CHAPTER IX.

“They’re talking over old days,” Mrs. Lenny had said three or four times

before the gentlemen appeared. What could be more natural? No doubt they

had gone from recollection to recollection: “Do you remember” this and

that, and “what happened to” so-and-so? It was very easy to imagine what

they were talking about, and how they got led on from one subject to

another. They were heard talking, when they at last appeared, all the

way up the long drawing-room, pausing at the door.

“All died out, I believe,” Colonel Lenny was saying. “The last son lost

his children one after another, and died himself at the last

broken-hearted, poor man! The daughters were all scattered--but Katey

knows more about them than I do.”

“I am really afraid to ask any more questions,” Sir William said. What

more natural?

“Yes, my dear lady,” Colonel Lenny resumed, taking his old place beside

Lady Markham; “we have been making the most of our time; for it is very

likely we may have letters to-morrow, my wife and I, summoning us away.

I don’t like it, and neither will she, and perhaps we may have another

day, but I scarcely think it likely. I don’t know how we’re to drag

ourselves away. You have been kinder than any one ever was; and the

children have got a hold of my old heart, bless them!”

The colonel had genuine tears in his eyes.

“Lenny will tell you what I propose,” said Sir William on the other

side. “It is not an easy position. I have always thought myself quite

safe--quite free of responsibility; and now to be pulled up all at once;

and when I think of my own boys----”

“Your own boys?” said Mrs. Lenny, raising herself very erect in her

chair. “Oh, I feel for you--I feel for you, Will! but if you put the

least bit of a slur on my sister or her child----

“Don’t make it worse,” he said, throwing up his hands. “_I_ throw a

slur! You know I never thought of anything so impossible--it _is_

impossible; but how could I think of him as mine? Adoption has its

rights--but Lenny will tell you what I propose.”

A short time after there were affectionate good-nights between the

ladies. Lady Markham accompanied Mrs. Lenny to her room to see that she

had everything she could desire.

“I am so sorry you must go to-morrow,” she said, half out of politeness,

but with a little mixture of truth, for there was something in the

genial warmth of the strange couple which touched her heart.

“My dear, it’s just possible we may have another day,” said the old

campaigner.

The mother and daughter had a harmless little laugh together over Mrs.

Lenny’s “evening body,” but they agreed that “papa’s old friends” were

real friends, and adopted them with cordiality though amusement.

“She asked me a great deal about the family and about Paul,” Alice said

as they separated.

“No letter again to-day,” said Lady Markham, with a sigh.

That name subdued their smiles. To think he should be the best beloved,

yet so careless of their happiness!

“He is so forgetful,” they both said.

And with this so common family sigh, not any present or pressing

trouble, only a fear, an anticipation, a doubt what to-morrow might

bring forth, the doors of the peaceful chambers closed, and night and

quiet settled down on the silent house.

No one knew, however, that the night was not so silent as it appeared.

Sir William, of course, was left in his library when all the rest of the

world went to bed. It was his habit. He wrote his letters, or he “got

up” those questions which were always arising, and which every statesman

has to know; or perhaps he only dozed in his great chair; but anyhow, it

was his habit to sit up later than all the rest of the household,

putting out his lamp himself when he went to bed. This night, however,

after midnight when all was still, there was a mysterious conference

held in the library. Mrs. Lenny came down the great staircase in her

stockings not to make a noise. “I wouldn’t disturb that pretty creature,

not for the world,” she said. “I wouldn’t let her know there was a

mystery, not for anything you could give me.” And she spoke in a whisper

during the course of the prolonged discussion, though Lady Markham was

on the upper floor on the other side of the house, and safe in bed. It

was Colonel Lenny who was the most stubborn of the conspirators. He

spoke of right and justice with such eloquence that his wife was proud

of him, even though it was she eventually who put him down, and stopped

his argument. It was almost morning--a faint blueness of the new day

striking in through all the windows and betraying them, when the Lennys

with their shoes in their hands stole up stairs to bed. It would have

been strange indeed if some conscientious domestic had not seen this

very strange proceeding in the middle of the night; but if they did so,

they kept the fact to themselves. Sir William took no such precautions.

