CHAPTER XXVI.

The amount of work which Arnoldo Meschini did in the twenty-four hours

of the day depended almost entirely upon his inclinations. The library

had always been open to the public once a week, on Mondays, and on

those occasions the librarian was obliged to be present. The rest of

his time was supposed to be devoted to the incessant labour connected

with so important a collection of books, and, on the whole, he had done

far more than was expected of him. Prince Montevarchi had never

proposed to give him an assistant, and he would have rejected any such

offer, since the presence of another person would have made it almost

impossible for him to carry on his business of forging ancient

manuscripts. The manual labour of his illicit craft was of course

performed in his own room, but a second librarian could not have failed

to discover that there was something wrong. Night after night he

carried the precious manuscripts to his chamber, bringing them back and

restoring them to their places every morning. During the day he studied

attentively what he afterwards executed in the quiet hours when he

could be alone. Of the household none but the prince himself ever came

to the library, no other member of the family cared for the books or

knew anything about them. His employer being dead, Meschini was

practically master of all the shelves contained. No one disturbed him,

no one asked what he was doing. His salary would be paid regularly by

the steward, and he would in all probability be left to vegetate

unheeded for the rest of his natural lifetime. When he died some one

else would be engaged in his place. In the ordinary course of events no

other future would have been open to him.

He awoke very late in the morning on the day after the murder, and lay

for some time wondering why he was so very uncomfortable, why his head

hurt him, why his vision was indistinct, why he could remember nothing

he had done before going to bed. The enormous quantity of liquor he had

drunk had temporarily destroyed his faculties, which were not hardened

by the habitual use of alcohol. He turned his head uneasily upon the

pillow and saw the bottles on the table, the candle burnt down in the

brass candlestick and the general disorder in the room. He glanced at

his own body and saw that he was lying dressed upon his bed. Then the

whole truth flashed upon his mind with appalling vividness. A shock

went through his system as though some one had struck him violently on

the back of the head, while the light in the room was momentarily

broken into flashes that pained his eyes. He got upon his feet with

difficulty, and steadied himself by the bed-post, hardly able to stand

alone.

He had murdered his master. The first moment in which he realised the

fact was the most horrible he remembered to have passed. He had killed

the prince and could recall nothing, or next to nothing, that had

occurred since the deed. Almost before he knew what he was doing he had

locked his door with a double turn of the key and was pushing the

furniture against it, the table, the chairs, everything that he could

move. It seemed to him that he could already hear upon the winding

stair the clank of the gens d'armes' sabres as they came to get him. He

looked wildly round the room to see whether there was anything that

could lead to discovery. The unwonted exertion, however, had restored

the circulation of his blood, and with it arose an indistinct memory of

the sense of triumph he had felt when he had last entered the chamber.

He asked himself how he could have rejoiced over the deed, unless he

had unconsciously taken steps for his own safety. The body must have

been found long ago.

Very gradually there rose before him the vision of the scene in the

study, when he had been summoned thither by the two servants, the dead

prince stretched on the table, the pale faces, the prefect, Donna

Faustina's voice, a series of questions asked in a metallic, pitiless

tone. He had not been drunk, therefore, when they had sent for him. And

yet, he knew that he had not been sober. In what state, then, had he

found himself? With a shudder, he remembered his terror in the library,

his fright at the ghost which had turned out to be only his own coat,

his visit to his room, and the first draught he had swallowed. From

that point onwards his memory grew less and less clear. He found that

he could not remember at all how he had come upstairs the last time.

