"If hope but deferred causeth sickness of heart,
What sorrow, to see it forever depart."
"This rain knocks the pic-nic all in the head," said Phil, lounging into
the breakfast-room, "and everybody's sure of being in a bad humor on
account of the disappointment. What shall we all do with ourselves?"
"Play billiards, can't we?" said the captain.
"I hate billiards, for my part," said Grace, looking dismally out of the
window. "And Josephine's ankle's too bad to play, and Ellerton isn't
well enough, and my pretty cousin there never did anything she was asked
to yet; and Mr. Viennet consequently will refuse, and Phil's too lazy,
and mamma won't take the trouble, and Mr. Rutledge has letters to write;
so I think you'll be at a loss for anybody to play with you, Captain
McGuffy."
"So it would seem," said the captain, consoling himself with some
breakfast. "I can't see anything better to be done than this, then."
"It is rather your vocation, I think," returned Grace. "But with the
rest of us, it is an enjoyment that at best cannot last over an hour,
and there are twelve to be got rid of before bed-time."
"It _is_ trying," said Josephine. "And I've no more crimson for my
sofa-cushion, and no chance of matching it nearer than Norbury. I really
don't know what I shall do all day."
"If one only had a good novel!" yawned Ella Wynkar. "But there isn't
anything worth reading in the library. I wonder Mr. Rutledge doesn't get
some interesting books."
"There he comes; ask him," said Grace, maliciously.
"No, I don't like to. Mr. Rutledge is so odd, there's no knowing how he
might take it."
Mr. Rutledge entered at this moment, followed by Tigre, and Miss Wynkar,
partly because she was glad of anything to amuse herself with, and
partly for the sake of a pretty attitude, sprung forward and caught the
dog in her arms.
"Take care! he's just been out in the rain," exclaimed Mr. Rutledge, but
not in time to save the pretty morning dress from Tigre's muddy paws;
and with an exclamation of disgust she threw down the dog, who, whining
piteously from a blow against the table, came limping over to me.
"Poor fellow! that was a sudden reverse," said Victor, stooping to pat
him. "Give me your paw, my friend, and accept my sympathy."
Ella darted an angry look toward us, and, I am certain, never forgave
the laugh that escaped me.
"This is a dull day, young ladies," exclaimed Mr. Rutledge, throwing
himself into a chair. "How shall we dispose of it?"
"Philosophy to the rescue!" said Josephine, with a charming smile. "It
is only dull compared with what you had promised us."
"The pic-nic will hold good for another day, we'll trust. In the
meantime, what shall we do to-day?"
"Who ever heard of doing anything but growl on such a day as this?" said
Phil, leaning over Josephine's chair.
"Ladies weren't made for anything but sunshine, I'm certain," said the
captain, thoughtfully, over his last cup of coffee.
Miss Wynkar and the Misses Churchill made the expected outcry at this
speech, and Mr. Rutledge, after the excitement had subsided, went on
with a proposal that quite brought down the house. It was to the effect
that, as the gay people of the neighborhood, the Masons of Windy Hill,
and the Emersons of Beech Grove, had each proposed something for the
general benefit, it seemed expedient that some entertainment should be
got up at Rutledge. What should it be? The Masons were to have tableaux,
and the Emersons' invitations were out for a _fête champêtre_. What was
left for them to do?
"Oh! a thousand things," exclaimed Josephine, with sparkling eyes. "A
ball, or private theatricals, or a masquerade--anything, in fact, would
be delightful."
"A plain ball would never do after the fête and tableaux," said Ella
Wynkar, decidedly.
"Whatever you do, I beg, don't let those simpering Mason girls get ahead
of you," suggested Grace. "They've been rehearsing their tableaux for a
fortnight, and they mean to have them perfect."
"What do you think of theatricals, then?" said Mr. Rutledge. "We can
send for dresses, etc., from town, and we have plenty of time to
rehearse. And, Arbuthnot, I know yon have all the requisites for a
manager, and could bring out a play in excellent style."
