CHAPTER XXIX. Greyshot Again

To what purpose do you profess to believe in the unity of

the human race, which is the necessary consequence of the

unity of God, if you do not strive to verify it by

destroying the arbitrary divisions and enmities that still

separate the different tribes of humanity? Why do we talk

of fraternity while we allow any of our brethren to be

trampled on, degraded or despised? The earth is our

workshop. We may not curse it, we are bound to sanctify it.

... We must strive to make of humanity one single family.

Mazzini

Erica's appearance at Lady Caroline's dinner party had caused a sort

of storm in a tea cup; the small world of Greyshot was in a state

of ferment, and poor Mrs. Fane-Smith suffered a good deal from the

consciousness that she and her family were the subject of all the gossip

of the place. Her little expedients had failed, and she began to reflect

ruefully that perfect sincerity, plain honesty, would have been the best

policy, after all. By the time that a week had passed, however, censure

and harsh comments began to give place to curiosity, and the result

of this was that on Monday, which was Mrs. Fane-Smith's “at home” day,

Greyshot found it convenient to call in large numbers.

Erica, returning from Oakdene in the afternoon, found her work awaiting

her. Her heart beat rather quickly when, on entering the drawing room

she found it full of visitors; she half smiled to herself to find such

an opportunity of beginning Donovan's work. And very bravely she set

about it. Those who had come from curiosity not unmixed with malice were

won in spite of themselves; even Mr. Cuthbert, who bore down upon her

with the full intention of making her uncomfortable, found himself

checkmated as effectually as at Lady Caroline's dinner table, though in

a very different way.

“I think I saw you in church yesterday morning!” he remarked, by way of

introducing a discordant subject.

“Yes,” replied Erica, “I have been staying at Oakdene Manor, and had a

most delicious time.”

“Sharing Mr. Farrant's philanthropic labors?” asked Mr. Cuthbert, with

his unpleasant smile.

She laughed.

“No; I have been thoroughly lazy, and September is their holiday month,

too. You would have been amused to see us the other evening all hard at

work making paper frogs like so many children.”

“Paper frogs!” said Mr. Cuthbert, with an intonation that suggested

sarcasm.

“Yes; have you ever seen them?” asked Erica. “I don't think many people

know how to make them. Feltrino taught me when I was a little girl I'll

show you, if you like.”

“Did you ever meet Feltrino?” asked Lady Caroline.

She knew very little of the Italian patriot. In his life time he

had been despised and rejected, but he was now dead; his biography a

well-written one was in all the circulating libraries, and even those

who were far from agreeing with his political views, had learned

something of the nobility of his character. So there was both surprise

and envy in Lady Caroline's tone; she had a weakness for celebrities.

“I saw him once when I was seven years old,” said Erica. “He knew

my father, and one day we were overtaken by a tremendous shower, and

happened to meet Feltrino, who made us come into his rooms and wait till

it was over. And while they talked Italian politics I sat and watched

him. He had the most wonderful eyes I ever saw, and presently, looking

up and seeing me, he laughed and took me on his knee, saying that

politics must not spoil my holiday, and that he would show me how

to make Japanese frogs. Once, when he was imprisoned, and was hardly

allowed to have any books, the making of those frogs kept him from going

mad, he said.”

While she spoke she had been deftly folding a sheet of paper, and

several people were watching curiously. “Before very long, the frog

was completed, and the imitation proved so clever that there was an

unanimous chorus of approval and admiration. Every one wanted to learn

how to make them; the Feltrino frogs became the topic of the afternoon,

and Erica fairly conquered the malicious tongues. She was superintending

Lady Caroline's first attempt at a frog, when a familiar name made her

look up.

“Mr. Cunningham Mr. Leslie Cunningham.”

“I thought you were in Switzerland!” she exclaimed, as he crossed the

room and shook hands with her.

“I never got further than Paris,” he said, smiling. “My brother has

gone instead, and I am going to follow your example and study the

beauties of English scenery.”

Perhaps Greyshot opinion was more conciliated by the long talk with Mr.

Leslie Cunningham, M.P., than even by the Feltrino frogs. To have

Luke Raeburn's daughter suddenly thrust into the midst of their select

society at Lady Caroline's dinner was one thing they had one and

all shunned her. But when she proved to be, after all, clever and

fascinating, and original, when they knew that she had sat on Feltrino's

knee as a little child, above all, when they saw that Leslie Cunningham

was talking to her with mingled friendliness and deference, they veered

round. Politically, they hated Sir Michael Cunningham, but in society

they were pleased enough to meet him, and in Greyshot, naturally enough,

his son was a “lion.” Greyshot made much of him during his stay at

Blachingbury, and he found it very convenient just then to be made much

of.

Hardly a day of that week passed in which he did not in some way meet

Erica. He met her in the park with her aunt; he sat next to her at an

evening concert; he went to the theater and watched her all through

“Hamlet,” and came to the Fane-Smith's box between the acts. Yet,

desperately as he was in love, he could not delude himself with the

belief that she cared for him. She was always bright, talkative, frank,

even friendly, but that was all. Yet her unlikeness to the monotonously

same girls, whom he was in the habit of meeting, fascinated him more and

more each day. She was to go back to town on the Monday; on Friday it so

happened that she met Leslie Cunningham at a great flower show, and with

perfect unconsciousness piqued him almost beyond endurance. Now at last

he hoped to make her understand his admiration. They discussed “Hamlet,”

and he had just brought the conversation adroitly round to the love

scene in the third act, when Erica suddenly dashed his hopes to the

ground.