He shut the heavy door of the library almost ostentatiously, awaking all

the silent echoes, and went up the great staircase with his candle in

his hand. The rising dawn, however, cast a strange, almost ghastly look

upon his face, doing away with the candle. He had told his wife that he

had brought some papers from town that had to be attended to, and which

had to be sent back to London by next morning’s post.

Next morning the Lennys appeared at the breakfast-table in

travelling-garb, ready to go away. Mrs. Lenny had put on her pink bonnet

not to lose time.

“Have you had your letters?” Lady Markham said, astonished.

“No, my dear, we have had no letters; that was to be the sign if we were

wanted,” Mrs. Lenny explained. Sir William did not say a word. He did

not join in the regret expressed by all the rest, or in the invitations

proffered. “You must come back--promise us that you will come back,” the

children cried; but their father maintained a steady silence which

discouraged his wife.

The whole family accompanied the travellers to the door to see them

drive away.

“I hope we shall see you again,” Lady Markham said; then added,

oppressed by her husband’s silence, “when you come this way.”

“My dear lady,” said the colonel, kissing her hand like a Frenchman, “I

shall never forget your kindness, nor my wife either; but most likely we

shall never pass this way again. There is nothing in the world I should

like better; but I don’t know if it is to be desired.”

“God bless you!” said Mrs. Lenny, taking both Lady Markham’s hands,

“it’s not at all to be desired. Once for old friendship’s sake is very

well. But if I ever come here again it will not be as an old friend, but

for love of you.”

“That is the best reason of all,” Lady Markham said, with her beautiful

smile. And she stood there waving her pretty hand to the strange couple

as they drove down the avenue. Mrs. Lenny’s pink bonnet made a dotted

line of colour all the way as she bobbed it out of the carriage window

in perpetual farewells. This made the young ones laugh, though they had

been near crying. Sir William alone said nothing. He had gone in again

at once when the carriage left the door.

It was that very evening, however, that the letters arrived which cast

the family into so great a commotion and obliterated all recollection of

the Lennys. It had pleased Lady Markham that her husband, of himself,

had begun to speak of Paul the next time they met after the departure of

their guests. There was a certain tenderness in his tone, a something

which was quite unusual. “Have you heard from him lately?” he asked

with some anxiety, “poor boy!” This was so unusual that Lady Markham

would not spoil so excellent a disposition by any complaint of Paul’s

irregularity in correspondence. She replied that she had heard--not very

long ago; that he was still in Oxford; that she hoped he would return

for Alice’s birthday, which was approaching. Sir William did not say any

more then, but he spoke of Paul again at luncheon, saying--“Poor

fellow!” this time. “He has very good abilities if he would only make

the right use of them,” he said.

“Oh, William!” cried Lady Markham, “he is still so young; why should not

he make very good use of them yet? We were not so very wise at his age.”

“That is true. I was not at all wise at his age: poor Paul!” his father

said.

The ladies were quite cheered by this exhibition of interest in Paul,

who had not been, they felt, so good or submissive to his father as it

was right for a young man to be. “He is letting his heart speak at

last,” Lady Markham said when she was alone with her daughter; “he is

longing to see his boy; and oh, Alice! so am I.”

“May I write to him,” cried Alice, eagerly, “and tell him he is to come

home?”

They talked this over all the afternoon. Paul had not listened to any of

their previous entreaties, but perhaps now, if he were told how his

father had melted, if he knew how everybody was longing for him! There

were two letters written that afternoon, full of tenderness, full of

entreaties. “If your reading is so important I will not say a word, you

shall go back, you shall be left quite free; but oh, my dearest boy!

surely you can spare us a week or two,” Lady Markham wrote. Their

spirits rose after these letters had been despatched. It did not seem

possible that Paul could turn a deaf ear to such entreaties; and by this

time surely he, too, must be longing for home. The future had not seemed

so bright to them since first these discords began. Now, surely, if Paul

would but respond as became an affectionate son, everything would be

right.