"You will be astonished to find the amount of dramatic talent
undeveloped in this company," exclaimed Victor. "All the improvement I
can suggest is, that the play represented should be written for the
occasion. Now, if I might be allowed, I should propose that Miss Wynkar
and Captain McGuffy be named to write the play, and Ellerton, as the man
of the most cultivated literary taste, and soundest judgment, be
appointed to revise and correct it. The éclat of producing such an
entirely original play, you must see, would be immense."
The irony of his speech was too broad for even the Wynkars to miss, and
Ella colored angrily, while Ellerton, who was not a proficient at
repartee, moved uneasily on his chair, and looked very wretched, till
Mr. Rutledge came to the rescue with a few words, that, administering
the keenest, quietest, politest possible reprimand to Victor for his
impertinence, reinstated the objects of his ridicule in complacency
again, and quite changed the face of the day. Victor bit his lip; these
two liked each other less and less every day, it was but too evident.
Victor's overbearing and tyrannical disposition found an incessant
obstacle to its gratification in the iron will and better disciplined,
but equally unyielding character of Mr. Rutledge. I tried in vain to
remove Victor's prejudices against his host; but there was an angry
flash of his eye whenever the subject was mentioned, that did not
encourage me to continue it. And it was equally impossible not to resent
Mr. Rutledge's misapprehension of Victor's character. In everything he
misjudged him, and, it was evident, put down to the worst motive much
that was only hasty and ill-judged. While my reason told me that he was
often to blame, the injustice and harshness of Mr. Rutledge's judgment
often roused my sympathy in his behalf, and that dangerous sentiment,
pity, was creeping insensibly into my heart. He was, it was true, a man
of no religious principle, but I had come to regard that as the
inevitable result of his foreign education, and in no way his own fault.
Then there was a light, careless tone in his conversation, a disregard
of others, an almost imperceptible sneer, that a month ago I should have
looked upon with alarm and distrust. But the subtle flattery of his
devotion, the contrast between his manner and that of Mr. Rutledge, and,
indeed, of all the others, had melted away these prejudices, and now I
hardly saw, and only half blamed, the self-willed impetuosity and
impatient sneering of the young foreigner, who, there could be no doubt,
was daily becoming more unpopular among the party at Rutledge.
Our host had never liked him; Miss Churchill could not be expected to
continue her favor, now that he took no pains to conceal what was the
attraction for him at Rutledge; Grace had never cordially liked any one
in her life, but Victor had been rather a favorite, till he had put down
her sauciness, on one or two occasions, in such a manner as to make her
as vehement in her dislike as her lazy nature rendered her capable of
being; Ella Wynkar hated him--he laughed at her French, and never
omitted an opportunity of turning her pretensions into ridicule;
Ellerton had formerly been very much infatuated with the young
Frenchman, who had carried all before him in society, and been so
general a favorite, but Ellerton was too tempting a subject for Victor's
humor, and he was very careless of his popularity; even with Phil and
the captain he was growing indifferent and distant. Mrs. Churchill alone
showed no change in her feeling toward him; he was only acting the part
she meant him to act, and fulfilling the design she had in inviting him
to accompany us. These feelings, and their causes, so apparent on a
retrospective study of them, were, of course, by the restraints of good
breeding, and the relative positions of all parties, studiously
concealed, and only to be guessed at in unguarded moments.
"You are not going to follow the dramatic corps, I hope," said Victor,
with a curl of his lip, as the party moved off to the library, to look
over some plays and consult about the proposed entertainment.
"They would have asked me if they had wanted me, I suppose," I answered,
reddening a little.
"Then, is there any law to prevent our staying where we are?" he asked,
throwing himself back in the deep window seat opposite me. And there we
passed the live-long morning, Victor idly twisting the worsteds of my
work, and idly gazing out upon the storm, or in upon my face, and idly
talking in his low, rich voice, and holding me, against my will,
enthralled.
The portraits on the walls looked down upon us with a dumb intelligence,
almost a warning sternness; the rain tried to weary us out; the old
clock struck the passing hours distinctly; the sound of voices in the
library, after a long while, died away, and then the party passed
through the hall and into the parlor, and Josephine's voice, at the
piano succeeded, and then a dance, but still we did not move. What was
the spell that kept me there, I could not have told. Whatever it was, it
was tightening the toils around me, and shutting me off more hopelessly
than ever from all paths but the one I had almost involuntarily taken.
