CORRESPONDENCE
Before Miss Barry's train had reached Chicago, Linda had received a
telegram conveying sympathy from Mrs. Porter. A pile of notes and
letters lay now unopened on her desk. Her sister had read the telegram
at the time of its arrival, and left it on the table beside Linda's
bed, where one day she read it; but the girl refused the least pressure
on her wound from even the most friendly and delicate fingers. This
very afternoon, when, tingling with excitement and antagonism, she
swept from the room, she passed the maid who was at the door, just
bringing in the mail. Somewhat hesitatingly the girl offered the
letters to her young mistress. She and all the other servants stood in
awe of the suffering that had so altered the jolly, careless, imperious
young woman.
Linda, her heart beating tumultuously with its indignation, accepted
the package automatically, and went on upstairs to her room.
She raised her hand to her throat in the effort to stop its choking,
and threw down the letters. The handwriting on the top one was familiar
and full of happy association. Here was one person who loved her, and
understood her, and whose patience had never failed.
With the picture vividly before her of the faces of her scandalized
sister and aunt, she caught up this letter and held it to her breast,
her large gaze fixed straight ahead. The kindly expression, the
humorous smile, the loving eyes of her teacher as they had rested on
her hundreds of times, strove with the other picture. She felt she
could bear to have Mrs. Porter talk to her. She moved to the door and
locked it, conscious suddenly that she was trembling; then she sank
into a chair and opened the letter.
_My dear Linda_ (it began),--
I have waited a full week to write to you because I felt that at first
you wouldn't care to read a letter even from me. Do you notice that
"even"? Yes, I feel sure you love me as I do you, sincerely, and it
gives me courage to talk to you just as if you were lying beside me on
these sun-warmed rocks, with the cool wind trying in spurts to snatch
off the duck hat that is shading my eyes. It can't succeed, for the
hat is tied on with the white veil you gave me. There is a little
scent of orris in it still, marking it as yours, and giving me the
pleasant feeling of one of your "bear's hugs."
I am sorry to be a thousand miles off from my little girl's troubles,
and so all this week I have been trying to know that the opposite of
this sense of separation is the truth; that all that I love in you is
mine still, and that the greater part of what I could do for you if
I were there it is my privilege to do here. The personal touch, the
interchange of loving looks, is dear to our human sense, but sometimes
even these get in the way of the loftier, broader mission which God's
children may perform for one another.
I have been thinking much about your father, a man whose keen sense of
honor, and large charity, will be discerned more and more clearly when
the present confusion is straightened out.
Linda's suddenly blinded eyes closed, and she again held the letter to
her breast a minute before going on.
* * * * *
He is incapable of wrong intention. Do you notice that I say "is"? I
wonder if you are feeling that sense of continuous immortal life which
is your rightful and best comfort at this time. All that you loved
best in your father were traits which your hands could not touch. Your
heart and mind only discerned them. They are yours still, and they
were that real part of him which God sustained and now sustains, and
which were the reflections of His Light and Love.
I cannot touch your body now, any more than if it had ceased to dwell
upon this earth,--any more than you can touch your father's,--but that
makes you no less real to me. My tall little Linda speaks to me in
her generosity, her lovingness, her gayety, as vividly as if you were
beside me this minute, and it would be so if I knew I was never to
look upon your face again. "The flesh profiteth nothing," the Bible
says; and it is one of those lightning flashes of truth that glance
away from us until the trained thought is sensitized to receive it;
but after that, little by little it proves itself.
Perhaps I am talking too long, but please know that I am thinking of
you daily, with thoughts full of love.
The Comforter that Jesus promised us is a real Existence, and
"underneath are the everlasting arms."
"As one whom his mother comforteth so will I comfort you, saith the
Lord." How I love to think of that when I think of my dear girl.
I found those words a few weeks ago on the calendar you gave me, and
now I give the wonderful promise back to you. Say it over to yourself,
dear child, even if you don't now see how or when it will come true,
for His promises are sure. It only rests with us to open our hearts to
receive them.
Your loving friend,
MAUD PORTER.
Linda's lip was caught between her teeth, and her brow frowning, as
she finished reading. She turned the letter back to read again the
sentences about her father. Here was no uncertain note.
She crumpled the sheets between her hands and closed her eyes.
"Oh, God, You have taken away my father. Help us now to clear his name!"
It was a cry from her heart, the first time in all this eternity of
days that her thought had turned to the Higher Power with any feeling
save resentment. She saw her friend lying on the sun-warmed rocks
in the sunlit atmosphere of a joyous June day, longing to help her,
longing to impart to her the sustaining calm of her own faith, and
gratitude woke feebly in her.
She rose, and carried the letter to her bedroom, folding it again in
its envelope. It did not belong in her desk. Such a message from the
woman who had long been her ideal was a thing apart. She placed it in
the back of a drawer in her dresser, and there her hand encountered
a scrap of paper which she drew forth. Its clear lettering stood out
against the ivory-white background.
"Instead of the thorn shall come up the fir tree--"
She read no further. The calendar again! She recalled also that leaf
which in the studio she had marked for Mrs. Porter's reproach:--
"When thy father and thy mother forsake thee, then the Lord will take
thee up."
