Lily Merrill, going home across the yard through the storm, leaning
on George Ramsey's arm, gave a little, involuntary sob. It was a sob
half of the realization of slighted affection, half of shame. It gave
the little element of strangeness which was lacking to fascinate the
young man. He had a pitiful heart towards women, and at the sound of
the little, stifled sob he pressed Lily's arm more closely under his
own.
"Don't, Lily," he said, softly.
Lily sobbed again; she almost leaned her head towards George's
shoulder. She made a little, irresistible, nestling motion, like a
child.
"I can't help it," she said, brokenly. "She did look at me so."
"Don't mind her one bit, Lily," said George. He half laughed at the
memory of Aunt Maria's face, even while the tender tone sounded in
his voice. "Don't mind that poor old maid. Neither of us were to
blame. I suppose it did look as if we had taken possession of her
premises, and she was astonished, that was all. How funny she looked,
poor thing, with her bonnet awry!"
"I know she must think I have done something dreadful," sobbed Lily.
"Nonsense!" George said again, and his pressure of her arm tightened.
"I was just going when she came in, anyway. There is nothing at all
to be ashamed of, only--" He hesitated.
"What?" asked Lily.
"Well, to tell you the truth, Lily," he said then, "it does look to
me as if Miss Edgham's headache was only another way of telling me
she did not wish to see me."
"Oh, I guess not," said Lily.
"For some reason or other she does not seem to like me," George said,
with rather a troubled voice; but he directly laughed.
"I don't see any reason why she shouldn't like you," Lily said.
They had reached Lily's door, and the light from the sitting-room
windows shone on her lovely face, past which the snow drifted like a
white veil.
"Well, I think she doesn't," George said, carelessly, "but you are
mighty good to say you see no reason why she shouldn't. You and I
have always been good friends, haven't we, Lily, ever since we went
to school together?"
"Yes," replied Lily, eagerly, although she did not like the word
friends, which seemed to smite on the heart. She lifted her face to
the young man's, and her lips pouted almost imperceptibly. It could
not have been said that she was inviting a kiss, but no man could
have avoided kissing her. George Ramsey kissed her as naturally as he
breathed. There seemed to be nothing else to do. It was one of the
inevitables of life. Then Lily opened the door and slid into the
house with a tremulous good-night.
George himself felt tremulous, and also astonished and vexed with
himself. He had certainly not meant to kiss Lily Merrill. But it
flashed across his mind that she would not think anything of it, that
he had kissed her often when they were children, and it was the same
thing now. As he went away he glanced back at the lighted windows,
and a man's shadow was quite evident. He wondered who was calling on
Lily's mother, and then wondered, with a slight shadow of jealousy,
if it could be some one who had come to see Lily herself. He
reflected, as he went homeward through the storm, that a girl as
pretty as Lily ought to have some one worthy of her. He went over in
his mind, as he puffed his cigar, all the young men in Amity, and it
did not seem to him that any one of them was quite the man for her.
When he reached home he found his mother already there, warming
herself by the sitting-room register. She had gone to the tea-party
in a carriage (George would not have her walk), but she was chilled.
She was a delicate, pretty woman. She looked up, shivering, as George
entered.
"Where have you been, dear?" she asked.
George laughed, and colored a little. "Well, mother, I went to see
one young lady and saw another," he replied.
Just then the maid came in with some hot chocolate, which Mrs. Ramsey
always drank before she went to bed, and she asked no more questions
until the girl had gone; then she resumed the conversation.
"What do you mean, dear?" she inquired, looking over the rim of the
china cup at her son, with a slight, anxious contraction of her
forehead.
"Well, I felt a little lonely after you went, mother, and I had
nothing especial to do, and it occurred to me that I would go over
and call on our neighbor."
"On young Maria Edgham?"
"Yes, mother."
"Well, I suppose it was a polite thing for you to do," said his
mother, mildly, "but I don't quite care for her has I do for some
girls. She is so very vehement. I do like a young girl to be gentle."
"Well, I didn't see her, mother, in either a gentle or vehement
mood," said George. "As nearly as I can find out, she had a
premonition who it was when I rang the door-bell, and said she had a
headache, and ran up-stairs to bed."
"Why, how do you know?" asked his mother, staring at him. "Her aunt
was at the tea. Who told you?"