It appeared at dinner, that the theatricals were given up, owing,
principally, I could not but suspect, to the want of harmony that has
characterized all the attempts at private theatricals that I have ever
witnessed, no one, under any circumstances, having been known to be
pleased with the rôle assigned to him or her, and all manner of
discontent prevailing on all sides. But Mr. Rutledge, with great
discretion, put it upon other grounds--the short time that intervened
for preparing them, etc. It was agreed that patriotism and propriety
both pointed to the Fourth of July as the appropriate day, and a _bal
masqué_ was determined on instead of the theatricals. It was to be the
most delightful affair. Mr. Rutledge had promised to ask everybody, to
send to town for dresses, and to have the house so beautifully
decorated.
"Ah!" said Josephine with a ravishing smile, "Mr. Rutledge is the best,
the kindest of men."
Mr. Rutledge, starting from a fit of abstraction at that moment,
certainly did not convey the idea of any very excessive kindness or
goodness. The sternest frown contracted his brow, and in the cold
rigidity of his face, one would never have looked for anything gentle or
tender, and the expression that succeeded it under the influence of
Josephine's smile, was bitter and cynical, even to the most indifferent
observer.
Rain-storms in June have a way of abating their violence toward evening,
and breaking away enough to let the declining sun look for half an hour
over the wet and shining earth, and make of the desolate place the
freshest and most beautiful of Edens, cheering the silenced birds into
song, and the wet flowers into perfume, and the breaking clouds into
yellow lustre. A whole fair sunshiny day is nothing to it. The sudden
brilliancy and freshness are worth all the gloom that have made them so
dazzling. There was not a tree in the park that afternoon, not a flower
on the lawn, that did not shine and sparkle with a brightness it had
never worn before. There was a fine coolness too, in the fresh wind,
soft and June-like as it was.
"Is it too late for a ride?" asked Josephine, stepping out on the piazza
where we were all sitting. "A ride on horseback would be delightful,
would it not?"
"Delightful!" echoed Ella Wynkar.
"It would be a capital thing," said Phil, rising. "I wonder how it is
about saddle-horses--are there any fit for ladies in the stable, do you
know?"
"There are only two that would do for us ladies, Mr. Rutledge said,"
answered Josephine, "but several that you gentlemen could ride, and I
think it would be the nicest thing in the world to have a brisk canter
this fine afternoon. What do you say, Captain McGuffy?"
"By all means," responded the captain. "I wonder where Mr. Rutledge is."
"In the library," said Grace.
"Then, Miss Josephine, you are the proper person to go and ask his
permission. We know for whose sweet sake all obstacles are overcome, and
if you ask, we are sure of our ride."
"Yes," said Ellerton, who was excellent in chorus. "Yes, there is no
doubt he'll have the stables emptied in five minutes, if you want a
ride."
Phil bit his lip, as Josephine, with a very conscious look, sprang up,
saying, "Absurd! It's only because you are afraid to ask yourselves that
you want me to go." And with a coquettish shrug of the shoulders, and a
very arch laugh, she ran through the hall and disappeared at the library
door.
In a few moments she reappeared, and accompanied by Mr. Rutledge,
joined us on the piazza. There was a subdued tone of triumph in her
voice as she said,
"The horses will be at the door in five minutes, good people, not a
moment to be lost. Who is going?"
"I am sorry," said Mr. Rutledge, "that there are but two horses fit for
the ladies' use. There are enough, however, for all the gentlemen. Mr.
Viennet, you will find that chestnut mare you were admiring yesterday,
very good under the saddle."
Victor bowed, and, looking at me, said, "What do you ride?"
"I do not mean to ride this afternoon," I said quickly.
"Come, Ella!" exclaimed Josephine, "it will take us some minutes to put
on our habits," and the two friends flew upstairs.
Mr. Rutledge approaching me, said in a low tone, "Will you lend Madge to
your cousin or Miss Wynkar if you do not ride yourself?"
"It is a matter of very small moment to me who rides Madge," I returned
haughtily. "You cannot imagine that I attach any serious meaning to the
jest of last fall."
