Breakfast was kept back an hour next morning to await Lucy's tardy
appearance. "She was sadly wearied with her journey," apologized
Philip, and Sarah begged that she would keep her room and have her
meals sent up to her--an hospitable offer, which Mr. Benson negatived.
Lucy did look tired and unrefreshed, and, to speak more plainly,
very cross. Her hair, in its dryest state of pale yellow, was combed
straight back above her temples; her skin was sallow; her wrapper
carelessly put on, and its dead white unrelieved by even a bow of
ribbon at the throat. Involuntarily Lewis glanced from the uninviting
picture to his household deity, in her neat breakfast-dress of gray
silk faced with pink, her glossy hair and tranquil features, and said
to himself, in secret triumph, "Which is now the beauty? None of your
trumpery ornamental articles for me!"
Philip's eyes were as keen as his host's, and the probability is that
he instituted a similar comparison, however well his pride succeeded in
concealing the act and its result. Cutting short his wife's querulous
plaints of the discomforts of travel, and the horrors of nervous
sleeplessness, he opened a conversation with Mr. Hammond in the
subdued, perfectly-managed tones Sarah remembered so well, selecting
such topics as would interest a business man and a citizen of a
commercial metropolis. Lucy pouted, and applied herself for consolation
to her breakfast.
With a strange mingling of emotions, Sarah listened to the dialogue
between the gentlemen. She was anxious that Lewis should acquit himself
creditably. Brilliant, like Philip, he could never be; but in sterling
sense, not many men were his superiors. She had never had cause to
be ashamed of him; for one so unpretending and judicious was not
liable to make himself ridiculous. Whence, then, the solicitude with
which she hung upon his every word? her disappointment when he did
not equal the ideal reply she had fashioned, as she heard the words
that called it forth? Several times she joined in the conversation,
invariably to corroborate Lewis' assertions, or to supply something
he had omitted to state. Philip Benson was a student of human nature.
Was his mind sufficiently abstracted from his domestic annoyances to
divine the motive that Sarah herself only perceived afterwards in
solitary self-examination? Not love of, or admiration for the intrinsic
excellence of the man whose name she bore; not fear lest his modesty
should lessen his merits in the eyes of others; but a selfish dread
that his acute interlocutor, discerning in him nothing likely to
attract or win the affection of a woman such as he knew her to be,
might guess her true reason for marrying Mr. Hammond. The timorous
progeny of one guilty secret can only be numbered by the minutes during
which it is borne in the bosom. Like the fabled Lacedæmonian boy,
Sarah carried the gnawing horror with a fortitude that looked like
cheerfulness. Habit cannot lighten the weight of a clinging curse; but
strength and hardness come in time, if the burdened one is not early
crushed by his load.
The sisters spent most of the day in Lucy's room; the latter stretched
upon the lounge, as she declared, "completely used up." Mrs. Hunt
came around early in the forenoon, and into her sympathizing ears the
spoiled child poured the story of her woes and wrongs; Sarah sitting
by with a swelling, rebellious heart. With indecorous contempt for
one of the most binding laws of married state--inviolable secrecy as
to the faults of the other party to the momentous compact--mother and
daughter compared notes upon their husbands, and criticised the class
generally as the most wrong-headed, perverse, and dictatorial of all
the necessary evils of society.
Mrs. Benson, the elder, and her pleasure-loving daughter-in-law had
differed seriously several months before the death of the former.
Philip, while espousing his wife's cause to the rest of his family,
had, in private, taken her to task for what he considered objectionable
in her conduct; her heads of offence being mainly extravagant love of
gay company, and the gallant attentions of gentleman visitors; neglect
of dress and all efforts to please, when there was no company by; and
a decided indisposition to share in the household duties, which his
mother's increasing feebleness made onerous to her.
"Ah, mother!" sighed the interesting complainant, raising herself
to shake up her pillow, then sinking again upon it. "If girls only
realized what is before them when they marry, few would be brave
enough to change their condition. When I picture to myself what I was
at home--a petted darling--never allowed to inconvenience myself when
it could possibly be avoided; courted in society; free as air and
light-hearted as a child; and then think of all that I have endured
from the unkindness of strangers, and the--well--the want of sympathy
in him for whom I had given up my dear old home and friends--I ask
myself why I did not remain single!"
The prudent matchmaker shook her head. "Marriage is a lottery, they
say, my dear; but I am very sure that single life is a blank. You
had no fortune, and in the event of your father's death would have
been almost destitute. I am sorry your father did not insist upon Mr.