“Oh, how lovely!” she exclaimed, pausing before a beautiful exotic.

“Surely that must be an orchid?”

And the reluctant Leslie found the conversation drifting round to

botany, about which he knew little and cared less. Once more his

hopes were raised only to be frustrated. He was sitting besides Mrs.

Fane-Smith and Erica, and had managed to stem the tide of the botany.

The band was playing. Erica, half listening to the music and half

attending to his talk, looked dreamily peaceful; surely now was the

time! But all at once the clear eyes looked up with their perfectly

wide-awake interest, and she exclaimed:

“I do wish the Farrants would come! They certainly meant to be here. I

can't make it out.”

Leslie patiently talked about the member for Greyshot; but, just when

he hoped he was quit of the subject, Erica gave an exclamation of such

unfeigned delight that a consuming envy took possession of him.

“Oh, there he is! And Ralph and Dolly, too!”

And in a moment the Oakdene party had joined them, and Leslie saw that

his chances for that day were over. Before long he had made his escape,

leaving the grounds not moodily, but with the light of a new and eager

determination in his eye.

Erica, returning from the flower show late in the afternoon, found a

note awaiting her, and opened it unconcernedly enough on her way up to

her room. But the first glance at it brought a glow of color to her face

and a nameless fear to her heart. She ran on quickly, locked her door,

and by the ruddy firelight read in a sort of dumb dismay her first offer

of marriage. This then was the meaning of it all. This was the cause of

his hurried return to England; this had brought her the long talks which

had been so pleasant, yes, strangely, unaccountably pleasant. Yet, for

all that, she knew well enough that she had nothing to give in return

for the love revealed in every word of the letter. She liked him, liked

to talk to him, thought him clever and interesting, but that was all.

His wife! Oh, no! Impossible! That could never be! And then, as usual,

even in the midst of her strange sense of discomfort and perplexity,

there came a flash of humor which made her laugh noiselessly in the dim

light. “Tom would call me Mrs. Sly Bacon!”

But a second reading of the letter made her look grave. She was very

much puzzled to know how to answer it; how, in refusing, to give him

least pain. There was nothing else to hesitate about, of her own mind

she was quite sure. There was only an hour till post time. She must

write at once, and she must write in a way which could not be mistaken.

There was not a grain of coquetry about Erica. After some thought she

wrote the following lines:

“Dear Mr. Cunningham, Your letter surprised me very much and pained me,

too, because in replying I fear I must give you pain. I thank you for

the honor you have done me, but I can never be your wife. Even if I

could return your love, which I can not, it could never be right. People

are so prejudiced that the connection of our names might greatly injure

your public work, and, besides, you could not live in the circle in

which I live, and nothing could ever make it right for me to leave my

own people. I can not write as I should like to I can not say what I

would, or thank you as I would but please understand me, and believe me

yours very sincerely, Erica Raeburn.”

Strange enough the writing of that letter, the realization of the

impossibility of accepting Leslie Cunningham's offer, opened out to

Erica a new region, started her upon a new stage of her life progress.

In spite of her trouble at the thought of the pain she must give, there

was an indefinable sense that life and love meant much more than she had

hitherto dreamed of; and, though for the next few days she was a little

grave and silent, there rang in her ears the refrain:

“Oh, life, oh, beyond, Thou art strange, thou art sweet.”

She was not sorry that her visit was drawing to a close, although the

last week had gone much more smoothly. Her vigorous nature began to long

to return to the working day world, and though she could very honestly

thank Mr. Fane-Smith for his kindness, she turned her back on his house

with unmixed satisfaction.

“And you cannot change your ind as to my suggestion?” he asked sending

off one parting arrow.

“I can not,” said Erica, firmly, “he is my father.”

“You must of course make your own choice,” he said with a sigh. “But you

are sadly wrong, sadly wrong! In my opinion your father is--”

“Forgive me for interrupting you,” said Erica, “but by your own showing

you have no right to have any opinion whatever about my father. Until

you have either learned to know him personally, heard him speak, or

fairly and carefully studied his writings, you have no grounds to form

an opinion upon.”

“But the current opinion is--”

“The current opinion is no more an opinion than yours! It is the view

of most bitter opponents. And, candidly, WOULD you accept the current

opinion held of any prominent statesman by his adversaries? Why, the

best men living are represented as fiends in human shape by their

enemies! And if this is so in political matters, how much more in such a

case as my father's!”

Mr. Fane-Smith, who was a well-meaning though narrow man, sighed again;

it was always very painful to him to listen to views which did not

coincide with his own.

“Well,” he said at length, “there is, after all, the hope that you may

convert him.”

“I hope you do not want me to turn into one of those hateful little

prigs, who go about lamenting over their unregenerate parents,” said

Erica, naughtily. Then, softening down, she added, “I think I know what

you mean perhaps I was wrong to speak like that, only somehow, knowing

what my father is, it does grate so to put it in that way. But don't

think I would not give my life for him to come to the light here and now

for I would! I would!”

She clasped her hands tightly together, and turned quickly away.

Mr. Fane-Smith was touched.

“Well, my dear,” he said. “You may be right, after all, and I may be

wrong. All my anxiety is only for your ultimate good.”

The train was on the point of starting, he gave her a warm hand shake,

and in spite of all that jarred in their respective natures, Erica ended

by liking him the best of her new relations.

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