CHAPTER XXI

An author who has been considered by very many people to be a most

successful writer, one whose words have set before very many eyes vivid

pictures of individual characteristics and national events as well,

whose Indians are known all over the world, and whose historical novels

will be eagerly perused as long as there are American eyes to read the

pages of any book at all, used to make a sort of summary of the

principal events in the lives of his very interesting characters: it

always seemed to me that there was something very wholesome and

satisfying in the way he finished up his books, and, so, I'd like to

relate just a little more about the people I have tried to picture in

this little book of mine.

Ruth Wakefield found her earthly mate when she found him whose life she

helped to save upon the battle-field at night, and spent full many happy

years in his society; they built a modern home upon the site of the

mansion on the hill and did much good among the peasants living near to

them; the man became the author of very many books, and Ruth assisted

him in very many ways.

Old Mage and little Tid-i-wats lived out the span of earthly life

allotted to each one of them, beneath the tender eye and ready hand of

her who loved them both, and, when the time that had been set for them

to leave this world behind them, came, Ruth Wakefield staid beside them

to the very last, and ministered to them as no one else would ever do.

The man she'd found had named her well when he said "Tender Heart!" to

her, that night upon the battle-field.

Her heart was very tender, always, except with reference to herself; she

often did upbraid herself and never gave herself much credit; she often

mourned, in secret, over her few brief memories of the wild, impulsive,

almost insane, so-called love of him she'd married in her untried youth;

she often said:

"Poor Boy! Poor, lost and misled Boy! I ought to have treated him far

differently than I did; his earthly path crossed mine for some good

reason, I presume; and I did not do all the things I might have done,

when I was near enough to help him, for him ... yet ..." she always

ended, "I did the very best I could do for him, it seemed to me, at the

time I had the opportunity, and I always meant and prayed to do just

right. I went wrong, somehow ... or he had gone too far along a certain

road before I ever met him for me to turn him back ... anyway, I pity

him with all my heart and hope that he is happy where he's gone.... I

hope he's found the very place he belongs in.... I know I always think

of him with tender pity and no resentment, although, according to the

standards of the world, he did me grievous wrong. Poor lost and misled

Boy! He often looked so sad and desperate ... I wish I had done better

by him while I had the chance."

Her tender heart was uppermost in almost all she did except when she was

doing for herself, and, then, she'd say:

"My tastes are very simple ... I do not need very much of this world's

goods ... it takes so very little happiness to make me almost wild with

joy.... I've had to look on sorrow often, and, when I come to Joy, I

bask in it as if it were God's holy sunshine."

But, if it should be that old Mage or Tid-i-wats or anyone of all of

those who were dependent on her, from time to time, for she, somehow

always seemed to accumulate those who needed her help round her, why,

then it was quite different to Tender Heart ... then, she'd say and say

with vigor:

"Of _course_ I can arrange to have it that way! Why, certainly, if that

would bring happiness, I'll fix it right away."

And sure enough she would arrange it, no matter what it meant for her of

loneliness or labor ... no matter if she had to go along a lonely road

that had been full of peace and happiness for her before the one who

left her lonely had come into her daily life and made it hard for her,

in that way, while the days were going by, yet made a grievous change

again, in going; she set her teeth and did the things she had to do to

make the other person happy, or to do the things he said would make him

happy, then she turned her face toward her own life, cheerfully,

although her hours were often very sad and lonely.

But this was all before she met the man whose life she'd helped to save

upon that battle-field ... all before she'd lost her cherished home and

built another one. From that time on unto the end of earthly life for

her, she found sweet satisfaction and content, for she had found a

steadfast love to lean upon, a strong and true and virile human being,

whose tastes were similar to hers, who loved his native land, America,

with all his heart, as she did, too.

It heartens all humanity to meet a happy pair who are congenial.

It gives all other human beings courage to go on upon the path that has

been set for them to go upon, to know that there is happiness if only

they could find the way to reach it.

