XLVIII

When Philip returned to Amitrano’s he found that Fanny Price was no

longer working there. She had given up the key of her locker. He asked

Mrs. Otter whether she knew what had become of her; and Mrs. Otter,

with a shrug of the shoulders, answered that she had probably gone back

to England. Philip was relieved. He was profoundly bored by her

ill-temper. Moreover she insisted on advising him about his work,

looked upon it as a slight when he did not follow her precepts, and

would not understand that he felt himself no longer the duffer he had

been at first. Soon he forgot all about her. He was working in oils now

and he was full of enthusiasm. He hoped to have something done of

sufficient importance to send to the following year’s Salon. Lawson was

painting a portrait of Miss Chalice. She was very paintable, and all

the young men who had fallen victims to her charm had made portraits of

her. A natural indolence, joined with a passion for picturesque

attitude, made her an excellent sitter; and she had enough technical

knowledge to offer useful criticisms. Since her passion for art was

chiefly a passion to live the life of artists, she was quite content to

neglect her own work. She liked the warmth of the studio, and the

opportunity to smoke innumerable cigarettes; and she spoke in a low,

pleasant voice of the love of art and the art of love. She made no

clear distinction between the two.

Lawson was painting with infinite labour, working till he could hardly

stand for days and then scraping out all he had done. He would have

exhausted the patience of anyone but Ruth Chalice. At last he got into

a hopeless muddle.

“The only thing is to take a new canvas and start fresh,” he said. “I

know exactly what I want now, and it won’t take me long.”

Philip was present at the time, and Miss Chalice said to him:

“Why don’t you paint me too? You’ll be able to learn a lot by watching

Mr. Lawson.”

It was one of Miss Chalice’s delicacies that she always addressed her

lovers by their surnames.

“I should like it awfully if Lawson wouldn’t mind.”

“I don’t care a damn,” said Lawson.

It was the first time that Philip set about a portrait, and he began

with trepidation but also with pride. He sat by Lawson and painted as

he saw him paint. He profited by the example and by the advice which

both Lawson and Miss Chalice freely gave him. At last Lawson finished

and invited Clutton in to criticise. Clutton had only just come back to

Paris. From Provence he had drifted down to Spain, eager to see

Velasquez at Madrid, and thence he had gone to Toledo. He stayed there

three months, and he was returned with a name new to the young men: he

had wonderful things to say of a painter called El Greco, who it

appeared could only be studied in Toledo.

“Oh yes, I know about him,” said Lawson, “he’s the old master whose

distinction it is that he painted as badly as the moderns.”

Clutton, more taciturn than ever, did not answer, but he looked at

Lawson with a sardonic air.

“Are you going to show us the stuff you’ve brought back from Spain?”

asked Philip.

“I didn’t paint in Spain, I was too busy.”

“What did you do then?”

“I thought things out. I believe I’m through with the Impressionists;

I’ve got an idea they’ll seem very thin and superficial in a few years.

I want to make a clean sweep of everything I’ve learnt and start fresh.

When I came back I destroyed everything I’d painted. I’ve got nothing

in my studio now but an easel, my paints, and some clean canvases.”

“What are you going to do?”

“I don’t know yet. I’ve only got an inkling of what I want.”

He spoke slowly, in a curious manner, as though he were straining to

hear something which was only just audible. There seemed to be a

mysterious force in him which he himself did not understand, but which

was struggling obscurely to find an outlet. His strength impressed you.

Lawson dreaded the criticism he asked for and had discounted the blame

he thought he might get by affecting a contempt for any opinion of

Clutton’s; but Philip knew there was nothing which would give him more

pleasure than Clutton’s praise. Clutton looked at the portrait for some

time in silence, then glanced at Philip’s picture, which was standing

on an easel.

“What’s that?” he asked.

“Oh, I had a shot at a portrait too.”

“The sedulous ape,” he murmured.

He turned away again to Lawson’s canvas. Philip reddened but did not

speak.

“Well, what d’you think of it?” asked Lawson at length.

“The modelling’s jolly good,” said Clutton. “And I think it’s very well

drawn.”

“D’you think the values are all right?”

“Quite.”

Lawson smiled with delight. He shook himself in his clothes like a wet

dog.

“I say, I’m jolly glad you like it.”

“I don’t. I don’t think it’s of the smallest importance.”

