CHAPTER XLI

THE HOUSE OF HARMONY

At half-past ten that evening Stephen walked up the stone-flagged

pathway of his brother's house.

“Can I see Mrs. Hilary?”

“Mr. Hilary went abroad this morning, sir, and Mrs. Hilary has not yet

come in.”

“Will you give her this letter? No, I'll wait. I suppose I can wait for

her in the garden?”

“Oh yes, sit!”

“Very well.”

“I'll leave the door open, sir, in case you want to come in.”

Stephen walked across to the rustic bench and sat down. He stared

gloomily through the dusk at his patent-leather boots, and every now and

then he flicked his evening trousers with the letter. Across the dark

garden, where the boughs hung soft, unmoved by wind, the light from

Mr. Stone's open window flowed out in a pale river; moths, born of the

sudden heat, were fluttering up this river to its source.

Stephen looked irritably at the figure of Mr. Stone, which could be

seen, bowed, and utterly still, beside his desk; so, by lifting the

spy-hole thatch, one may see a convict in his cell stand gazing at his

work, without movement, numb with solitude.

'He's getting awfully broken up,' thought Stephen. 'Poor old chap! His

ideas are killing him. They're not human nature, never will be.'

Again he flicked his trousers with the letter, as though that document

emphasised the fact. 'I can't help being sorry for the sublime old

idiot!'

He rose, the better to see his father-in-law's unconscious figure. It

looked as lifeless and as cold as though Mr. Stone had followed some

thought below the ground, and left his body standing there to await his

return. Its appearance oppressed Stephen.

'You might set the house on fire,' he thought; 'he'd never notice.'

Mr. Stone's figure moved; the sound of along sigh came out to Stephen

in the windless garden. He turned his eyes away, with the sudden feeling

that it was not the thing to watch the old chap like this; then, getting

up, he went indoors. In his brother's study he stood turning over the

knick-knacks on the writing-table.

'I warned Hilary that he was burning his fingers,' he thought.

At the sound of the latch-key he went back to the hall.

However much he had secretly disapproved of her from the beginning,

because she had always seemed to him such an uncomfortable and

tantalising person, Stephen was impressed that night by the haunting

unhappiness of Bianca's face; as if it had been suddenly disclosed to

him that she could not help herself. This was disconcerting, being, in a

sense, a disorderly way of seeing things.

“You look tired, B.,” he said. “I'm sorry, but I thought it better to

bring this round tonight.”

Bianca glanced at the letter.

“It is to you,” she said. “I don't wish to read it, thank you.”

Stephen compressed his lips.

“But I wish you to hear it, please,” he said. “I'll read it out, if

you'll allow me.

“'CHARING CROSS STATION.

“'DEAR STEVIE,

“'I told you yesterday morning that I was going abroad alone. Afterwards

I changed my mind--I meant to take her. I went to her lodgings for the

purpose. I have lived too long amongst sentiments for such a piece

of reality as that. Class has saved me; it has triumphed over my most

primitive instincts.

“'I am going alone--back to my sentiments. No slight has been placed on

Bianca--but my married life having become a mockery, I shall not return

to it. The following address will find me, and I shall ask you presently

to send on my household gods.

“'Please let Bianca know the substance of this letter.

“'Ever your affectionate brother,

“'HILARY DALLISON.”'

With a frown Stephen folded up the letter, and restored it to his breast

pocket.

'It's more bitter than I thought,' he reflected; 'and yet he's done the

only possible thing!'

Bianca was leaning her elbow on the mantelpiece with her face turned to

the wall. Her silence irritated Stephen, whose loyalty to his brother

longed to fend a vent.

“I'm very much relieved, of course,” he said at last. “It would have

been fatal.”

She did not move, and Stephen became increasingly aware that this was a

most awkward matter to touch on.

“Of course,” he began again. “But, B., I do think you--rather--I

mean---” And again he stopped before her utter silence, her utter

immobility. Then, unable to go away without having in some sort

expressed his loyalty to Hilary, he tried once more: “Hilary is the

kindest man I know. It's not his fault if he's out of touch with

life--if he's not fit to deal with things. He's negative!”

And having thus in a single word, somewhat to his own astonishment,

described his brother, he held out his hand.

The hand which Bianca placed in it was feverishly hot. Stephen felt

suddenly compunctious.

“I'm awfully sorry,” he stammered, “about the whole thing. I'm awfully

sorry for you---”

Bianca drew back her hand.