Markham Chase was situated in one of those districts where the post

comes in at night--a very bad thing, as is well known for the digestion,

and a great enemy to sleep and comfort. No one, however, had the

philosophy to do without his or her letters on that account. The ladies

naturally never took it in consideration at all, and Sir William’s

official correspondence did not affect his nerves. Lady Markham and her

daughter came early into the drawing-room that evening, while it was

still daylight, though evening was advancing rapidly. The children, who

felt severely the loss of Colonel Lenny and his stories, and were low

spirited and out of temper in consequence, went soon to bed. Lady

Markham retired into her favourite room--the large recess which made a

sort of transept to the great drawing-room. It was filled at the further

end by a large Elizabethan window, the upper part of which was composed

of quarries of old painted glass in soft tints of greenish white and

yellow; and which caught the very last rays of daylight--the lingering

glories of the west. Soft mossy velvet curtains framed in, but did not

shade the window, for Lady Markham was fond of light--and shrouded the

entrance dividing this from the great drawing-room beyond. The fireplace

all glimmering with tiles below and bits of mirror above, with shelves

of delicate china and pet ornaments, filled the great part of one side,

while the other was clothed with bookcases below and pictures above,

closely set. One of Raphael’s early Madonnas (or a copy--there was no

certainty on the subject, Lady Markham holding to its authenticity with

more fervour than any other article of faith, but disinterested critics

holding the latter opinion) presided over the whole; and there were some

pretty landscapes, and a great many portraits--the true household gods

of its mistress. There she had seated herself in the soft waning light

of the evening. Alice just outside the velvet curtains was playing

softly, now an old stately minuet, now an old-fashioned, quaint gavotte,

now a snatch of a languid, dreamy valse--music which did not mean much,

but which breathed echoes of soft pleasures past into the quiet. The

soft summer twilight fading slowly out of the great window, the cool

breathing of the dews and night air from the garden, the dreamy

music--all lulled the mind to rest. Lady Markham made not even a

pretence at occupation. What was she thinking of? When a woman has her

boys out in the world--those strange, unknown, yet so familiar creatures

whom she knows by heart yet knows nothing of, who have dipped into a

thousand things incomprehensible to her, filling her with vague fears

and aches of anxiety--of what but of them is she likely to be thinking?

She was groping vaguely after her Paul in strange places which her

imagination scarcely took in. When the other boys were away they too had

their share in her thoughts; but they were still in the age of innocence

at school, not young men abroad in the world. Where was he now? She

tried to figure to herself a scene of youthful gaiety--one of the

college parties she had read of in novels. She was the more bold to

think of this, as she felt that her appeal to Paul just despatched would

surely detach him, for a time at least, from all such noisy scenes. Lady

Markham’s imagination was not her strong point. She was floating vaguely

in a maze of fancies rather than forming for herself any definite

picture, when Brown came into the room with the letters. The music

stopped instantly, and Alice, rushing at them, uttered a tremulous cry

which made the mother at once aware what had happened. Only Paul could

have called forth that cry of trembling satisfaction, delight, and

alarm. Lady Markham got up at once and held out her hands for the

letters, while Alice ran to light the candles. “I can see, I can see,”

Lady Markham said. The mere fact that the letter was Paul’s made it more

or less luminous in itself and helped the fading light.