"That's as you will," he said, carelessly turning away.
I had no desire to see the equestrians set off, so going into the hall
for my garden hat and a light shawl, I was stealing quietly out at the
north door, when on the threshold I met Mr. Rutledge and Grace, who had
come around the piazza and were just entering.
"Where are you going?" said that young person inquisitively.
"I have not quite made up my mind," I answered, trying to pass her.
"You're going to walk, and I have a great mind to go with you," she
said, intercepting my exit.
"You will excuse me for saying I had rather not have you," I returned
shortly.
"Sweet pet! Its temper don't improve," she said provokingly.
"You are an insufferable child," I exclaimed, vexed beyond endurance,
and, pushing her aside, I hurried through the doorway. But the fringe of
her shawl caught in the bracelet on my arm, and, much against my will, I
had to turn back to release it. Grace enjoyed my vexation unspeakably,
and did not assist very materially in unfastening the fringe, which, if
the truth must be told, was a very difficult task for my trembling and
impatient fingers. The touch of Mr. Rutledge's cold, steady hand on my
arm, as he stooped to help me, added tenfold to my impatience.
"Break it," I exclaimed, "you'll never be able to untangle it."
"Oh that mysterious bracelet!" cried Grace. "You'd never tell me where
it came from."
"It is a perfect torment," I exclaimed, trying to wrench the long silk
fringe from the links in which it had become hopelessly twisted. "It
catches in everything."
"Then why do you wear it, may I ask?" said Mr. Rutledge, coolly.
"Only because I cannot help myself."
"Can't I assist you?" asked Victor, who had followed me.
"Very possibly," said Mr. Rutledge. "It is rather a delicate affair and
requires patience, more, I confess, than I have at command."
"And some strength. Can't you break this thing, Mr. Viennet? I cannot
unclasp it, and it annoys me beyond endurance."
"I have no doubt that Mr. Viennet can," said Mr. Rutledge, laying the
arm, bracelet, and entangled fringe in Victor's hand.
He tried in vain for a moment to disengage the fringe or unclasp the
bracelet, while Grace drawled,
"I advise you to hurry, Mr. Viennet; my cousin bites her lip as if she
were desperately angry."
"I cannot break it," said Victor, "without hurting you, of course."
"No matter for that! I am so anxious to have it off, that I should not
mind a little pain."
Victor shook his head. "Do not ask me to do it."
"Perhaps I should be less tender," said Mr. Rutledge, bending over it
again, and the frail links yielded instantly to the vice-like grasp of
his strong hand. A cry escaped me as the bracelet snapped, and fell on
the ground at my feet.
"You are hurt!" exclaimed Victor, starting forward and catching my hand
over which the blood from the wrist was trickling.
"It is nothing," I said, pulling it away, and wrapping my shawl around
it. "It is only scratched a little."
"Not very deep, I fancy," said Mr. Rutledge; while Grace, shrugging her
shoulders, exclaimed, as she entered the house:
"Well! you are the oddest set of people! All three of you as pale as
ashes, and as much in earnest as if it were a matter of life and death!
Mr. Rutledge, I shall coax you to tell me all about it."
"About what?" asked Mr. Rutledge, following her. And as I caught Grace's
saucy voice, and Mr. Rutledge's quick, sarcastic laugh, as they passed
down the hall, my very breath came quick and short, under the maddening
pressure of a pain I had never felt before. Pique, jealousy, vexation, I
had known enough of, but this, that dashed all other passions to the
dust, and held me gasping in such terrible subjection, was nearer to a
deadly sin. It shot so keen through every vein, it burned so madly in my
brain, that for a moment, pride and reason were stunned; and, regardless
of Victor's eyes fixed on my face, with a low cry of pain, I pressed my
hand to my forehead, then flew down the steps, and vanished from his
sight in the shrubbery. He could hardly have followed me if he had
chosen; I was out of sight of the house before he could have realized
that I had left him. The cool, fresh wind in my face only allayed the
pain enough to give me fresh strength to fly from what, alas! could not
be left behind. The still, unruffled expanse of the lake, as I reached
its banks, gave me that sort of a pang, that it gives one to wake up
from a short troubled sleep, when death and trouble have come in the
night, and find the sunshine flooding the room. It was so utterly out of
tune, so calmly impassive while such hot passion was raging in my
heart--so smiling and indifferent while I was throbbing with such acute
pain, that I sprang away from the sight of it, and hurried on into the
woods, never pausing till I had reached the pine grove at the head of
the lake.
