CHAPTER XX

Alfred returned home that night. He had been away at a race-meeting, but

the day, so far as he was concerned, had proved a failure, and an

injudicious attempt later to neutralize matters by a game of cards had

been hardly more successful. He didn’t know where the deuce the money

was to come from, and it somehow did not tend to put him in any

pleasanter mood to discover his father waiting up. His marriage too had

begun to weigh upon Alfred’s mind. From many points of view it was

unsatisfactory. The girl, he still felt, was worth it, but it had

serious drawbacks, and their meetings at present were accompanied by

nearly all the disadvantages and discomforts attendant on illicit loves.

What was the use of being married, thought Alfred, when you have to

behave as if you weren’t? He felt that he must make his position known

on the first suitable opportunity.

As he came in from the obscurity outside, the strong light in the

dining-room dazzled him, and he was conscious that he did not show to

advantage. The fact naturally irritated him, for he was not at all so

drunk as he knew for a minute or two he must appear to be. Mr. Bracknel,

his hands under the tails of his coat, his back against the

chimney-piece, watched him with considerable interest. The rest of the

family had gone to bed.

“Well,” Mr. Bracknel remarked genially, “I hope you’ve had a pleasant

day?”

“Very,” answered Alfred, making a sudden, plunging movement to get out

of the room. The opportune moment to tell his tale had not yet arrived,

and he knew nothing of Rhoda’s betrayal.

“I’m glad to hear that, but you’d better wait a moment; I’ve something

to say to you. I’ve been hearing some news about you--quite unexpected

news--bright and festive news I might call it.”

His father’s manner was highly disagreeable, and Alfred paused at the

door without turning round. “What have you been hearing?” he asked

shortly.

“About your increased responsibilities,” said Mr. Bracknel in the same

tone of sinister geniality.

A dark flush overspread Alfred’s heavy face, and a vicious spark of

light showed itself in his dull little eyes; but he knew that he must be

propitiating, that it was his only chance. “What responsibilities?” he

asked, trying to throw into his voice an amiability he was far from

feeling.

“I mean the responsibilities which are always incurred by matrimony.”

Mr. Bracknel spoke in soft purring fashion as he swayed his coat-tails

gently up and down. The cheerfulness of his words, their prolonged

sarcasm, had an intensely exasperating effect upon his son.

“Who told you I was married?” Alfred asked thickly.

“Your wife’s aunt,” replied Mr. Bracknel, with great relish. “Your

wife’s aunt.” He repeated the words, rolling them on his tongue, as if

he took a particular pleasure in their sound. “You might at least have

given us a chance of going to the wedding or of offering you a present!

I hear you were married in church, with the greatest regularity. Well,

well; of course you know your own affairs best.”

Alfred said nothing and there was a silence till his father broke it

once more: “How do you propose to live? What are your plans?” He rubbed

his hands softly together and smiled. “What do you propose to do; but

possibly such questions are indiscreet?”

“We haven’t settled yet. We were going to keep it quiet for a time.” It

may seem strange, but Alfred had calculated that his father, once he got

used to the idea of the marriage, would probably put him in a position

to support his wife in reasonable comfort. He now saw these hopes

rapidly dwindling. “I suppose she wormed it out of her,” he added

gloomily, alluding to Mrs. Brooke and Rhoda.

“I don’t know--I don’t know, I’m sure, what particular method was

employed. By the way, your salary is two hundred, isn’t it?”

“It is--at present.”

“At present?” His father grew positively radiant. “Ah, I see. You have

something better in view: you are thinking of leaving us--thinking of

leaving us.... _Not_ thinking of leaving? Oh well, of course it isn’t

impossible to live on two hundred. People do it: though you may find it

difficult at first. These little excursions such as you have just

returned from to-night, for instance--these pleasant, harmless little

excursions I should think must be rather imprudent for a man in your

position and with your ties. You see, you will have to allow for so many

things--house-rent for example--unless you propose to live with your

aunt?”

“I don’t propose doing so,” Alfred muttered. The flush on his face

deepened, spreading over his neck and ears and up to the roots of his

hair.

“I see. You will take a little house, then?--a little villa,

perhaps?--one of those little villas with a porch and a glass door and a

name on the gate. I shouldn’t advise you to spend too much on it. A

small house in a street, where your wife will not be too far away from

her aunt, might be best. I am sorry your abilities, and the intermittent

attention which is all you are able to find for business, do not allow

me to offer you a better position.”

