The next morning, Miss Galindo made her appearance, and, by some
mistake, unusual in my lady’s well-trained servants, was shown into the
room where I was trying to walk; for a certain amount of exercise was
prescribed for me, painful although the exertion had become.
She brought a little basket along with her; and while the footman was
gone to inquire my lady’s wishes (for I don’t think that Lady Ludlow
expected Miss Galindo so soon to assume her clerkship; nor, indeed, had
Mr. Horner any work of any kind ready for his new assistant to do), she
launched out into conversation with me.
“It was a sudden summons, my dear! However, as I have often said to
myself, ever since an occasion long ago, if Lady Ludlow ever honours me
by asking for my right hand, I’ll cut it off, and wrap the stump up so
tidily she shall never find out it bleeds. But, if I had had a little
more time, I could have mended my pens better. You see, I have had to
sit up pretty late to get these sleeves made”--and she took out of her
basket a pair of brown-holland over-sleeves, very much such as a
grocer’s apprentice wears--“and I had only time to make seven or eight
pens, out of some quills Farmer Thomson gave me last autumn. As for ink,
I’m thankful to say, that’s always ready; an ounce of steel filings, an
ounce of nut-gall, and a pint of water (tea, if you’re extravagant,
which, thank Heaven! I’m not), put all in a bottle, and hang it up
behind the house door, so that the whole gets a good shaking every time
you slam it to--and even if you are in a passion and bang it, as Sally
and I often do, it is all the better for it--and there’s my ink ready
for use; ready to write my lady’s will with, if need be.”
“O, Miss Galindo!” said I, “don’t talk so; my lady’s will! and she not
dead yet.”
“And if she were, what would be the use of talking of making her will!
Now, if you were Sally, I should say, ‘Answer me that, you goose!’ But,
as you’re a relation of my lady’s, I must be civil, and only say, ‘I
can’t think how you can talk so like a fool!’ To be sure, poor thing,
you’re lame!”
I do not know how long she would have gone on; but my lady came in, and
I, released from my duty of entertaining Miss Galindo, made my limping
way into the next room. To tell the truth, I was rather afraid of Miss
Galindo’s tongue, for I never knew what she would say next.
After a while my lady came, and began to look in the bureau for
something; and as she looked she said:
“I think Mr. Horner must have made some mistake, when he said he had so
much work that he almost required a clerk, for this morning he cannot
find anything for Miss Galindo to do; and there she is, sitting with her
pen behind her ear, waiting for something to write. I am come to find
her my mother’s letters, for I should like to have a fair copy made of
them. O, here they are! don’t trouble yourself, my dear child.”
When my lady returned again, she sat down and began to talk of Mr. Gray.
“Miss Galindo says she saw him going to hold a prayer-meeting in a
cottage. Now, that really makes me unhappy, it is so like what Mr.
Wesley used to do in my younger days; and since then we have had
rebellion in the American colonies and the French revolution.
You may depend upon it, my dear, making religion and education
common--vulgarising them, as it were--is a bad thing for a nation. A man
who hears prayers read in the cottage where he has just supped on bread
and bacon, forgets the respect due to a church: he begins to think that
one place is as good as another, and, by-and-by, that one person is as
good as another; and after that, I always find that people begin to talk
of their rights, instead of thinking of their duties. I wish Mr. Gray
had been more tractable, and had left well alone. What do you think I
heard this morning? Why, that the Home Hill estate, which niches into
the Hanbury property, was bought by a Baptist baker from Birmingham!”
“A Baptist baker!” I exclaimed. I had never seen a Dissenter, to my
knowledge; but, having always heard them spoken of with horror, I looked
upon them almost as if they were rhinoceroses. I wanted to see a live
Dissenter, I believe, and yet I wished it were over. I was almost
surprised when I heard that any of them were engaged in such peaceful
occupations as baking.
