VII

It was at the end of March, just before the Feast of the Annunciation,

shortly after I saw thee for the first time--and before I as yet

suspected what thou wert destined to become to me, although I already

bore thee, silently and secretly in my heart.--I was obliged to cross

one of the largest rivers in Russia. The ice had not yet begun to move

in it, but it seemed to have swollen up and turned dark; three days

previously a thaw had set in. The snow was melting round about

diligently but quietly; everywhere water was oozing out; in the light

air a soundless breeze was roving. The same even, milky hue enveloped

earth and sky: it was not a mist, but it was not light; not a single

object stood out from the general opacity; everything seemed both near

and indistinct. Leaving my kibítka far behind, I walked briskly over the

river-ice, and with the exception of the beat of my own footsteps, I

could hear nothing. I walked on, enveloped on all sides by the first

stupor and breath of early spring ... and little by little augmenting

with every step, with every movement in advance, there gradually rose

up and grew within me a certain joyous incomprehensible agitation.... It

drew me on, it hastened my pace--and so powerful were its transports,

that I came to a standstill at last and looked about me in surprise and

questioningly, as though desirous of detecting the outward cause of my

ecstatic condition.... All was still, white, sunny; but I raised my

eyes: high above flocks of migratory birds were flying past.... “Spring!

Hail, Spring!”--I shouted in a loud voice. “Hail, life and love and

happiness!”--And at that same instant, with sweetly-shattering force,

similar to the flower of a cactus, there suddenly flared up within me

thy image--flared up and stood there, enchantingly clear and

beautiful--and I understood that I loved thee, thee alone, that I was

all filled with thee....

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