CHAPTER VII

Carlotta Harrison pleaded a headache, and was excused from the

operating-room and from prayers.

“I'm sorry about the vacation,” Miss Gregg said kindly, “but in a day or

two I can let you off. Go out now and get a little air.”

The girl managed to dissemble the triumph in her eyes.

“Thank you,” she said languidly, and turned away. Then: “About the

vacation, I am not in a hurry. If Miss Simpson needs a few days to

straighten things out, I can stay on with Dr. Wilson.”

Young women on the eve of a vacation were not usually so reasonable.

Miss Gregg was grateful.

“She will probably need a week. Thank you. I wish more of the girls

were as thoughtful, with the house full and operations all day and every

day.”

Outside the door of the anaesthetizing-room Miss Harrison's languor

vanished. She sped along corridors and up the stairs, not waiting for

the deliberate elevator. Inside of her room, she closed and bolted the

door, and, standing before her mirror, gazed long at her dark eyes and

bright hair. Then she proceeded briskly with her dressing.

Carlotta Harrison was not a child. Though she was only three years older

than Sidney, her experience of life was as of three to Sidney's one.

The product of a curious marriage,--when Tommy Harrison of Harrison's

Minstrels, touring Spain with his troupe, had met the pretty daughter of

a Spanish shopkeeper and eloped with her,--she had certain qualities of

both, a Yankee shrewdness and capacity that made her a capable nurse,

complicated by occasional outcroppings of southern Europe, furious

bursts of temper, slow and smouldering vindictiveness. A passionate

creature, in reality, smothered under hereditary Massachusetts caution.

She was well aware of the risks of the evening's adventure. The only

dread she had was of the discovery of her escapade by the hospital

authorities. Lines were sharply drawn. Nurses were forbidden more than

the exchange of professional conversation with the staff. In that

world of her choosing, of hard work and little play, of service and

self-denial and vigorous rules of conduct, discovery meant dismissal.

She put on a soft black dress, open at the throat, and with a wide white

collar and cuffs of some sheer material. Her yellow hair was drawn high

under her low black hat. From her Spanish mother she had learned to

please the man, not herself. She guessed that Dr. Max would wish her to

be inconspicuous, and she dressed accordingly. Then, being a cautious

person, she disarranged her bed slightly and thumped a hollow into

her pillow. The nurses' rooms were subject to inspection, and she had

pleaded a headache.

She was exactly on time. Dr. Max, driving up to the corner five minutes

late, found her there, quite matter-of-fact but exceedingly handsome,

and acknowledged the evening's adventure much to his taste.

“A little air first, and then supper--how's that?”

“Air first, please. I'm very tired.”

He turned the car toward the suburbs, and then, bending toward her,

smiled into her eyes.

“Well, this is life!”

“I'm cool for the first time to-day.”

After that they spoke very little. Even Wilson's superb nerves had

felt the strain of the afternoon, and under the girl's dark eyes were

purplish shadows. She leaned back, weary but luxuriously content.

“Not uneasy, are you?”

“Not particularly. I'm too comfortable. But I hope we're not seen.”

“Even if we are, why not? You are going with me to a case. I've driven

Miss Simpson about a lot.”

It was almost eight when he turned the car into the drive of the White

Springs Hotel. The six-to-eight supper was almost over. One or two motor

parties were preparing for the moonlight drive back to the city. All

around was virgin country, sweet with early summer odors of new-cut

grass, of blossoming trees and warm earth. On the grass terrace over the

valley, where ran Sidney's unlucky river, was a magnolia full of creamy

blossoms among waxed leaves. Its silhouette against the sky was quaintly

heart-shaped.

Under her mask of languor, Carlotta's heart was beating wildly. What an

adventure! What a night! Let him lose his head a little; she could keep

hers. If she were skillful and played things right, who could tell? To

marry him, to leave behind the drudgery of the hospital, to feel safe as

she had not felt for years, that was a stroke to play for!

The magnolia was just beside her. She reached up and, breaking off one

of the heavy-scented flowers, placed it in the bosom of her black dress.

Sidney and K. Le Moyne were dining together. The novelty of the

experience had made her eyes shine like stars. She saw only the magnolia

tree shaped like a heart, the terrace edged with low shrubbery, and

beyond the faint gleam that was the river. For her the dish-washing

clatter of the kitchen was stilled, the noises from the bar were lost in

the ripple of the river; the scent of the grass killed the odor of stale

beer that wafted out through the open windows. The unshaded glare of the

lights behind her in the house was eclipsed by the crescent edge of the

rising moon. Dinner was over. Sidney was experiencing the rare treat of

after-dinner coffee.

Le Moyne, grave and contained, sat across from her. To give so much

pleasure, and so easily! How young she was, and radiant! No wonder the

boy was mad about her. She fairly held out her arms to life.