With a little shrug Stephen turned away.

'What are you to do with women like that?' was his thought, and saying

dryly, “Good-night, B.,” he went.

For some time Bianca sat in Hilary's chair. Then, by the faint glimmer

coming through the half-open door, she began to wander round the room,

touching the walls, the books, the prints, all the familiar things among

which he had lived so many years....

In that dim continual journey she was like a disharmonic spirit

traversing the air above where its body lies.

The door creaked behind her. A voice said sharply:

“What are you doing in this house?”

Mr. Stone was standing beside the bust of Socrates. Bianca went up to

him.

“Father!”

Mr. Stone stared. “It is you! I thought it was a thief! Where is

Hilary?”

“Gone away.”

“Alone?”

Bianca bowed her head. “It is very late, Dad,” she whispered.

Mr. Stone's hand moved as though he would have stroked her.

“The human heart,” he murmured, “is the tomb of many feelings.”

Bianca put her arm round him.

“You must go to bed, Dad,” she said, trying to get him to the door, for

in her heart something seemed giving way.

Mr. Stone stumbled; the door swung to; the room was plunged in darkness.

A hand, cold as ice, brushed her cheek. With all her force she stiffed a

scream.

“I am here,” Mr. Stone said.

His hand, wandering downwards, touched her shoulder, and she seized it

with her own burning hand. Thus linked, they groped their way out into

the passage towards his room.

“Good-night, dear,” Bianca murmured.

By the light of his now open door Mr. Stone seemed to try and see her

face, but she would not show it him. Closing the door gently, she stole

upstairs.

Sitting down in her bedroom by the open window, it seemed to her that

the room was full of people--her nerves were so unstrung. It was as if

walls had not the power this night to exclude human presences. Moving,

or motionless, now distinct, then covered suddenly by the thick veil of

some material object, they circled round her quiet figure, lying back in

the chair with shut eyes. These disharmonic shadows flitting in the

room made a stir like the rubbing of dry straw or the hum of bees among

clover stalks. When she sat up they vanished, and the sounds became the

distant din of homing traffic; but the moment she closed her eyes, her

visitors again began to steal round her with that dry, mysterious hum.

She fell asleep presently, and woke with a start. There, in a glimmer of

pale light, stood the little model, as in the fatal picture Bianca had

painted of her. Her face was powder white, with shadows beneath the

eyes. Breath seemed coming through her parted lips, just touched

with colour. In her hat lay the tiny peacock's feather beside the two

purplish-pink roses. A scent came from her, too--but faint, as ever

was the scent of chicory flower. How long had she been standing there?

Bianca started to her feet, and as she rose the vision vanished.

She went towards the spot. There was nothing in that corner but

moonlight; the scent she had perceived was merely that of the trees

drifting in.

But so vivid had that vision been that she stood at the window, panting

for air, passing her hand again and again across her eyes.

Outside, over the dark gardens, the moon hung full and almost golden.

Its honey-pale light filtered down on every little shape of tree, and

leaf, and sleeping flower. That soft, vibrating radiance seemed to have

woven all into one mysterious whole, stilling disharmony, so that each

little separate shape had no meaning to itself.

Bianca looked long at the rain of moonlight falling on the earth's

carpet, like a covering shower of blossom which bees have sucked and

spilled. Then, below her, out through candescent space, she saw a shadow

dart forth along the grass, and to her fright a voice rose, tremulous

and clear, seeming to seek enfranchisement beyond the barrier of the

dark trees: “My brain is clouded. Great Universe! I cannot write! I can

no longer discover to my brothers that they are one. I am not worthy to

stay here. Let me pass into You, and die!”

Bianca saw her father's fragile arms stretch out into the night through

the sleeves of his white garment, as though expecting to be received at

once into the Universal Brotherhood of the thin air.

There ensued a moment, when, by magic, every little dissonance in all

the town seemed blended into a harmony of silence, as it might be the

very death of self upon the earth.

Then, breaking that trance, Mr. Stone's voice rose again, trembling out

into the night, as though blown through a reed.

“Brothers!” he said.

Behind the screen of lilac bushes at the gate Bianca saw the dark helmet

of a policeman. He stood there staring steadily in the direction of

that voice. Raising his lantern, he flashed it into every corner of

the garden, searching for those who had been addressed. Satisfied,

apparently, that no one was there, he moved it to right and left,

lowered it to the level of his breast, and walked slowly on.

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