Sir William, seated in his library by himself, had been thinking, with a

difference, much the same thoughts. With a compunction and compassion

indescribable, he had been thinking of his son. Paul, with all his

foolish democratical notions, was yet the most aristocratic, the most

imperious of young men, knowing nothing of the evils he was so ready to

take upon him, generous in giving, but to whom it would be bitterness

itself to receive. Would Paul ever turn upon him, upbraid him, curse

him? A shiver came over his father at the thought--and along with this a

horrible sense of the position in which this haughty young heir would

find himself, if---- How was it that such a possibility had altogether

escaped his mind? He could not tell: he did not know how to answer

himself. Forty years is a large slice out of a man’s life. Even had it

been some one fully known and loved, it would be unlikely that you

should think of him with any persistency of reference after a separation

of forty years--and a child, an infant, a thing with no personality at

all! But still, he asked himself, had he never thought when Paul was

born of the former time, far away in the morning haze of youth, when a

young mother and a child had called forth his interest? Yes, he had

thought of it; he had thought with alarm of what had happened then; he

had been more anxious about his young wife than young husbands usually

are--but no more. It had never occurred to him that his child had

anything to do with the other. Strange blindness in a man so accurate!

He said to himself, “It will come to nothing; it will be arranged; all

will be well:” but in the same breath he said, “Poor Paul! God help him!

What would happen to Paul, if----”

He had not been able to do anything all day for thinking of this: he had

kept his blue-book before him, but he had made nothing of it. Sir

William, whose understood creed it was that public affairs went before

everything, could pay no attention to these public affairs. When the

letters came in, in the evening, he received them languidly, not feeling

that there was anything there which could interest him so much as his

own thoughts. When he saw Paul’s handwriting an unusual stir arose in

his elderly bosom. But he put it down, and took up a letter from his

chief, which would be no doubt of far more importance to the country,

with a last attempt to conquer himself. But the words of his chiefs

letter had no sense to him; he could not understand what there was to be

so anxious about. Smith’s candidature for Bannockshire--what did it

matter? He made a rapid and novel reflection to himself about the

trifling character of the incidents which people made so much of; then

laid down the solemn sheet with its coronet, and took up the letter of

his boy.

A few minutes after he walked into his wife’s sitting-room, the letter

open in his hand. Lady Markham was seated close to the great window

against the dying light, with a candle flaring melancholy on a table

beside her, reading her letter. Alice, behind her, read it too, over her

mother’s shoulder: surprise and trouble were on their faces. Alice had

begun to cry. Lady Markham in her wonder and distress, was repeating a

few words here and there aloud. “I can no longer hope for anything in

this country of prejudice.” “Going away to a new world.” They were both

so absorbed that they did not hear Sir William’s entrance till he

suddenly appeared, holding out his letter. “What is the meaning,” he

asked, “of this, Isabel? What is the meaning of it?” The indignation of

the head of the house, which seemed to be directed against themselves,

brought the two ladies with a sudden shock out of their own private

dismay, and gave them a new part to play. Their hearts still quivering

with the sudden blow which Paul’s disclosure had given them, they still

turned in a moment into apologists and defenders of Paul.

“What is it?--from Paul, William? he has written to you _too_,” said

Lady Markham, with trembling lips.

“What does it mean?” cried Sir William. “He is going off, he

says--away--to Australia or New Zealand, or somewhere. What does it

mean? No doubt he takes you into his confidence. If you have known of

this intention long you ought to have let me know.”

“I am as much overwhelmed as you can be, William. I have just got a

letter.” Lady Markham stopped, her lips trembling. “Oh, Paul, my boy! He

cannot mean it,” she said. “It must be some fancy of the moment. At his

age everything is exaggerated. William, William, something must be done.

We must go to him and save him.”

“Save him! from what are we to save him?” Sir William began to pace up

and down with impatience and perplexity. He was not so angry (they

thought) as they had feared. He was anxious, unhappy, as they were,

though querulous too. “What is the meaning of it? Follies like this do

not spring up all at once. You must have seen it coming on. You must

know what it means. What has he been writing to you about lately? Is

there--any woman----?”

“William!” cried his wife.