One thing was evident, however. He had not been arrested, since he

found himself in his chamber unmolested. Who, then, had been taken in

his place? He was amazed to find that he did not know. Surely, at the

first inquest, something must have been said which would have led to

the arrest of some one. The law never went away empty-handed. He racked

his aching brain to bring back the incident, but it would not be

recalled--for the excellent reason that he really knew nothing about

the matter. It was a relief at all events to find that he had actually

been examined with the rest and had not been suspected. Nevertheless,

he had undoubtedly done the deed, of which the mere thought made him

tremble in every joint. Or was it all a part of his drunken dreams? No,

that, at least, could not be explained away. For a long time he moved

uneasily from his barricade at the door to the window, from which he

tried to see the street below. But his room was in the attic, and the

broad stone cornice of the palace cut off the view effectually. At last

he began to pull the furniture away from the entrance, slowly at first,

as he merely thought of its uselessness, then with feverish haste, as

he realised that the fact of his trying to entrench himself in his

quarters would seem suspicious. In a few seconds he had restored

everything to its place. The brandy bottles disappeared into the

cupboard in the wall; a bit of candle filled the empty candlestick. He

tore off his clothes and jumped into bed, tossing himself about to give

it the appearance of having been slept in. Then he got up again and

proceeded to make his toilet. All his clothes were black, and he had

but a slender choice. He understood vaguely, however, that there would

be a funeral or some sort of ceremony in which all the members of the

household would be expected to join, and he arrayed himself in the best

he had--a decent suit of broadcloth, a clean shirt, a black tie. He

looked at himself in the cracked mirror. His face was ghastly yellow,

the whites of his eyes injected with blood, the veins at the temples

swollen and congested. He was afraid that his appearance might excite

remark, though it was in reality not very much changed.

Then, as he thought of this, he realised that he was to meet a score of

persons, some of whom would very probably look at him curiously. His

nerves were in a shattered condition, he almost broke down at the mere

idea of what he must face. What would become of him in the presence of

the reality? And yet he had met the whole household bravely enough on

the very spot where he had done the murder on the previous evening. He

sat down, overpowered by the revival of his fear and horror. The room

swam around him and he grasped the edge of the table for support. But

he could not stay there all day. Any reluctance to make his appearance

at such a time might be fatal. There was only one way to get the

necessary courage, and that was to drink again. He shrank from the

thought. He had not acquired the habitual drunkard's certainty of

finding nerve and boldness and steadiness of hand in the morning

draught, and the idea of tasting the liquor was loathsome to him in his

disordered state. He rose to his feet and tried to act as though he

were in the midst of a crowd of persons. Ape-like, he grinned at the

furniture, walked about the room, spoke aloud, pretending that he was

meeting real people, tried to frame sentences expressive of profound

grief. He opened the door and made a pretence of greeting an imaginary

individual. It was as though a stream of cold water had fallen upon his

neck. His knees knocked together, and he felt sick with fear. There was

evidently no use in attempting to go down without some stimulant.

Almost sorrowfully he shut the door again, and took the bottle from its

place. He took several small doses, patiently testing the effect until

his hand was steady and warm.

Ten minutes later he was kneeling with many others before the

catafalque, beneath the great canopy of black. He was dazed by the

light of the great branches of candles, and confused by the subdued

sound of whispering and of softly treading feet; but he knew that his

outward demeanour was calm and collected, and that he exhibited no

signs of nervousness. San Giacinto was standing near one of the doors,

having taken his turn with the sons of the dead man to remain in the

room. He watched the librarian and a rough sort of pity made itself

felt in his heart.

"Poor Meschini!" he thought. "He has lost a friend. I daresay he is

more genuinely sorry than all the family put together, poor fellow!"

Arnoldo Meschini, kneeling before the body of the man he had murdered,

with a brandy bottle in the pocket of his long coat, would have come to

an evil end if the giant had guessed the truth. But he looked what he

was supposed to be, the humble, ill-paid, half-starved librarian,

mourning the master he had faithfully served for thirty years. He knelt

a long time, his lips moving mechanically with the words of an

oft-repeated prayer. In reality he was afraid to rise from his knees

alone, and was waiting until some of the others made the first move.

But the rows of lacqueys, doubtless believing that the amount of their

future wages would largely depend upon the vigour of their present

mourning, did not seem inclined to desist from their orisons. To

Meschini the time was interminable, and his courage was beginning to

ooze away from him, as the sense of his position acquired a tormenting

force. He could have borne it well enough in a church, in the midst of

a vast congregation, he could have fought off his horror even here for

a few minutes, but to sustain such a part for a quarter of an hour

seemed almost impossible. He would have given his soul, which indeed

was just then of but small value, to take a sip of courage from the

bottle, and his clasped fingers twitched nervously, longing to find the

way to his pocket. He glanced along the line, measuring his position,

to see whether there was a possibility of drinking without being

observed, but he saw that it would be madness to think of it, and began

repeating his prayer with redoubled energy, in the hope of distracting

his mind. Then a horrible delusion began to take possession of him; he

fancied that the dead man was beginning to turn his head slowly, almost

imperceptibly, towards him. Those closed eyes would open and look him

in the face, a supernatural voice would speak his name. As on the

previous afternoon the cold perspiration began to trickle from his

brow. He was on the point of crying aloud with terror, when the man

next to him rose. In an instant he was on his feet. Both bent again,

crossed themselves, and retired. Meschini stumbled and caught at his

companion's arm, but succeeded in gaining the door. As he passed out,

his face was so discomposed that San Giacinto looked down upon him with

increased compassion, then followed him a few steps and laid his hand

on his shoulder. The librarian started violently and stood still.

