THE SERPENT'S EXPERIMENT
Father Francesco sat leaning his head on his hand by the window of
his cell, looking out upon the sea as it rose and fell, with the
reflections of the fast coming stars glittering like so many jewels
on its breast. The glow of evening had almost faded, but there was a
wan, tremulous light from the moon, and a clearness produced by the
reflection of such an expanse of water, which still rendered objects in
his cell quite discernible.
In the terrible denunciations and warnings just uttered, he had been
preaching to himself, striving to bring a force on his own soul by
which he might reduce its interior rebellion to submission; but, alas!
when was ever love cast out by fear? He knew not as yet the only remedy
for such sorrow,--that there is a love celestial and divine, of which
earthly love in its purest form is only the sacramental symbol and
emblem, and that this divine love can by God's power so outflood human
affections as to bear the soul above all earthly idols to its only
immortal rest. This great truth rises like a rock amid stormy seas,
and many is the sailor struggling in salt and bitter waters who cannot
yet believe it is to be found. A few saints like Saint Augustine had
reached it,--but through what buffetings, what anguish!
At this moment, however, there was in the heart of the father one of
those collapses which follow the crisis of some mortal struggle. He
leaned on the window-sill, exhausted and helpless.
Suddenly, a kind of illusion of the senses came over him, such as is
not infrequent to sensitive natures in severe crises of mental anguish.
He thought he heard Agnes singing, as he had sometimes heard her when
he had called in his pastoral ministrations at the little garden and
paused awhile outside that he might hear her finish a favorite hymn,
which, like a shy bird, she sung all the more sweetly for thinking
herself alone.
Quite as if they were sung in his ear, and in her very tones, he heard
the words of Saint Bernard, which we have already introduced to our
reader:--
"Jesu dulcis memoria,
Dans vera cordi gaudia:
Sed super mel et omnia
Ejus dulcis præsentia.
"Jesu, spes pœnitentibus,
Quam pius es petentibus,
Quam bonus te quærentibus,
Sed quis invenientibus!"
Soft and sweet and solemn was the illusion, as if some spirit breathed
them with a breath of tenderness over his soul; and he threw himself
with a burst of tears before the crucifix.
"O Jesus, where, then, art Thou? Why must I thus suffer? She is not the
one altogether lovely; it is Thou,--Thou, her Creator and mine. Why,
why cannot I find Thee? Oh, take from my heart all other love but Thine
alone!"
Yet even this very prayer, this very hymn, were blent with the
remembrance of Agnes; for was it not she who first had taught him the
lesson of heavenly love? Was not she the first one who had taught him
to look upward to Jesus other than as an avenging judge? Michel Angelo
has embodied in a fearful painting, which now deforms the Sistine
Chapel, that image of stormy vengeance which a religion debased by
force and fear had substituted for the tender, good shepherd of
earlier Christianity. It was only in the heart of a lowly maiden that
Christ had been made manifest to the eye of the monk, as of old he was
revealed to the world through a virgin. And how could he, then, forget
her, or cease to love her, when every prayer and hymn, every sacred
round of the ladder by which he must climb, was so full of memorials
of her? While crying and panting for the supreme, the divine, the
invisible love, he found his heart still craving the visible one,--the
one so well known, revealing itself to the senses, and bringing with it
the certainty of visible companionship.
As he was thus kneeling and wrestling with himself, a sudden knock
at his door startled him. He had made it a point, never, at any hour
of the day or night, to deny himself to a brother who sought him for
counsel, however disagreeable the person and however unreasonable the
visit. He therefore rose and unbolted the door, and saw Father Johannes
standing with folded arms and downcast head, in an attitude of composed
humility.
"What would you with me, brother?" he asked, calmly.
"My father, I have a wrestling of mind for one of our brethren whose
case I would present to you."
"Come in, my brother," said the Superior. At the same time he lighted
a little iron lamp, of antique form, such as are still in common use
in that region, and seating himself on the board which served for his
couch, made a motion to Father Johannes to be seated also.
The latter sat down, eyeing, as he did so, the whole interior of the
apartment, so far as it was revealed by the glimmer of the taper.
"Well, my son," said Father Francesco, "what is it?"
"I have my doubts of the spiritual safety of Brother Bernard," said
Father Johannes.
"Wherefore?" asked the Superior, briefly.
"Holy father, you are aware of the history of the brother, and of the
worldly affliction that drove him to this blessed profession?"
"I am," replied the Superior, with the same brevity.
"He narrated it to me fully," said Father Johannes. "The maiden he was
betrothed to was married to another in his absence on a long journey,
being craftily made to suppose him dead."
"I tell you I know the circumstances," said the Superior.
"I merely recalled them, because, moved doubtless by your sermon, he
dropped words to me to-night which led me to suppose that this sinful,
earthly love was not yet extirpated from his soul. Of late the woman
was sick and nigh unto death, and sent for him."
"But he did not go?" interposed Father Francesco.
"No, he did not,--grace was given him thus far; but he dropped words
to me to the effect, that in secret he still cherished the love of
this woman; and the awful words your Reverence has been speaking to us
to-night have moved me with fear for the youth's soul, of the which I,
as an elder brother, have had some charge, and I came to consult with
you as to what help there might be for him."
Father Francesco turned away his head a moment and there was a pause;
at last he said, in a tone that seemed like the throb of some deep,
interior anguish,--
"The Lord help him!"
"Amen!" said Father Johannes, taking keen note of the apparent emotion.
"You must have experience in these matters, my father," he added, after
a pause,--"so many hearts have been laid open to you. I would crave to
know of you what you think is the safest and most certain cure for this
love of woman, if once it hath got possession of the heart."
"_Death!_" said Father Francesco, after a solemn pause.
"I do not understand you," said Father Johannes.
"My son," said Father Francesco, rising up with an air of authority,
"you do _not_ understand,--there is nothing in you by which you should
understand. This unhappy brother hath opened his case to me, and I
have counseled him all I know of prayer and fastings and watchings and
mortifications. Let him persevere in the same; and if all these fail,
the good Lord will send the other in His own time. There is an end to
all things in this life, and that end shall certainly come at last. Bid
him persevere and hope in this. And now, brother," added the Superior,
with dignity, "if you have no other query, time flies and eternity
comes on,--go, watch and pray, and leave me to my prayers, also."
He raised his hand with a gesture of benediction, and Father Johannes,
awed in spite of himself, felt impelled to leave the apartment.
"Is it so, or is it not?" he said. "I cannot tell. He did seem to wince
and turn away his head when I proposed the case; but then he made fight
at last. I cannot tell whether I have got any advantage or not; but
patience! we shall see!"