“Yes! so Mr. Horner tells me. A Mr. Lambe, I believe. But, at any rate,
he is a Baptist, and has been in trade. What with his schismatism and
Mr. Gray’s methodism, I am afraid all the primitive character of this
place will vanish.”
From what I could hear, Mr. Gray seemed to be taking his own way; at any
rate, more than he had done when he first came to the village, when his
natural timidity had made him defer to my lady, and seek her consent and
sanction before embarking in any new plan. But newness was a quality
Lady Ludlow especially disliked. Even in the fashions of dress and
furniture, she clung to the old, to the modes which had prevailed when
she was young; and, though she had a deep personal regard for Queen
Charlotte (to whom, as I have already said, she had been
maid-of-honour), yet there was a tinge of Jacobitism about her, such as
made her extremely dislike to hear Prince Charles Edward called the
Young Pretender, as many loyal people did in those days, and made her
fond of telling of the thorn-tree in my lord’s park in Scotland, which
had been planted by bonny Queen Mary herself, and before which every
guest in the Castle of Monkshaven was expected to stand bare-headed, out
of respect to the memory and misfortunes of the royal planter.
We might play at cards, if we so chose, on a Sunday; at least, I suppose
we might, for my lady and Mr. Mountford used to do so often when I first
went. But we must neither play cards, nor read, nor sew on the fifth of
November and on the thirtieth of January, but must go to church, and
meditate all the rest of the day--and very hard work meditating was. I
would far rather have scoured a room. That was the reason, I suppose,
why a passive life was seen to be better discipline for me than an
active one.
But I am wandering away from my lady, and her dislike to all innovation.
Now, it seemed to me, as far as I heard, that Mr. Gray was full of
nothing but new things, and that what he first did was to attack all our
established institutions, both in the village and the parish, and also
in the nation. To be sure, I heard of his ways of going on principally
from Miss Galindo, who was apt to speak more strongly than accurately.
“There he goes,” she said, “clucking up the children just like an old
hen, and trying to teach them about their salvation and their souls, and
I don’t know what--things that it is just blasphemy to speak about out
of church. And he potters old people about reading their Bibles. I am
sure I don’t want to speak disrespectfully about the Holy Scriptures,
but I found old Job Horton busy reading his Bible yesterday. Says I,
‘What are you reading, and where did you get it, and who gave it you?’
So he made answer, ‘That he was reading Susannah and the Elders, for
that he had read Bel and the Dragon till he could pretty near say it off
by heart, and they were two as pretty stories as ever he had read, and
that it was a caution to him what bad old chaps there were in the
world.’ Now, as Job is bed-ridden, I don’t think he is likely to meet
with the Elders, and I say that I think repeating his Creed, the
Commandments, and the Lord’s Prayer, and, maybe, throwing in a verse of
the Psalms, if he wanted a bit of a change, would have done him far more
good than his pretty stories, as he called them. And what’s the next
thing our young parson does? Why he tries to make us all feel pitiful
for the black slaves, and leaves little pictures of negroes about, with
the question printed below, ‘Am I not a man and a brother?’ just as if I
was to be hail-fellow-well-met with every negro footman. They do say he
takes no sugar in his tea, because he thinks he sees spots of blood in
it. Now I call that superstition.”
The next day it was a still worse story.
“Well, my dear! and how are you? My lady sent me in to sit a bit with
you, while Mr. Horner looks out some papers for me to copy. Between
ourselves, Mr. Steward Horner does not like having me for a clerk. It is
all very well, he does not; for, if he were decently civil to me, I
might want a chaperone, you know, now poor Mrs. Horner is dead.” This
was one of Miss Galindo’s grim jokes. “As it is, I try to make him
forget I’m a woman, I do everything as ship-shape as a masculine
man-clerk. I see he can’t find a fault--writing good, spelling correct,
sums all right. And then he squints up at me with the tail of his eye,
and looks glummer than ever, just because I’m a woman--as if I could
help that. I have gone good lengths to set his mind at ease. I have
stuck my pen behind my ear, I have made him a bow instead of a curtsey,
I have whistled--not a tune, I can’t pipe up that--nay, if you won’t
tell my lady, I don’t mind telling you that I have said ‘Confound it!’