Ah, that was too bad! Another table was being brought; they were not to

be alone. But, what roused him in violent resentment only appealed to

Sidney's curiosity. “Two places!” she commented. “Lovers, of course. Or

perhaps honeymooners.”

K. tried to fall into her mood.

“A box of candy against a good cigar, they are a stolid married couple.”

“How shall we know?”

“That's easy. If they loll back and watch the kitchen door, I win. If

they lean forward, elbows on the table, and talk, you get the candy.”

Sidney, who had been leaning forward, talking eagerly over the table,

suddenly straightened and flushed.

Carlotta Harrison came out alone. Although the tapping of her heels was

dulled by the grass, although she had exchanged her cap for the black

hat, Sidney knew her at once. A sort of thrill ran over her. It was the

pretty nurse from Dr. Wilson's office. Was it possible--but of

course not! The book of rules stated explicitly that such things were

forbidden.

“Don't turn around,” she said swiftly. “It is the Miss Harrison I told

you about. She is looking at us.”

Carlotta's eyes were blinded for a moment by the glare of the house

lights. She dropped into her chair, with a flash of resentment at the

proximity of the other table. She languidly surveyed its two occupants.

Then she sat up, her eyes on Le Moyne's grave profile turned toward the

valley.

Lucky for her that Wilson had stopped in the bar, that Sidney's

instinctive good manners forbade her staring, that only the edge of the

summer moon shone through the trees. She went white and clutched the

edge of the table, with her eyes closed. That gave her quick brain a

chance. It was madness, June madness. She was always seeing him even in

her dreams. This man was older, much older. She looked again.

She had not been mistaken. Here, and after all these months! K. Le

Moyne, quite unconscious of her presence, looked down into the valley.

Wilson appeared on the wooden porch above the terrace, and stood, his

eyes searching the half light for her. If he came down to her, the man

at the next table might turn, would see her--

She rose and went swiftly back toward the hotel. All the gayety was

gone out of the evening for her, but she forced a lightness she did not

feel:--

“It is so dark and depressing out there--it makes me sad.”

“Surely you do not want to dine in the house?”

“Do you mind?”

“Just as you wish. This is your evening.”

But he was not pleased. The prospect of the glaring lights and soiled

linen of the dining-room jarred on his aesthetic sense. He wanted a

setting for himself, for the girl. Environment was vital to him. But

when, in the full light of the moon, he saw the purplish shadows under

her eyes, he forgot his resentment. She had had a hard day. She was

tired. His easy sympathies were roused. He leaned over and ran his and

caressingly along her bare forearm.

“Your wish is my law--to-night,” he said softly.

After all, the evening was a disappointment to him. The spontaneity had

gone out of it, for some reason. The girl who had thrilled to his glance

those two mornings in his office, whose somber eyes had met his fire for

fire, across the operating-room, was not playing up. She sat back in her

chair, eating little, starting at every step. Her eyes, which by every

rule of the game should have been gazing into his, were fixed on the

oilcloth-covered passage outside the door.

“I think, after all, you are frightened!”

“Terribly.”

“A little danger adds to the zest of things. You know what Nietzsche

says about that.”

“I am not fond of Nietzsche.” Then, with an effort: “What does he say?”

“Two things are wanted by the true man--danger and play. Therefore he

seeketh woman as the most dangerous of toys.”

“Women are dangerous only when you think of them as toys. When a man

finds that a woman can reason,--do anything but feel,--he regards her

as a menace. But the reasoning woman is really less dangerous than the

other sort.”

This was more like the real thing. To talk careful abstractions like

this, with beneath each abstraction its concealed personal application,

to talk of woman and look in her eyes, to discuss new philosophies with

their freedoms, to discard old creeds and old moralities--that was

his game. Wilson became content, interested again. The girl was

nimble-minded. She challenged his philosophy and gave him a chance to

defend it. With the conviction, as their meal went on, that Le Moyne and

his companion must surely have gone, she gained ease.

It was only by wild driving that she got back to the hospital by ten

o'clock.

Wilson left her at the corner, well content with himself. He had had the

rest he needed in congenial company. The girl stimulated his interest.

She was mental, but not too mental. And he approved of his own attitude.

He had been discreet. Even if she talked, there was nothing to tell. But

he felt confident that she would not talk.

As he drove up the Street, he glanced across at the Page house. Sidney

was there on the doorstep, talking to a tall man who stood below and

looked up at her. Wilson settled his tie, in the darkness. Sidney was a

mighty pretty girl. The June night was in his blood. He was sorry he had

not kissed Carlotta good-night. He rather thought, now he looked back,

she had expected it.

As he got out of his car at the curb, a young man who had been standing

in the shadow of the tree-box moved quickly away.

Wilson smiled after him in the darkness.

“That you, Joe?” he called.

But the boy went on.

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