars, found his mistress sitting alone in
the street, half dead with cold and fright. The next morning he got a
license, and went to church with her and married her, in the face of the
whole congregation, for it was Sunday.
"A week after, Mrs. Knight was standing at the door of her shop, not
very well satisfied with the turn things had taken, and wondering what
had become of Maria, whom she missed more and more every day from
behind the counter, when a chaise drove up to the door, and John Knight
led his bride up to his mother, and introduced her as his wife, with an
air of genuine triumph.
"'You don't dare to tell me, John, that you have married Maria?'
"'She is my wife, mother, I insist upon your receiving her as your
daughter.'
"'You can't force me to do that, John. She shall never set her foot in
my house again.' Mrs. Knight scowled defiantly at the young married
pair.
"John answered, with great good humour, 'Nonsense, mother, listen to
reason. Your being angry cannot undo the knot the parson has tied. Death
only can do that. We are one. If you turn out Maria, you turn out me.
You ought to be obliged to me for bringing home your niece safe and in
her right mind. You turned her into the streets, without a penny in her
pocket to buy a morsel of bread, or to pay for the shelter of a roof,
the orphan child of your sister. She might have been ruined. God ordered
it otherwise--be thankful that he has saved you from a greater sin. And
now kiss and be friends, or you and I, mother, part upon this threshold
to meet no more on earth.'
"The threat of losing him--her idol, was enough to terrify Mrs. Knight
into submission. She promised to forget the past, and to be kind to her
daughter-in-law, if her son would only consent to remain at home. The
women kissed one another.
"Oh, women, women! How often, Judas-like, you betray your best friends
with a kiss. As long as John remained at home, things went on smoothly
enough. Maria was very attentive to Mrs. Knight, and as she did not
scold her, she was content to put up with her sullen humour for her
husband's sake.
"This hollow peace between the mother and daughter did not last long.
The three first months of matrimonial life glided away only too
quickly. John Knight received orders to join his ship, which had taken
in her cargo, and was expected to sail in a few days.
"Sad news it was to the two young creatures, who were all the world to
each other. The parting was like death to them. Mrs. Knight alone was
tranquil, and received the intelligence with an air of indifference. She
arranged everything for John's departure, and left the husband and wife
to spend the last hours of their union in undisturbed sorrow.
"A long perilous voyage was before John Knight. He felt not a little
down-hearted at leaving Maria with his mother. He did not exactly like
the ominous peace she had maintained with her daughter-in-law. It was
not natural--not, at least, to her, who was wont to let her wrath find a
voice, and speak in terrible tones on all occasions; and but for Maria's
advice to the contrary, he would have hired a lodging for her at a
distant part of the town. She was likely, too, to become a mother. He
was doubtful how Mrs. Knight would receive the expected stranger. He
knew that she hated the noise of children, and he feared that Maria
would have a poor time of it during his long absence.
"The young wife had none of these apprehensions. She was quite willing
to believe that the old woman's anger towards her had died a natural
death, and that she, Maria, was indispensable to the comfort of the
mistress of the house, and her presence necessary for the well-doing of
the shop.
"John was at length persuaded that all was right, but he yielded the
point very reluctantly.
"Before leaving the house, he solemnly confided his young wife to the
care of his mother, and begged her to treat her as a daughter for his
sake.
"The old woman promised nothing, but seemed hurt that he should
consider it necessary to urge upon her so earnestly such a request.
"'Did he expect,' she said, angrily, 'that she was going to murder the
girl the moment that he was out of sight?'
"John's ship had not sailed many days before the hatred Mrs. Knight had
so long concealed came into active operation, and she commenced a series
of aggressions against her daughter-in-law, that rendered her life
miserable, and slowly and surely undermined her constitution.
"She had to endure vehement reproaches, and all the scornful contempt
that a strong, harsh nature can bring to play upon a timid, sensitive
mind, that cannot fail to be weakened and borne down in the unequal
struggle.
"Maria did not, however, yield. She bore the attacks of her vindictive
enemy with wonderful courage, offering a firm and silent resistance to
her imperious demands, while she accorded a willing obedience to
whatever was not cruel and unreasonable, leaving the old woman no
grounds of complaint, and often turning her malicious attacks upon
herself by pretending not to see them.