and ‘Zounds!’ I can’t get any farther. For all that, Mr. Horner won’t
forget I am a lady, and so I am not half the use I might be, and if it
were not to please my Lady Ludlow, Mr. Horner and his books might go
hang (see how natural that came out!). And there is an order for a dozen
nightcaps for a bride, and I am so afraid I shan’t have time to do them.
Worst of all, there’s Mr. Gray taking advantage of my absence to seduce
Sally!”
“To seduce Sally! Mr. Gray!”
“Pooh, pooh, child! There’s many a kind of seduction. Mr. Gray is
seducing Sally to want to go to church. There has he been twice at my
house, while I have been away in the mornings, talking to Sally about
the state of her soul and that sort of thing. But when I found the meat
all roasted to a cinder, I said, ‘Come, Sally, let’s have no more
praying when beef is down at the fire. Pray at six o’clock in the
morning and nine at night, and I won’t hinder you.’ So she sauced me,
and said something about Martha and Mary, implying that, because she had
let the beef get so overdone that I declare I could hardly find a bit
fit for Nancy Pole’s sick grandchild, she had chosen the better part. I
was very much put about, I own, and perhaps you’ll be shocked at what I
said--indeed, I don’t know if it was right myself--but I told her I had
a soul as well as she, and if it was to be saved by my sitting still and
thinking about salvation and never doing my duty, I thought I had as
good a right as she had to be Mary, and save my soul. So, that afternoon
I sat quite still, and it was really a comfort, for I am often too busy,
I know, to pray as I ought. There is first one person wanting me, and
then another, and the house and the food and the neighbours to see
after. So, when tea-time comes, there enters my maid with her hump on
her back, and her soul to be saved. ‘Please, ma’am, did you order the
pound of butter?’---‘No, Sally,’ I said, shaking my head, ‘this morning I
did not go round by Hale’s farm, and this afternoon I have been employed
in spiritual things.’
“Now, our Sally likes tea and bread-and-butter above everything, and dry
bread was not to her taste.
“‘I’m thankful,’ said the impudent hussy, ‘that you have taken a turn
towards godliness. It will be my prayers, I trust, that’s given it you.’
“I was determined not to give her an opening towards the carnal subject
of butter, so she lingered still, longing to ask leave to run for it.
But I gave her none, and munched my dry bread myself, thinking what a
famous cake I could make for little Ben Pole with the bit of butter we
were saving; and when Sally had had her butterless tea, and was in none
of the best of tempers because Martha had not bethought herself of the
butter, I just quietly said:
“‘Now, Sally, to-morrow we’ll try to hash that beef well, and to
remember the butter, and to work out our salvation all at the same time,
for I don’t see why it can’t all be done, as God has set us to do it
all.’ But I heard her at it again about Mary and Martha, and I have no
doubt that Mr. Gray will teach her to consider me a lost sheep.”
I had heard so many little speeches about Mr. Gray from one person or
another, all speaking against him, as a mischief-maker, a setter-up of
new doctrines, and of a fanciful standard of life (and you may be sure
that, where Lady Ludlow led, Mrs. Medlicott and Adams were certain to
follow, each in their different ways showing the influence my lady had
over them), that I believe I had grown to consider him as a very
instrument of evil, and to expect to perceive in his face marks of his
presumption, and arrogance, and impertinent interference. It was now
many weeks since I had seen him, and when he was one morning shown into
the blue drawing-room (into which I had been removed for a change), I
was quite surprised to see how innocent and awkward a young man he
appeared, confused even more than I was at our unexpected tête-à-tête.
