Indolence and ill-health, in the opinion of many the salient points
in Philip Rainham's character, had left him at forty with little of
the social habit. The circle of his intimates had sensibly narrowed,
and for the rest he was becoming more and more conscious that people
whom one does not know exceedingly well are not worth knowing at
all. The process of dining out two or three times a week in the
company of two or three persons whose claims on his attention were
of the slenderest he found a process attended with less and less
pleasure the older he grew. There were few houses now which he
frequented, and this year, when he had made an effort to devote a
couple of evenings to the renewal of some acquaintance of the
winter, and had discovered, as he had discovered anew each season,
that the effort gave him no appreciable compensations for the
disagreeables it involved, he made fresh resolutions of abstinence,
and on the whole he kept them amazingly well.
For the most part, when he was not routed out by Lightmark (and
since the young artist was in train to become a social acquisition
this happened less frequently than of old), it was at Blackpool that
he spent his evenings. He had, it is true, a standing invitation to
dinner at Lady Garnett's when that old lady found herself at home;
but Portman Square was remote, and evening dress, to a man with one
lung in a climate which had so fickle a trick of registering itself
either at the extreme top or bottom of the thermometer, presented
various discomforts. His den behind the office--a little
sitting-room with a bay-window facing Blackpool Reach, a room
filled with books that had no relation to shipping, and hung round
with etchings and pictures in those curiously-low tones for which he
had so unreasonable an affection--was what he cherished most in
London. He read little now, but the mere presence of the books he
loved best in rough, uneven cases, painted black, lining the walls,
caressed him. As with persons one has loved and grown used to
loving, it was not always needful that they should speak to him; it
was sufficient, simply, that they should be there. Neither did he
write on these long, interminable evenings, which were prolonged
sometimes far into the night. He had ended by being able to smile
at his literary ambitions of twenty, cultivating his indolence as
something choice and original, finding his destiny appropriate.
He spent the time in interminable reveries, sitting with a volume
before him, as often as not unopened, smoking incessantly, and
looking out of the window. The habit amused himself at times; it was
so eminently symbolic of his destiny. Life, after all, had been to
him nothing so much as that--a long looking out of window, the
impartial spectatorship of a crowd of persons and passions from
which he had come at last to seem strangely detached, almost as
much as from this chameleon river, which he had observed with such
satisfaction in all its manifold gradations of character and colour;
its curious cold grayness in the beginning of an autumnal dawn; the
illusion of warmth and depth which it sustained at noon, bringing
up its burden of leviathans on the top of the flood; its sheen on
moonless nights, when only little punctures, green and red and
orange, and its audible stillness, reminded him that down in the
obscurity the great polluted stream stole on wearily, monotonously,
everlastingly to the sea. It was changeful and changeless. He
thought he knew its effects by heart, but it had always new ones in
reserve to surprise and delight him. He declared it at last to be
inexhaustible. It was like a diamond on sunny days, flashing out
light in every little ripple; in the late, sunless afternoon the
light lay deeply within it, and it seemed jealous of giving back the
least particle. He compared it then to an opal or a sapphire, which
shine with the same parsimonious radiance.
One night, while he sat smoking in his wonted meditative fashion,
he had a visitor--the painter Oswyn. He had almost forgotten his
invitation, but he reminded himself of his first impression, and
greeted him with a cordiality which the other seemed to find
surprising. He took him into his sanctuary and found him whisky and
a pipe; then he set himself to make the painter talk, a task which
he found by no means arduous.
Oswyn was sober, and Rainham was surprised after a while at his
sanity. He decided that, though one might differ from him, dissent
from his premises or his conclusions, he was still a man to be taken
seriously. His fluency was as remarkable as ever, and at first as
spleenful; by-and-by his outrageous mood gave way, and, in response
to some of Rainham's adroit thrusts, he condescended to stand on his
defence. He could give a reasonable account of himself; was prepared
clearly, and succinctly, and seriously with his justification.
Rainham was impressed anew by his singleness, the purity of his
artistic passion. His life might be disgraceful, indescribable: his
art lay apart from it; and when he took up a brush an enthusiasm,
a devotion to art, almost religious, steadied his hand.
"You may think me a charlatan," he said, with the same savage
earnestness, "but I can tell you I am not. I may fail or I may
succeed, as the world counts those things. It is all the same: I
believe in myself. It is sufficient to me if I approve myself, and
the world may go to damnation! What I care for is my idea!... yes,
my idea, that's it! They can howl at me," he went on; "but they can
never say of any stroke of my brush that I put it there for them. I
could have painted pictures like Lightmark if I had cared, you know,
but I did not care!"
"And yet he has great facility," said Rainham tentatively.
"He has more," said Oswyn bitterly, "or, at least, he had--genius.
And he has deliberately chosen to go the wrong way, to be
conventional. He can't plead 'invincible ignorance' like the others;
he ought to know better. Well, he has his reward; but I can't
forgive him."
Rainham shrugged his shoulders with something between a sigh and a
laugh.
"Poor boy! he is young, you know. Perhaps he will live to see the
errors of his ways."
"When he's an Academician, I suppose?" suggested the other
ironically. "Do they ever see the errors of their ways? If they do
they don't show it. No; he will marry a rich wife, and make speeches
at banquets, and paint portraits of celebrities, for the rest of his
days. And in fifty years' time people will say, 'Lightmark, R.A.?
Who the devil was he?'"
By this time the young moon had risen, and its cold light shimmered
on the misty river. Rainham refilled his pipe, and opened the window
still more widely.
"By Jove, what a night!" he said. "What a night for a painter! I am
sure you are longing to be out in it. I'm afraid there's nothing to
show you in the dock at present; you must come down again when
there's a ship coming in at night. I feel quite reconciled to the
dock on those occasions. Shall we go for a stroll in the
moonlight--and seek impressions?"
