third floor of the great publishing house of Conant & Company, and
putting up her veil without removing her hat, addressed herself to her
day's work.
She went through her meager and unimportant mail, wrote a few replies,
and then turned to the pile of volunteer manuscripts which it was her
duty to read and report upon.
For Rosella was Conant's "reader," and so well was she acquainted with
the needs of the house, so thorough was she in her work, and so great
was the reliance upon her judgment, that she was the only one employed.
Manuscripts that she "passed up" went direct to Conant himself, while
the great army of the "declined" had no second chance. For the
"unavailables" her word was final.
From the first--which was when her initial literary venture, a little
book of short tales of Sicily and the Sicilians, was published by the
house--her relations with the Conants had been intimate. Conant believed
in her, and for the sake of the time when her books could be considered
safe investments, was willing to lose a few dollars during the time of
her apprenticeship. For the tales had enjoyed only a fleeting _succès
d'estime_. Her style was, like her temperament, delicately constructed
and of extreme refinement, not the style to appeal to the masses. It was
"searched," a little _précieuse_, and the tales themselves were
diaphanous enough, polished little _contes_, the points subtle, the
action turning upon minute psychological distinctions.
Yet she had worked desperately hard upon their composition. She was of
those very few who sincerely cannot write unless the mood be propitious;
and her state of mind, the condition of her emotions, was very apt to
influence her work for good or ill, as the case might be.
But a _succès d'estime_ fills no purses, and favorable reviews in the
literary periodicals are not "negotiable paper." Rosella could not yet
live wholly by her pen, and thought herself fortunate when the house
offered her the position of reader.
This arrival of hers was no doubt to be hastened, if not actually
assured, by the publication of her first novel, "Patroclus," upon which
she was at this time at work. The evening before, she had read the draft
of the story to Trevor, and even now, as she cut the string of the first
manuscript of the pile, she was thinking over what Trevor had said of
it, and smiling as she thought.
It was through Conant that Rosella had met the great novelist and
critic, and it was because of Conant that Trevor had read Rosella's
first little book. He had taken an interest at once, and had found
occasion to say to her that she had it in her to make a niche for
herself in American letters.
He was a man old enough to be her grandfather, and Rosella often came to
see him in his study, to advise with him as to doubtful points in her
stories or as to ideas for those as yet unwritten. To her his opinion
was absolutely final. This old gentleman, this elderly man of letters,
who had seen the rise and fall of a dozen schools, was above the
influence of fads, and he whose books were among the classics even
before his death was infallible in his judgments of the work of the
younger writers. All the stages of their evolution were known to
him--all their mistakes, all their successes. He understood; and a story
by one of them, a poem, a novel, that bore the stamp of his approval,
was "sterling." Work that he declared a failure was such in very
earnest, and might as well be consigned as speedily as possible to the
grate or the waste-basket.
When, therefore, he had permitted himself to be even enthusiastic over
"Patroclus," Rosella had been elated beyond the power of expression, and
had returned home with blazing cheeks and shining eyes, to lie awake
half the night thinking of her story, planning, perfecting, considering
and reconsidering.
Like her short stories, the tale was of extreme delicacy in both
sentiment and design. It was a little fanciful, a little elaborate, but
of an ephemeral poetry. It was all "atmosphere," and its success
depended upon the minutest precision of phrasing and the nicest harmony
between idea and word. There was much in mere effect of words; and more
important than mere plot was the feeling produced by the balancing of
phrases and the cadence of sentence and paragraph.
Only a young woman of Rosella's complexity, of her extreme
sensitiveness, could have conceived "Patroclus," nor could she herself
hope to complete it successfully at any other period of her life. Any
earlier she would have been too immature to adapt herself to its
demands; any later she would have lost the spontaneity, the _jeunesse_,
and the freshness which were to contribute to its greatest charm.
The tale itself was simple. Instead of a plot, a complication, it built
itself around a central idea, and it was the originality of this idea,
this motif, that had impressed Trevor so strongly. Indeed, Rosella's
draft could convey no more than that. Her treatment was all to follow.
But here she was sure of herself. The style would come naturally as she
worked.