Benson's giving you your own establishment at once. I hope, now the old
lady is out of the way, you will have things more according to your
notions."
"Don't you believe that! As if there were not two sisters-in-law,
living but four miles off, and driving over every other day to 'see how
pa is.' That means, to see whether Lucy is letting things go to wreck
and ruin. I understand their spiteful ways! Philip shuts his ears when
I talk about them; but I am determined that I will not bear much more
meddling!"
Decidedly, Lucy Benson married was a woeful declension from the
seraphic spinster depicted in our earlier chapters; but, as in time
past, so in time present and to come, the sparkling sugar, whose
integrity and sweetness appeared indestructible, while it was kept
dry and cool, if dampened, undergoes an acetous fermentation, and the
delicate sweet-meat, exposed to the air at a high temperature, becomes
speedily a frothing mass, evolving pungent gases. The pretty doll who
anticipates, in the connubial state, one long fete-day of adoration
received, and benign condescension dispensed, is as certain to awake
from this dream as from any other, and upon the temper in which she
sustains the disenchantment, depends a vast proportion of her future
welfare and peace.
Lucy's behavior to her babe was a mixture of childish fondling and
neglect. Fortunately, the little "Hunt's" special attendant was an
elderly woman, long established as "Maumer" in the Benson family, and
her devotion to her charge prevented any present evil effects from his
mother's incompetence or carelessness. Philip's pride in, and love
for his boy were extreme. When he came in that evening, Sarah chanced
to be in the nursery adjoining her chamber, watching and inciting the
two babies to a game of romps. She held one on each knee, the nurses
standing by in amused gratification.
"That is surely my little man's voice!" said Philip, as he and Lewis
came up the stairs.
"Let me see!"--and Mr. Hammond peeped into the playroom. "Walk in!" he
continued, throwing the door wide open. "Isn't there a pair of them?"
"And a nurse worthy of the twain!" returned Philip. He stooped to the
invitation of the lifted arms, fluttering, as if the owner would fly to
his embrace. "What do you say of him, aunty? Is he not a passable boy?"
"More than passable! he is a noble-looking fellow. He resembles you, I
think," said Sarah, quietly.
"Do you hear that, Hammond? Your wife pronounces me 'more than
passable--a noble-looking fellow!' So much for an adroit hint. Is she
given to flattery?"
"Not she!" returned Lewis, laughing. "She never said as much as that
for my looks in all her life. I have one consolation, however; the
less she says the more she means!" He went into the dressing-room, and
Philip, still holding the child, seated himself by Sarah.
"How odd, yet how familiar it seems, to be with you once more, my good
sister! What a succession of mischances has made us virtual strangers
for many months past! I had almost despaired of ever holding friendly
converse with you again. I wonder if your recollections of our visit
to Aunt Sarah are as vivid as mine. Do you remember that last sad, yet
dear day on the Deal Beach?"
Baby Belle was standing in her mother's lap, her soft, warm arms about
her neck; and around the frail, sinking human heart invisible arms, as
warm and close, were upholding and strengthening it in the moment of
mortal weakness.
"Very distinctly. Many changes have come to us both since then."
"To me very many! I have grown older in heart than in years." Then,
evidently fearing that she might otherwise interpret his meaning, he
subjoined: "We have had a heavy bereavement in our household, you know.
Your changes have all been happy ones. The enthusiastic, restless girl
has ripened into the more sedate, yet more blessed wife and mother."
Press your sweet mouth to the convulsed lips, Baby Belle! Veil with
your silky curls the tell-tale features, whose agitation would
bewilder, if not betray! Philip was stroking the head of his boy, and
did not see the uneasiness of his companion.
"Have you heard of Uncle Nathan's death?" she asked, clearing her
throat.
He looked surprised at the inquiry. "Yes! Aunt Sarah wrote immediately
to my father."
"Ah! I had forgotten that they were brothers. My memory is treacherous.
Excuse me! I am wanted in the dining-room!"
Lewis met her just outside the door, and stopped her to bestow the
evening kiss he had not cared to offer in Philip's presence.
"Why, you are as rosy as a peony!" he said, jestingly. "Has Benson been
paying you compliments, in return for yours to him? I must look after
you two, if you carry on at this rate."
With a look he had reason subsequently to recall, but which only
pleased him at the time, she raised his hand to her lips--a look of
humility, gratitude, and appeal, such as one might cast upon a slighted
benefactor--and vanished.