Alfred’s mouth began to twitch. “No, I should think you would want to

keep anything of that sort for your bastard.”

A silence followed these words, a silence in which the ticking of the

clock became audible--a creak from the stairs--then nothing but the

ticking of the clock. The father and the son still faced each other, but

Mr. Bracknel’s geniality had departed. When he spoke again there was an

icy note in his voice: “Well, I needn’t detain you any longer. Of course

you know your own affairs best.”

Alfred did not move. He was conscious that he had burned his ships with

a vengeance. Also, for a moment, he was a little shocked by the sound of

his own words, though now that he had spoken them he would have liked

them to have had more effect. His father’s apparent indifference--he had

neither started nor changed colour--bewildered him. Could there be any

mistake? He had received his information from Rhoda in the intimacy of a

long discussion of their mutual affairs which had taken place the day

after their wedding. It had been startling, but he had almost instantly

recognized its truth. There was that in it which one _could_ recognize.

Had not Rhoda herself made it all out independently, even if with more

to go upon than he had had? For him there had been nothing save an undue

favouritism, and a physical resemblance, extraordinary, though not

obvious, though not striking indeed perhaps, save to the completely

initiated. But this resemblance had flashed upon him the instant she had

spoken, and he found himself referring to it now, as if for

corroboration, as if for support. Yes; it was there; he believed in it.

And simultaneously he discovered that he had something else to say,

something which had been bottled up for a long time within him and which

an exasperated sense of injury, of accumulated wrong, gave him now the

necessary eloquence to express. “You’ve treated me badly from the

beginning; you’ve treated me meanly, and you’ve favoured John Brooke.

I’ve never had a chance. I have been kept down and he has been pushed

forward. You have never given me any authority in the place. I’m nothing

more than any of the clerks for all the position I’ve got; and then you

grumble at me because I don’t take an interest in the drudgery that you

give me to do. What chance have I ever had to take an interest? I can’t

do anything without coming to you first to get your permission. That’s

what you like. You like everybody to go down on their knees and lick

your boots.” His flow of words suddenly subsided. He could get no

further though his father waited for him to go on. Mr. Bracknel was

perfectly patient, even gravely attentive.

“If you have no authority,” he replied calmly, “it is because you have

never shown yourself fit to have any. And, as for John Brooke, he isn’t

drawing as much pay as you are.”

“I don’t care what he’s drawing. I’m quite sure you give him as little

as you can, though he _is_ your favourite. He has a position all the

same, and I haven’t. He does things on his own account and everybody

recognizes him. He has responsibilities: he isn’t a machine. I’ve heard

you asking him for his opinion when I was standing by, but of course not

worth talking to; and others have heard it too. That’s the sort of thing

I’ve had to put up with ever since he came into the place.”

“And why _should_ I ask your opinion?” Mr. Bracknel put it to him, with

a sort of crushing, brutal deliberateness. “What sort of value do you

imagine it has? You surely know that if you were not my son I wouldn’t

have you in the place an hour longer than I could help! All you have

ever done there has been to set an example of idleness and dissipation.

Where have you been all day? What did you do when I sent you out to

Switzerland? It has been the same story from the beginning. Cards,

betting, drinking, and I don’t know what less mentionable

pursuits--these are what have occupied your mind. It is only your

constitution that has saved you from being at this moment as great a

wreck physically as you are mentally and morally. Do you seriously

expect me to entrust my business to men of your stamp?”

“Oh, damn you and your business,” said Alfred violently. “I hope you’ll

take it to hell with you.” He turned on his heel, but on the threshold

he met his mother standing there, pale and frightened, clad in a long,

dark dressing-gown.

“Oh Alfred!” she murmured, horrified. “How could you speak so to your

father!”

But Alfred only muttered something incoherent as he pushed past her and

on upstairs.

Mrs. Bracknel entered the dining-room. In her long, flowing gown she

seemed shadowy, hardly human. Mr. Bracknel’s air of indifference had

dropped from him; he regarded her in sombre silence; but since he did

not repulse her, which she had half expected him to do, she ventured to

draw nearer.

“What is the matter, James?” she asked in a low voice that trembled

slightly.

Mr. Bracknel was in a humour when it was a relief to have somebody to

whom he could unburden himself.

“The matter?” he answered bitterly. “The matter is that he has done for

himself.”

“Done for himself?” a vague vision of some dire deed floated before her

mind, though without taking any precise form.