"Lily Merrill was there," replied George, and again he was conscious
of coloring. "She had come to stay with Maria because her aunt was
going out. She answered my ring, and so I made a little call on her
until Miss Stillman returned, and was so surprised to see her
premises invaded and her niece missing that I think she inferred a
conspiracy or a burglar. At all events, Lily and I were summarily
dismissed. I have just seen Lily home."
"Lily Merrill is pretty, and I think she is a nice, lady-like girl,"
said Mrs. Ramsey, and she regarded her son more uneasily than before,
"but I don't like her mother, George."
"Why, what is the matter with Lily's mother?"
"She isn't genuine. Adeline Merrill was never genuine. She has always
had her selfish ends, and she has reached them by crooks and turns."
"I think Lily is genuine enough," said George, carelessly, putting
another lump of sugar in his cup of chocolate. "I have seen more
brilliant girls, but she is a beauty, and I think she is genuine."
"Well, perhaps she is," Mrs. Ramsey admitted. "I don't know her very
well, but I do know her mother. I know something now."
"What?"
"I know you don't like gossip, but if ever a woman was--I know it is
a vulgar expression--but if ever a woman was setting her cap for a
man, she is setting hers for Dr. Ellridge. She never goes anywhere
evenings, in the hope that he may call, and she sends for him when
there is nothing whatever the matter with her, if he doesn't. I know,
because Dr. Ellridge's wife's sister, Miss Emmons, who has kept house
for him since his wife died, told me so. He goes home and tells her,
and laughs, but I know she isn't quite sure that the doctor won't
marry her."
"Miss Emmons is jealous, perhaps," said George. "Perhaps Mrs. Merrill
is really ill."
"No, the doctor says she is not, and Miss Emmons is not jealous. She
told me that as far as she was concerned, although she would lose her
home, she should be glad to see the doctor married, if he chose a
suitable woman; but I don't think she likes Mrs. Merrill. I don't see
how anybody can like a woman who so openly proclaims her willingness
to marry a man before he has done her the honor to ask her. It seems
shameless to me."
"Perhaps she doesn't," George said again. Then he added, "It would be
rather hard for Lily if her mother did marry the doctor. He is a good
man enough, but with his own three girls, the oldest older than Lily,
she would have a hard time."
George looked quite sober, reflecting upon the possible sad lot of
poor Lily if her mother married the second time.
"Adeline Merrill wouldn't stop for such a thing as the feelings of
her own daughter, if she had her mind set on anything," said his
mother, in her soft voice, which seemed to belie the bitterness of
her words. She was not in reality bitter at all, not even towards
Mrs. Merrill, but she had clearly defined rules of conduct for
gentlewomen, and she mentioned it when these rules were transgressed.
"Well, mother dear, I can't see that it is likely to make much
difference to either you or me, anyway," said George, and his mother
felt consoled. She told herself that it was not possible that George
thought seriously of Lily, or he would not speak so.
"Miss Stillman is very eccentric," she remarked, departing from the
subject. "I offered to bring her home with me in the carriage. I knew
you would not mind the extra money. She has such a cold that I really
wondered that she came at all in such a storm; but, no, she seemed
fairly indignant at the idea. I never saw any one so proud. I asked
Mrs. Henry Stillman, but she did not like to have her sister-in-law
to go alone, so she would not accept, either; but Miss Stillman
walked herself, and made her sister walk, too, and I am positive it
was because she was proud. Do you really mean you think young Maria
did not want to see you, George?"
"It looked like it," George replied, laughing.
"Why?" asked his mother.
"How do I know, mother dear? I don't think Miss Edgham altogether
approves of me for some reason."
"I should like to know what reason she has for not approving of you,"
cried his mother, jealously. She looked admiringly at her son, who
was handsome, with a sort of rugged beauty, and whose face displayed
strength, and honesty not to be questioned. "I would like to know who
Maria Edgham thinks she is. She is rather pretty, but she cannot
compare with Lily Merrill as far as that goes, and she is teaching a
little district school, and from what I have seen of her, her manners
are subject to criticism. She is not half as lady-like as other girls
in Amity. When I think of the way she flew in here and attacked us
for not clothing those disreputable people across the river, just
because they have the same name, I can't help being indignant. I
never heard of a young girl's doing such a thing. And I think that if
she ran off when the bell rang, because she thought it was you, it
was certainly very rude. I think she virtually ascribed more meaning
to your call than there was."