A merry family party gather around the Hammond's generous table, that
afternoon. All the Hunts were there--from the father down to Jeannie,
who was fast shooting up into a tall girl, somewhat pert in manner, but
lovable despite this, at times, unpleasant foible.
"Sister Lucy," she said, after an interval of silence, "Ellen West
said, at school, to-day that you were a great belle when you were a
young lady; were you?"
"You must not ask me, Jeannie!" The old smile of conscious beauty stole
into Lucy's cheeks.
"Was she, sister?" Jeannie referred the case to Sarah.
"Yes, my dear, she was very beautiful," replied the latter, simply.
"She isn't now--not so very handsome, I mean--no handsomer than you
are, sister!"
"Jeannie! you forget yourself!" interposed Mrs. Hunt.
"Why, mamma, I did not intend to be rude! Only I thought that belles
were always the prettiest ladies that could be found anywhere."
"By no means!" corrected Lewis, willing to help his wife's pet out of
a scrape. "There are many descriptions of belles, Jeannie: handsome,
rich, fast, and intellectual."
"And as papa was not rich, I suppose you were either fast or
intellectual, sister Lucy!" persisted the child.
"I thought her pretty fast when I tried to catch her," said
Philip.--"Mrs. Hunt, Mrs. Hammond, Mrs. Benson, have you ladies decided
in the course of to-day's congress what watering-place is to be made
the fashion by our clique next month?"
Mrs. Hunt replied that they inclined to Newport; principally on account
of Lucy and the children, who would all be benefited by the bathing.
Lucy was sure that she should tire of Saratoga or the Catskills in a
week, whereas she adored the ocean.
"What says Madame Discretion?" said Lewis, merrily, to his wife.
"Except that it would break up the family party, I had rather stay at
home as long as it is prudent to keep the baby in town; then, if you
could go with us, spend a month at some mountain farmhouse or seaside
cottage," she answered.
"Hear! hear!" commanded Philip. "Behold a modern wedded dame who
prefers seclusion with her liege lord to gayety without him! The age of
miracles is returning!"
"Is the case, then, so anomalous?" retorted Sarah, the red spot in her
cheek alone testifying to her embarrassment. "Are your Southern matrons
all public characters?"
"I can answer that!" said Lucy. "They are slaves! housekeeping
machines--nothing better!"
"How many more weak places are there in this crust of family chit-chat,
I should like to be informed!" thought the annoyed and uninitiated
Hammond. "Here goes for the spot where there is no danger of anybody's
breaking in!" He spoke aloud. "A tempting proposal was made to me this
morning. It is considered advisable for one of our firm to go abroad
for a couple of months, perhaps longer, to divide his time among the
principal manufacturing districts of England, Scotland, and France.
Expenses paid by the firm, and the term of absence indefinitely
prolonged, if the traveler wishes it. Mr. Marlow is tired of crossing
the ocean, and presses me to accept the mission."
"What did you tell him?"
It was Sarah who spoke in a startled voice that drew general notice to
her alarmed face. Her concern was a delicious tribute to her husband's
self-love, if he possessed such a quality. At least he loved her well
enough to be pleased at her manifest reluctance to have him leave her.
"I told him that I must ask my wife," said he in a meek tone, belied
by the humorous twinkle in his eye, and loving half-smile about his
mouth. "See what it is to be one under authority, Benson! A man dare
not conclude an ordinary business transaction without the approval of
the powers that be."
When Sarah accompanied her sister to her chamber that night, the passee
belle put a direct question.
"Tell me, Sarah, are you as much in love with Mr. Hammond as you seem
to be, or is it all put on for the benefit of outsiders?"
"I am not apt to do anything for the sake of mere show; nor do I care
for the opinion of 'outsiders,' as you call them," rejoined Sarah,
amazed at the cool audacity of the inquiry, and disposed to resent
Lucy's confident expectation that she would avow the cheat, if such
there were, in her deportment.
"You used to be shockingly independent, I know. What a ridiculously
honest little puss you were! How you despised all our pretty arts
and necessary affectations! How you hated our economical mother's
second-best furniture and dinners! I don't believe Victoria West has
ever forgiven you for the way in which you used to take to pieces what
you styled our 'surface talk and surface life!' I thought, however,
that you had discovered by this time, that one cannot live in the world
without deceiving herself or other people; I prefer making fools to
being one. Heigh-ho! this life is a very unsatisfactory business at the
best. What a heavenly collar that is of yours! One thing I do wish, and
that is--that my husband were half as fond of me, or as good to me, as
Lewis is to you!"