THE FEMININE EQUATION

Jack turned in filled with a nagging sense of discomfort. He felt

dimly that he ought to have been happy, but it was very clear that he

was not. It was all very well for her to say: "Don't bother about the

future," but his stubborn mind was not to be so easily satisfied. It

was true he had not committed himself in so many words, but with girls

of Linda's kind he supposed a kiss was final. So the future had to be

considered. It was now more than ever imperative that his name be

cleared. She didn't seem to care much whether he were honest or not.

There was the rub. He scowled, and rolled over to woo sleep on the

other side.

In the end he fell asleep, and dreamed a fantastic dream. He was King

David, wearing a long gray beard and a white gown. He was at sea in a

motor-sailboat of extraordinary construction, having a high, ornate

cabin, over which the boom had to be lifted whenever they came about.

There was a beturbaned lascar at the tiller, whom he, King David,

treated with great contumely. Linda was along, too, also clad in

biblical costume with a silver band around her brow. She was strangely

meek, and she plucked continually at his sleeve.

A great storm came up; the waves tossed, the boat was knocked about,

and he couldn't get a spark in his engine. He suspected that the

lascar knew much better than he what to do, but out of sheer, kingly

wilfulness he went contrary to everything the brown man suggested. Nor

would he heed the insistent plucking at his sleeve.

Then suddenly a mermaid uprose beside the boat, and the sea was

miraculously stilled. Her long, black, silky hair hung before her

face, and streamed over her deep bosom and her lovely arms. All would

be well if he could but distinguish her face, he felt. He leaned

farther and farther over the rail, while the fretful plucking at his

sleeve continued. He implored the mermaid to push back her hair.

Then he awoke. Some one was pulling at his sleeve, and a voice was

whispering: "Jack, wake up!"

He sprang to a sitting position, throwing out his arms. They closed

around a bony little frame encased in a rough coat. He recoiled.

"It's only me," said the small voice.

The fire had burned down to dull embers, and Jack at first could see

nothing. "Who are you?" he demanded.

"Davy Cranston."

"Davy Cranston?" repeated Jack. It was a moment or two before his

dream-muddled brain conceived the identity that went under this name.

"What does this mean? What do you want? How did you get here?" he

demanded in great surprise.

"It was Mary said we had to come," the boy replied abashed.

The girl's name had the effect of ringing a bell in Jack's

understanding. "Mary? Where is she?" he asked quickly.

"We're camped up on the bench," the boy replied. "She's waiting for

us. Come to our camp, and we can talk."

Jack was ready in a moment, and they set off. The afterglow was under

the north star, and by that Jack knew it was midnight. The camp was

wrapped in perfect stillness. When they got clear, and began to climb

the trail, a little fiery eye beckoned them ahead.

In answer to Jack's further questions the boy could only reply that

"Mary had a warning," which only heightened the questioner's wonder and

curiosity.

The camp was pitched on the edge of the low bench above the river-flat,

and they saw her, from a little distance, crouching by the fire that

made a little crimson glory under the branches. She was listening with

bent head to hear if there was one pair of footsteps approaching or

two. Behind her the two little A-tents were pitched side by side,

their open doors like mouths yawning in the firelight.

As they came within radius of the light she lifted her face, and Jack

without knowing why he should be, was staggered by the look in her deep

eyes, an indescribable look, suggesting pain proudly borne, and present

gladness.

"You're all right?" she murmured, searching for what she might read in

his face.

"Surely!" said Jack wonderingly. Further speech failed him. The sight

of her threw him into a great uneasiness that he was at a loss to

account for. She was nothing to him, he told himself a little angrily.

But he could not keep his eyes off her. She had changed. She looked

as if her spirit had travelled a long way these few days and learned

many difficult lessons on the road. She had an effect on him as of

something he had never seen before, yet something he had been waiting

for without knowing it. And this was only Mary Cranston that he

thought he knew!

"There was a danger," she said quietly. "I did not know if we would be

in time to save--to help you."

"Danger? Save me?" Jack repeated, looking at her stupidly. "Good God!

