"YOU BRAVE GIRL!"
They told me afterward that this was a daring feat, and fraught with
awful peril, for in that painful groping in the darkness I might have
lost my balance and fallen back into the water.
I was conscious of this at the time; but we cannot die until our hour
is come, and in youth one's faith is more simple and trusting; to pray
is to be heard, to grasp more tightly by the mantle of His Providence,
so I committed myself to Heaven, and crept slowly along the face of the
rock. In two or three minutes I felt cold air blowing down upon my
face, and, raising myself cautiously, I found I was standing under an
aperture, large enough for me to crawl through, which led to the downs.
For one moment I breathed the fresh night air and caught the glimmer of
starlight, and then I crept back to the children.
Flurry was awake and weeping piteously, and Dot was trying to comfort
her in a sleepy voice; but she was quiet the moment I told them about
the hole.
"I must leave you behind, Dot," I said, sorrowfully, "and take Flurry
first;" and the brave little fellow said:
"All right, Essie," and held back the dog, who was whining to follow.
I put my arm round Flurry, and made her promise not to lose hold of the
rock. The poor child was dreadfully frightened, and stopped every now
and then, crying out in horror that she was falling into the water, but
I held her fast and coaxed her to go on again; and all the time the
clammy dews of terror stood on my forehead. Never to my dying day shall
I forget those terrible moments.
But we were mercifully preserved, and to my joy I felt the winds of
heaven blowing round us, and in another moment Flurry had crawled
through the hole in the rock, and was sitting shivering on the grass.
"Now I must go back for Dot and Flossy," I exclaimed; but as I spoke
and tried to disengage myself from Flurry's nervous grasp, I heard a
little voice below.
"I am here, Essie, and I have got Flossy all safe. Just stoop down and
take him, and then I shall clamber up all right."
"Oh, my darling, how could you?" The courageous child had actually
dragged himself with the dog under one arm all along the dangerous
path, to spare me another journey.
I could scarcely speak, but I covered his cold little face with kisses
as he tottered painfully into my arms--my precious boy, my brave,
unselfish Dot!
"I could not bring the crutches or the cloak, Essie," he whispered.
"Never mind them," I replied, with a catch in my voice. "You are safe;
we are all safe--that is all I can take in. I must carry you, Dot, and
Flurry shall hold my dress, and we shall soon be home."
"Where is your hat, Essie?" he asked, putting up his hand to my hair.
It was true I was bareheaded, and yet I had never missed it. My cloak
lay below in the cavern. What a strange sight I must have presented if
any one could have seen us! My hair was blowing loosely about my face;
my dress seemed to cling round my feet.
How awfully dark and desolate the downs looked under that dim, starry
light. Only the uncertain glimmer enabled me to keep from the cliffs or
discern the right path. The heavy booming of the sea and the wind
together drowned our voices. When it lulled I could hear Flurry sobbing
to herself in the darkness, and Flossy, whining for company, as he
followed us closely. Poor Dot was spent and weary, and lay heavily
against my shoulder. Every now and then I had to stop and gather
strength, for I felt strangely weak, and there was an odd beating at my
heart. Dot must have heard my panting breath, for he begged me more
than once to put him down and leave him, but I would not.
My strength was nearly gone when we reached the shelving path leading
down to the cottage, but I still dragged on. A stream of light came
full upon us as we turned the corner; it came from the cottage.
The door was wide open and the parlor blinds were raised, and the ruddy
gleam of lamplight and firelight streamed full on our faces.
No one saw us as we toiled up the pebbled path; no one waited for us in
the porch. I have a faint recollection that I stood in the hall,
looking round me for a moment in a dazed fashion; that Flossy barked,
and a door burst open; there was a wave of light, and a man's voice
saying something. I felt myself swaying with Dot in my arms; but some
one must have caught us, for when I came to myself I was lying on the
couch by the drawing-room fire, and Miss Ruth was kneeling beside me
raining tears over my face.
"And Dot!" I tried to move and could not, and fell back on my pillow.