It was better there; the pine-trees moan when there is no breath to stir
them--sunshine and singing-birds penetrate their solemn depths but
rarely; and at last I stopped, panting and trembling, on a knoll that
rose abruptly in the midst of this forest sanctuary. I sunk down on the
slippery ground at the foot of a tall pine, and leaning my throbbing
temples on my hands, tried to think and reason.
Do the wild flowers and mountain herbage raise their heads and meet the
sunshine and shake off the blight, an hour after the burning lava has
swept over their frail beauty? Thought, reason, faith, were as
impossible at that moment to me, as growth, and feeling, and verdure are
to them. I did not think--I could not reason; some hateful words rang in
my ears, and a wild, confused purpose mingled with the chaos that
passion had made in my mind; but beyond that I was incapable of thought.
An hour, perhaps, passed so; the sunset was fast fading out of the sky,
when the sound of voices through the woods struck my ear, and listening,
I recognized the tones of the returning riding-party. There was a
bridle-path, I knew, just below this knoll, through which they were
returning from Norbury, and springing up, I gathered my light muslin
dress about me, and pressing through the thicket that lay between it and
me, waited for them to pass. A low fence ran across the ravine, and
half-kneeling behind this, I watched for them with eager eyes. At last
they came, defiling past me one by one, through the narrow path, the
gentlemen first, then Ella Wynkar, and in a moment after, Madge
Wildfire's glossy head appeared through the opening, so near that I
might have patted her arched neck, or felt the breath from her dilated
nostrils, and touched the gloved hand that held the reins so tightly in
her impatient mouth. Josephine's dark cheek glowed with exercise and
excitement, and as she sat, with her head half-turned, in attention to
the low tones of the horseman who followed her closely, I could not help
acknowledging, with a sharp pang, the beauty that I had never before
appreciated. And her companion saw it too; his stern face softened as he
watched the radiant smiles chase each other over her varying mouth; his
eye, restless with an impatient fire, fell with pleasure on her eager,
attentive face.
He was thinking--how well I knew it! A thousand devils whispered it in
my ear--he was thinking, "this face is gentle and womanly--it turns to
me for pleasure--it is bright and gay--no storms sweep over it; it has
never repulsed and disappointed me. Shall I end the doubt, and say, it
is the face that shall be the loadstar of my future, the sunshine and
pleasure of my life?"
The horses threaded their way daintily down the narrow ravine--the
pleasant voices died away in the distance; I raised myself from my
bending attitude, and with blanched cheeks and parted lips, strained my
gaze to catch the last trace of them. If the assembled tribes of earth
and air had been there to see, I could not have brought one tinge of
color to my pallid face, nor taken the deadly stare out of my eyes, I
could only have done as I did now, when suddenly I found I was not
alone, utter a faint exclamation, and turning sick and giddy, lean
against the fence for support. The stealthy, cat-like tread of the
intruder brought him to my side in a moment. I knew, from the instant I
met the glance of his basilisk eyes, that he had been reading my face to
some purpose--that he knew the miserable story written on it.
"You look agitated," said Dr. Hugh, bending toward me obsequiously. "May
I ask if anything has happened to distress you?"
His tones were so hateful that I cried quickly: "No, nothing so much as
seeing you;" and, springing across the low barrier, I hurried down the
path. I knew he was following me stealthily; nothing but that fear would
have driven me back to the house again. The path was narrow and
irregular; other paths branched off from it, and before I got within
sight of the lake again, I was thoroughly bewildered, and in the
gathering twilight, the huge trees took weird forms, the "paths grew
dim," and no familiar landmark appeared to guide me. Pausing in fright
and bewilderment, I crouched for a moment behind a clump of trees, and
listened. I had eluded my pursuer; in a second's time, I heard his soft
step treading cautiously and swiftly down the path that I had
inadvertently left. With a sigh of relief, I looked about me, and
finding that the lake was just visible through an opening in the trees,
knew my whereabouts immediately, and only waited for Dr. Hugh to be well
out of the way to start across the park toward the house.