Estrella soon forgot the handsome lover over whom she mourned so

bitterly; the memory of him soon became a wild, sweet dream, and had she

met him as he was in San Domingo, after she had found her proper place

in life, it is probable that she would have turned away from him; life's

contrasts have so much to do with early love that it is often difficult

to know what love is really like; Estrella, when she was an unknown

waif, was differently placed than she was later on. Victorio Colenzo

would not have seemed the same to her that he did when she was but an

unknown, simple girl; education made a change in her ... her sister

looked to that. She grew to be a splendid woman, in very many ways, and

married one who was her peer.

Poor little Tessa seems the most forlorn of all the characters in this

book. She tried so hard and failed so utterly in almost all she ever

did. But Father Felix watched her tenderly, and helped her on, and,

finally, one day, he married her to one who loved her truly in his own

rude way, to one who was a sturdy peasant like herself, who had no

romance in him, but who was true to her, and kind, as kindness goes

among his sort of people; he provided for her and their children; she

had many more necessities and even luxuries than most of those who were

associated with her. She, sometimes, dreamed of Manuello; she never knew

how his life ended.

Ruth Wakefield looked her up, from time to time, but did not tell her

very much about the Spanish-American war or those who entered into it;

she knew she could not really understand much more than would the

helpless baby at her ample breast, for Tessa did not stay the slim,

small person that she was at first; she grew to be as wide, almost, as

she was tall, and seemed to be quite happy as she was. She always limped

a little from the blow that Manuello gave to her; the deep, sad scar he

left upon her gentle heart could not be seen, and it, somehow, grew over

as her flesh and family increased.

Estrella always remembered her and sent her many costly and curious

things which were her constant delight. She loved to display these

mementoes of her girlhood's friend; her children, and her heavy husband,

too, were, always proud of them.

It seems to me that, when such souls as animated little Tessa's form

leave this world behind them for all time, it must be that they find

some soft, warm places, where they can sit at ease and watch dear little

children play, and, maybe, join them in their play, and dream of happy

hours, and forget all the trials of their lives upon the earth.

The course of human life will, sometimes, like a placid river, flow

along for many years without a single change that is any more disturbing

than a little, gentle ripple or an easy turn; then, all at once, like

the water, that has been so clear and still, when it has reached the

rapids and becomes a raging, turbid torrent, so human life may,

suddenly, be stirred to its very depths; something may transpire that

will call for the most sublime courage and the most strenuous endeavor,

combined with the most harrowing self-sacrifice.

Like a stroke of lightning out of a calm summer sky, more than one great

event in our national history has thrust itself upon our startled

consciousness. At these times, leaders have appeared who have taken

their places at the head of affairs as naturally and as calmly as if

they had been, always, guiding those who followed after them, although,

perhaps, before the time that they were needed, they were,

comparatively, unknown. And so, it seems to me, it will be always. There

is a Plan, an infinite, a just, a universal Plan, to which all things,

mundane or otherwise, must, in the end, conform. To keep ourselves

informed as to the part that we were meant to take in this great Plan,

it seems to me, should be our constant study and our constant strong

desire.

The light of truth and understanding, that is God's Smile, looks up into

our faces from the heart of every flower, whether bathed in moonlight,

or shining underneath the sun; the simplest soul or the grandest

intellect, alike, may bask beneath this light and feel its healing

power.

I love, above all else, the God of truth and right and justice, Who

rules all worlds and watches over everything that lives and moves and

has its being in His whole universe.

It seems to me that there is implanted, although it may be completely

covered up, at times, in the nature of every human being, a reverence

and a most affectionate regard, that rests upon implicit faith, for Him

Who gave to us, at the very beginning of of our human lives, an

infallible guide ... conscience, or inner consciousness of right and

wrong ... which, if always heeded, will show us where to go and what to

do, no matter what vicissitudes, disappointments or sorrows we may meet.

And, next to God, it seems to me, it is both natural and right to love

the land of one's nativity.

I know I hold in my regard, above all personal advantages, above all

temporal happiness or praise, America ... the great United States ...

_that one fair land whose single boast has always been that it was

free_.

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