Oswyn's restless humour welcomed the suggestion, and he was already
waiting, his soft felt hat in one ungloved hand, and a heavy,
quaintly carved stick in the other.
They stood for some minutes on the little, square, pulpit-like
landing, at the top of the creaking wooden staircase, which led down
the side of the building from office to yard, listening to the faint
drip of the water through the sluice-gates; the wail of a child
outside the walls, and the pacing step of the woman who hushed it;
the distant intermittent roar of the song which reached them through
the often opened doors of a public-house. Presently the
night-watchman lumbered out of his sentry-box by the gates, his dim
lantern sounding pools of mysterious darkness, which were untouched
by the solitary gas-lamp in the street outside, and which the faint
moonlight only seemed to intensify.
Oswyn drew in a long breath of the cool, caressing air, momentarily
straightening his bent figure. Then he gave a short laugh, which
startled Rainham from the familiar state of half-smiling reverie to
which he was always so ready to recur.
"The last time I saw the river like this," he said--"the last time
I was down here at night, that is--was when I went with a Malay
model of mine to his favourite opium den."
"You have not repeated the experiment?" asked Rainham absently.
"No; not yet, at any rate. It made my hand shake so damnably for a
week afterwards that I couldn't paint. Besides, I doubt if I could
find the place again. I couldn't get the Malay to come away at all;
he is probably there still."
"Beg your pardon, sir," said the night-watchman hoarsely, when they
reached the bottom of the difficult staircase, "there's been a young
woman here asking for a gentleman of the name of Crichton. I told
her there weren't no one of that name here, and Mr. Bullen, sir, he
saw her, and sent her away. I thought I had better mention it to
you, sir."
"Crichton? Crichton?" repeated Rainham indifferently. "I don't know
anyone of that name. Some mistake, I suppose, or---- Well, sailors
will be sailors! Thank you, Andrewes, that will do. Good-night--or,
rather, we shall be back in half an hour or so." He turned to Oswyn,
who had been hanging back to avoid any appearance of interest in the
conversation, for corroboration. "You will come back, of course?"
"Rather late, isn't it? I think I had better catch some train before
midnight, if there is one."
"Oh, there are plenty of trains," said Rainham vaguely. "We can
settle that matter later. I can give you a bed here, you know, or a
berth, at any rate."
As they stepped through the narrow opening in the gate, a dark form
sprang forward out of the shadow, and then stopped timidly.
"Oh, Cyril!" cried a woman's plaintive voice. "Cyril! I knew you
were here, and they wouldn't let me---- Ah, my God! it isn't Cyril
after all...!"
The voice--and it struck Rainham that it was not the voice of a
woman of the sort one would expect to encounter in the streets at
that hour--died away in a broken sob, and the girl fell back a step,
almost dropping the child she carried in her arms.
Her evident despair appealed to Rainham's somewhat inconveniently
assertive sensibility.
He hesitated for a moment, glancing from the girl to Oswyn, and
noting that the face, too, had a certain beauty which was not of the
order affected by the women of Blackpool.
"Don't go," he said to Oswyn, who had withdrawn a few paces. "I
won't keep you a moment!"
The baby in the woman's arms set up a feeble wail, and it was borne
in upon Rainham's mind that the unhappy creature with the white face
and pleading dark eyes had been waiting long.
"Didn't my foreman tell you that the--that the gentleman you asked
for is not here?" he inquired gently. "No one here has ever heard of
Mr. Crichton. I'm afraid you have made a mistake.... Hadn't you
better go home? I'm sure it would be best for your child."
"Home?" echoed the girl bitterly. Then, changing her tone, "But I
saw him here with my own eyes!" she pleaded. "I saw him at the
window there not a week ago quite plain, and then they told me he
wasn't here! I'm sure he would see me if he only knew--if he only
knew!"
"He may have been here," suggested Rainham doubtfully. "There are a
great many people here from day to day, and we don't always know
their names. But I assure you he isn't here now."
The girl--for in spite of her pale misery she did not look
more--drew her dark shawl more closely round herself and the child
with a little, despairing shudder, glancing over her shoulder.
Rainham let his eyes rest on the frail figure pityingly, and a
thought of the river behind her struck him with a sudden chill.
He put his hand, almost surreptitiously, into his pocket.
"Where do you live?" he asked. "Near here?" The girl mentioned a
street which he sometimes passed through when economy of time
induced him to make an otherwise undesirable short-cut to the
railway station. "Well," he said presently, "I can't keep my friend
here waiting, you know. Come and see me to-morrow morning about
midday, and I will see if I can help you. Only you must promise me
to go straight home now! And"--here he dropped a coin quickly into
her hand--"buy something for your child; you both look as if you
wanted it."
The girl looked at him dumbly for a moment.
"I will come, sir, and--and thank you!" she said, with a quaver in
her voice. And then, in obedience to Rainham's playfully threatening
gesture, she turned away.
Rainham gazed after her until she had turned the corner.
"I'm sorry to have treated you to this--scene," he said
apologetically, as he joined Oswyn, who was gazing over the narrow
bridge. "I felt bound to do something for the girl, after she had
been wasting all that time outside my gates. Did you notice what a
pretty, refined face she had? I wonder who the man can be--Crichton,
Cecil Crichton, wasn't it?... I never heard the name before. It
doesn't sound like a sailor's name."
"Cecil Crichton?" echoed the other. "No ... and yet it sounds
familiar. Perhaps I am thinking of the Admirable, though he wasn't
Cecil, as far as I remember. The old story, I suppose. Cecil
Crichton--ah, Cyril Crichton?" he repeated. Then, dismissing the
subject somewhat brutally, "Ah, well, it's no business of mine! Will
you give me a light? Thanks!"