“Well!--Alice, run away; we can discuss this better without you.--Well!

it need not be anything criminal or vicious, though of course that is

what at once you imagine it to be. Has he spoken of any one? Has he

ever---- No, he would not do that. He is a fool,” cried the anxious

father; “he is capable of any nonsense. But it need not necessarily be

anything that is vicious--from your point of view.”

Alice had not gone away. She shrank behind her mother into the dim

corner, yet to her own consciousness stood confronting her brother’s

accuser with a resolute countenance, from which the colour had all gone

out. Her blue eyes were open wide with horror yet denial. Whatever Paul

might have done she was ready to defend him; although the possibility of

any such wrongdoing went through her like a sword of fire. The light of

the candle flickered upon her faintly, showing scarcely anything but her

attitude, partially relieved against the lightness of the window--a

slim, straight, indignant figure drawn up and set in defence.

“He has not written often lately,” said Lady Markham, faltering; “but

oh, William, it is not possible; he is not capable----”

“What do you know about it” cried Sir William, almost roughly. “How can

you tell what he is capable of? A young man will go from a house like

this, from his mother’s side, and will find pleasure--actual

pleasure--in the society of creatures bred upon the streets; in their

noisy talk, in their bad manners, in all that is most unlike you. God

knows how it is; but so it is. Paul may be no better than the rest.

Alice, I tell you, run away.”

Lady Markham grew red and then deadly pale. She rose trembling to her

feet. “Can we go to-night? Can we go at once?” she cried. “Oh, William,

let us not lose an hour!”

“You know as well as I do there is no train after eight o’clock. Compose

yourself,” said Sir William. “Nothing more than what has already

happened can happen to him to-night.”

“We might get the express at Bluntwood--the train papa generally goes

by--if we were to start at once” cried Alice, with her hand on the bell,

her eyes turning from her father to her mother. The eager women on each

side of him made the greatest contrast to the head of the house. Had

Paul been dying instead of simply in a problematical danger, Sir William

Markham would not have consented to leave his home in this headlong way,

or take any step upon which he had not reflected. He waved his hand

impatiently.

“You had much better go to bed,” he said, “and don’t worry yourself

about a matter in which for the present none of us can do anything. I

will go to-morrow. Sit down, Alice! Do you think Paul would thank you if

you arrived breathless in the middle of the night? Try to look at the

matter coolly. Excitement never does any good. I will go and see if he

will listen to reason--to-morrow.”

To-morrow! It seemed to both mother and sister as if a thousand

calamities, too terrible to think of, might be happening, might have

happened, before to-morrow; and on the other hand, how, they asked each

other with a pitiful interchange of looks, were they themselves to live

through the night? No feeling of this description moved Sir William. He

was very much disturbed and annoyed, but certainly it would do no good

to any one were he to render himself unfit for action by foolish

anxiety. Nor did he feel any of that vague horror of apprehension which

filled their minds. He was a great deal more angry and much less alarmed

about his son’s well-being. On the other hand, he was less sanguine; for

he did not hope that Paul would listen to reason, as they hoped that by

their entreaties, by their tears, by the sight of the misery his

resolution would bring them, Paul might relent and give way. After a

while Sir William returned to his library and to his blue-books, and the

official letter which he had only half-read, which he had suffered

himself to be so much influenced by parental feeling as to leave in the

middle; and though he paused now and then to frown and sigh, and give a

thought aside to the troubles of paternity, yet he went on with his

work, and gave all the attention that was necessary to the public

business, until his usual hour for going to bed.

Lady Markham and Alice spent their evening in a very different way; they

read their letter over twenty times at least; they found new meanings in

every sentence of it. Hidden things seemed to be brought out, emotions,

penitences, relentings, by every new perusal. Sometimes these

discoveries plunged them into deeper trouble--sometimes raised them to

sudden hope. How little Paul was conscious of the subtle shades of

meaning they attributed to him! They were like commentators in all ages;

they found a thousand ideas he had never dreamed of lurking in every

line of their author; and with all these different readings in their

heads spent a sleepless night.

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