Passy, 6 November, 1778.
We have received information that so many of our letters have been
thrown overboard that I fear you will not have heard so often from me as
both of us wish. I have written often, but my letters have not been
worth so much as other things which I have sent you. I sent you a small
present by Captain Niles, but he is taken by a Jersey privateer. I sent
you also some other things by Captain Barnes; and what affects me quite
as much, I sent the things that my dear brother Cranch requested me to
send, by these same vessels. These vessels were chosen because they were
fast sailers, and so small as to be able to see danger before they could
be seen; but all is taken and sent into Guernsey and Jersey. By Captain
Tucker I sent you the whole of the list you gave me of articles for the
family. These, I hope, have arrived safe, but I have been so unlucky
that I feel averse to meddling in this way. The whole loss is a trifle,
it is true. But to you in the convenience of the family, and to Mr.
Cranch in his business, it would have been of value. If the _Boston_
arrives, the little chest she carries to you will be of service.
My anxiety for you and for the public is not diminished by time or
distance. The great number of accidental disappointments in the course
of the last summer are afflicting. But we hope for better luck another
year. It seems to be the intention of Heaven that we should be taught
the full value of our liberty by the dearness of the purchase, and the
importance of public virtue by the necessity of it. There seems to be
also a further design, that of eradicating forever from the heart of
every American every tender sentiment towards Great Britain, that we
may, some time or other, know how to make the full advantage of our
independence by more extensive connections with other countries.
Whatever siren songs of peace may be sung in your ears, you may depend
upon it from me (who unhappily have been seldom mistaken in my guesses
of the intentions of the British government for fourteen years) that
every malevolent passion and every insidious art will predominate in the
British cabinet against us. Their threats of Russians and of great
reinforcements are false and impracticable, and they know them to be so;
but their threats of doing mischief with the forces they have will be
verified as far as their power.
It is by no means pleasant to me to be forever imputing malicious policy
to a nation that I have ever wished and still wish I could esteem. But
truth must be attended to; and almost all Europe, the Dutch especially,
are at this day talking of Great Britain in the style of American sons
of liberty. I hope the unfortunate events at Rhode Island[195] will
produce no heart-burnings between our countrymen and the Comte
d'Estaing, who is allowed by all Europe to be a great and worthy
officer, and by all who know him to be a zealous friend of America.
I have enjoyed uncommon health since my arrival in this country, and, if
it was peace, and my family here, I could be happy. But never, never
shall I enjoy happy days without either. My little son gives me great
pleasure both by his assiduity to his books and his discreet behavior.
The lessons of his mamma are a constant lesson to him, and the
reflection that they are so to his sister and brothers is a
never-failing consolation to me at times when I feel more tenderness for
them than words can express, or than I should choose to express if I had
power. Remember me in the most affectionate manner to our parents,
brothers, sisters, uncles, aunts, and--what shall I say--children.
My respects where they are due, which is in so many places that I cannot
name them. With regard to my connections with the public business here,
which you will be naturally inquisitive to know something of, I can only
say that we have many disagreeable circumstances here, many
difficulties to accomplish the wishes of our constituents, and to give
satisfaction to certain half-anglified Americans, and, what is more
serious and affecting, to real and deserving Americans, who are
suffering in England, and escaping from thence. But from this Court,
this city and nation, I have experienced nothing but uninterrupted
politeness. It is not possible for me to express more tenderness and
affection to you than will be suggested by the name of