CHAPTER V

Left to himself, Rusk of course took a closer survey of his room. It

appeared to him to be extremely comfortable, giving, as Denis had said,

on to the lawn at the side of the house, and with a couple of large

casement windows that might prove draughty in winter but were very

delightful just now. He opened them wide, leaning far out into a night

as soft as velvet and breathing the coolness of the air, as he

considered the rather startling climax to his first evening with the

Bracknels. He detested scenes; emotional outbursts of any kind made him

feel uncomfortable, and this one had been so especially crude, and he

himself, through no fault of his own, had been so unpleasantly mixed up

with it. He had disagreeable imaginings of what might happen in the

future. It was evident that he must be remarkably careful. Difficulties

of this particular kind naturally had not been among those he had

contemplated when he had accepted his post, and he felt they were the

ones with which he was least able to deal. He was still at the window

and still engaged with these thoughts when he fancied he heard someone

tapping at his door. He drew in his head and shoulders. “Come in,” he

cried, taking a step toward the centre of the room. The door opened and

Mrs. Bracknel appeared. She entered softly and begged his pardon for

having disturbed him. “I came to see if you have everything you want,”

she said in her low sweet voice. “You must tell me if there is anything

I can do to make you more comfortable.”

“I am sure I shall be perfectly comfortable, thank you,” Rusk replied,

feeling slightly embarrassed. “It all seems very nice,” he went on, as

she still stood there. “I was just looking out into the garden.”

“It is very quiet in the moonlight,” Mrs. Bracknel murmured. “But I am

disturbing you, Mr. Rusk.”

“No, no--not at all,” Rusk hastened to assure her, as if a conversation

with Mrs. Bracknel were the one thing he had been pining for. A pause

followed this remark.

“I thought I should like to talk to you for a minute or two, if you

don’t mind, and it occurred to me that this would be a good time, but of

course it will do perfectly well in the morning. I’m afraid my not being

a very good sleeper myself sometimes makes me inconsiderate of other

people. Do tell me if you are too tired.”

“Not at all--not at all,” Rusk again replied. “Besides, it’s quite

early, isn’t it? As a matter of fact I always read for an hour or so

before turning in.”

“Then if I’m not keeping you from bed I’m keeping you from your book,

which is just as bad. However, I shan’t be long.... I wanted to speak to

you about Denis.”

Rusk felt relieved, he didn’t quite know why. He recognized now from

whom his pupil had got the sweetness of his smile. Mrs. Bracknel seemed

different when her husband was not present. “Won’t you sit down?” he

asked, pushing forward the armchair. She accepted it, and he himself

took a less comfortable seat at the foot of the bed.

“You are very young, Mr. Rusk, aren’t you?” she began, softly.

“I’m twenty-three,” Rusk said.

“Yes! I should have thought you were even younger. It makes it so much

easier for me to say what I am going to say when I remember your age.

If you were ten years older I should be afraid that you might snub me

for interfering.”

“Oh, I hope I shouldn’t do that,” answered Rusk. He was still a little

shy, a little nervous, and his manner had a certain involuntary

stiffness that he was himself conscious of.

“I know Mr. Bracknel has already spoken to you about Denis, and I expect

he told you that he had been at school, and that he had had several

tutors, and that he was hard to manage--didn’t he? And he told you that

you must be very strict?”

“He did say something of the sort,” Rusk admitted artlessly.

“Yes; I know he looks at it in that way, and I suppose it is natural

that he should. But there are some things, Mr. Rusk, a boy’s father does

not understand so well as his mother.”

“A good many, I should say,” replied Rusk, gallantly. “I expect fathers

are nearly always wrong.” He could see that she was very anxious about

something, but he did not know quite how to reassure her. “I think it

will be all right,” he went on at a venture, and already feeling more at

his ease. “I mean to say, I don’t think you need be afraid.” He paused

for a moment, and then added with a heightened colour, “I’m fairly

decent, you know; and at any rate I like him.”

Mrs. Bracknel’s thin, transparent hands were crossed on her lap, and her

large, dark, gentle eyes rested on the honest, comely face of the young

man before her. He felt a certain pity for her, she looked so

excessively fragile; and he noticed that her lips were quite bloodless.

He felt suddenly in sympathy with her.

“It is because I thought I saw that you liked him, Mr. Rusk, that I

wanted to talk to you about him. We have not been very successful up to

the present in finding anyone for him. He was at school for a few

months--at a school in the south of England. It was near the sea, and we

thought it might make him stronger, but he was most unhappy there, and

he got ill, very ill--in fact the doctor thought he could not recover.

Then we tried having him taught at home, but somehow things have not

gone very well up to the present. His tutors did not seem to understand

him, and he did not like them. Of course I am sure he was often very

trying, and I should not have been surprised if they had lost patience

with him now and then; but I really think they did not understand him.

He is a good boy; he is very affectionate and sweet-tempered, but he is

a little different from other boys, I suppose; and he sometimes does

strange things. Still----”

“We all do strange things now and then,” Rusk observed optimistically.