"Lily said she had a headache," said George, but his own face assumed
an annoyed expression. That version of Maria's flight had not
occurred to him, and he was a very proud fellow. When he went
up-stairs to his own room he continued wondering whether it was
possible that Maria, remembering their childish love-affair, could
have really dreamed that he had called that evening with serious
intentions, and he grew more and more indignant at the idea. Then the
memory of that soft, hardly returned kiss which he had given Lily
came to him, and now he did not feel vexed with himself because of
it. He was quite certain that Lily was too gentle and timid to think
for a minute that he meant anything more than their old childish
friendship. The memory of the kiss became very pleasant to him, and
he seemed to feel Lily's lips upon his own like a living flower which
thrilled the heart. The next morning, when he took the trolley-car in
front of his house, Maria was just passing on her way to school. She
was wading rather wearily, yet still sturdily, through the snow. It
had cleared during the night, and there were several inches of
drifted snow in places, although some portions of the road were as
bare as if swept by a broom of the winds.
Maria, tramping through the snow, which was deep just there, merely
glanced at George Ramsey, and said good-morning. She had plenty of
time, if she had chosen to do so, to express her regrets at not
seeing him the evening before, for the car had not yet reached him.
But she said nothing except good-morning, and George responded rather
curtly, raising his hat, and stepping forward towards the car. He
felt it to be unmistakable that Maria wished him to understand that
she did not care for his particular acquaintance, and the sting which
his mother had suggested the evening before, that she must consider
that his attentions were significant, or she would not take so much
trouble to repulse them, came over him again. He boarded the car,
which was late, and moving sluggishly through the snow. It came to a
full stop in front of the Merrill house, and George saw Lily's head
behind a stand of ferns in one of the front windows. He raised his
hat, and she bowed, and he could see her blush even at that distance.
He thought again, comfortably, that Lily, remembering their childish
caresses, could attach no importance to what had happened the night
before, and yet a thrill of tenderness and pleasure shot through him,
and he seemed to feel again the flower-like touch of her lips. It was
a solace for any man, after receiving such an unmistakable rebuff as
he had just received from Maria Edgham. He had no conception of the
girl plodding through the snow to her daily task. He did not dream
that she saw, instead of the snowy road before, a long stretch of
dreary future, brought about by that very rebuff. But she was quite
merciless with herself. She would not yield for a moment to regrets.
She accepted that stretch of dreary future with a defiant
acquiescence. She bowed pleasantly to the acquaintances whom she met.
They were not many that morning, for the road was hardly passable in
places, being overcurved here and there with blue, diamond-crested,
snowlike cascades, and now presenting ridges like graves. Half-way to
the school-house, Maria saw the village snow-plough, drawn by a
struggling horse and guided by a red-faced man. She stood aside to
let it pass. The man did not look at her. He frowned ahead at his
task. He was quite an old man, and bent, but with the red of youth
brought forth in his cheeks by the frosty air.
"Everybody has to work in some way," Maria thought, "and very few get
happiness for their labor."
She reflected how soon that man would be lying stiff and stark under
the wintry snows and the summer heats, and how nothing which might
trouble him now would matter. She reflected that, although she
herself was younger and had presumably longer to live, that the time
would inevitably come when even such unhappiness as weighed her down
this morning would not matter. She continued in the ineffectual track
which the snow-plough had made, with a certain pleasure in the
exertion. All Maria's heights of life, her mountain-summits which she
would agonize to reach, were spiritual. Labor in itself could never
daunt her. Always her spirit, the finer essence of her, would soar
butterfly-like above her toiling members.
It was a beautiful morning; the trees were heavily bent with snow,
which gave out lustres like jewels. The air had a very purity of life
in it. Maria inhaled the frosty, clear air, and regarded the trees as
one might have done who was taking a stimulant. She kept her mind
upon them, and would not think of George Ramsey. As she neared the
school-house, the first child who ran to meet her, stumbling through
the snow, was little Jessy Ramsey. Maria forced herself to meet
smilingly the upward, loving look of those blue Ramsey eyes. She bent
down and kissed Jessy, and the little thing danced at her side in a
rapture.
"They be awful warm, my close, teacher," said she.
"My clothes are very warm, teacher," corrected Maria, gravely.
"My clothes are very warm, teacher," said Jessy, obediently.
Maria caught the child up in her arms (she was a tiny, half-fed
little thing), and kissed her again. Somehow she got a measure of
comfort from it. After all, love was love, in whatever guise it came,
and this was an innocent love which she could admit with no question.
"That's a good little girl, dear," she said, and set Jessy down.