"She had a double motive for acting entirely upon the defensive, the
welfare of her husband, for she knew that her aunt was rich, and that of
her child, whose advent she looked forward to as a recompense for all
her troubles.
"This longed-for, but dreaded event, at last arrived, and Maria became
the mother of a female child, to the increased dissatisfaction of Mrs.
Knight, who said,
"'That even in this matter Mrs. John was determined to spite her, by
having a girl. She knew how she hated girls.'
"Maria was too much engrossed with her new treasure to heed these
ungracious complaints. It was a beautiful healthy infant, and she had
come through the trial so well, that she had every reason to be
thankful.
"The old woman, for a wonder, was kinder to her than she expected, and
spared no expense in providing her with good and nourishing diet, and
the attendance of an excellent nurse, though she still grumbled at the
sex of the child.
"About ten days after young Mrs. Knight's confinement, she was found one
morning dead in her bed. The nurse said that she was quite well when she
went to bed, had eaten a bowl of gruel, and laughed and chatted with her
about the baby, kissing it frequently, and declaring that it was the
picture of John.
"The nurse scolded her for talking so much, took the baby from her, and
bade her go to sleep. She slept in the same bed with her mistress, and
took charge of the child, that its mother might not be troubled with it
during the night.
"Early in the morning, when the nurse awoke, she spoke to young Mrs.
Knight, and told her that the babe wanted her; receiving no answer, she
grew uneasy, and sitting up in the bed, discovered that the poor girl
was dead.
"The alarm was instantly given; the neighbours poured in; two doctors
rushed to the rescue; old Mrs. Knight wept and wrung her hands, while
the women filled the house with shrieks and lamentations.
"No suspicion was aroused by the appearance of the dead. The corpse
presented the happy, tranquil aspect of one who had died in sleep, while
under the influence of some pleasing dream. It was not the age for
chemical investigations. No one suspected any foul play, and no evidence
was sought for to prove that such had been the case. Maria Knight was
consigned to her early grave without any question being raised of her
right to be there. She had died, the coroner said, "by the visitation of
God," and the sympathizing neighbours, and the pitiful women were
contented.
"Mrs. Knight had a wet nurse for the child, and gave the dead mother a
very handsome funeral; though no one ever heard her express the least
regret for her untimely death.
"'As for the child,' she said, 'if it had been a boy, and like John, she
could have loved it. It was the image of its mother, she wished it had
died with her, for she never liked her; and it was hardly to be expected
that she should feel any great affection for her child.' She named the
child Alice, after her sister. She had had enough of the name of Maria,
and did not wish to have it recalled to her memory.
"People marvelled at the hard, cold heart, that could transmit hatred to
the second generation; but they all had experienced the uncongenial
nature of Mrs. Knight, and merely shrugged their shoulders, and said,
'It was just like her; what would John Knight say, when he came home.'
"But John Knight never came home. Never heard of the death of his young
wife, or the birth of his child. His ship was lost at sea, and all hands
perished.
"The arrow launched by the hand of Heaven went home to the cruel
mother's heart; for months she raved over the loss of her son, and only
recovered her reason to become more cruel and grasping than ever. Her
idol of flesh had perished. She now set up one of gold, and all that
remained of human softness in her nature, became as hard as the metal
which composed her new divinity.
"She took very little notice of the orphan babe. She had tolerated it
while her son lived; but he was gone, and the hated mother alone
survived in the child. She never caressed it, seldom spoke to it, or of
it, and always treated it with the most marked neglect.
"The extreme beauty of the little girl deeply interested the sympathies
of my dear mother, who was one of the kindest women on earth; her large
maternal heart, yearning over everything in the shape of a child,
especially if that child was ill-used and an orphan.
"She often sent me to Mrs. Knight, to invite Alice to spend the day with
her; that the children might have a good romp in the garden together.
"I was just four years older than Alice, but very small for my age. She
was a healthy, well-grown child, there did not look more than the
difference of a year in our respective ages. I had neither sister nor
brother, and these visits from our little neighbour were hailed by me
with intense pleasure.