Lawson’s face fell, and he stared at Clutton with astonishment: he had

no notion what he meant, Clutton had no gift of expression in words,

and he spoke as though it were an effort. What he had to say was

confused, halting, and verbose; but Philip knew the words which served

as the text of his rambling discourse. Clutton, who never read, had

heard them first from Cronshaw; and though they had made small

impression, they had remained in his memory; and lately, emerging on a

sudden, had acquired the character of a revelation: a good painter had

two chief objects to paint, namely, man and the intention of his soul.

The Impressionists had been occupied with other problems, they had

painted man admirably, but they had troubled themselves as little as

the English portrait painters of the eighteenth century with the

intention of his soul.

“But when you try to get that you become literary,” said Lawson,

interrupting. “Let me paint the man like Manet, and the intention of

his soul can go to the devil.”

“That would be all very well if you could beat Manet at his own game,

but you can’t get anywhere near him. You can’t feed yourself on the day

before yesterday, it’s ground which has been swept dry. You must go

back. It’s when I saw the Grecos that I felt one could get something

more out of portraits than we knew before.”

“It’s just going back to Ruskin,” cried Lawson.

“No—you see, he went for morality: I don’t care a damn for morality:

teaching doesn’t come in, ethics and all that, but passion and emotion.

The greatest portrait painters have painted both, man and the intention

of his soul; Rembrandt and El Greco; it’s only the second-raters who’ve

only painted man. A lily of the valley would be lovely even if it

didn’t smell, but it’s more lovely because it has perfume. That

picture”—he pointed to Lawson’s portrait—“well, the drawing’s all right

and so’s the modelling all right, but just conventional; it ought to be

drawn and modelled so that you know the girl’s a lousy slut.

Correctness is all very well: El Greco made his people eight feet high

because he wanted to express something he couldn’t get any other way.”

“Damn El Greco,” said Lawson, “what’s the good of jawing about a man

when we haven’t a chance of seeing any of his work?”

Clutton shrugged his shoulders, smoked a cigarette in silence, and went

away. Philip and Lawson looked at one another.

“There’s something in what he says,” said Philip.

Lawson stared ill-temperedly at his picture.

“How the devil is one to get the intention of the soul except by

painting exactly what one sees?”

About this time Philip made a new friend. On Monday morning models

assembled at the school in order that one might be chosen for the week,

and one day a young man was taken who was plainly not a model by

profession. Philip’s attention was attracted by the manner in which he

held himself: when he got on to the stand he stood firmly on both feet,

square, with clenched hands, and with his head defiantly thrown

forward; the attitude emphasised his fine figure; there was no fat on

him, and his muscles stood out as though they were of iron. His head,

close-cropped, was well-shaped, and he wore a short beard; he had

large, dark eyes and heavy eyebrows. He held the pose hour after hour

without appearance of fatigue. There was in his mien a mixture of shame

and of determination. His air of passionate energy excited Philip’s

romantic imagination, and when, the sitting ended, he saw him in his

clothes, it seemed to him that he wore them as though he were a king in

rags. He was uncommunicative, but in a day or two Mrs. Otter told

Philip that the model was a Spaniard and that he had never sat before.

“I suppose he was starving,” said Philip.

“Have you noticed his clothes? They’re quite neat and decent, aren’t

they?”

It chanced that Potter, one of the Americans who worked at Amitrano’s,

was going to Italy for a couple of months, and offered his studio to

Philip. Philip was pleased. He was growing a little impatient of

Lawson’s peremptory advice and wanted to be by himself. At the end of

the week he went up to the model and on the pretence that his drawing

was not finished asked whether he would come and sit to him one day.

“I’m not a model,” the Spaniard answered. “I have other things to do

next week.”

“Come and have luncheon with me now, and we’ll talk about it,” said

Philip, and as the other hesitated, he added with a smile: “It won’t

hurt you to lunch with me.”

With a shrug of the shoulders the model consented, and they went off to

a cremerie. The Spaniard spoke broken French, fluent but difficult to

follow, and Philip managed to get on well enough with him. He found out

that he was a writer. He had come to Paris to write novels and kept

himself meanwhile by all the expedients possible to a penniless man; he

gave lessons, he did any translations he could get hold of, chiefly

business documents, and at last had been driven to make money by his

fine figure. Sitting was well paid, and what he had earned during the

last week was enough to keep him for two more; he told Philip, amazed,

that he could live easily on two francs a day; but it filled him with

shame that he was obliged to show his body for money, and he looked

upon sitting as a degradation which only hunger could excuse. Philip

explained that he did not want him to sit for the figure, but only for

the head; he wished to do a portrait of him which he might send to the

next Salon.