How did you know that?" he presently added.

Mary's agitation broke through her self-contained air. To hide it she

hastily busied herself picking up the dishes, and packing them in the

grub-box. Fastening the box with its leather hasp, she carried it into

her tent. She did not immediately reappear.

"Where have you come from?" Jack demanded of Davy.

"Swan Lake."

"Have you been there ever since you left the fort?"

The boy nodded. "Tom Moosehorn's three children got the measles," he

explained. "They are pitching at Swan Lake. Tom came to the fort to

ask my father for medicine, and when Mary heard that his children were

sick, she said she would go and nurse them, because Tom's wife is a

foolish squaw, and don't know what to do for sickness. And I went to

take care of Mary."

"Where is Swan Lake?" asked Jack.

"Northwest of the fort, two days' journey," said Davy. "We were there

a week, and then the kids got well. On the way back home Mary had a

warning, She said she felt a danger threatening you." Shyness overcame

the boy here. "You--you were friendly to us," he stammered. "So we

wanted to come to you. We didn't know where you were, but Mary said

the warning came from the south, so we left the trail, and hit straight

across the prairie till we came to the river trail. There we found

your tracks, and followed them here."

"A warning!" said Jack, amazed. "What do you mean?"

"I don't know," the boy said simply. "Mary has them."

Mary returned to the fire with a composed face. All three of the

youngsters were embarrassed for speech. How could they find words to

fit the strange feelings that agitated them.

Jack, gazing at Mary's graceful pose, on her knees by the fire,

suddenly exclaimed: "Why, it was you, all the time!"

"What was?" asked Mary.

"The mermaid."

"What's a mermaid?" Davy wanted to know.

Mary answered before Jack could. "An imaginary creature, half woman,

half fish."

"Why, how did you know?" asked Jack unthinkingly.

"Do you think I know nothing?" she said, with the ghost of a smile.

He had the grace to redden.

They made Jack tell them his dream. They laughed, and the tension was

relieved. They were all grateful for something else to talk about.

There was one thing in the dream that Jack left out.

"Who was the woman who kept pulling at your sleeve?" asked Mary.

Jack lied. "Nobody I know," he said lightly. "One of King David's

five hundred wives, I suppose."

Davy laughed, but Mary looked affronted. "You're confusing David with

Solomon," she said coldly.

Jack looked at her uneasily. This was she whom he had dismissed merely

as one of the girls of the country!

"And he sat up and hugged me as if I was a girl," Davy put in with

relish.

Jack and Mary looked away from each other and blushed, but for

different reasons.

They could not long keep away from the subject that filled their minds.

"Blest if I can understand it," murmured Jack.

They knew to what he referred. "Nobody can," said Mary.

"You must have had this warning several days ago."

"Three days," said Mary.

"Nothing happened to me three days ago. Nothing until to-day----"

"Ah!" she said sharply.

"That was an accident," said Jack. "My horse shied on High Rock, and

jumped over the ledge. I caught on a tree."

Mary's eyes brooded over him, and her hands went to still her breast.

"Was there any one behind you?" she asked quickly.

"Yes, Garrod."

"Perhaps it was no accident."

Jack stared at the fire. "Perhaps not," he said slowly. After a while

he added. "Still I don't understand."

"Many of the people have such warnings," Mary said quietly.

Jack frowned. "You are not a savage," he said.

"We are one fourth Indian," Mary said with a kind of relentless pride.

"It is silly to make-believe that we're not."

Jack went on to tell them in detail what had happened during the day,

suppressing, however, all that related to Linda. One thing led to

another; he could hardly have explained how it came about, but Mary's

eyes drew out what he had believed was locked deep in his heart, the

story of his early days, and of Garrod's treachery that he had just

found out. Sister and brother had little to say to the story, but

their shining eyes conveyed unquestioning loyal assurance to him. It

needed no words to tell him they knew he was no thief. Jack

experienced a sense of relief such as he had not felt since the moment

of his making the ugly discovery. When he considered the net of

circumstance that bound him round sometimes he was almost ready himself

to doubt his honesty.