She was ambitious, and in her craving to succeed, to be recognized and
accepted, was all that passionate eagerness that only the artist knows.
So far success had been denied her; but now at last she seemed to see
light. Her "Patroclus" would make her claims good. Everything depended
upon that.
She had thought over this whole situation while she removed the
wrappings from the first manuscript of the pile upon her desk. Even then
her fingers itched for the pen, and the sentences and phrases of the
opening defined themselves clearly in her mind. But that was not to be
the immediate work. The unlovely bread-and-butter business pressed upon
her. With a long breath she put the vision from her and turned her
attention to the task at hand.
After her custom, she went through the pile, glancing at the titles and
first lines of each manuscript, and putting it aside in the desk corner
to be considered in detail later on.
She almost knew in advance that of the thirty-odd volunteers of that
day's batch not one would prove available. The manuscripts were tagged
and numbered in the business office before they came to her, and the
number of the first she picked up that morning was 1120, and this since
the first of the year. Of the eleven hundred she had accepted only
three. Of these three, two had failed entirely after publication; the
third had barely paid expenses. What a record! How hopeless it seemed!
Yet the strugglers persisted. Did it not seem as if No. 1120, Mrs. Allen
Bowen of Bentonville, South Dakota--did it not seem as if she could know
that the great American public has no interest in, no use for, "Thoughts
on the Higher Life," a series of articles written for the county
paper--foolish little articles revamped from Ruskin and Matthew Arnold?
And 1121--what was this? The initial lines ran: "'Oh, damn everything!'
exclaimed Percival Holcombe, as he dropped languidly into a deep-seated
leather chair by the club window which commanded a view of the noisy
street crowded with fashion and frivolity, wherein the afternoon's sun,
freed from its enthralling mists, which all day long had jealously
obscured his beams, was gloating o'er the panels of the carriages of
noblemen who were returning from race-track and park, and the towhead of
the little sweeper who plied his humble trade which earned his scanty
supper that he ate miles away from that gay quarter wherein Percival
Holcombe, who----" Rosella paused for sheer breath. This sort did not
need to be read. It was declined already. She picked up the next. It was
in an underwear-box of green pasteboard.
"The staid old town of Salem," it read, "was all astir one bright and
sunny morning in the year 1604." Rosella groaned. "Another!" she said.
"Now," she continued, speaking to herself and shutting her eyes--"now
about the next page the 'portly burgess' will address the heroine as
'Mistress,' and will say, 'An' whither away so early?'" She turned over
to verify. She was wrong. The portly burgess had said: "Good morrow,
Mistress Priscilla. An' where away so gaily bedizened?" She sighed as
she put the manuscript away. "Why, and, oh, why _will_ they do it!" she
murmured.
The next one, 1123, was a story "Compiled from the Memoirs of One Perkin
Althorpe, Esq., Sometime Field-Coronet in His Majesty's Troop of Horse,"
and was sown thick with objurgation--"Ods-wounds!" "Body o' me!" "A
murrain on thee!" "By my halidom!" and all the rest of the sweepings and
tailings of Scott and the third-rate romanticists.
"Declined," said Rosella, firmly, tossing it aside. She turned to 1124:
"About three o'clock of a roseate day in early spring two fashionables
of the softer sex, elegantly arrayed, might have been observed
sauntering languidly down Fifth Avenue.
"'Are you going to Mrs. Van Billion's musicale tonight?' inquired the
older of the two, a tall and striking demi-brunette, turning to her
companion.
"'No, indeed,' replied the person thus addressed, a blonde of exquisite
coloring. 'No, indeed. The only music one hears there is the chink of
silver dollars. Ha! ha! ha! ha!'"
Rosella winced as if in actual physical anguish. "And the author calls
it a 'social satire'!" she exclaimed. "How can she! How can she!"
She turned to the next. It was written in script that was a model of
neatness, margined, correctly punctuated, and addressed, "Harold
Vickers," with the town and State. Its title was "The Last Dryad," and
the poetry of the phrase stuck in her mind. She read the first lines,
then the first page, then two.
