It was on the second morning following his interview with Dr. Peterson
that Parker Steel received two letters, heralding the shadow of an
approaching storm.
“I have laid the facts of the case,” wrote the demi-god from
Mayfair, “before the General Medical Council. I consider this
action of mine to partake of the nature of a public duty; for
your abuse of your position has been too gross even for medical
etiquette to cover. I cannot understand how a practitioner of
your reputation could be so mad as to run so scandalous a risk.
That you contracted the disease innocently in the pursuit of
duty would have won you the sympathy of your
fellow-practitioners. Your concealment of the disease puts an
immoral complexion on the case. . . . Needless to say, I have
given Major Murray the full benefit of an honest opinion.”
Such a letter from a physician of Dr. Peterson’s standing would have
been sufficient in itself to demoralize a man of more courage and
tenacity than Parker Steel. The curt declaration of war that reached him
from Major Murray, by the very same post, exaggerated the effect that
the specialist’s letter had produced.
“SIR,—I have received from Dr. Peterson a statement that
convicts you of the most scandalous mal praxis. Needless to say,
I am placing the matter in the hands of my solicitor; I consider
it to be a case deserving of publicity, however repugnant the
atmosphere surrounding the affair may be to me and mine.
“MURRAY.”
Those who have touched the realities of war will tell you that they have
seen men with faces pinched as by a frost, their teeth chattering like
castanets, even under the blaze of an African sun. It was at the
breakfast-table that Parker Steel read those two ominous letters. The
man looked ill and yellow, and his nerves were none too steady, to judge
by the way he had gashed himself in shaving. The very clothes he wore
seemed to have grown creased and shabby in a week, as though they felt
the wearer’s figure limp and shrunken, and had lost tone in consequence.
It may be remembered that the Immortal Three displayed varying symptoms
when at grips with death. The tongue of Ortheris waxed feverishly
profane; the Yorkshireman broke out into song; Mulvaney, the Paddy, was
incontinently sick. Parker Steel emulated the Irishman in this
eccentricity that morning, save that his nausea was inspired by panic,
and not by heroic rage.
Shaken and very miserable, he sat down at the bureau in his
consulting-room, leaned his head upon his hands, and shivered. For two
nights he had had but short snatches of sleep, brief lapses into
oblivion that had been rendered vain by dreams. The imminent dread of a
hundred ignominies had held him sick and cold through the short darkness
of the summer nights. Dawn had come and found him feverish and very
weary. To a coward it is torture to be alone with his own thoughts.
The third night he had taken sulphonal, a full dose, and had slept till
Symons knocked at his bedroom door. The fog of the drug still clung
about his brain as he sat at the bureau and tried to think. He seemed
incapable of putting any purpose into motion, like an exhausted battery
whose cells have been drained of their electric charge.
Parker Steel picked up a pen after he had crouched there silently for
some twenty minutes. He opened a drawer, drew out several sheets of
note-paper, and began to scribble confused, jerky sentences, to alter,
to reconsider, and to erase. The power to determine and to act, even on
paper, were lost to him that morning. He wrote two letters, only to tear
them up and scatter the pieces in the grate, where a lighted match set
them burning. He was still on his knees, turning over the charred
fragments, when the door-bell rang.
The sedate Symons came to announce a patient.
“Mrs. Prosser, sir.”
“Tell her I can’t see her.”
Symons stared. Her master had something of the air of an angry dog.
“Tell her I’m busy. She can call again.”
“Yes, sir.”
She still stood in the doorway, irresolute, surprised.
“What the devil are you waiting there for, Symons?”
“Nothing, sir.”
And she withdrew, with her dignity balanced on the tip of a very much
tilted nose.
Parker Steel opened the window wide, and leaning his hands on the sill,
looked out into the garden. It was air that he needed—air amid the
stifling complexities of life that were crowding tumultuous upon his
future. The garden with the sumptuous serenity of its trees and flowers
had no sympathetic touch for him in his agony of isolation. It was his
loneliness that weighed upon him heavily at that moment. He had outlawed
himself, as it were, from the heart of his own wife. The very house was
a pest-house in which two stricken souls were sundered and held apart.