"I knew there was something behind," Mary murmured. "It was the day

you found him out that I had my warning. I'm glad we came. Maybe we

can help you"--she looked at him questioningly--"if you will let us

stay."

"As long as you like," said Jack. "It's my idea we'll all be turning

back in a couple of days. In the meantime Davy can help with the

horses. We're short-handed."

"Couldn't we camp here by ourselves?" asked Mary quickly.

Jack shook his head. "It would look queer," he said. "You had better

ride into our camp in the morning as if you'd just come."

Mary presently sent him home. The fire had paled, and the trees began

to rise out of the graves of darkness at the touch of the ghostly wand

of dawn. The youngsters' pale and slightly haggard faces had a strange

look to each other like things that had been left over from yesterday

by mistake, and were hopelessly out of place this morning.

Jack lingered awkwardly. "Look here," he blurted out, "I haven't

thanked you for coming. I don't know how. But you know what I feel!"

Sister and brother looked exquisitely uncomfortable, and absurdly

alike. "There's nothing to be thanked for," murmured Mary. "Of course

we came! That's what I had the warning for."

They shook hands. Mary's hand lay for an instant in Jack's passive and

cold. But later she pillowed her cheek on that hand because he had

touched it.

The permanent camp, that Sir Bryson had graciously permitted to be

called Camp Trangmar, had been laid out with considerably more care

than their nightly stopping-places. The main tent, with its three

little wings, was erected at the top of the clearing, facing the river.

A canvas had been stretched in front to make a veranda. On the

right-hand side of the open square was Humpy's cooking outfit under

another awning, with Humpy's tent and Jack's lean-to beyond. Across

the square was Jean Paul's little tent and the ragged brown canvas that

sheltered the Indians. The camp was ditched and drained according to

the best usage, and around the whole was stretched a rope on poplar

posts, to keep the straying horses from nosing around the tents in

their perpetual search for salt.

After breakfast next morning Sir Bryson issued a command for Jack to

wait upon him. As Jack approached, Linda and Mrs. Worsley were sitting

under the awning, each busy with a bit of embroidery. Jack, who had

been for a swim in the river, looked as fresh as a daisy. As he passed

inside Linda smiled at him with a frankness that disconcerted him

greatly. If she was going to give the whole thing away to everybody

like this! However, Mrs. Worsley gave no sign of having seen anything

out of the ordinary.

It transpired that Sir Bryson wished to make a little exploration up

the river. He inquired about a boat, and Jack offered him his own

dugout that he had cached at this point on his way down the river. Sir

Bryson was very much concerned about the speed of the current, but Jack

assured him the Indians were accustomed to making way against it.

Sir Bryson cast a good deal of mystery about his little trip, and made

it clear that he had no intention of taking Jack with him. Jack, who

had a shrewd idea of his object, had no desire to be mixed up in it.

He swallowed a grin and maintained a respectful air. He had discovered

that there was more fun to be had in playing up to the little

governor's grand airs than in flouting him. Afterward he would enact

the scene by the fire, sure of an appreciative audience in Humpy Jull.

It was arranged that Sir Bryson should start in an hour, and that his

party should take a lunch against an all-day trip.

As Jack came out Linda rose to meet him. "We will have the whole day

to ourselves," she said softly.

Jack was nonplussed. Somehow, such a frank avowal dampened his own

ardour. He glanced at Mrs. Worsley to see if she had heard, and his

face stiffened. At this moment a diversion was created by the sound of

horses' hoofs on the trail.

They looked around the tent to see Mary and Davy trotting down the

little rise that ended at the camp, followed by two pack-ponies. Linda

had not seen Mary before. Her eyes widened at the sight of another

girl, and a very pretty one, riding into camp, and quickly sought

Jack's face. A subtle and unbeautiful change passed over her at what

she fancied she read there.

Sir Bryson, attracted by the sound, came out of the tent. "Who are

they?" he asked Jack.

"The son and the daughter of the trader at Fort Cheever."

"Very pretty girl," said Sir Bryson condescendingly. "Pray bring them

to me that I may make them welcome," he said as he went back.