"What a sweet child she was, with such a pair of clear, laughing blue
eyes, such a happy, dimpled, innocent little face, yet brimful of mirth
and mischief, and then, such wealth of golden brown hair, falling all
round her rosy cheeks in showers of shining curls. She was my darling,
my precious pet, and she would answer to no other names. I fell in love
with her as a boy, and for years I only felt alive and happy in her
presence.
"Hand in hand we roamed the beach to look for shells and bright stones,
or wandered about the green common at the back of the town, among the
gay furze bushes, hunting for the first violets.
"Mrs. Knight stood somewhat in awe of my father. Violence loves to
contend with violence; it can only be subdued by gentleness and
patience. My father's amiable qualities opposed to her fierce anger,
were arrows in the hand of the giant, silently and surely they
demolished the bulwarks of pride and hatred behind which she sought to
entrench herself.
"She was civil to my mother, and though I shrank from the stern, sharp,
scowling face, she sometimes condescended to pat my head, and call me a
pretty boy.
"I had once seen her beat Alice very severely, for having mislaid her
bonnet; and I never saw Mrs. Knight without longing to beat her after
that.
"Cross as she was to other people, she never hindered our happy
meetings, and I ought to have felt grateful for that favour.
"My father grew so fond of the beautiful child, that he offered to teach
her gratis. Mrs. Knight was too proud to accept this at his hands; but
she sent the child to school with us, and paid liberally for her
education.
"We now sat upon the same form, learned from the same books, shared in
the same amusements, and had but one heart between us.
"Childhood lives in the present, it remembers little of the past, and
the future stretches before it like a summer sea, bounded by the heavens
and bright with sunbeams. The morrow will be fair as to-day, it never
anticipates a storm, or thinks of the possibility of change. Alice and I
were always to live together, the idea of separation found no place in
our thoughts.
"Time rolled on, I had just completed my fifteenth year, when it pleased
God to remove my dear father--a blow so sudden, so unexpected, that for
a long time my poor mother and I were plunged into the deepest sorrow.
"He was a good man. I loved him without fear, entertaining for him the
most profound respect and veneration; and feeling the fullest confidence
in his attachment to me.
"This was my first grief, and if Alice had not been always near me to
wipe away my tears, and inspire fresh hope into my fainting heart, I
hardly think I should have survived the shock, and, for some months
after the occurrence of the sad event, was threatened with consumption.
"My mother struggled bravely with her sorrow, for my sake. Our means
always limited, became doubly so now. It was perhaps a mercy that we
were called upon to work; not allowed to sit idle, and waste the
precious time in unavailing regrets. Action is the best antidote for
grief, occupation deadens suffering by forcibly detaching the mind to
pursue other objects, which gives birth to new hopes as a necessary
consequence.
"My mother opened a school for young ladies, and worked hard at her new
vocation.
"An uncle, who was in a large wholesale business in London, exerted his
influence to get me into Christ Church School, and was successful.
"Then came the parting with my mother, and dare I say it, worse still,
my separation from Alice.
"It was a heart-breaking affair on all sides. I pitied my mother most,
for she loved as keenly and had less of our sympathy, which as love is
generally selfish, was almost entirely centred in our own sorrow.
"Boy as I was, I felt a sad presentiment that Alice and I were never
destined to be so happy again, but the actual parting, so full of
anguish to us, was not without its gleams of joy.
"It was the first of May, but we had not given that circumstance a
thought, though its return in other years had always been hailed with
delight. The day was fair and beautiful; the grass emerald green, and
starred with myriads of daisies; the hedge-rows white with fragrant
blossoms; the birds, happy lovers, singing glad carols from every bush
and spray, the air soft, the heavens full of light fleecy clouds,
floating in a sky of pearly blue.
"We sat down among the tufts of golden broom, upon a green slope at the
far side of the common, where the high land that bounded the coast,
gradually descended till it was lost in the long line of level marshes,
through which the slow river dragged its sluggish length to the sea.
"It was a lonely spot; only frequented by the herds that fed upon the
common; we had little dread of interruption. The public road was more
than a mile distant; and it was a rare occurrence for anyone to pass
that way. Here, no prying curious eyes could look upon our grief; we
might indulge in the luxury of woe to the uttermost, without fearing a
reproof for excess.
"Holding each other by the hand, we wept and bemoaned our sad fate,
until we had no tears left to shed. Then we looked mournfully into each
other's eyes, without uttering a word, entranced and full of speechless
affection. In this eloquent silence, the long hours rolled on, all too
short for us, until the church clock tolled six.