He looked thinner, his eyes more eager, his expression more anxious, and
his colour came and went more than it had done when I had seen him last.
I tried to make a little conversation, as I was, to my own surprise,
more at my ease than he was; but his thoughts were evidently too much
preoccupied for him to do more than answer me with monosyllables.
Presently my lady came in. Mr. Gray twitched and coloured more than
ever; but plunged into the middle of his subject at once.
“My lady, I cannot answer it to my conscience, if I allow the children
of this village to go on any longer the little heathens that they are. I
must do something to alter their condition. I am quite aware that your
ladyship disapproves of many of the plans which have suggested
themselves to me; but nevertheless I must do something, and I am come
now to your ladyship to ask respectfully, but firmly, what you would
advise me to do.”
His eyes were dilated, and I could almost have said they were full of
tears with his eagerness. But I am sure it is a bad plan to remind
people of decided opinions which they have once expressed, if you wish
them to modify those opinions. Now, Mr. Gray had done this with my lady;
and though I do not mean to say she was obstinate, yet she was not one
to retract.
She was silent for a moment or two before she replied.
“You ask me to suggest a remedy for an evil of the existence of which I
am not conscious,” was her answer--very coldly, very gently given. “In
Mr. Mountford’s time I heard no such complaints: whenever I see the
village children (and they are not unfrequent visitors at this house, on
one pretext or another), they are well and decently behaved.”
“Oh, madam, you cannot judge,” he broke in. “They are trained to respect
you in word and deed; you are the highest they ever look up to; they
have no notion of a higher.”
“Nay, Mr. Gray,” said my lady, smiling, “they are as loyally disposed as
any children can be. They come up here every fourth of June, and drink
his Majesty’s health, and have buns, and (as Margaret Dawson can
testify) they take a great and respectful interest in all the pictures I
can show them of the Royal family.”
“But, madam, I think of something higher than any earthly dignities.”
My lady coloured at the mistake she had made; for she herself was truly
pious. Yet when she resumed the subject, it seemed to me as if her tone
was a little sharper than before.
“Such want of reverence is, I should say, the clergyman’s fault. You
must excuse me, Mr. Gray, if I speak plainly.”
“My lady, I want plain-speaking. I myself am not accustomed to those
ceremonies and forms which are, I suppose, the etiquette in your
ladyship’s rank of life, and which seem to hedge you in from any power
of mine to touch you. Among those with whom I have passed my life
hitherto, it has been the custom to speak plainly out what we have felt
earnestly. So, instead of needing any apology from your ladyship for
straightforward speaking, I will meet what you say at once, and admit
that it is the clergyman’s fault, in a great measure, when the children
of his parish swear, and curse, and are brutal, and ignorant of all
saving grace; nay, some of them of the very name of God. And because
this guilt of mine, as the clergyman of this parish, lies heavy on my
soul, and every day leads but from bad to worse, till I am utterly
bewildered how to do good to children who escape from me as if I were a
monster, and who are growing up to be men fit for and capable of any
crime, but those requiring wit or sense, I come to you, who seem to me
all-powerful, as far as material power goes--for your ladyship only
knows the surface of things, and barely that, that pass in your
village--to help me with advice, and such outward help as you can give.”
Mr. Gray had stood up and sat down once or twice while he had been
speaking, in an agitated, nervous kind of way, and now he was
interrupted by a violent fit of coughing, after which he trembled all
over.
My lady rang for a glass of water, and looked much distressed.
“Mr. Gray,” said she, “I am sure you are not well; and that makes you
exaggerate childish faults into positive evils. It is always the case
with us when we are not strong in health. I hear of you exerting
yourself in every direction: you over-work yourself, and the consequence
is, that you imagine us all worse people than we are.”
And my lady smiled very kindly and pleasantly at him, as he sat, a
little panting, a little flushed, trying to recover his breath. I am
sure that now they were brought face to face, she had quite forgotten
all the offence she had taken at his doings when she heard of them from
others; and, indeed, it was enough to soften any one’s heart to see that
young, almost boyish face, looking in such anxiety and distress.