If Betty would only see him. If she could only bring herself to
understand that he had acted this disastrous part in order to retain the
social satisfactions that she loved. Any companionship, even the
companionship of a half-estranged wife, seemed preferable to the
isolation that he felt deepening about him. He argued that it was his
realization of Betty’s ambition that had made him dissemble for her
sake. Any argument, however suspicious, is pressed into the service of a
man whose whole desire is to justify himself.
Unfortunately, when a woman’s trust has been once shocked from its
foundations, no buttressing and underpinning can save that
superstructure of sentiment that has taken years to build. Betty had
kept to her room with no one but Madge Ellison to give her sympathy and
advice. The husband had always found the friend embarrassing with her
presence any _rapprochement_ between him and his wife.
As he stood at the open window, with the words of the two letters he had
read weaving a hopeless tangle of bewilderment in his brain, he heard
some one descend the stairs and go out by the front door into the
square. Parker Steel realized that this ubiquitous and embarrassing
friend had left Betty alone in the room above. There was some chance at
last of his seeing her alone, and of attempting to break down the
barrier of her reserve.
He climbed the stairs slowly, and stood listening for several seconds on
the landing before turning the handle of his wife’s door. The door was
locked.
Parker Steel frowned over the ineptitude of the manœuvre. A dramatic
entry might at least have given some dignity to the trick. As it was, he
felt like a sneaking boy who had been balked and taken in some none too
honorable artifice.
“Betty.”
“Yes, what is it?”
She was in a chair near the window, reading, with her dark hair spread
upon her shoulders. Her mouth hardened as she recognized her husband’s
voice. It was the very day, and she remembered it, the day of Lady
Sophia’s fashionable bazaar when Betty Steel had foreseen the people of
Roxton at her feet. She had asked Madge Ellison to bring out the dress
that she should have worn. Primrose and leaf-green, it hung across the
foot-rail of her bed.
“I want to speak to you, Betty.”
“Is there anything that we can discuss?”
The level tenor of her voice, its unflurried callousness, gave him an
impression of obstinate estrangement.
“Betty.”
She did not answer.
“Let me in. If you will only give me a chance to justify myself—”
The very words he chose were the words least calculated to move a woman.
Betty, lying back in her chair, pictured to herself a cringing,
deprecating figure that could boast none of the passionate forcefulness
of manhood. A woman may be won by courage and strength, even in the
person of the man who has done her wrong; but let her have the repulsion
of contempt, and her instinct towards forgiveness will be frozen into an
unbending pride.
“I do not wish you to make excuses, Parker.”
“But, Betty—”
“Well?”
“It was for the sake of the home, the practice, everything. Can’t you
understand? Can’t you imagine what I have gone through?”
Her momentary silence seemed to suggest a sneer.
“So you would justify a lie?”
“Betty, don’t talk like this. I am worried to death by other matters as
it is.”
“I can understand that perfectly.”
He began to pace the landing, halting irresolutely from time to time
before the locked door.
“I have heard from Peterson this morning.”
No reply.
“He is reporting the matter to the General Council, and he has given the
truth away to Murray. You know what that must mean.”
Still no reply.
“Betty.”
Had he been able to see the cynical smile upon her face, Parker Steel
might have understood that by acting the suppliant for her pity he only
intensified her contempt.
“Betty, is this fair to me?”
He shook the door with a sudden gust of petulant impatience.
“Show me some little consideration. I have some right to demand—”
“Demand what you please, Parker, but oblige me by not making so much
noise.”
“You will regret this.”
His voice was harsh now and beyond control.
“I have regretted much already.”
“Your marriage, I suppose?”
“There is no need, Parker, to indulge in details.”
“This is beyond my patience!”
“And mine, I assure you.”
He turned, and retreated from the attack at the same moment that Madge
Ellison reappeared upon the stairs. They passed each other without a
word; the woman, clear-eyed and uncompromising; the man gliding close to
the wall. Madge Ellison found Betty sitting with closed eyes before the
open window, the June sunshine dappling the bosoms of the tall trees in
the square with gold.