HE THAT WILL NOT WHEN HE MAY
HE THAT WILL NOT
WHEN HE MAY
BY
MRS. OLIPHANT
_IN THREE VOLUMES_
VOLUME I.
London
MACMILLAN AND CO.
1880
_The Right of Translation and Reproduction is Reserved_
LONDON:
R. CLAY, SONS, AND TAYLOR,
BREAD STREET HILL.
CONTENTS.
PAGE
CHAPTER I. 1
CHAPTER II. 19
CHAPTER III. 38
CHAPTER IV. 55
CHAPTER V. 76
CHAPTER VI. 90
CHAPTER VII. 109
CHAPTER VIII. 123
CHAPTER IX. 144
CHAPTER X. 165
CHAPTER XI. 187
CHAPTER XII. 204
CHAPTER XIII. 219
CHAPTER XIV. 235
CHAPTER XV. 257
HE THAT WILL NOT WHEN HE MAY.
CHAPTER I.
The Easter holidays were drawing near an end, and the family at Markham
Chase had fallen into a state of existence somewhat different from its
usual dignified completeness of life. When I say that the head of the
house was Sir William Markham, once Under-Secretary for the Colonies,
once President of the Board of Trade, and still, though in opposition, a
distinguished member of his party and an important public personage, it
is scarcely necessary to add that his house was one of the chief houses
in the county, and that “the best people” were to be found there,
especially at those times when fashionable gatherings take place in the
country. At Easter the party was of the best kind, sprinkled with great
personages, a party such as we should all have liked to be asked to
meet. But these fine people had melted away; they had gone on to other
great houses, they had got on the wing for town, where, indeed, the
Markhams themselves were going early, like most Parliamentary people.
Sir William too was away. He was visiting the head of his party in one
of the midland counties, helping to settle the programme of enlightened
and patriotic opposition for the rest of the session, some untoward
events having deranged the system previously decided upon. To say that
Sir William’s absence was a relief would be untrue; for though he was
somewhat punctilious and overwhelming in his orderliness he was greatly
admired by his family, and loved--as much as was respectful and proper.
But when he went away, and when all the fine people went away, the house
without any demonstration slid smoothly, as it were down an easy slope
of transition, into a kind of nursery life, delightful to those who were
left behind. The family consisted, to begin at the wrong end, of two
schoolboys, and two little girls who were in the hands of a governess.
But mademoiselle was away too. There was nobody left at home but mamma
and Alice--imagine the rapture of the children thus permitted to be
paramount! There was a general dinner for everybody at two o’clock; and
in the afternoon, as often as not, Lady Markham herself would be
persuaded to go out to their picnic teas in the woods, and all kinds of
juvenile dissipations. The nursery meals were superseded altogether. Old
Nurse might groan, but she dared not say a word, for was not mamma the
ringleader in everything? There was no authority but hers in the house,
and all the servants looked on benignant. In the evening when it was
impossible to stay out any longer, they would dance, Alice “pretending”
to be the dancing mistress, which was far better fun than _real_
dancing. There was no need to run away, or to keep quiet for fear of
disturbing papa. In short, a mild Carnival was going on in the house,
only dashed by the terrible thought that in a week the holidays would be
over. In a week the boys would go back to school, the girls to their
governess. The budding woods would become to the one and the other only
a recollection, or a sight coldly seen during the course of an orderly
walk. Then the boys would have the best of it. They would go away among
all their friends, with the delights of boating and cricket, whereas the
little girls would relapse into blue sashes and a correct appearance at
dessert, followed, alas, in no small time, by complete loneliness when
mamma went to London, and everybody was away.
“Don’t let us think about it,” said little Bell; “it will be bad enough
when it comes. Oh, mamma, come and play the _Tempête_. Alice is going to
teach us. Harry, you be my partner, you dance a great deal the best.”
This produced a cry of indignant protestation from Mary, whom they all
called Marie with a very decided emphasis on the last syllable. “I
pulled Roland about all last night,” she said, “when he was thinking of
something else all the time; it is my turn to have Harry now.”
“Don’t you see,” said Alice, “that Roland is much more your size? It
doesn’t do to have a little one and a big one in the _Tempête_. He
mustn’t think of anything else. Don’t you know Rol, if you don’t take a
little trouble you will never learn to dance, and then no one will ask
you out when you grow up. I should not like, for my part, when all the
others went out to be always left moping at home.”