“O, my lady, what shall I do?” he asked, as soon as he could recover
breath, and with such an air of humility that I am sure no one who had
seen it could have ever thought him conceited again. “The evil of this
world is too strong for me. I can do so little. It is all in vain. It
was only to-day----” And again the cough and agitation returned.
“My dear Mr. Gray,” said my lady (the day before, I could never have
believed she could have called him My dear), “you must take the advice
of an old woman about yourself. You are not fit to do anything just now
but attend to your own health: rest, and see a doctor (but, indeed, I
will take care of that), and when you are pretty strong again, you will
find that you have been magnifying evils to yourself.”
“But, my lady, I cannot rest. The evils do exist, and the burden of
their continuance lies on my shoulders. I have no place to gather the
children together in, that I may teach them the things necessary to
salvation. The rooms in my own house are too small; but I have tried
them. I have money of my own; and, as your ladyship knows, I tried to
get a piece of leasehold property on which to build a school-house at my
own expense. Your ladyship’s lawyer comes forward, at your instructions,
to enforce some old feudal right, by which no building is allowed on
leasehold property without the sanction of the Lady of the Manor. It may
be all very true; but it was a cruel thing to do,--that is, if your
ladyship had known (which I am sure you do not) the real moral and
spiritual state of my poor parishioners. And now I come to you to know
what I am to do? Rest! I cannot rest, while children whom I could
possibly save are being left in their ignorance, their blasphemy, their
uncleanness, their cruelty. It is known through the village that your
ladyship disapproves of my efforts, and opposes all my plans. If you
think them wrong, foolish, ill-digested (I have been a student, living
in a college, and eschewing all society but that of pious men, until
now: I may not judge for the best, in my ignorance of this sinful human
nature), tell me of better plans and wiser projects for accomplishing my
end; but do not bid me rest, with Satan compassing me round, and
stealing souls away.”
“Mr. Gray,” said my lady, “there may be some truth in what you have
said. I do not deny it, though I think, in your present state of
indisposition and excitement, you exaggerate it much. I believe--nay,
the experience of a pretty long life has convinced me--that education is
a bad thing, if given indiscriminately. It unfits the lower orders for
their duties, the duties to which they are called by God, of submission
to those placed in authority over them, of contentment with that state
of life to which it has pleased God to call them, and of ordering
themselves lowly and reverently to all their betters. I have made this
conviction of mine tolerably evident to you; and have expressed
distinctly my disapprobation of some of your ideas. You may imagine,
then, that I was not well pleased when I found that you had taken a rood
or more of Farmer Hale’s land, and were laying the foundations of a
school-house. You had done this without asking for my permission, which,
as Farmer Hale’s liege lady, ought to have been obtained legally, as
well as asked for out of courtesy. I put a stop to what I believed to be
calculated to do harm to a village, to a population in which, to say the
least of it, I may be supposed to take as much interest as you can do.
How can reading and writing, and the multiplication-table (if you choose
to go so far), prevent blasphemy, and uncleanness and cruelty? Really,
Mr. Gray, I hardly like to express myself to strongly on the subject in
your present state of health, as I should do at any other time. It seems
to me that books do little; character much; and character is not formed
from books.”
“I do not think of character: I think of souls. I must get some hold
upon these children, or what will become of them in the next world? I
must be found to have some power beyond what they have, and which they
are rendered capable of appreciating, before they will listen to me. At
present, physical force is all they look up to; and I have none.”
“Nay, Mr. Gray, by your own admission, they look up to me.”
“They would not do anything your ladyship disliked if it was likely to
come to your knowledge; but if they could conceal it from you, the
knowledge of your dislike to a particular line of conduct would never
make them cease from pursuing it.”