Several minutes elapsed before I ventured to rise from my hiding-place;
listening again intently, I was about to spring from the thicket, and
effect my escape across the park, when, with a start of fear, I heard a
heavy step crashing among the underbrush in the direction from which we
had come; a heavy step, and then a pause. My heart seemed to stand still
as I waited to hear more. The next sound was a low whistle; a long
pause, and then the signal was repeated. No answer came; and with a low
and surly oath, the new-comer advanced nearer to where I crouched.
Through a gap in the thicket, I could see him as he approached, and even
by this dusky light, I recognized the thickset figure and slouching gait
of the man whom Victor had so wantonly insulted on the evening of our
arrival--of whose enmity there could be no reasonable doubt. It was not
a comfortable thought, but certainly some evil purpose must have brought
him here; and for whom, too, was that signal given? It seemed almost
incredible that such a spirit of revenge should possess itself of such a
sluggish, low-born nature; yet I could not doubt that it was some design
of revenge that kept him lurking about the neighborhood. I knew that
Victor would be in peril if he were abroad to-night. And it was not
comfortable, either, to remember that it was my fault that he had given
the insult; for my protection that he had incurred this malice. How
should I ever forgive myself if any evil came of it? Victor was my only
friend at Rutledge; I could not but be grateful; the recollection of a
thousand kindnesses started up at the thought of the danger I had
involved him in, and I almost forgot that now I shared it.
Motionless and breathless, I saw him pass within two feet of me, stop,
whistle again, and then, after a pause, throwing himself at full length
on the ground, with his face toward the park, within a few yards of
where I was, lie waiting for I did not dare to think what. Victor, I was
certain, would be somewhere about the grounds, watching for my return;
this direction, sooner or later, he would inevitably take. Moment after
moment crept on; every movement of the stranger--even his heavy
breathing--were as distinct as if he had been within reach of my hand,
and the least motion on my part--the faintest rustle of my dress, or of
the branches of the thicket--would, of course, be as audible to him, and
most dangerous to me; indeed, if he were to turn this way, I could
hardly hope to escape detection, for my light drapery, only half hid
behind the dark thicket, would inevitably betray me. How long this would
last--how determined he could be in his vigil--I dreaded to conjecture.
None but Victor was likely to come to my assistance, and that was just
the very worst of all.
There was still enough light left in the west to distinguish, as I
looked eagerly that way, that a figure, from the direction of the house,
was crossing the lawn toward us. I turned sick with fear as I
recognized, bounding before the rapidly-approaching walker, Victor's
constant companion, little Tigre; and this, no doubt, was Victor. I
alone could warn him of the danger that awaited him; but, faint and
almost paralyzed with fear, I had not strength nor courage to stir. The
villain beside me, less quick-sighted, had not yet discovered his
advance.
He was not yet half-way across the park; there might be time. I made a
desperate resolve, and, clearing the copse at one bound, flew, as only
terror and desperation can fly. I heard the startled oath the man
uttered, and the cracking of the birch boughs as he regained his feet; I
heard him spring forward in pursuit, but by that time I was out of the
wood and on the lawn, and in another instant I had reached my goal.
Catching his arm, I exclaimed vehemently, forgetting everything in my
terror:
"Don't go near that horrid wood, _Victor!_ Come back, as you value your
life!"
I was too much terrified to await his reply; but, calling to him to
follow me, I ran on at the top of my speed, and never paused till I had
reached the terrace, and, sinking down on the stone steps, I covered my
face with my hands, panting and exhausted. Raising my head as I heard
his step beside me, I began:
"You don't know how narrow an escape you have had! That"----
"You have made a mistake," interrupted my companion. "It is not
_Victor_."
With an exclamation of amazement and chagrin, I sprung from him up the
steps. I had made a miserable mistake, indeed; it was Mr. Rutledge.