Jack vaulted over the fence, and the three youngsters shook hands again

with beaming smiles. Jack forgot that in order to keep up their little

fiction he should have appeared more surprised to see them. Linda

looked on with darkening eyes. Jack led the horses around the square

to the place next his own tent, where they were unpacked, unsaddled,

and turned out. He then brought Mary and Davy back. Linda was not in

evidence.

Within the tent Sir Bryson welcomed them as graciously as a king.

"Very glad to see you," he said. "Which way are you travelling?"

Davy's adolescence was painfully embarrassed in the presence of the

great man, but as the man of his party he blushed and faced him out.

"We are going home," he said. "My sister has been nursing some sick

Indians at Swan Lake."

Sir Bryson did not know of course that Camp Trangmar was not on the

direct road between Swan Lake and Fort Cheever. "Ah!" he said, "most

worthy of her, I'm sure. I trust you will remain with us a few days

before you go on."

"If I can help around," said Davy. "Jack Chanty said you were

short-handed."

"Excellent! Excellent!" said Sir Bryson.

Jack made a move toward the door, and Davy and Mary promptly followed.

Sir Bryson fussed among his papers with an annoyed expression. As much

as anything pertaining to his official position he enjoyed dismissing

people. Consequently when they left before they were sent he felt a

little aggrieved.

Outside, Sidney Vassall and Baldwin Ferrie were now with the two

ladies. Linda was reclining languorously in the folding chair, with

her little feet crossed in front of her. She was pale and full of fine

lady airs. Any one but Jack would have known that there was trouble

brewing.

"Introduce your friends," she said to Jack in a clear, high voice.

Jack was only conscious of an extreme discomfort. He was oppressed by

a sense of guilt that he resented. The air seemed full of electricity

ready to discharge on some one's head. He looked very stiff and boyish

as he spoke the names all round: "Miss Cranston, Davy Cranston; Miss

Trangmar, Mrs. Worsley, Captain Vassall, Mr. Ferrie!"

They all smiled on the embarrassed newcomers, and made them welcome.

In particular Linda's smile was overpoweringly sweet. Without changing

her position she extended a languid little hand to Mary.

"So nice of you to come and see us," she drawled. "I hope you will

remain with us until we go back."

To Jack this sounded all right. He felt relieved. Even yet he did not

see what was coming. Mary's perceptions were keener. With a slightly

heightened colour she stepped forward, took the hand with dignity, and

let it fall.

"Thank you," she said quietly. "Not more than a day or two."

"But we need you," Linda insisted, "both of you. Your brother can help

the men who are nearly worked to death, and if you would only help Mrs.

Worsley and me with our things, you know, and other ways----"

Mrs. Worsley looked quickly at Linda, astonished and indignant, but

Linda affected not to see. As Jack realized the sense of what she was

saying, a slow, dark red crept under his skin, and his face became as

hard as stone.

Mary took it smilingly. Her chin went up a little, and she drew a slow

breath before she answered. "I'm sorry," she said quietly, "but I have

no experience with ladies' things."

There was a faint ring of irony in the last two words, and excepting

Jack, who was too angry to see anything, it was evident to the others

that Mary had returned just a little better than she got. Linda

evidently felt so, for naked malice peeped out of her next speech.

"We would be so glad to teach you, wouldn't we, Kate? And it would be

so useful for you to know!"

Mrs. Worsley bent over her work, blushing for her young friend.

Mary continued to look at Linda steadily, and it was finally Linda's

eyes that were obliged to stray away. "Thank you," said Mary, "but we

will be expected at home in a few days."

"Oh, sorry," said Linda casually. She nodded at Mary, and smiled the

inattentive smile that women mean to stab with. "Kate, do show me this

next stitch," she said, affecting a sudden absorption in her work.

Mrs. Worsley ignored the question. Her face was now almost as red as

Jack's. What passed between these two ladies when they presently found

themselves alone may be guessed.