"He was a good friend to you, Signor Meschini," said the big man

kindly. "But take heart, you shall not be forgotten."

The dreaded moment had come, and it had been very terrible, but San

Giacinto's tone was reassuring. He could not have suspected anything,

though the servants said that he was an inscrutable man, profound in

his thoughts and fearful in his anger. He was the one of all the family

whom Meschini most feared.

"God have mercy on him!" whined the librarian, trembling to his feet.

"He was the best of men, and is no doubt in glory!"

"No doubt," replied San Giacinto drily. He entertained opinions of his

own upon the subject, and he did not like the man's tone. "No doubt,"

he repeated. "We will try and fulfil his wishes with regard to you."

"Grazie, Eccelenza!" said Meschini with great humility, making horns

with his fingers behind his back to ward off the evil eye, and edging

away in the direction of the grand staircase.

San Giacinto returned to the door and paid no more attention to him.

Then Meschini almost ran down the stairs and did not slacken his speed

until he found himself in the street. The cold air of the winter's day

revived him, and he found himself walking rapidly in the direction of

the Ponte Quattro Capi. He generally took that direction when he went

out without any especial object, for his friend Tiberio Colaisso, the

poor apothecary, had his shop upon the little island of Saint

Bartholomew, which is connected with the shores of the river by a

double bridge, whence the name, "the bridge of four heads."

Meschini paused and looked over the parapet at the yellow swirling

water. The eddies seemed to take queer shapes and he watched them for a

long time. He had a splitting headache, of the kind which is made more

painful by looking at quickly moving objects, which, at the same time,

exercise an irresistible fascination over the eye. Almost unconsciously

he compared his own life to the river--turbid, winding, destroying. The

simile was incoherent, like most of his fancies on that day, but it

served to express a thought, and he began to feel an odd sympathy for

the muddy stream, such as perhaps no one had ever felt before him. But

as he looked he grew dizzy, and drew back from the parapet. There must

have been something strange in his face, for a man who was passing

looked at him curiously and asked whether he were ill. He shook his

head with a sickly smile and passed on.

The apothecary was standing idly at his door, waiting for a custom that

rarely came his way. He was a cadaverous man, about fifty years of age,

with eyes of an uncertain colour set deep in his head. An ill-kept,

grizzled beard descended upon his chest, and gave a certain wildness to

his appearance. A very shabby green smoking cap, trimmed with tarnished

silver lace, was set far back upon his head, displaying a wrinkled

forehead, much heightened by baldness, but of proportions that denoted

a large and active brain. That he took snuff in great quantities was

apparent. Otherwise he was neither very dirty nor very clean, but his

thumbs had that peculiar shape which seems to be the result of

constantly rolling pills. Meschini stopped before him.

"Sor Arnoldo, good-day," said the chemist, scrutinising his friend's

face curiously.

"Good-day, Sor Tiberio," replied the librarian. "Will you let me come

in for a little moment?" There seemed to be an attempt at a jest in the

question, for the apothecary almost smiled.

"Padrone," he said, retiring backwards through the narrow door. "A game

of scopa to-day?"

"Have you the time to spare?" inquired the other, in a serious tone.

They always maintained the myth that Tiberio Colaisso was a very busy

man.

"To-day," answered the latter, without a smile, and emphasising the

word as though it defined an exception, "to-day, I have nothing to do.

Besides, it is early."

"We can play a hand and then we can dine at Cicco's."

"Being Friday in Advent, I had intended to fast," replied the

apothecary, who had not a penny in his pocket "But since you are so

good as to invite me, I do not say no."

Meschini said nothing, for he understood the situation, which was by no

means a novel one. His friend produced a pack of Italian cards, almost

black with age. He gave Meschini the only chair, and seated himself

upon a three-legged stool.