"I was to leave by the coach for London at seven. The sound, as it
boomed along the hollow cliffs, startled us. Our dream of love was over.
The terrible reality of the parting stared us in the face.
"'Henry, we must go home.' sobbed Alice. 'You have still to bid your
mother good-bye. She will be waiting for us.'
"These were the first words we had spoken, to each other.
"I wanted to tell Alice all the love I felt for her, though I was
certain that she was as well acquainted with the fact as I was myself;
and of her affection for me I entertained not a doubt, but I wanted to
hear her promise to love me and only me, for ever and ever, and to
return the blessed assurance given to me, with interest, but my tongue
was tied. I could not put my thoughts into language, the very intensity
of my passion rendered me dumb.
"We walked home silently together; my mother met us at the door. She too
had been weeping, for her eyes were red and heavy.
"The tea was waiting for us on the table, but how could we eat? My
mother did not press us, neither did she chide our long absence. She
looked at us kindly through her tears.
"'Poor things!' I heard her murmur to herself. 'It is their first
grief.'
"At any rate, we had her warm sympathy.
"She had packed my trunks during our absence, and they were in the
passage ready corded for the coach; before we were aware of it, the
stage rattled up to the door, there was no time left for love pledging
now, or heart-breaking farewells.
"One long, fond embrace from that dear mother. One kiss, the last I ever
received from my child-love, and we parted, I to embark upon the stormy
ocean of life, and Alice to return a sad and lonely creature to her
miserable home, and the tender mercies of her harsh grandmother.
"A few weeks after I left S----, one of those strange incidents, which
sometimes occur in life, separated us more effectually.
"The Lady Dorothy Fitzmorris, the mother of the present Earl, was then
living at the Hall. Her eldest son--for Lord Wilton was not the
heir--commanded a regiment in America during the War of Independence.
His brother Edward served as captain under him. Both were fine promising
young men, they were her only children.
"Her husband, Sir Thomas Fitzmorris, had been dead for some years. The
title of Wilton did not belong to the Fitzmorris family, but came
through her ladyship's father.
"Sir Thomas had a younger brother, Gerald, who was a distinguished
officer in the army. I was for several years tutor to his sons. His wife
ran off with a General Dallas. A duel ensued. Gerald Fitzmorris was shot
by the man who had dishonoured him; and his wife followed her paramour
to India. This brief story of the family is necessary for the better
understanding of my story. How often have I wished that I had never
known one of the name."
"Don't say that, Henry. It sounds like ingratitude when the Earl has
been so kind to us," said Mrs. Martin.
The curate answered with a sigh, and continued his narrative.
"Well, the Lady Dorothy was an excellent woman, greatly beloved in the
parish, for she was very kind to the poor, and was ready to help any one
that stood in need of her assistance. She was a very beautiful woman.
When you see Dorothy Chance, you have a striking likeness of her
ladyship; but without the dignity and nameless grace which generally
belongs to the high born lady.
"Lady Dorothy happened one day to be in Mrs. Knight's shop, and Alice
was behind the counter. Struck with the wonderful beauty of the young
girl, she inquired of Mrs. Knight who she was, and when told that it was
her grandchild, she complimented the old lady on her possessing such a
treasure.
"'Treasure,' quoth Mrs. Knight, with a scornful glance at the object
of the great lady's admiration. 'I set small store by such a treasure.
She has been a source of trouble and sorrow to me since the hour she
was born. I should only be too glad to give her to any one who thought
such a treasure worth having.'
"'Will you give her to me?' said my lady, as she observed the eyes of
the lovely girl running over with tears. 'I want a person of her age, to
attend upon me. I will pay her well, and have her educated according to
her station.'
"'Your ladyship may take her, if you have a fancy for her. She will be
prouder of being your servant than she is of being my child.'
"So my sweet little Alice was transplanted like a lovely wild flower
into the Hall garden, and was soon lost to her early friends.
"My mother wrote me all about her favourite's good fortune; but the news
gave me little pleasure. From that hour I had a presentiment of that
which in after years actually came to pass.