“But why should you want to paint me?” asked the Spaniard.

Philip answered that the head interested him, he thought he could do a

good portrait.

“I can’t afford the time. I grudge every minute that I have to rob from

my writing.”

“But it would only be in the afternoon. I work at the school in the

morning. After all, it’s better to sit to me than to do translations of

legal documents.”

There were legends in the Latin quarter of a time when students of

different countries lived together intimately, but this was long since

passed, and now the various nations were almost as much separated as in

an Oriental city. At Julian’s and at the Beaux Arts a French student

was looked upon with disfavour by his fellow-countrymen when he

consorted with foreigners, and it was difficult for an Englishman to

know more than quite superficially any native inhabitants of the city

in which he dwelt. Indeed, many of the students after living in Paris

for five years knew no more French than served them in shops and lived

as English a life as though they were working in South Kensington.

Philip, with his passion for the romantic, welcomed the opportunity to

get in touch with a Spaniard; he used all his persuasiveness to

overcome the man’s reluctance.

“I’ll tell you what I’ll do,” said the Spaniard at last. “I’ll sit to

you, but not for money, for my own pleasure.”

Philip expostulated, but the other was firm, and at length they

arranged that he should come on the following Monday at one o’clock. He

gave Philip a card on which was printed his name: Miguel Ajuria.

Miguel sat regularly, and though he refused to accept payment he

borrowed fifty francs from Philip every now and then: it was a little

more expensive than if Philip had paid for the sittings in the usual

way; but gave the Spaniard a satisfactory feeling that he was not

earning his living in a degrading manner. His nationality made Philip

regard him as a representative of romance, and he asked him about

Seville and Granada, Velasquez and Calderon. But Miguel had no patience

with the grandeur of his country. For him, as for so many of his

compatriots, France was the only country for a man of intelligence and

Paris the centre of the world.

“Spain is dead,” he cried. “It has no writers, it has no art, it has

nothing.”

Little by little, with the exuberant rhetoric of his race, he revealed

his ambitions. He was writing a novel which he hoped would make his

name. He was under the influence of Zola, and he had set his scene in

Paris. He told Philip the story at length. To Philip it seemed crude

and stupid; the naive obscenity—c’est la vie, mon cher, c’est la vie,

he cried—the naive obscenity served only to emphasise the

conventionality of the anecdote. He had written for two years, amid

incredible hardships, denying himself all the pleasures of life which

had attracted him to Paris, fighting with starvation for art’s sake,

determined that nothing should hinder his great achievement. The effort

was heroic.

“But why don’t you write about Spain?” cried Philip. “It would be so

much more interesting. You know the life.”

“But Paris is the only place worth writing about. Paris is life.”

One day he brought part of the manuscript, and in his bad French,

translating excitedly as he went along so that Philip could scarcely

understand, he read passages. It was lamentable. Philip, puzzled,

looked at the picture he was painting: the mind behind that broad brow

was trivial; and the flashing, passionate eyes saw nothing in life but

the obvious. Philip was not satisfied with his portrait, and at the end

of a sitting he nearly always scraped out what he had done. It was all

very well to aim at the intention of the soul: who could tell what that

was when people seemed a mass of contradictions? He liked Miguel, and

it distressed him to realise that his magnificent struggle was futile:

he had everything to make a good writer but talent. Philip looked at

his own work. How could you tell whether there was anything in it or

whether you were wasting your time? It was clear that the will to

achieve could not help you and confidence in yourself meant nothing.

Philip thought of Fanny Price; she had a vehement belief in her talent;

her strength of will was extraordinary.

“If I thought I wasn’t going to be really good, I’d rather give up

painting,” said Philip. “I don’t see any use in being a second-rate

painter.”

Then one morning when he was going out, the concierge called out to him

that there was a letter. Nobody wrote to him but his Aunt Louisa and

sometimes Hayward, and this was a handwriting he did not know. The

letter was as follows:

Please come at once when you get this. I couldn’t put up with it any

more. Please come yourself. I can’t bear the thought that anyone else

should touch me. I want you to have everything.

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