Jack, Mary, and Davy crossed the little square. There was a commotion

going on inside Jack that he could not in the least analyze. He was

furiously angry, but his sidelong glances at Mary dashed his anger, and

made him fall to wondering if he had rightly understood what had

happened. For Mary, instead of being humiliated and indignant as one

might suppose, was actually smiling. She carried her head high, and

the shine of triumph was in her eye. What was a man to make of this?

Jack could only long in vain for a head to knock about.

The explanation was simple. "How silly I was to be so afraid of her,"

Mary was thinking. "To give herself away like that! She's a poor

thing! I'm a better woman than she, and she knows it now. She can be

jealous of me after this." Behind these thoughts another peeped like

an elf through a leafy screen, but since the maiden herself refused to

see it in its hiding-place it is not fair to discover it to the world.

Mary refused to refer in any way to what had happened, and Jack was

therefore tongue-tied. All he could do was to show his sympathy in the

ardour of his muscular efforts on her behalf. He put up their two

tents, and stowed their baggage; he cut a wholly unnecessary amount of

balsam for Mary's bed, and chopped and carried wood for their fire,

until she stopped him. All this was observable to Linda watching from

afar under her lashes, and in the meantime Kate was not sparing her.

Jack forgot all about Sir Bryson's order until a peremptory message

recalled it. After he had embarked the governor, Baldwin Ferrie, and

three Indians in the dugout, he swung an axe over his shoulder, and set

off up the trail to chop down a tree or two, and "think things out," as

he would have said. The operations of the human consciousness that go

under the name of thinking differ widely in the individual. Meanwhile

it should be mentioned that Jean Paul and Garrod had started on

horseback with the object of finding a camp of Sapi Indians that was

said to be not far away. They were gone all day. Jack hardly thought

of them.

In a grove of pines beside the trail Jack swung his axe, and the blows

rang. His design was to make a flagstaff for the centre of the camp.

There was an immense satisfaction in stretching his muscles and

planting the blade true. The blood coursed through his veins, and he

tingled to his finger-tips. He felt so much better that he thought he

had solved his problems. This was what Jack called "thinking things

out."

He was engaged in chopping the limbs from a trunk with the stern air of

concentration that was characteristic of him, when something caused him

to look up, and he saw Linda standing near with an appealing aspect.

He frowned and went on chopping. Linda sat down on a stump and looked

away with an unsuccessful attempt at unconcern. How astonished Vassall

or Baldwin Ferrie would have been could they have seen their imperious

little mistress then.

There was a long silence except for the light strokes of Jack's axe as

he worked his way up the stem. Jack enjoyed a great advantage because

he was busy. It was Linda who was finally obliged to speak.

"Haven't you anything to say?" she murmured.

"No," said Jack promptly. The light branches did not offer him a

sufficient outlet for his pent-up feelings, and he wantonly attacked

the bole of the biggest tree in sight. Linda watched the swing of his

lithe body with a sort of stricken look. There was another silence

between them.

"Jack, I'm sorry," she said at last in a small voice.

Jack was not so easily to be appeased. "You shouldn't come away from

camp alone with me like this," he said. "Followed me," was what he had

in mind, but he spared her pride that.

"I don't care what anybody thinks," she said quickly.

"I do," said Jack.

"Afraid of being compromised?" she asked with a little sneer.

"That's a silly thing to say," he answered coolly. "You know what I

mean. I don't intend to give your father and the other men a chance to

throw 'thief' in my teeth. When I've cleared myself I'll walk with you

openly."

"I was sorry," she said like a child. "I couldn't rest until I had

told you."

Jack was silent and uncomfortable. Whenever she sounded the pathetic

and childlike note, the male in him must needs feel the pull of

compassion and he resented it.

"Don't you care for me any more?" she murmured.

Jack frowned, and aimed a tremendous blow at the tree.

Real terror crept into her voice. "Jack," she faltered.

"I don't take anything back," he said stubbornly. "I'll tell you when

I feel like telling you, but I won't have it dragged out of me."

He returned to his tree, and she prodded the pine needles with the toe

of her boot. After a while she returned to the charge.

More like a child than ever, she said: "Jack, I acted like a little

beast. But I said I was sorry."