"My uncle was in a good business in London, and he always invited me to
spend my vacations with him. He had too large a family of his own, to
help me in any other way; but he always contrived that my dear mother
should meet me at his house during the holidays, and share with me his
liberal hospitality.
"After my term of scholarship expired, I was entered as a servitor at
Cambridge, and studied hard to obtain my degree, and get into holy
orders.
"My mother was growing old, and her health was failing. I was anxious to
give her a home, and release her from the fatiguing life in which she
was engaged.
"Seven years had passed away since Alice and I parted. My mother had
long ceased to mention her in her letters; but her memory was as fresh
in my heart as ever.
"The hope of her becoming my wife, directly I was able to support her,
had been the great object of my life. It had supplied me with the energy
and perseverance, in which physically I had always been deficient. I
returned to the home of my childhood, full of happy anticipations. I was
no longer a boy, but a thoughtful, studious man, with no stain upon my
reputation, having earned a high character both at school and during my
college life.
"Oh; well I remember the first time I saw Alice after my return to
S----. She was in Lady Dorothy's carriage, seated beside her ladyship,
with a beautiful infant in her lap.
"I raised my hat as the equipage passed. She did not recognize me. I do
not think she noticed me at all. The hot blood flushed my face.
Mortified and cut to the heart, I hurried home.
"My mother seemed to comprehend what had happened.
"'You have seen Alice?' she said.
"'Yes, but she did not see me.'
"'It is as well,' she returned coldly. 'Alice is no longer a
simple-hearted child. The false position in which she has been placed
has made her proud and vain. It would have been better for her to have
remained with her cross, disagreeable grandmother, than to have been
tolerated by the high born and wealthy.'
"I felt angry with my mother for speaking thus of Alice. I thought it
harsh and unkind.
"The glimpse I had caught of her face had rekindled the old fire in my
heart. She was a beautiful, elegant, fair woman. The very beau ideal of
my long dream of love, and should yet be my wife, if it were possible
for me to make her so.
"With some trepidation, I asked my mother what position she filled at
the Hall, and whose child it was she held in her arms?
"'I cannot exactly answer your question,' she said. 'She is neither
regarded as a servant, nor yet as one of the family. She is generally in
attendance upon my lady, and takes care of her little grandson.'
"'To which of her sons does the child belong?'
"'To the youngest, Captain Edward, who is now at the Hall. His young
wife died in child-bed, and people talk largely of his admiration for
his mother's pretty _protégée_.'
"I sprung from my chair. 'Mother, mother!' I cried. 'Do you mean to
drive me mad? This low village tattle is unworthy of you.'
"'I fear that there is some truth in these reports,' said my mother
quietly. 'Alice used to speak to me when we met, and make affectionate
inquiries about her old playfellow; but for the last three months, she
passes me without recognition.'
"'That looks strange. But however appearances may be against her, I
cannot and I will not believe anything to her discredit even from your
lips.'
"I seized my hat, and walked up the road at an excited pace, and never
slackened my speed, till I reached a stile that led through the park.
"I don't know what took me in that direction. I was unconscious of the
fact, until I found myself there. It was the last spot in the world in
my then mood, to which I should have bent my steps. But once there, the
place seemed congenial to my feelings.
"I crossed the stile and plunged into a wilderness of shade, glad to
find myself in gloom and solitude.
"After a while, the dark grove widened, the sunlight pierced the
branches and danced upon the ground, and leaving trees and shadows
behind, I emerged into an open lawn-like space as smooth and green, as
velvet turf and moss could make it, and reclining under the one huge
oak, that towered up like a giant in the centre, I saw her whom I least
expected to see, and who at that moment occupied all my thoughts.
"The recognition was mutual. But when I called her by name and hurried
forward to meet her, she started up like a frightened doe and fled.
"I did not follow; my mind was distracted with doubt. A jealous agony
filled my soul. I staggered to the spot she had occupied, threw myself
beneath the tree, and burying my face in my hands wept long and
bitterly.
"In this abandonment of grief and love, a voice, a man's voice,
whispered near me:
"'Alice, my dear Alice.'
"I raised my head and looked the speaker in the face. I did not know
him personally then. I know him now. It was Lord Wilton. Captain Edward
Fitzmorris, in those days. His faced kindled to a deep red. He muttered
something about 'people intruding upon private property,' and walked
hastily away, and I returned to my mother bearing in my heart the bitter
conviction of the truth of her remarks.