It was a dismal scene. The shop was like many of its kind in the poorer

quarters of old Rome. There was room for the counter and for three

people to stand before it when the door was shut. The floor was covered

with a broken pavement of dingy bricks. As the two men began to play a

fine, drizzling rain wet the silent street outside, and the bricks

within at once exhibited an unctuous moisture. The sky had become

cloudy after the fine morning, and there was little light in the shop.

Three of the walls were hidden by cases with glass doors, containing an

assortment of majolica jars which would delight a modern amateur, but

which looked dingy and mean in the poor shop. Here and there, between

them, stood bottles large and small, some broken and dusty, others

filled with liquids and bearing paper labels, brown with age, the ink

inscriptions fading into the dirty surface that surrounded them. The

only things in the place which looked tolerably clean were the little

brass scales and the white marble tablet for compounding solid

medicines.

The two men looked as though they belonged to the little room.

Meschini's yellow complexion was as much in keeping with the

surroundings as the chemist's gray, colourless face. His bloodshot eyes

wandered from the half-defaced cards to the objects in the shop, and he

was uncertain in his play. His companion looked at him as though he

were trying to solve some intricate problem that gave him trouble. He

himself was a man who, like the librarian, had begun life under

favourable circumstances, had studied medicine and had practised it.

But he had been unfortunate, and, though talented, did not possess the

qualifications most necessary for his profession. He had busied himself

with chemistry and had invented a universal panacea which had failed,

and in which he had sunk most of his small capital. Disgusted with his

reverses he had gravitated slowly to his present position. Finding him

careless and indifferent to their wants, his customers had dropped

away, one by one, until he earned barely enough to keep body and soul

together. Only the poorest class of people, emboldened by the mean

aspect of his shop, came in to get a plaster, an ointment or a black

draught, at the lowest possible prices. And yet, in certain branches,

Tiberio Colaisso was a learned man. At all events he had proved himself

able to do all that Meschini asked of him. He was keen, too, in an

indolent way, and a single glance had satisfied him that something very

unusual had happened to the librarian. He watched him patiently, hoping

to find out the truth without questions. At the same time, the hope of

winning a few coppers made him keep an eye on the game. To his surprise

he won easily, and he was further astonished when he saw that the

miserly Meschini was not inclined to complain of his losses nor to

accuse him of cheating.

"You are not lucky to-day," he remarked at last, when his winnings

amounted to a couple of pauls--a modern franc in all.

Meschini looked at him uneasily and wiped his brow, leaning back in the

rickety chair. His hands were trembling.

"No," he answered. "I am not quite myself to-day. The fact is that a

most dreadful tragedy occurred in our house last night, the mere

thought of which gives me the fever. I am even obliged to take a little

stimulant from time to time."

So saying, he drew the bottle from his pocket and applied it to his

lips. He had hoped that it would not be necessary, but he was unable to

do without it very long, his nerves being broken down by the quantity

he had taken on the previous night. Colaisso looked on in silence, more

puzzled than ever. The librarian seemed to be revived by the dose, and

spoke more cheerfully after it.

"A most terrible tragedy," he said. "The prince was murdered yesterday

afternoon. I could not speak of it to you at once."

"Murdered?" exclaimed the apothecary in amazement. "And by whom?"

"That is the mystery. He was found dead in his study. I will tell you

all I know."

Meschini communicated the story to his friend in a disjointed fashion,

interspersing his narrative with many comments intended to give himself

courage to proceed. He told the tale with evident reluctance, but he

could not avoid the necessity. If Tiberio Colaisso read the account in

the paper that evening, as he undoubtedly would, he would wonder why

his companion had not been the first to relate the catastrophe; and

this wonder might turn into a suspicion. It would have been better not

to come to the apothecary's, but since he found himself there he could

not escape from informing him of what had happened.

"It is very strange," said the chemist, when he had heard all. Meschini

thought he detected a disagreeable look in his eyes.

"It is, indeed," he answered. "I am made ill by it. See how my hand

trembles. I am cold and hot."

"You have been drinking too much," said Colaisso suddenly, and with a

certain brutality that startled his friend. "You are not sober. You

must have taken a great deal last night. A libation to the dead, I

suppose, in the manner of the ancients."