“His father gets angry with him and punishes him--but it is not good for

him; I know, in fact, that it does him harm. Denis has taken a liking to

you, Mr. Rusk. I saw it at dinner, though he did not open his lips--but

that was only because he was shy.”

“Oh, I’m sure we’ll get on famously,” Rusk said. His young cheerful

voice gave almost the effect of a promise to his words. “I don’t see why

in the world we shouldn’t?”

Mrs. Bracknel smiled. “I just thought it might be better to tell you a

little about him--that it might make it easier for you.”

“Thank you very much: I’m sure it will.”

“I don’t wish to make excuses for him, of course--but sometimes there

are such things as good excuses. Don’t you think so, Mr. Rusk?”

“Of course there are,” said Rusk boldly. “I’m obliged to use a good many

myself.”

Mrs. Bracknel regarded him gravely, with sweet, gentle, serious eyes,

before which his little joke somehow faded away.

“At school, for instance, and here at home, too, he was always getting

into trouble--about his lessons, about not working better, about other

things. I daresay he is inclined to be a little idle, and I know he is

often absent-minded, and careless about being in time for meals, and

other things of that sort: but there is something, I think, at the back

of it all. When he was a child, I remember, I was dreadfully frightened

and unhappy about him, because he was so different from what my other

children had been. There were times when he would sit perfectly still,

and when I couldn’t get him to play, or to take notice of anything. It

seemed so unnatural for a young child to be quiet like that, and I

didn’t know what was the matter. I thought, too, he would never learn to

read. Then one day, when he was about ten years old, his nurse showed

him a Bible with queer, ornamented letters that somehow caught his

fancy, and he learned to read almost at once. It is just the same now:

there are some things which he doesn’t seem able to learn; but I don’t

believe it is because he is stupid or careless or obstinate. It is

simply a mental peculiarity that he has.”

“It is a fairly common one,” said Rusk, without any ironical intention.

Then, as Mrs. Bracknel did not reply: “I’m inclined to think there’s not

much use trying to learn things that merely bore you to death.”

“Yes, don’t you think so, Mr. Rusk? I have always thought so. But his

father wants him to have a sound commercial education as well as--as the

ordinary thing, you know.”

Rusk looked somewhat puzzled though he tried very hard not to. “Ah

yes--a sound commercial education,” he repeated vaguely. “What exactly

does he mean by that, I wonder?”

“By a sound commercial education? I’m afraid I don’t know. I thought

_you_ would know. It is the expression he always uses.” There was

something almost plaintive in Mrs. Bracknel’s tone.

“I see.”

“Now and then he puts Denis through a sort of examination, and it is

always after that that things reach a crisis. Denis is never able to

give the kind of answer his father seems to want.”

“I see: I see,” Rusk murmured again, but this time somewhat blankly. “I

don’t think he mentioned anything about that to me. In fact I’m sure he

didn’t. I’m afraid----”

“Ah well, don’t bother about it,” said Mrs. Bracknel gently. “I’m sure

it will be all right.”

Rusk hoped that it would be, but he felt rather doubtful. Mrs. Bracknel,

however, rose and held out her hand. “And now you must forgive me for

having kept you up so long.” Her eyes rested on him, her sweet,

half-timid smile. “Good-night, Mr. Rusk; I hope it isn’t yet too late

for your book.”

Left for the second time to himself, Rusk went over to the armchair she

had vacated. He wheeled it close to the window, and, making himself

comfortable, began to turn over in his mind what she had told him. He

felt that he had come into the midst of a strange family, and that the

day had been almost eventful. He thought a little of Mrs. Bracknel; then

of Amy; and then of his pupil;--then of his own home, so curiously

different from this; and lastly of Cambridge and of his friends there,

of the men who had gone down at the same time as he had, of those who

were still up. There were some letters he must get off his hands soon,

but not to-night; it was too late. He looked out across the moonlit

lawn, and a kind of dreaminess came over him. He sat there for a long

time. At a little distance the trees were dimly massed, black and

motionless against the sky. The air was warm and soft, and full of a

fragrance of hidden leaf and flower. Everything was extraordinarily

quiet. He supposed that all the rest of the household had gone to sleep,

and he had just decided that it was time that he too should turn in,

when he thought he saw a figure moving below him, but keeping close to

the house. Rusk’s dreaminess slipped from him in a flash, and he became

all at once very wide awake indeed. He leaned out of the window as far

as he could without toppling over. Yes, it was there!--a slight, dark

form, skirting now the edge of the lawn, and making for the shrubbery

beyond. A moment or two later it was lost to view, but Rusk had had time

to believe that he had recognised Denis. After all, who else could it

be? Not a burglar at all events: it was a boy’s figure, and it was going

from the house, not trying to enter it. To make quite sure, he softly

opened his door and tapped lightly on that of the room his pupil had

told him was his. There was no answer, and Rusk turned the handle. The

moonlight streamed in through the unblinded window, pale and radiant,

and he did not need to strike a match to see that the room was

unoccupied. He advanced a few steps. The bed bore the trace of someone

having lain upon it, but without having turned down the clothes. Rusk

retraced his steps, and re-entered his own room. This time he undressed

and went to bed.

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