She dropped the papers and covered her eyes again with her hands.
"Oh, Mother, Mother!" she moaned above her breath. "How could God, if
there is a God, comfort me as you would!"
Supposing immortality, in which every Sunday in church she declared
her belief, were really true. Supposing her father and mother were
together. Supposing her mother were now consoling him for his
mistakes,--for Bertram King's mistakes,--would that thought not bring
consolation? Her worried father! Her lonely father! She sank into a
chair, weeping helplessly. She had worn his pearls and danced, while he
was lonely! If she could only die and go to her father and mother. Life
here was ruined, and no one needed her. Harriet was engrossed with her
family. Aunt Belinda's heart was in her home, stern duty alone holding
her in this place.
After a few minutes the mourner lifted her bowed head, pulled a sheet
of paper toward her, and wrote:--
* * * * *
I am bleeding. Please write to me again.
LINDA.
When she had addressed the note to Mrs. Porter, she washed her face
and made herself ready for the tête-à-tête dinner with her aunt, which
would shortly be served in her sitting-room. She had never entered the
dining-room since the last meal she ate there with her father.
She set her door open in order that Aunt Belinda should not be afraid
to come in, and shortly the much-tried lady did appear, her lips set in
a line of endurance. Miss Barry had never approved less of her niece
than at the moment of the girl's exit from that business interview. She
gave a sharp glance now at her, sitting as usual with eyes gazing from
the window at nothing, and hands loosely folded in her lap.
"Harriet left her good-bye for you," she said. "She had to hurry home
for Harry's supper."
"Yes," responded Linda.
Miss Belinda sat down, and the gaze she fixed on her niece waited for
an explanation or an apology. None came.
Miss Barry cleared her throat. "Harriet wishes to put herself on
record," she said distinctly, "as entirely disowning any such feeling
toward Mr. King as you expressed."
"You know he is her husband's cousin," returned Linda passively. "One
must keep harmony in a family."
"More than that, Linda Barry," continued her aunt crisply, "that young
man would have had to be guilty of designing your father's downfall to
deserve such words and such a manner as yours."
The girl eyed the speaker steadily, and again the fire of excitement
glowed in her look.
"You saw that he could not answer my question."
"I saw that he would not."
"It would be a good plan for you to talk with some of the prominent
business men of the town," remarked Linda, the light going out of her
eyes.
"I don't need any business man to tell me that that poor boy is about
used up--and in whose service, pray? Answer me that, Linda Barry."
"Mammon," was the sententious reply.
"Pshaw!" ejaculated her aunt. "A clever man like your father didn't
trust that man for no reason. Harriet's and my heart just ached for
the poor fellow this afternoon. I thought for a minute after you went
out that he was going to faint."
"Yes," returned Linda listlessly; "I suppose he had been sure no one
would hold him in any way responsible."
The servant here came in to spread the little table for dinner, while
Miss Barry, her hands tightly locked together, gave her indignant
thoughts free rein, and followed Bertram King to his room at the club.
Had she really been able to see him, she would have witnessed his
finding upon his arrival a letter in Mrs. Porter's handwriting.
His white, stoical face did not change while he read it:--
* * * * *
_Dear Bertram_,--
I want to send you a few lines to the club, because I feel sure there
will be a quieter atmosphere there than at the office these troublous
days. There is never an hour in which my thoughts do not go to you
and Linda, fellow sufferers and both so dear to me. I can scarcely
wait for the day when your duties will let you leave Chicago and come
here. Doubtless Linda will arrive soon, and here you will both find
healing for your sorrow, and if it is right, find each other. She will
have a double reason for nearness to you as the chief earthly link
with her dear father, and here in this simplicity and quiet the real
things of life are more easily discernible. Complications seem to have
no place in these broad, harmonious spaces, and both you dear ones can
forget the fevers of sorrowful excitement.
Let me hear from you.
Yours as ever,
MAUD.
It was by return mail that Mrs. Porter received the answer to this
letter. She opened it with eagerness:--
* * * * *
_Dear Maud_,--
Thank you for your letter and far more for your affection. It is some
comfort, while I am locking horns with enemies, or endeavoring to
untangle labyrinths, to know that there's a good little woman ready to
coddle me when I have time to be coddled.
I see you remember the heart-to-heart talk you drew me into one
day--and I admit I was easy to draw. Now I ask you to forget all that
I said if you can. My wishes and plans have undergone a complete
change, and I am glad you are the only person living who knows what my
designs and hopes were, for they have vanished.
Pardon brevity. I'm "that druv," as your Maine friends would have it,
that I don't know whether I'm afoot or horseback. I'll look forward,
however, to an hour when you and I can elope to some Arcadia for a few
weeks, and I'll let you know when such a day looms on the horizon.
Your devoted cousin,
BERTRAM.
Mrs. Porter's face had slowly undergone a change from eagerness to
dazed and sad surprise.
"I wouldn't have believed it!" she soliloquized, as she let the sheet
fall. "People have so often said that Bertram cared for the dollar mark
above all else, but I laughed at them. How I hope she doesn't care! How
I hope it!"