When Frau von Trautenau, with her family, entered the spacious
prayer-room, to be present at the love-feast, the mass of the
congregation had already assembled, and were singing to the
accompaniment of the organ. The lady accepted the places assigned to
her and Adele by Sister Agatha, but Alexander and his brother took
possession of an empty bench near the door.
The room presented a strange appearance for a place of worship. It was
destitute of any ornament whatever. The altar, which was at one end,
consisted of a simple wooden table, on which stood a large crucifix.
The brothers and sisters sat at long tables covered with white linen;
but, as usual, the sexes were seated apart. Each member was served
with a small cup of tea and a little bun.
After a while the music ceased, and a long prayer by the principal
elder followed after which another member read a letter from one of
their missionaries, Joseph Hubner, who was at work in the land of the
Kaffres. This letter presented a touching picture of humble
self-sacrifice and sincere devotion.
Alexander felt deeply moved, and forgot the strange mixture of
religious exercises and temporal enjoyment which this feast displayed.
Absorbed in listening, he did not observe that, in his immediate
vicinity, a singular commotion had arisen, and that a good deal of
whispering was carried on among the Brothers, as they regarded him and
Hans with curious glances. After the reading of the letter another
hymn was given out; then Hans nudged his brother.
"What is there so peculiar about us? Everybody is gazing at us so!"
Alexander glanced about, to see if anything was wrong, but could
discover nothing amiss. They had quietly and politely partaken of the
feast when it was offered to them, yet something must be wrong to
create such a sensation; so he turned to some one sitting near by, with
the question:
"Are we depriving any one of this seat?"
"Oh no, indeed, my dear sir," he replied.
"So much the better," said Alexander. "We do not wish to cause any
inconvenience and I began to fear we were doing so."
"I must ask your pardon," stammered the Brother, with much confusion.
"It was certainly very rude for us to stare at you so, and yet it was
the result of the deep sympathy we feel for your brother, who seems so
young to be a widower."
Alexander gave a searching glance at the speaker, to see if he was
ridiculing his brother. Hans a widower! In spite of his tall stature,
he showed very plainly that he was but an overgrown schoolboy.
"A widower, sir!" said the young man, slowly. "My brother is only
sixteen years old, and is still at school. In the world we do not
marry at that age."
"It did indeed seem very strange to me," said the good man, in extreme
embarrassment; "but being seated among the widowers, we judged it must
be so."
The two brothers almost laughed out loud, the position was so
ridiculous.
"Then we are both in the wrong place--my brother as well as I! You
must pardon our ignorance of your customs. I saw the men and women
sitting apart, but never imagined the widowers had a particular place
for themselves. Tell us, pray, where we can sit to be among unmarried
fellows like ourselves."
"Nay, my dear sir, remain where you are. The love-feast will soon be
over. Brother Daniel, who leaves us to-morrow, to help Brother Joseph
among the Kaffres, has only to take leave of us before we disperse."
While he was speaking, the whole assembly arose, and one among them
stepped forward. He first advanced to the Sisters, and shook hands
with each one; then passing over to the Brothers, the parting kiss was
given and received. And he who thus bade farewell, ere he followed
Brother Joseph, to share his struggles and hardships, far away from
civilized life, was the identical awkward, ungainly-looking Brother
who, in the morning, had made such an unsuccessful attempt at riding.
There is always an intolerable feeling of moral defeat when we see a
man, whom we have regarded with contempt rise into importance by his
own merit. A noble mind at once acknowledges the fact, but a mean
spirit feels only resentment and spite, with a sense of defeat.
Something like a feeling of shame came over Alexander, as he closely
regarded the man whom he had inwardly despised, but who now seemed like
a hero in his eyes.
Seated at the table, opposite to him were the young sisters and pupils
belonging to the educational department, and among them Adele, seated
not far from Carmen. As Alexander casually looked up, he met Carmen's
sparkling eyes, which seemed to cast on him a look of triumph, as if
she understood his feeling of humiliation which this moment brought to
him as a consequence of his contemptuous manner in the morning. He
thought he could clearly read in her expression what she fain would
have said: "You may perhaps ride well, and he cannot; you were not
afraid to stop the wild horse and save the child's life; but would you
have the courage to undertake what he has been appointed to do?" As
their eyes met, she returned his glance unflinchingly and firmly, but
he could not prevent his eyes from falling before hers.
Meanwhile Brother Daniel had, in his rounds of leave-taking, approached
those near to Alexander. When he reached the latter he hesitated a
moment, having recognized the person who had come to his assistance in
need, and a flush of embarrassment suffused his gentle, almost
effeminate, countenance. But Alexander, bending down quickly, pressed
a kiss on the man's cheek, saying heartily: "Farewell, and good luck go
with you! Believe me, I thoroughly admire your courage."
The Brother looked at him in surprise, and answered: "Thank you very
much, sir!" and passed on.
When Alexander again looked toward Carmen, her eyes were moist with
unshed tears.
"How beautiful that girl is!" thought he. "What an independent, frank
spirit speaks from her eyes; what a lovely expression hovers around her
mouth! She is like a dazzling star among these quiet people,--as if
she had strayed away from her own orbit and found herself here,--so
little does she seem fitted to her surroundings in the little circle in
which she moves. I wonder if she is happy here. A large-hearted,
generous nature cannot be content to submit to all these restrictions.
No, she resists them. I saw that to-day. But she will never become
like the others, and pass her life, in quiet submission, by the side of
a man such as Brother Daniel, for instance."
The leave-taking of the Brother being ended, the congregation received
the general blessing and dispersed. The moment had now come when Frau
von Trautenau and her sons must part from Adele, and many were the
tears shed on the occasion.