"The children!" I gasped, and there was a sudden movement in the room,
and Mr. Lucas stood over me with his child in his arms. Was it my
fancy, or were there tears in his eyes, too?
"They are here, Esther," he said, in a soothing voice. "Nurse is taking
care of your boy." And then he burst out, "Oh, you brave girl! you
noble girl!" in a voice of strong emotion, and turned away.
"Hush, Giles, we must keep her quiet," admonished his sister. "We do
not know what the poor thing has been through, but she is as cold as
ice. And feel how soaking her hair is!"
Had it rained? I suppose it had, but then the children must be wet too!
Miss Ruth must have noticed my anxious look, for she kissed me and
whispered:
"Don't worry, Esther; we have fires and hot baths ready. Nurse and the
others will attend to the children; they will soon be warmed and in
bed. Let me dry your hair and rub your cold hands; and drink this, and
you will soon be able to move."
The cordial and food they gave me revived my numb faculties, and in a
little while I was able, with assistance, to go to my room. Miss Ruth
followed me, and tenderly helped me to remove my damp things; but I
would not lie down in my warm bed until I had seen with my own eyes
that Flurry was already soundly asleep and Dot ready to follow her
example.
"Isn't it delicious?" he whispered, drowsily, as I kissed him; and then
Miss Ruth led me back to my room, and tucked me up and sat down beside
me.
"Now tell me all about it," she said, "and then you will be able to
sleep." For a strong excitement had succeeded the faintness, and in
spite of my aching limbs and weariness I had a sensation as though I
could fly.
But when I told her she only shuddered and wept, and before I had half
narrated the history of those dismal hours she was down on her knees
beside the bed, kissing my hands.
"Do let me," she sobbed, as I remonstrated. "Oh, Esther, how I love
you! How I must always love you for this!"
"No, I am not Miss Ruth any longer; I am Ruth. I am your own friend and
sister, who would do anything to show her gratitude. You dear
girl!--you brave girl!--as Giles called you."
This brought to my lips the question, "How had Mr. Lucas borne this
dreadful suspense?"
"As badly as possible," she answered, drying her eyes. "Oh, Esther!
what we have all been through. Giles came in half an hour after you
left to search the shore. He was in a dreadful state, as you may
imagine. He sent down to the Preventive station at once, and there was
a boat got ready, and he went with the men. They pulled up and down for
an hour or two, but could find no trace of you."
"We were in the cavern all the time," I murmured.
"That was the strangest part of all," she returned. "Giles remembered
the cavern, and they went right into the mouth, and called as loudly as
they could."
"We did not hear them; the wind was making such a noise, and it was so
dark."
"The men gave up all hope at last, and Giles was obliged to come back.
He walked into the house looking as white as death. 'It is all over,'
he said; 'the tide has overtaken them, and that girl is drowned with
them.' And then he gave a sort of sob, and buried his face in his
hands. I turned so faint that for a little time he was obliged to
attend to me, but when I was better he got up and left the house. It
did not seem as though he could rest from the search, and yet he had
not the faintest glimmer of hope. He would have the cottage illuminated
and the door left open, and then he lighted his lantern and walked up
and down the cliffs, and every time he came back his poor face looked
whiter and more drawn. I had got hold of his hand, and was trying to
keep him from wandering out again, when all at once we heard Flossy
bark. Giles burst open the door, and then he gave a great cry, for
there you were, my poor Esther, standing under the hall lamp, with your
hair streaming over your shoulders and Dot in your arms, and Flurry
holding your dress, and you looked at us and did not seem to see us,
and Giles was just in time to catch you as you were reeling. He had you
all in his arms at once," finished Miss Ruth, with another sob, "till I
took our darling Flurry from him, and then he laid you down and carried
Dot to the fire."
"If I could not have saved them I would have died with them; you knew
that, Miss Ruth."
"Ruth," she corrected. "Yes, I knew that, and so did Giles. He said
once or twice, 'She is strong enough or sensible enough to save them if
it were possible, but no one can fight against fate.' Now I must go
down to him, for he is waiting to hear all about it, and you must go to
sleep, Esther, for your eyes are far too bright."