"Come," said Rosella, "there is something in this." At once she was in a
little valley in Boeotia in the Arcadian day. It was evening. There was
no wind. Somewhere a temple, opalescent in the sunset, suggested rather
than defined itself. A landscape developed such as Turner in a quiet
mood might have evolved, and with it a feeling of fantasy, of
remoteness, of pure, true classicism. A note of pipes was in the air,
sheep bleated, and Daphne, knee-deep in the grass, surging an answer to
the pipes, went down to meet her shepherd.
Rosella breathed a great sigh of relief. Here at last was a
possibility--a new writer with a new, sane view of his world and his
work. A new poet, in fine. She consulted the name and address
given--Harold Vickers, Ash Fork, Arizona. There was something in that
Harold; perhaps education and good people. But the Vickers told her
nothing. And where was Ash Fork, Arizona; and why and how had "The Last
Dryad" been written there, of all places the green world round? How came
the inspiration for that classic _paysage_, such as Ingres would have
loved, from the sage-brush, and cactus? "Well," she told herself, "Moore
wrote 'Lalla Rookh' in a back room in London, among the chimney-pots and
soot. Maybe the proportion is inverse. But, Mr. Harold Vickers of Ash
Fork, Arizona, your little book is, to say the least, well worth its
ink."
She went through the other manuscripts as quickly as was consistent with
fairness, and declined them all. Then settling herself comfortably in
her chair, she plunged, with the delight of an explorer venturing upon
new ground, into the pages of "The Last Dryad."
* * * * *
Four hours later she came, as it were, to herself, to find that she sat
lax in her place, with open, upturned palms, and eyes vacantly fixed
upon the opposite wall. "The Last Dryad," read to the final word, was
tumbled in a heap upon the floor. It was past her luncheon hour. Her
cheeks flamed; her hands were cold and moist; and her heart beat thick
and slow, clogged, as it were, by its own heaviness.
But the lapse of time was naught to her, nor the fever that throbbed in
her head. Her world, like a temple of glass, had come down dashing about
her. The future, which had beckoned her onward,--a fairy in the path
wherein her feet were set,--was gone, and at the goal of her ambition
and striving she saw suddenly a stranger stand, plucking down the golden
apples that she so long and passionately had desired.
For "The Last Dryad" was her own, her very, very own and cherished
"Patroclus."
That the other author had taken the story from a different view-point,
that his treatment varied, that the approach was his own, that the
wording was his own, produced not the least change upon the final
result. The idea, the motif, was identical in each; identical in every
particular, identical in effect, in suggestion. The two tales were one.
That was the fact, the unshakable fact, the block of granite that a
malicious fortune had flung athwart her little pavilion of glass.
At first she jumped to the conclusion of chicanery. At first there
seemed no other explanation. "He stole it," she cried, rousing
vehemently from her inertia--"mine--mine. He stole my story."
But common sense prevailed in the end. No, there was no possible chance
for theft. She had not spoken of "Patroclus" to any one but Trevor. Her
manuscript draft had not once left her hands. No; it was a coincidence,
nothing more--one of those fateful coincidences with which the
scientific and literary worlds are crowded. And he, this unknown
Vickers, this haphazard genius of Ash Fork, Arizona, had the prior
claim. Her "Patroclus" must remain unwritten. The sob caught and
clutched at her throat at last.
"Oh," she cried in a half-whisper--"oh, my chance, my hopes, my foolish
little hopes! And now _this_! To have it all come to nothing--when I was
so proud, so buoyant--and Mr. Trevor and all! Oh, could anything be more
cruel!"
And then, of all moments, _ex machina_, Harold Vickers's card was handed
in.
She stared at it an instant, through tears, amazed and incredulous.
Surely some one was playing a monstrous joke upon her today. Soon she
would come upon the strings and false bottoms and wigs and masks of the
game. But the office boy's contemplation of her distress was real.
Something must be done. The whole machine of things could not
indefinitely hang thus suspended, inert, waiting her pleasure.
"Yes," she exclaimed all at once. "Very well; show him in;" and she had
no more than gathered up the manuscript of "The Last Dryad" from the
floor when its author entered the room.