“Much I’d mind,” said Roland with a precocious scorn of society. But
just then the music struck up, and the lesson began. Roland was
generally thinking of something else, but Harry threw himself into the
dance with all the simple devotion of a predestined guardsman. That was
to be a great part of his duty in life, and he gave himself up to it
dutifully. The drawing-room was very large, partially divided by two
pillars, which supported a roof painted with clouds and goddesses in the
taste of the seventeenth century. The outer half was but partially
lighted, while in the inner part all was bright. In the right-hand
corner, behind Lady Markham, was a third room at right angles to this,
like the transept crossing a long nave, divided from the drawing-room by
curtains half-drawn, and faintly lighted too by a silver lamp. Thus the
brilliant interior where the children were dancing was thrown up by two
dimnesses; the girls in their light frocks, the bright faces and curls,
the abundant light which showed the pictures on the walls, and all the
details of the furniture, were thus doubly gay and bright in
consequence. The children moving back and forward, Alice now here, now
there, with one side and another as necessity demanded, flitting among
them in all her softer grace of young womanhood; and the beautiful
mother, the most beautiful of all, smiling on them from the piano,
turning round to criticise and encourage, while her hands flashed over
the keys, made the prettiest picture. There was an _abandon_ of innocent
gaiety in the scene, an absence of every harsh tone and suggestion which
made it perfect. Was there really no evil and trouble in the place
lighted up by the soft pleasure of the women, the mirth of the children?
You would have said so--but that just then, though she did not stop
smiling, Lady Markham sighed. Her children were in pairs, Harry and
Bell, Roland and Marie--but where was Alice’s brother? “Ah, my Paul!”
she said within herself, but played on. Thus there was one note out of
harmony--one, if no more.
Almost exactly coincident with this sigh the door of the drawing-room
opened far down in the dim outer part, and two men came in. The house
was so entirely given up to this innocent sway of youth, that there was
no reason why they should particularly note the opening of the door. It
could not be papa coming in, who was liable to be disturbed by such a
trifle as a dance, or any serious visitor, or even the elder brother,
who would, when he was at home, occasionally frown down the revels.
Accordingly, their ears being quickened by no alarm, no one heard the
opening of the door, and the two strangers came in unobserved. One was
quite young, not much more than a youth, slim, and, though not very
tall, looking taller than he was; the other was of a short, thick-set
figure, neither graceful nor handsome, who followed his companion with a
mixture of reluctance and defiance, strange enough in such a scene. As
they came towards the light this became still more noticeable. The
second stranger did not seem to have any affinity with the place in
which he found himself, and he had the air of being angry to find
himself here. They had the full advantage of the pretty scene as they
approached, for their steps were inaudible on the thick carpet, and the
merry little company was absorbed in its own proceedings. All at once,
however, the music ceased with a kind of shriek on a high note, the
dancers, alarmed, stopped short, and Lady Markham left the piano and
flew forward, holding out her hands. “Paul!” she cried, “Paul!”
“Paul!” cried Alice, following her mother, and “Paul!” in various tones
echoed the little girls and boys. The strange man who had come in with
Paul had time to remark them while the other was receiving the greeting
of his mother and sister.
“I thought some one would be sure to come and spoil the fun,” Roland
said, taking the opportunity to get far from the little ring of
performers.
“Now we shall get no more good of mamma,” said his little partner with a
disconsolate face; but what was this to the joy of the mother and elder
sister, whose faces where lighted up with a sudden happiness, infinitely
warmer than the innocent pleasure which the new-comers had disturbed!
“We thought you were not coming,” said Lady Markham. “Oh, Paul, you have
been hard upon us not to write! but no, my dear, I am not going to scold
you. I am too happy to have you at last. Have you had any dinner? Alice,
ring the bell, and order something for your brother.”
“You do not see that I am not alone, mother,” said Paul, with a tone so
solemn that both the ladies were startled, not knowing what it could
mean. “I have brought with me a very particular friend, who I hope will
stay for a little.” It was then for the first time that Lady Markham
perceived her son’s companion.
“You know,” she said, “how glad I always am to see your friends; but you
must tell me his name,” she added with a smile, holding out her hand,
“this is a very imperfect introduction.” The sweetness of her look as
she turned to the stranger dazzled him. There was a moment’s confusion
on the part of both the men, as this beautiful, smiling lady put her
delicate fingers into a rough hand brought forth with a certain
reluctance and shamefacedness. She too changed colour a little, and a
look of surprise came into her face on a closer view of her son’s
friend.