"The next day I left S----.
"It was not long before I got a letter from my mother, which informed me
that Alice had been dismissed from the Hall in disgrace, and had
returned to her grandmother, who, finding that she was likely to become
a mother, and that she obstinately refused to name the father of her
child had driven her from the door, and the unfortunate girl had
wandered away, no one knew whither.
"My mother had tried to discover her retreat, but could obtain no trace
of her. It was the general report of the town that she had walked into
the sea when the tide was coming in, and suffered the waves to flow over
her.
"Her fate still remains a mystery.
"Suspicion pointed to Captain Fitzmorris as her probable seducer. For my
own part, I never had any doubts upon the subject. He left England, as
attaché to a foreign embassy, a few months before her dismissal from the
Hall, and never visited this part of the country until lately.
"Sir Thomas, his elder brother, was killed in battle; Earl Wilton, his
uncle, died shortly after, and Captain Edward inherited, through his
mother, his title and immense wealth."
"But, my dear Henry, I do not see what connection all this has with
Dorothy Chance," said Mrs. Martin.
"Well, wife, if you do not, I do, for I believe that Dorothy is the
daughter of the Earl by Alice Knight. Her age agrees exactly with what
would have been the age of that child. The description of the mother
bears a strong resemblance to that unfortunate creature, and then her
striking likeness to the Earl and his mother is something more than a
coincidence. But you have not heard my story to the end.
"Mrs. Knight died some ten years ago. On her death-bed, she confessed to
me that she had poisoned Maria in that bowl of gruel; that she believed
that the poor vagrant found dead on the heath was Maria's child, for on
the night of the storm she had seen her apparition, in a dream, and
awoke in a terrible state of mental agony, in the firm conviction that
her cruel conduct had been the cause of her grandchild's death.
"The next day she went with a crowd of neighbours to farmer Rushmere's
to see the corpse of the poor woman; which though unrecognized by them,
she was certain, after making due allowance for her destitute condition,
was the body of Alice Knight. As a sort of atonement, for her crimes
and barbarous cruelty to this unfortunate creature, she left the large
fortune she had accumulated to the child of this vagrant, if it could be
satisfactorily proved that it was the daughter of Alice Knight. If after
the lapse of thirty years it remained unclaimed, it was to form a fund
for the relief of mariners shipwrecked upon this coast."
"Now, Henry, this makes your story as clear to me as daylight," said
Mrs. Martin, "can't you prove Dorothy's identity and claim the fortune
for her?"
"Ah, my dear wife, there lies the difficulty. Who is there to prove it?
It all rests on circumstantial evidence, which, though it can,
and has brought many a neck to the gallows, is very insufficient when it
relates to claiming fortunes.
"I don't think that it would conduce to Dorothy's happiness, the
possession of a large fortune. The girl is much happier as she is.
While the money applied to the relief of the destitute seamen would do a
great deal of good.
"I had always been haunted by a horrible suspicion," continued the
curate, "that Mrs. Knight had murdered Alice. Her confession cleared up
that doubt for ever. For though her harsh treatment, I have every reason
to think, overwhelmed the poor girl in difficulties that led to her
untimely death, it is a satisfaction to know that she did not actually
perish by her hand."
"A poor satisfaction, Henry. Did the cruel old woman die penitent?"
"Her end was without hope. An agony of remorse. A presentiment of
certain punishment, and no recognition of the Saviour. Rosina, it was an
awful death. God is a God of mercy, but if his word is true it was
impossible for that soul to be saved. A full conviction of guilt
without repentance is the saddest state which a human creature can
experience, and such was hers. If we wait patiently, time will bring to
light the hidden things of darkness. The crimes committed by her in
secret were revealed amid the shadows of the dark valley.
"I cannot repeat the ravings of that unhappy woman. They were too
shocking to retain in one's memory; only to think about them, seemed
like blasphemy. I never recall that night, when I watched and prayed
beside her death-bed, without a shudder, and whispering to myself, But
for God's grace I might have been like her. Oh, save me righteous Jesus
from the death of the wicked. It is only thou that makest one sinner to
differ from another. Without thee, we can indeed do nothing."