The night grew late; the lamp was lighted in Agatha's room. Presently
a gentle tapping was heard on the door, answered by a kindly "Come in."
Carmen entered; and when Agatha, raising her eyes, recognized the girl,
she put aside her spectacles, and said gently: "Come nearer, dear
Sister; I was expecting you." She drew up a chair, but Carmen put it
aside, and kneeling by Sister Agatha's side, said:
"No, Sister, let me remain here and hear what you have to say, for you
are going to chide me--I am sure of it."
"Carmen, do you believe I love you?" she inquired.
"Surely," answered the girl, quickly. "More than any one else here."
"Then you know that my heart grieves when I cannot feel satisfied with
you," continued the Sister. "Why are your thoughts constantly dwelling
on worldly things, and why do you allow yourself to be overcome with
pride, instead of putting your mind on serious matters, and being more
humble?"
"You are angry with me, Sister Agatha, because I did not tell from what
distant land I came. That is not such a dreadful crime," said Carmen,
cheerfully.
The serious countenance of the Sister grew yet more grave, and she
looked severely at the kneeling figure.
"Have you, then, not thought of the text for to-day?" she asked
reprovingly,
Carmen flushed up quickly; she tried to compose herself, but was for a
moment at a loss what to say. She had during the past day been through
such new experiences; whereas, heretofore, every day had been pretty
much the same.
Sister Agatha waited patiently for Carmen to become calmer. At last,
when she seemed to have forgotten her confusion about the text, Agatha
said: "Now tell me the watchword."
When the maiden's eyes turned to the usual place for the motto, her
thoughts seemed to cease wandering, and she repeated the verse
correctly:
"'Feed Thou Thy people with Thy staff.'"
"Remember, my Sister, the purport of those words. 'Thy people' are
those who belong to Him; 'with Thy staff' means, with the support of
His strength. Carmen, how can the Lord guide you with His staff, if
you do not bow your will before Him, and try to curb your pride?"
Carmen, as she knelt, had rested her elbows on Sister Agatha's lap, and
thus supported her head on her hands, while she gazed into the
speaker's face, thinking earnestly of what she said.
"Do you call it pride, and are you vexed with me because I would not
tell to strangers what was indifferent, or perhaps amusing, to them?
Oh, Sister Agatha, is it necessary that we expose ourselves to the
derision of the world? We do not serve God by doing that. And when
you speak of pride, is it not that very feeling which leads you to
boast of our having come from so many and such distant lands? Do you
not wish to demonstrate by that means how your faith has penetrated
into all parts of the world? That is, after all, pride under the garb
of humility."
Sister Agatha was deeply touched, and remained silent for a moment;
then rising hastily, she said with a stern manner: "Do not confuse
trifles with grave subjects. All that we do, even the weakest, is for
the Lord's glory and praise, and not our own. What matter if the world
scorns us? If we are the Lord's, He is with us, and we care for naught
else. Search your heart, dear Sister, that you neglect not the
salvation of your soul. Accept for yourself a helper and guide, so
that your feet may not stray from the right path. There is one, whom I
know, is now ready to offer himself to you, than whom none is, more
steadfast in the faith. Brother Jonathan Fricke, the faithful friend
of your father, honors you most highly when he desires to have you for
his wife. To-day he explained to me his wishes on the subject; and the
elders, to whom I have spoken, give their cordial consent to the
alliance."
At Agatha's words Carmen grew deathly pale, and listened with wide-open
eyes. When the Sister ceased speaking, she sprang up, and turning from
the gentle eyes which sought hers, said passionately:
"But I will not have him for my husband!"
"Carmen, my dear, you will not have Jonathan for your husband? You do
not know what you are saying," cried Agatha.
"Yes, I do, Sister Agatha," answered Carmen, quickly, her large
lustrous eyes gleaming with a dangerous light. "Do you know how you
feel when you come in contact with a reptile, a snake? When I was a
little girl, on my father's plantation, I saw one day, under an
aloe-tree, what I thought was a green twig; and when I grasped it, it
was a cold, clammy snake, which, in a moment, twined itself around my
arm. I could not scream for terror; but Sarah, my mother's faithful
slave, saw it. She tore the viper from my arm, and flung it far away,
among the bushes. Sister Agatha, when Brother Jonathan comes near me,
I feel the same shiver go through, and the same feeling of horror
almost paralyzes my limbs. I could not endure to have him near me
always. I could not say to him, 'My husband'--no, not for all the
world!"
Carmen grew more and more excited as she went on.
"Perhaps not for all the world," interposed Agatha; "but for your own
salvation you must do it. Do not thrust the safety of your soul from
you in this way. As Brother Jonathan's wife, you will be a partaker of
his holy life and good works. We are not put into this world to please
ourselves, but to further the progress of the kingdom of God."
"Oh, Sister Agatha, believe me, I will become a nurse for the sick, and
bear all the hardships and trials of such a vocation; only spare
me--spare me this one thing! I cannot give myself to Brother Jonathan.
You must not--you dare not require it of me!" cried the girl, bursting
into tears.
"No, Carmen, I will not compel you, although it grieves me for your
sake," said Agatha. "Go, now, and on your knees examine your heart,
lest you may refuse that which is intended for your greatest good."
And kissing Carmen, she dismissed her.
The hours wore on, and still Sister Agatha remained lost in thought,
wondering what new ideas had been put into that young head. "Perhaps
she was right. Vanity and pride! How frightful the words sound! We
never know ourselves as well as we do others; so, after all, the child
has given me a good lesson. I must look into my own heart more
thoroughly, and be more severe with myself, before I presume to advise
and guide other people. Lord, help me to a right knowledge of my duty
to Thee!"
She extinguished the light, and sought repose from her anxieties.