“I thank you for your kind reception of me, my lady,” said the man; “but
Markham, you had better explain to your mother who I am. I go nowhere
under false pretences.”
Now that the light was full upon him the difference showed all the more.
His rough looks, his dress, not shabby, still less dirty, but uncared
for, his coarse boots, the general aspect of his figure, which was
neither disorderly nor disreputable, but unquestionably not that of a
gentleman, seemed to communicate a sort of electric shock to the little
company. The boys pressed forward with a simultaneous idea that Paul was
in custody for something or other, and heroic intentions of pouncing
upon the intruder and rescuing their brother. Alice gazed at him
appalled, with some fancy of the same kind passing through her mind.
Only Lady Markham, though she had grown pale, preserved her composure.
“I cannot be anything but glad to see a friend of my boy’s,” she said,
faltering slightly; but there passed through her mind a silent
thanksgiving: Thank Heaven, his father was away!
“This is Spears,” said Paul, curtly. “You needn’t be so fastidious; my
mother is not that sort. Mamma, this is a man to whom I owe more than
all the dons put together. You ought to be proud to see him in your
house. No, we haven’t dined, and we’ve had a long journey. Let them get
us something as soon as possible. Hallo, Brown, put this gentleman’s
things into the greenroom--I suppose we may have the greenroom?--and
tell Mrs. Fry, as soon as she can manage it, to send us something to
eat.”
“I took the liberty to order something directly, as soon as I saw Mr.
Markham, my lady,” said Brown. There was a look of mingled benevolence
and anxiety in this functionary’s face. He was glad to see his young
master come back, but he did not conceal his concern at the company in
which he was. “The greenroom, my lady?”
“The greenroom is quite a small room,” said Lady Markham, faltering. She
looked at the stranger with a doubtful air. He was not a boy to be put
into such a small place; but then, on the other hand----
“A small room is no matter to me,” said Spears. “I’m not used to
anything different. In such a career as mine we’re glad to get shelter
anywhere.” He laughed as he spoke of his career. What was his career? He
looked as if he expected her to know. Lady Markham concealed her
perplexity by a little bow, and turned to Brown, who was waiting her
orders with a half-ludicrous sentimental air of sympathy with his
mistress.
“Put Mr. Spears into the chintz-room in the east wing; it is a better
room,” she said. Then she led the way into the brightness, on the verge
of which they had been standing. “It is almost too warm for fires,” she
said, “but you may like to come nearer to it after your journey. Where
have you come from, Paul? Children, now that you have seen Paul, you had
better go up stairs to bed.”
“I knew how it would be,” said Marie; “no one cares for us now Paul has
come.”
“No one will so much as see mamma as long as he is here,” said Bell;
while the boys, withdrawing reluctantly, stopping to whisper, and throw
black looks back upon the stranger as they strolled away, wondered
almost audibly what sort of fellow Paul had got with him. “A bailiff,
_I_ think,” said Roland; “just the sort of fellow that comes after the
men in _Harry Lorrequer_.” “Or he’s done something, and it’s a turnkey,”
said Harry. Elder brothers were in the way of getting into trouble in
the works with which these young heroes were familiar. Thus at Paul’s
appearance the pretty picture broke up and faded away like a
phantasmagoria. Childhood and innocence disappeared, and care came back.
The aspect of the very room changed where now there was the young man,
peremptory and authoritative, and the two ladies tremulous with the
happiness of his return, yet watching him with breathless anxiety,
reading, or trying to read, every change in his face.
“Your last letter was from Yorkshire, Paul; what have you been doing? We
tried to make out, but we could not. You are so unsatisfactory, you
boys; you never will give details of anything. Did you go to see the
Normantons? or were you----”
“I was nowhere--that you know of, at least,” said Paul. “I was with
Spears, holding meetings. We went from one end of the county to another.
I can’t tell you where we went; it would be harder to say where we
didn’t go.”
Lady Markham looked at her son’s companion with a bewildered smile. “Mr.
Spears, then, Paul--I suppose--knows a great many people in Yorkshire?”
She had not a notion what was meant by holding meetings. He did not
indeed look much like a man who would know many “people” in Yorkshire.