He was very young,--certainly not more than twenty-three,--tall, rather
poorly dressed, an invalid, beyond doubt, and the cough and the flush on
the high cheek-bone spelled the name of the disease. The pepper-and-salt
suit, the shoe-string cravat, and the broad felt hat were frankly
Arizona. And he was diffident, constrained, sitting uncomfortably on the
chair as a mark of respect, smiling continually, and, as he talked,
throwing in her name at almost every phrase:
"No, Miss. Beltis; yes, Miss. Beltis; quite right, Miss. Beltis."
His embarrassment helped her to her own composure, and by the time she
came to question him as to his book and the reasons that brought him
from Ash Fork to New York, she had herself in hand.
"I have received an unimportant government appointment in the Fisheries
Department," he explained, "and as I was in New York for the week I
thought I might--not that I wished to seem to hurry you, Miss.
Beltis--but I thought I might ask if you had come to--to my little book
yet."
In five minutes of time Rosella knew just where Harold Vickers was to be
placed, to what type he belonged. He was the young man of great talent
who, so far from being discovered by the outside world, had not even
discovered himself. He would be in two minds as yet about his calling in
life, whether it was to be the hatching of fish or the writing of "Last
Dryads." No one had yet taken him in hand, had so much as spoken a word
to him. If she told him now that his book was a ridiculous failure, he
would no doubt say--and believe--that she was quite right, that he had
felt as much himself. If she told him his book was a little masterpiece,
he would be just as certain to tell himself, and with equal sincerity,
that he had known it from the first.
He had offered his manuscript nowhere else as yet. He was as new as an
overnight daisy, and as destructible in Rosella's hands.
"Yes," she said at length, "I have read your manuscript." She paused a
moment, then: "But I am not quite ready to pass upon it yet."
He was voluble in his protestations.
"Oh, that is all right," she interrupted. "I can come to the second
reading in a day or two. I could send you word by the end of the week."
"Thank you, Miss. Beltis." He paused awkwardly, smiling in deprecatory
fashion. "Do you--from what you have seen of it--read of it--do you--how
does it strike you? As good enough to publish--or fit for the
waste-basket?"
Ah, why had this situation leaped upon her thus unawares, and all
unprepared! Why had she not been allowed time, opportunity, to fortify
herself!
What she said now would mean so much. Best err, then, on the safe side;
and which side was that? Her words seemed to come of themselves, and she
almost physically felt herself withdraw from the responsibility of what
this other material Rosella Beltis was saying.
"I don't know," said the other Rosella. "I should not care to say--so
soon. You see--there are so many manuscripts. I generally trust to the
first impression on the second reading." She did not even hear his
answer, but she said, when he had done speaking, that even in case of an
unfavorable report there were, of course, other publishers.
But he answered that the judgment of such a house as the Conants would
suffice for him. Somehow he could not peddle his story about New York.
If the Conants would not take his work, nobody would.
And that was the last remark of importance he made. During the few
remaining moments of his visit they spoke of unessentials, and before
she was aware, he had gone away, leaving with her a memorandum of his
address at the time.
* * * * *
She did not sleep that night. When she left the office she brought "The
Last Dryad" home with her, and till far into the night she read it and
re-read it, comparing it and contrasting it with "Patroclus," searching
diligently if perhaps there were not some minute loophole of evasion,
some devious passage through which she might escape. But amid the
shattered panes of her glass pavilion the block of stone persisted,
inert, immovable. The stone could not be raised, the little edifice
could not be rebuilt.
Then at last, inevitably, the temptation came--came and grew and shut
about her and gripped her close. She began to temporize, to advance
excuses. Was not her story the better one? Granted that the idea was the
same, was not the treatment, the presentation, more effective? Should
not the fittest survive? Was it not right that the public should have
the better version? Suppose "Patroclus" had been written by a third
person, and she had been called upon to choose between it and "The Last
Dryad," would she not have taken "Patroclus" and rejected the other? Ah,
but "Patroclus" was not yet written! Well, that was true. But the draft
of it was; the idea of it had been conceived eight months ago. Perhaps
she had thought of her story before Vickers had thought of his. Perhaps?
No; it was very probable; there was no doubt of it, in fact. That was
the important thing: the conception of the idea, not the execution. And
if this was true, her claim was prior.
