Braintree, Sunday, 16 September, 1775.
I set myself down to write with a heart depressed with the melancholy
scenes around me. My letter will be only a bill of mortality; though
thanks be to that Being who restraineth the pestilence, that it has not
yet proved mortal to any of our family, though we live in daily
expectation that Patty will not continue many hours. I had no idea of
the distemper producing such a state as hers, till now. Two of the
children, John and Charles, I have sent out of the house, finding it
difficult to keep them out of the chamber. Nabby continues well. Tommy
is better, but entirely stripped of the hardy, robust countenance, as
well as of all the flesh he had, save what remains for to keep his bones
together. Jonathan is the only one who remains in the family who has not
had a turn of the disorder. Mrs. Randall has lost her daughter. Mrs.
Bracket, hers. Mr. Thomas Thayer, his wife. Two persons belonging to
Boston have died this week in this parish. I know of eight this week who
have been buried in this town.
In Weymouth, it is very sickly, but not mortal. Dr. Tufts tells me he
has between sixty and seventy patients now sick with this disorder. Mr.
Thaxter has been obliged to go home, as it was not possible for me to
accommodate him. Mr. Mason came this week, but if he had been inclined,
I could not have taken him now. But the general sickness in the towns
determined him to return home for the present. The dread upon the minds
of people of catching the distemper is almost as great as if it was the
small-pox. I have been disturbed more than ever I was in my life to
procure watchers and to get assistance.
I hear Mr. Tudor has been dangerously sick, but is now upon the
recovery. Mr. Wibird is very low indeed, scarcely able to walk a step.
We have been four Sundays without any meeting. Thus does pestilence
travel in the rear of war, to remind us of our entire dependence upon
that Being who not only directeth the arrow by day, but has also at his
command that which flieth in darkness. So uncertain and so transitory
are all the enjoyments of life, that were it not for the tender
connections which bind us, would it not be folly to wish for continuance
here? I think I shall never be wedded to the world, and were I to lose
about a dozen of my dearest connections, I should have no further relish
for life.
But perhaps I deceive myself and know little but little, of my own
heart.
"To bear and suffer is our portion here."
And unto Him who mounts the whirlwind and directs the storm I will
cheerfully leave the ordering of my lot, and whether adverse or
prosperous days should be my future portion, I will trust in his right
hand to lead me safely through, and, after a short rotation of events,
fix me in a state immutable and happy.
You will think me melancholy. 'Tis true, I am much affected by the
distressed scenes around me, but I have some anxieties in my mind which
I do not think it prudent to mention at present to any one. Perhaps when
I hear from you, I may in my next letter tell you.
In the mean time I wish you would tell me whether the intercepted
letters[99] have reached Philadelphia, and what effect they have there.
There is a most infamous versification of them, I hear, sent out. I have
not been able to get it.
As to politics, there seems to be a dead calm upon all sides. Some of
the Tories have been sending out their children. Colonel Chandler has
sent out his, and Mr. Winslow has sent out his daughter. People appear
to be gratified with the Remonstrance, Address, and Petition, and most
earnestly long for further intelligence.
God helps them that help themselves, as King Richard says; and if we can
obtain the Divine aid by our own virtue, fortitude, and perseverance, we
may be sure of relief.
To-morrow will be three weeks since you left home; in all which time I
have not heard one word from you. Patience is a lesson I have not to
learn, so I can wait your own time, but hope it will not be long ere my
anxious heart is relieved.