"That's all very well," said Jack, "but you can't expect to make me so

mad I can't see straight, and then have it all right again just for the

asking."

"You're ungenerous," she said, pouting.

"I don't know what you mean," he said obstinately. "I have to be what

I am."

There was another silence. They were just where they had started.

Indeed no progress was possible without an explosion and a general

flare-up. It was Jack who brought it on by saying:

"It's not to me you should be saying you're sorry."

Linda sprang up pale and trembling, and the flood gates of invective

were opened. It is no advantage to a jealous woman to be a governor's

daughter. Linda in a passion lacked dignity. Her small face worked

like a child's preparing to bawl, and her gestures were febrile. What

is said at such moments is seldom worth repeating. Jack did not hear

the words; it was her tone that stung him beyond endurance. But at

last a sentence reached his understanding.

"How dare you bring her here, and install her under my eyes?"

"Bring her here? What do you mean?" he demanded in a voice that forced

her to attend.

"Oh, you know very well what I mean!" she cried. "You knew she was

coming this morning. I saw it in your face. You didn't even pretend

that you were surprised. And you took her part against me all the way

through."

There was enough truth in this to make Jack furiously angry in turn.

His voice silenced hers.

"I did take her part!" he cried. "And I'd do it again. What have you

got to complain of? Just like a girl to fly into a rage and blame

everybody all around, just to cover her own tracks! What did you mean

by offering to engage her as your maid? You don't want a maid. You

only did it to insult her! I was ashamed of you. Everybody was

ashamed of you. If you're suffering for it now, it's no more than you

ought."

Under all this and more she sat with an odd, still look from which one

would almost have said she enjoyed having him abuse her.

And so they both emptied themselves of angry speech, and the inevitable

moment of reaction followed. Both Linda and Jack began to feel that

they had said too much.

"I'm sorry," she said humbly. "It's true, I was only jealous of her,

because you seemed so glad to see her."

"If it's any good to you to hear it," said Jack sheepishly, "she's

nothing to me--that way." Even as he said it his heart accused him.

"Besides," said Linda irrelevantly, "she's mad about you."

"That's nonsense!" said Jack. Nevertheless he quickly turned to pick

up his axe in order to hide the telltale red that crept into his face.

"It's all right now, isn't it?" said Linda coaxingly. "Come and kiss

me."

He obediently went, and, stooping, kissed her upturned lips. But for

both of them the delicious sweetness had flown. Jack could not forget

how ugly her face had looked in a passion, and Linda remembered how he

had worked for Mary.

"You didn't do it like that last night," she said, pouting.

"I felt differently last night," said Jack doggedly. "How can I get up

any enthusiasm when you make me do it?"

Her breast began to heave again. "You said you had forgiven me," she

said.

"Oh, don't let's begin that again," said Jack with a dismayed look. "I

haven't anything to forgive you. If you want to make things really all

right, you can do it in a minute!"

She sprang up again. "I won't! I won't!" she cried passionately.

"It's her coming that has made the difference since last night! How

dare you suggest that I apologize to her! I'd die rather! I hate you!

Don't ever speak to me again!"

Of a sudden she was gone like a little tempest among the trees. Jack

sat down on the trunk he had cut, and rested his chin in his palms,

terribly troubled in his mind. This sort of thing was new to him, and

it seemed of much greater moment than it was.

Pretty soon she came flying back again, and casting herself in his

arms, clung to him like a baby, weeping and whimpering.

"Take care of me, Jack! I don't know what I'm doing or saying!"

His arms closed about her, and he patted her shoulder with an absurd,

sheepish, paternal air of concern. What else could he do? "There,

it's all right!" he said clumsily. "Don't distress yourself. It'll be

all right!"

"And you won't make me apologize to her?" she implored.

"No," he said with a shrug. "I don't suppose it would do any good if

you did."

Linda lay perfectly still. A sense of sweet satisfaction stole into

her breast. It had been a hard fight, but she _had_ made him do what

she wanted.

"Hanged if I know what's going to become of us," thought Jack gloomily.

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