THE MURDERER'S WINE

(_Le vin de l'assassin_)

My wife is stiffened into wax.

--Now I can drink my fill.

Her yellings tore my heart like hooks,

They were so keen and shrill.

'Tis a King's freedom that I know

Since that loud voice is still.

The day is tender blue and gold,

The sky is clear above ...

Just such a summer as we had

When first I fell in love.

... I'm a King now! Such royal thoughts

Within me stir and move!

I killed her; but I could not slake

My burning lava-wave

Of hideous thirst--far worse than that

Of some long-tortured slave--

If I had wine enough to fill

Her solitary, deep grave.

In slime and dark her body lies;

It echoed as it fell.

(I will remember this no more.)

Her tomb no man can tell.

I cast great blocks of stone on her,

The curb-stones of the well.

We swore a thousand oaths of love;

Absolved we cannot be

Nor ever reconciled, as when

We both lived happily;

... 'Twas evening on a darkling road

When the mad thing met me.

We all are mad, this I well think.

... The madness of my wife

Was to come, tired and beautiful,

To a madman with a knife!

I loved her far too much, 'twas why

I hurried her from life.

I am alone among my friends,

And of our sodden crowd

No single drunkard understands

I sit apart and vowed.

They do not weave all night, and throw

Wine-shuttles through a shroud!

True love has black enchantments; chains

That rattle, and damp fears;

Wan phials of poison, dead men's bones,

And horrible salt tears.

Of this the iron-bound drunkard knows

Nothing, nor nothing hears.

I am alone. My wife is dead,

And dead-drunk will I be

This self-same night, a clod on earth

With naught to trouble me.

A dog I'll be, in a long dog-sleep,

Oblivious and free!

The chariot with heavy wheels

Comes rumbling through the night.

Crushed stones and mud are on its wheels,

It is a thing of might!

The wain of retribution moves

Slowly, as is most right.

It comes, to crack my guilty head

Or crush my belly through,

I care not who the driver is;

God and the devil too

--Sitting side by side--can do no more

Than that they needs must do!

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