Channing said slowly, "That's a bit steep."

In a few brisk words, Mr. Folan showed just why he was an executive of

Planet Enterprises, Inc. He gave Channing the figures for transforming

the planet's characteristics to those of Jupiter; he told him what

acreage of upklin seeds he could grow and the exact profit to be

expected. Channing's share should be about one hundred and fifty

thousand credits per crop.

Fighting a rearguard battle, Channing said, "Your three hundred and

fifty thousand won't look so bad on the balance sheet, either."

Folan reeled off his figures again with practiced glibness. Channing

had the sudden suspicion that his proposition wasn't entirely

unexpected. But the figures sounded reasonable and he had to admit that

Planet Enterprises was risking a great deal of money.

"Then there is the not inconsiderable cost of your own metamorphosis,

Mr. Channing," Folan added.

"Huh?" said Channing.

There followed the most excruciating half-hour of Channing's life.

Proposition followed explanation, counter-explanation followed

counter-proposition. At the end of that time he emerged from the office

with a stricken look and a small white card. The blonde receptionist

read the look correctly and definitely and finally crossed him off her

list.

* * * * *

For a jube, Ckm Dyk wasn't at all bad-looking. His four legs growing

directly from the bottom of the muscular, hairy trunk were strong and

sturdy--always a mark of handsomeness in a male, for the legs had to

take most of the strain of a gravitational pull several times that

of Earth. He had three flexible tentacles, a thin melon slice for a

mouth, but nothing resembling a nose. He didn't need one, since he

breathed through a set of gills at the sides of his head.

He remembered vaguely that he had once been Jim Channing, an Earthman,

but the memory had nearly faded. He had been warned of that, that he

would soon forget he had ever been anything except what he was now, but

he had already forgotten the warning.

Phylox Beta III had changed, too, and in as great a degree. The wide

ocean had become a turgid, soupy mush, covered by the trailing growths

of the upklin flowers. The blue skies had turned an angry red and the

sharp wind that rustled the hair on his squat body was almost pure

methane.

He waddled down to the low disk-shaped skimmer and started the jets. As

it pushed its way through the clinging masses of the upklin flowers, he

surveyed his crop happily. This was his second crop and it promised to

be even better than the first. He was going to be a very wealthy buk,

he told himself. He could buy.... His mind floundered. He didn't know

what Jubes longed for, what they sought wealth for. He was certain at

the same time that there was a flaw in his contentment, that something

was missing.

What he was missing dropped from the sky a few days later. It came in

a spaceboat and was his neighbor from Phylox Beta IV. Her body hair

was a rich golden brown and she wore pretty bracelets, studded with

basim stones, on each of her four legs. Ckm Dyk's single eye, with its

perpendicular outer eyelids and horizontal nictitating inner membranes

to filter out the infra-red rays, shone with an emotion that was more

than pleasure.

Her thoughts flooded his mind. There was a warm recognition of his

admiration and a delicious suggestion that it wasn't unacceptable.

"The agent told me you were upklin farming. I came to see if I could be

of any help," she told him.

The sentences rang like golden bells within his burgeoning

consciousness. He tried to shape his answering thought coherently,

but his lack of telepathic experience betrayed him. She flinched

momentarily beneath the raw, undirected stream of passionate love that

overwhelmed her mind.

Then an answering wave of shy, tender awareness and acquiescence laved

his senses. Without the clumsy barrier of speech between them, they

had scaled in a few pulsating moments the shining heights of love and

devotion that human passion sometimes cannot find in a lifetime of

searching.

Ckm Dyk had never been so happy. They decided to farm the two planets

together so they could be with each other always. There was sound

economic sense in this; with both of them helping, the output of

each planet would be nearly doubled. It meant a huge increase in

administrative and paper work for Ckm Dyk, but he didn't mind that.

Often, as he pored over account books and production figures, a

tremulous, shy devotion would envelop him in a gauzy mental cloud and

he would lay down his stylo and answer Aln Muh with all the great love

that surged within him.

As the months passed, his happiness increased. The perfect attunement

of their minds excluded all the scalding jealousies and the offended

silences of misunderstanding that can mar the most loving human

relationships. They did not need to see each other; the physical

presence of the beloved was unimportant; they loved more with their

minds than with their bodies.

It seemed improbable that such a glorious idyll should ever be

disturbed. Then, one morning, a shuttle-spacer came silently out of

the red sky and landed beside the house. Ckm Dyk waddled toward it,

impelled by a carefully built-in series of reflexes which he had

completely forgotten about and entered its gaping maw. He never once

looked at Aln Muh and the passionate entreaties that echoed through his

mind only roused in him a dull irritation.

* * * * *

Jim Channing again found himself in Mr. Folan's office. The figures

the tall, sleek-haired man was reading out to him made tuneful music.

Even when Planet Enterprises' massive deduction was made, his share was

comfortingly more than a million.

"Not bad payment, Mr. Channing, for five years of life! In any case,

it's all over now--just a bad memory."

The executive smiled at him from his comfortable, familiar chair, aware

of the torrents of confused thoughts hidden behind the gray eyes.

When he had come out of the stupor that succeeded the almost

disintegrating effects of his re-metamorphosis, Jim Channing remembered

clearly the terms of the bargain he had made. He was to become a Jube,

a living nightmare, living in a nightmare world, for five years. At the

end of that time, Planet Enterprises promised him, he would be given

back his humanity and he would have earned enough money to keep him in

luxury for the rest of his life.

They had kept their promise--to the letter. He felt it ungrateful

of him that his paramount emotion was fury. He had been happy; no

human attachment could ever make him as happy again. He longed for

the glorious love and trust he had shared during that tremendous five

years. Perhaps he had been a repulsive monster from whom any woman

would run screaming. But he didn't want a woman. He wanted Aln Muh.

He said, picking his words with the greatest care, "Would a further

metamorphosis be possible?"

* * * * *

Folan's jaw dropped. It was a question he'd never expected to hear from

any of the men who had taken the terrible choice for the glittering

reward he held out to them. Most of them had picked up their vouchers

and asked the way to the nearest tavern; many of the alien races did

not find alcohol compatible with their metabolisms. A few had inquired

tentatively about his current receptionist. Planet Enterprises had a

big turnover in pretty receptionists, but they didn't lose them to

men who had been unhuman horrors for five years. One big red-haired

character had wanted to start a private war against the Sirians, whose

brother he had been until two days previously. But none of them had

wanted to go back.

He said, "It's possible, Mr. Channing. But I must tell you that a

second metamorphosis is very expensive--and it's permanent."

"You mean if I become a Jube again, I must stay one?"

The executive nodded.

Channing gestured toward the payment voucher.

"You said it was expensive. Is there enough there to cover it?"

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