“People” meant not the country folks, you may be sure, but the great
county people, the Yorkshire gentry, the only class which to Lady
Markham told in a county. This was no fault of hers, but only because
the others were beyond her range of vision. No, he did not look like a
man who would know many people in Yorkshire; but, short of that, what
could Paul mean? Lady Markham did not know what significance there
really was in what Paul said.
“We saw a great many Yorkshire people; but I go where I am called,” said
the stranger, “not only where there are people I know.”
Seen in the full light, there was nothing repulsive or disagreeable
about the man. He looked like one of the men who came now and then to
the Chase to put something in order; some clock that had gone wrong, or
something about the decorations. He sat a little uneasily upon the sofa
where he had placed himself. His speech was unembarrassed, but nothing
else about him. He was out of place. To see him there in the midst of
this family it was as if he had dropped from another planet; he did not
seem to belong to the same species. But his speech was easy enough,
though nothing else; he had a fine melodious voice, and he seemed to
like to use it.
“I hope we did good work there,” he said; “not perhaps of a kind that
you would admire, my lady: but from my point of view, excellent work;
and Markham, though he is a young aristocrat, was of great use. An
enthusiast is always a valuable auxiliary. I do not know when I have
made a more successful round. It has taken us just a week.”
Lady Markham bowed in bewildered assent, not knowing what to say. She
smiled out of sheer politeness, attending to every word, though she
could not form an idea of what he meant. She did not care, indeed, to
know what Mr. Spears had been doing. It was her son she wanted to know
about; but the laws of politeness were imperative. Meanwhile Paul walked
about uneasily, placing himself for one moment in front of the expiring
fire, then moving from spot to spot, looking intently at some picture or
knick-knack he had seen a thousand times before. “You have been getting
some new china,” he burst forth, after various suppressed signs of
impatience. Now that he had brought his friend here, he did not seem
desirous that his mother should attend so closely to all he said.
“New china! my dear boy, you have known it all your life,” said Lady
Markham. “We have only shifted it from one cabinet to another. It is the
same old _Sèvres_. Perhaps Mr. Spears takes an interest in china. Show
it to him, Paul. It is a valuable cup; it is supposed to have been made
for Madame du Barry.”
“No,” said the strange visitor, “I know nothing about it. What makes it
valuable, I wonder? I don’t understand putting such a price on things
that if you were to let them drop would be smashed into a thousand
pieces.”
“But you must not let it drop,” said Lady Markham, with a little alarm.
“I daresay it is quite a fictitious kind of value. Still, I like my
_Sèvres_. It is a very pretty ornament.”
“Just so,” said Spears, with a certain patronage in his tone. “In a
luxurious house like this decoration is necessary--and I don’t say that
it has not a very good effect. But in the places I am used to, a common
teacup would be far more useful. Still, I do not deny the grace of
ornament,” he added, with a smile. “Life can go on very well without it,
but it would be stupid to go against it here.”
Lady Markham once more made him a little bow. He spoke as if he
intended a compliment; but what did the man mean? And Paul set down the
cup roughly as if he would have liked to bring the whole _étagère_ to
the ground. Altogether it was a confusion, almost a pain, to have him
here and yet not to have him. There were so many things she wanted to
ask and to know. She gave her son a wistful look. But just then Brown
came in to say that the hasty meal which had been prepared was ready.
Lady Markham rose. She put out her hand to take her son’s arm.
“Were you coming, mother? Don’t take so much trouble; it would only be a
bore to you,” said Paul. “Spears and I will get on very well by
ourselves without bothering you.”
The tears started into Lady Markham’s eyes. She turned a wondering look
upon Alice as Paul and his companion went away down the dim length of
the room, disappearing from them. Alice had been hovering about her
brother, trying to say a word to him now and then, but Paul was too much
intent upon what was going on between his friend and his mother to pay
any attention. The look of dismay and wonder and blank disappointment
that passed between them could not be described. Had Paul been alone
they would both have gone with him to the dining-room: they would have
sent away Brown and waited on him--his mother carving for him, Alice
flitting about to get anything he wanted. They would have asked a
hundred questions, and given him a hundred details of home events, and
made the whole atmosphere bright with tender happiness and soft laughter
and love. Now they stood and looked at each other listening to the
footsteps as they crossed the hall.
“It is all this man whom he has brought with him,” Lady Markham said.