But, greatly to her surprise and distress, I resisted this advice and
broke out into frightened sobs. The sea was in my ears, I said, when I
tried to close my eyes, and my arms felt empty without Dot and I could
not believe he was safe, though she told me so over and over again.
I was greatly amazed at my own want of control; but nothing could
lessen this nervous excitement until Mr. Lucas came up to the door, and
Miss Ruth went out to him in sore perplexity.
"What am I to do, Giles? I cannot soothe her in the least."
"Let her have the child," he returned, in his deep voice; "she will
sleep then." And he actually fetched little Dot and put him in Miss
Ruth's arms.
"Isn't it nice, Essie?" he muttered sleepily, as he nestled against me.
It was strange, but the moment my arm was round him, and I felt his
soft breathing against my shoulder, my eyelids closed of their own
accord, and a sense of weariness and security came over me.
Before many minutes were over I had fallen into a deep sleep, and Miss
Ruth was free to seek her brother and give him the information for
which he was longing.
It was nearly five in the morning when I closed my eyes, and it was
exactly the same time on the following afternoon when I opened them.
My first look was for Dot, but he was gone, the sun was streaming in at
the window, a bright fire burned in the grate, and Nurse Gill was
sitting knitting in the sunshine.
She looked up with a pleasant smile on her homely face as I called to
her rather feebly.
"How you have slept, to be sure, Miss Esther--a good twelve hours. But
I always say Nature is a safe nurse, and to be trusted. There's Master
Dot has been up and dressed these three hours and more, and Miss Flurry
too."
"Oh, Nurse Gill, are you sure they are all right?" I asked, for it was
almost too good news to be true.
"Master Dot is as right as possible, though he is a little palish, and
complains of his back and legs, which is only to be expected if they do
ache a bit. Miss Flurry has a cold, but we could not induce her to lie
in bed; she is sitting by the fire now on her father's knee, and Master
Dot is with them: but there, Miss Ruth said she was to be called as
soon as you woke, Miss Esther, though I did beg her not to put herself
about, and her head so terribly bad as it has been all day."
"Oh, nurse, don't disturb her," I pleaded, eagerly, "I am quite well,
there is nothing the matter with me. I want to get up this moment and
dress myself;" for a great longing came over me to join the the little
group downstairs.
"Not so fast, Miss Esther," she returned, good-humoredly. "You've had a
fine sleep, to be sure, and young things will stand a mortal amount of
fatigue; but there isn't a speck of color in your face, my poor lamb.
Well, well," as I showed signs of impatience--"I won't disturb Miss
Ruth, but I will fetch you some coffee and bread-and-butter, and we
will see how you will feel then."
Mrs. Gill was a dragon in her way, so I resigned myself to her
peremptory kindness. When she trotted off on her charitable errand, I
leaned on my elbow and looked out of the window. It was Sunday evening,
I remembered, and the quiet peacefulness of the scene was in strangest
contrast to the horrors of yesterday; the wind had lulled, and the big
curling waves ceased to look terrible in the sunlight; the white spray
tossed lightly hither and thither, and the long line of dark seaweed
showed prettily along the yellow sands. The bitter war of winds and
waves was over, and the defeated enemy had retired with spent fury, and
sunk into silence. Could it be a dream? had we really lived through
that dreadful nightmare? But at this moment Nurse Gill interrupted the
painful retrospect by placing the fragrant coffee and brown
bread-and-butter before me.
I ate and drank eagerly, to please myself as well as her, and then I
reiterated my intention to get up. It cost me something, however, to
persevere in my resolution. My limbs trembled under me, and seemed to
refuse their support in the strangest way, and the sight of my pale
face almost frightened me, and I was grateful to Nurse Gill when she
took the brush out of my shaking hand and proceeded to manipulate the
long tangled locks.