But what would Conant say of such reasoning, and Trevor--would they
approve? Would they agree?
"Yes, they would," she cried the instant the thought occurred to her.
"Yes, they would, they would, they would; I know they would. I am sure
of it; sure of it."
But she knew they would not. The idea of right persisted and persisted.
Rosella was on the rack, and slowly, inevitably, resistlessly the
temptation grew and gathered, and snared her feet and her hands, and,
fold on fold, lapped around her like a veil.
A great and feminine desire to shift the responsibility began to possess
her mind.
"I cannot help it," she cried. "I am not to blame. It is all very well
to preach, but how would--any one do in my case? It is not my fault."
And all at once, without knowing how or why, she found that she had
written, sealed, stamped, and addressed a note to Harold Vickers
declining his story.
But this was a long way from actually rejecting "The Last
Dryad"--rejecting it in favor of "Patroclus." She had only written the
note, so she told herself, just to see how the words would look. It was
merely an impulse; would come to nothing, of course. Let us put it
aside, that note, and seriously consider this trying situation.
Somehow it seemed less trying now; somehow the fact of her distress
seemed less poignant. There was a way out of it--stop. No; do not look
at the note there on the table. There was a way out, no doubt, but not
that one; no, of course not that one. Rosella laughed a little. How
easily some one else, less scrupulous, would solve this problem! Well,
she could solve it, too, and keep her scruples as well; but not tonight.
Now she was worn out. Tomorrow it would look different to her.
She went to bed and tossed wide-eyed and wakeful till morning, then
rose, and after breakfast prepared to go to the office as usual. The
manuscript of "The Last Dryad" lay on her table, and while she was
wrapping it up her eye fell upon the note to Harold Vickers.
"Why," she murmured, with a little grimace of astonishment--"why, how is
this? I thought I burned that last night. How _could_ I have
forgotten!"
She could have burned it then. The fire was crackling in the grate; she
had but to toss it in. But she preferred to delay.
"I will drop it in some ash-can or down some sewer on the way to the
office," she said to herself. She slipped it into her muff and hurried
away. But on the way to the cable-car no ash-can presented itself. True,
she discovered the opening of a sewer on the corner where she took her
car. But a milkman and a police officer stood near at hand in
conversation, occasionally glancing at her, and no doubt they would have
thought it strange to see this well-dressed young woman furtively
dropping a sealed letter into a sewer-vent.
She held it awkwardly in her hand all of her way down-town, and still
carried it there when she had descended from her car and took her way up
the cross-street toward Conant's.
She suddenly remembered that she had other letters to mail that morning.
For two days the weekly epistles that she wrote home to her mother and
younger sister had been overlooked in her pocket. She found a mail-box
on the corner by the Conant building and crossed over to it, holding her
mother's and sister's letters in one hand and the note to Vickers in the
other.
Carefully scanning the addresses, to make sure she did not confuse the
letters, she dropped in her home correspondence, then stood there a
moment irresolute.
Irresolute as to what, she could not say. Her decision had been taken in
the matter of "The Last Dryad." She would accept it, as it deserved.
Whether she was still to write "Patroclus" was a matter to be
considered later. Well, she was glad she had settled it all. If she had
not come to this conclusion she might have been, at that very instant,
dropping the letter to Harold Vickers into the box. She would have
stood, thus, facing the box, have raised the cast-iron flap,--this with
one hand,--and with the other have thrust the note into the slide--thus.
Her fingers closed hard upon the letter at the very last instant--ah,
not too late. But suppose she had, but for one second, opened her thumb
and forefinger and--what? What would come of it?
And there, with the letter yet on the edge of the drop she called up
again the entire situation, the identity of the stories, the
jeopardizing--no, the wrecking--of her future career by this
chance-thrown barrier in the way. Why hesitate, why procrastinate? Her
thoughts came to her in a whirl. If she acted quickly now,--took the
leap with shut eyes, reckless of result,--she could truly be sorry then,
truly acknowledge what was right, believe that Vickers had the prior
claim without the hard necessity of acting up to her convictions. At
least, this harrowing indecision would be over with.