“He’s married,” said her husband laconically, “married a type-writing

girl out of the office, that’s all.” He uttered the words with a kind of

gloomy contempt, and Mrs. Bracknel gave a sigh of relief. The poor lady

had imagined something infinitely worse.

“But when was it? To-day?”

“Oh, a day or two ago. What does it matter when?”

“And you didn’t know anything? You didn’t----”

He looked at her angrily. “Of course I didn’t know. Do you think I’m a

fool? They took precious good care that I didn’t know. A silly little

doll with a pretty face and the brains of a chicken.”

“But is she--is she a nice girl?--is she a good girl?”

“Oh, damn her,” said Mr. Bracknel. “I don’t know how nice she is. Nice

enough for him, I daresay.”

“But is Alfred fond of her--what does he say about it all?”

“Fond of her! What do you mean by ‘fond of her?’ You don’t think he

married her for her position, do you? Whether he’s fond of her or not,

he’ll be sick of her at the end of a month, and God help her then!” He

looked straight before him with unmitigated pessimism.

“Oh, don’t say such dreadful things!” Mrs. Bracknel quavered. “Why

should he be like that?”

“Because he’s a brute and she’s a fool.” He spoke thickly, which was a

sign that he was much agitated, but quietly, and even with a sort of

gloomy fatalism. “What’s the use of sentimentalizing about it? You ought

to know him well enough by this time, though he _is_ your son! At any

rate, if you don’t, I do.” And he began again to pace up and down the

room.

His wife watched him for some moments in a kind of fascinated silence.

Then she asked timidly. “What are they going to do?”

Mr. Bracknel smiled mirthlessly. “They’re going to be sorry they ever

saw each other. They’re going to live in a squalid little house till

they hate the very sight of each other. God knows what they’re going to

do! Alfred can’t afford to keep her at any rate--with his tastes, and on

his salary.”

Mrs. Bracknel’s gentle countenance was filled with trouble. She sank

into a chair. “But where is she now?” she asked helplessly.

“She’s at her aunt’s, I suppose. Where else would she be? She’ll have to

go on living there unless he takes a house.”

“She has no father or mother then?”

“It appears not: it’s the one redeeming thing about her.”

Mrs. Bracknel sighed. She tried to see some ray of light in all these

gloomy pictures, but she had not yet had time to take in the full

significance of what had happened. “Perhaps she is a nice girl,” she

murmured, with a weak return to her former position. “After all, we

don’t know her, do we?”

Mr. Bracknel broke into a laugh. “If she was a nice girl she wouldn’t

have married Alfred.”

“But we don’t know her,” his wife repeated. She was beginning to resent

these attacks upon her son. Surely he had not committed a crime in

getting married.

“_I_ know her--as well as I’ll ever know her. She’ll never cross this

door: you may put away any idea of that sort.”

“Do you think she entrapped Alfred, then? Do you think----”

“I don’t know what she did. She hasn’t drawn a prize at all events,

though I suppose she thought it worth the risk. I can’t live for ever,

of course, and then it will be all right.”

“But we must do something for them in the meantime, mustn’t we?” Mrs.

Bracknel pleaded.

“Must we? I’m pretty sure we won’t. Fortunately you’ve no money of your

own to waste on them.”

“But why are you so severe? Is she--is there anything against her

character?”

If he had wanted to, he could have told her why he was severe, he could

have repeated to her the remark her son had let fall, have repeated

those few words, for he remembered them perfectly, they still rang in

his mind, in spite of the fact that he had been able, apparently, to

ignore them; those words that had sounded like a menace, but a menace he

would never yield to. “I tell you I know the type,” was all he said. “If

he had married some simple country girl, it would have been different.

But a girl like this--no, it won’t do.”

“But now that it _has_ happened,” Mrs. Bracknel wonderfully persisted,

“mustn’t we make the best of it? You can’t cast Alfred off. If you

allowed----”

“I won’t allow him a penny more than his salary. He’s overpaid as it

is.” Suddenly he sat down in a chair. The colour faded from his face and

he began to breathe queerly. His wife flew to his assistance, but in a

minute or two he was better and able to get on his feet again. “I’m not

going to lose my night’s sleep over it either, whoever else may,” he

added, with a poor attempt to carry off his curious collapse. But his

face was still colourless and a perspiration had broken out on his

forehead. He moved a little uncertainly across the room and up the

stairs, leaning heavily on the banisters. Mrs. Bracknel followed him

closely.

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