“Mr. Gray”--surprise in her air, and some little indignation--“they and
their fathers have lived on the Hanbury lands for generations!”
“I cannot help it, madam. I am telling you the truth, whether you
believe me or not.” There was a pause; my lady looking perplexed, and
somewhat ruffled; Mr. Gray as though hopeless and wearied out. “Then, my
lady,” said he, at last, rising as he spoke, “you can suggest nothing to
ameliorate the state of things which, I do assure you, does exist on
your lands, and among your tenants. Surely, you will not object to my
using Farmer Hale’s great barn every Sabbath? He will allow me the use
of it, if your ladyship will grant your permission.”
“You are not fit for any extra work at present,” (and indeed he had been
coughing very much all through the conversation). “Give me time to
consider of it. Tell me what you wish to teach. You will be able to
take care of your health and grow stronger while I consider. It shall
not be the worse for you, if you leave it in my hands for a time.”
My lady spoke very kindly; but he was in too excited a state to
recognise the kindness, while the idea of delay was evidently a sore
irritation. I heard him say: “And I have so little time in which to do
my work. Lord! lay not this sin to my charge.”
But my lady was speaking to the old butler, for whom, at her sign, I had
rung the bell some little time before. Now she turned round.
“Mr. Gray, I find I have some bottles of Malmsey, of the vintage of
seventeen hundred and seventy-eight, yet left. Malmsey, as perhaps you
know, used to be considered a specific for coughs arising from weakness.
You must permit me to send you half-a-dozen bottles, and, depend upon
it, you will take a more cheerful view of life and its duties before you
have finished them, especially if you will be so kind as to see Doctor
Trevor, who is coming to see me in the course of the week. By the time
you are strong enough to work, I will try and find some means of
preventing the children from using such bad language, and otherwise
annoying you.”
“My lady, it is the sin, and not the annoyance. I wish I could make you
understand.” He spoke with some impatience; poor fellow, he was too
weak, exhausted, and nervous. “I am perfectly well; I can set to work
to-morrow; I will do anything not to be oppressed with the thought of
how little I am doing. I do not want your wine. Liberty to act in the
manner I think right, will do me far more good. But it is of no use. It
is preordained that I am to be nothing but a cumberer of the ground. I
beg your ladyship’s pardon for this call.”
He stood up, and then turned dizzy. My lady looked on, deeply hurt, and
not a little offended. He held out his hand to her, and I could see that
she had a little hesitation before she took it. He then saw me, I almost
think, for the first time; and put out his hand once more, drew it back,
as if undecided, put it out again, and finally took hold of mine for an
instant in his damp, listless hand, and was gone.
Lady Ludlow was dissatisfied with both him and herself, I was sure.
Indeed, I was dissatisfied with the result of the interview myself. But
my lady was not one to speak out her feelings on the subject; nor was I
one to forget myself, and begin on a topic which she did not begin. She
came to me, and was very tender with me; so tender, that that, and the
thoughts of Mr. Grays sick, hopeless, disappointed look, nearly made me
cry.
“You are tired, little one,” said my lady. “Go and lie down in my room,
and hear what Medlicott and I can decide upon in the way of
strengthening dainties for that poor young man, who is killing himself
with his over-sensitive conscientiousness.”
“O, my lady!” said I, and then I stopped.
“Well. What?” asked she.
“If you would but let him have Farmer Hale’s barn at once, it would do
him more good than all.”
“Pooh, pooh, child!” though I don’t think she was displeased, “he is not
fit for more work just now. I shall go and write for Doctor Trevor.”
And, for the next half-hour, we did nothing but arrange physical
comforts and cures for poor Mr. Gray. At the end of the time, Mrs.
Medlicott said:
“Has your ladyship heard that Harry Gregson has fallen from a tree, and
broken his thigh-bone, and is like to be a cripple for life?”
“Harry Gregson! That black-eyed lad who read my letter? It all comes
from over-education!”