"You are no more fit than a baby to dress yourself, Miss Esther," said
the good old creature, in a vexed voice. "And to think of drowning all
this beautiful hair. Why, there is seaweed in it I do declare, like a
mermaid."
"The rocks were covered with it," I returned, in a weary indifferent
voice; for Mrs. Gill's officiousness tired me, and I longed to free
myself from her kindly hands.
When I was dressed, I crept very slowly downstairs. My courage was
oozing away fast, and I rather dreaded all the kind inquiries that
awaited me. But I need not have been afraid.
Dot clapped his hands when he saw me, and Mr. Lucas put down Flurry and
came to meet me.
"You ought not to have exerted yourself," he said, reproachfully, as
soon as he looked at me; and then he took hold of me and placed me in
the armchair, and Flurry brought me a footstool and sat down on it, Dot
climbed up on the arm of the chair and propped himself against me, and
Miss Ruth rose softly from her couch and came across the room and
kissed me.
"Oh, Esther, how pale you look!" she said, anxiously.
"She will soon have her color back again," returned Mr. Lucas, looking
at me kindly. I think he wanted to say something, but the sight of my
weakness deterred him. I could not have borne a word. The tears were
very near the surface now, so near that I could only close my eyes and
lean my head against Dot; and, seeing this, they very wisely left me
alone. I recovered myself by-and-by, and was able to listen to the talk
that went on around me. The children's tongues were busy as usual;
Flurry had gone back to her father, and she and Dot were keeping up a
brisk fire of conversation across the hearth-rug. I could not see Mr.
Lucas' face, as he had moved to a dark corner, but Miss Ruth's couch
was drawn full into the firelight, and I could see the tears glistening
on her cheek.
"Don't talk any more about it, my darlings," she said at last. "I feel
as though I should never sleep again, and I am sure it is bad for
Esther."
"It does not hurt me," I returned, softly. "I suppose shipwrecked
sailors like to talk over the dangers they escape; somehow everything
seems so far away and strange to-night, as though it had happened
months ago." But though I said this I could not help the nervous thrill
that seemed to pass over me now and then.
"Shall I read to you a little?" interrupted Mr. Lucas, quietly. "The
children's talk tires your head;" and without waiting for an answer, he
commenced reading some of my favorite hymns and a lovely poem, in a low
mellow voice that was very pleasant and soothing.
Nurse came to fetch Flurry, and then Dot went too, but Mr. Lucas did
not put down the book for a long time. I had ceased to follow the
words; the flicker of the firelight played fitfully before my eyes. The
quiet room, the shaded lamplight, the measured cadence of the reader's
voice, now rising, now falling, lulled me most pleasantly. I must have
fallen asleep at last, for Flossy woke me by pushing his black nose
into my hand; for when I sat up and rubbed my eyes Mr. Lucas was gone,
and only Miss Ruth was laughing softly as she watched me.
"Giles went away half an hour ago," she said amused at my perplexed
face. "He was so pleased when he looked up and found you were asleep. I
believe your pale face frightened him, but I shall tell him you look
much better now."
"My head feels less bewildered," was my answer.
"You are beginning to recover yourself," she returned, decidedly; "now
you must be a good child and go to bed;" and I rose at once.
As I opened the drawing-room door, Mr. Lucas came out from his study.
"Were you going to give me the slip?" he said, pleasantly. "I wanted to
bid you good-by, as I shall be off in the morning before you are awake."
"Good by," I returned, rather shyly, holding out my hand; but he kept
it a moment longer than usual.
"Esther, you must let me thank you," he said, abruptly. "I know but for
you I must have lost my child. A man's gratitude for such a mercy is a
strong thing, and you may count me your friend as long as I live."
"You are very good," I stammered, "but I have done nothing; and there
was Dot, you know." I am afraid I was very awkward, but I dreaded his
speaking to me so, and the repressed emotion of his face and voice
almost frightened me.
"There, I have made you quite pale again," he said, regretfully. "Your
nerves have not recovered from the shock. Well, we will speak of this
again; good-night, my child, and sleep well," and with another kind
smile he left me.