Meschini winced visibly and began to shuffle the cards, while he

attempted to smile to hide his embarrassment.

"I was not well yesterday--at least--I do not know what was the

matter--a headache, I think, nothing more. And then, this awful

catastrophe--horrible! My nerves are unstrung. I can scarcely speak."

"You need sleep first, and then a tonic," said the apothecary in a

business-like tone.

"I slept until late this morning. It did me no good. I am half dead

myself. Yes, if I could sleep again it might do me good."

"Go home and go to bed. If I were in your place I would not drink any

more of that liquor. It will only make you worse."

"Give me something to make me sleep. I will take it."

The apothecary looked long at him and seemed to be weighing something

in his judgment. An evil thought crossed his mind. He was very poor. He

knew well enough, in spite of Meschini's protestations, that he was not

so poor as he pretended to be. If he were he could not have paid so

regularly for the chemicals and for the experiments necessary to the

preparation of his inks. More than once the operations had proved to be

expensive, but the librarian had never complained, though he haggled

for a baiocco over his dinner at Cicco's wine shop, and was generally

angry when he lost a paul at cards. He had money somewhere. It was

evident that he was in a highly nervous state. If he could be induced

to take opium once or twice it might become a habit. To sell opium was

very profitable, and Colaisso knew well enough the power of the vice

and the proportions it would soon assume, especially if Meschini

thought the medicine contained only some harmless drug.

"Very well," said the apothecary. "I will make you a draught. But you

must be sure that you are ready to sleep when you take it. It acts very

quickly."

The draught which Meschini carried home with him was nothing but weak

laudanum and water. It looked innocent enough, in the little glass

bottle labelled "Sleeping potion." But the effect of it, as Colaisso

had told him, was very rapid. Exhausted by all he had suffered, the

librarian closed the windows of his room and lay down to rest. In a

quarter of an hour he was in a heavy sleep. In his dreams he was

happier than he had ever been before. The whole world seemed to be his,

to use as he pleased. He was transformed into a magnificent being such

as he had never imagined in his waking hours. He passed from one scene

of splendour to another, from glory to glory, surrounded by forms of

beauty, by showers of golden light in a beatitude beyond all

description. It was as though he had suddenly become emperor of the

whole universe. He floated through wondrous regions of soft colour, and

strains of divine music sounded in his ears. Gentle hands carried him

with an easy swaying motion to transcendent heights, where every breath

he drew was like a draught of sparkling life. His whole being was

filled with something which he knew was happiness, until he felt as

though he could not contain the overflowing joy. At one moment he

glided beyond the clouds through a gorgeous sunset; at another he was

lying on a soft invisible couch, looking out to the bright

distance--distance that never ended, never could end, but the

contemplation of which was rapture, the greater for being inexplicable.

An exquisite new sense was in him, corresponding to no bodily instinct,

but rejoicing wildly in something that could not be defined, nor

understood, nor measured, but only felt.

At last he began to descend, slowly at first and then with increasing

speed, till he grew giddy and unconscious in the fall. He awoke and

uttered a cry of terror. It was night, and he was alone in the dark. He

was chilled to the bone, too, and his head was heavy, but the darkness

was unbearable, and though he would gladly have slept again he dared

not remain an instant without a light. He groped about for his matches,

found them, and lit a candle. A neighbouring clock tolled out the hour

of midnight, and the sound of the bells terrified him beyond measure.

Cold, miserable, in an agony of fear, his nervousness doubled by the

opium and by a need of food of which he was not aware, there was but

one remedy within his reach. The sleeping potion had been calculated

for one occasion only, and it was all gone. He tried to drain a few

drops from the phial, and a drowsy, half-sickening odour rose from it

to his nostrils. But there was nothing left, nothing but the brandy,

and little more than half a bottle of that. It was enough for his

present need, however, and more than enough. He drank greedily, for he

was parched with thirst, though hardly conscious of the fact. Then he

slept till morning. But when he opened his eyes he was conscious that

he was in a worse state than on the previous day. He was not only

nervous but exhausted, and it was with feeble steps that he made his

way to his friend's shop, in order to procure a double dose of the

sleeping mixture. If he could sleep through the twenty-four hours, he

thought, so as not to wake up in the dead of night, he should be

better. When he made his appearance Tiberio Colaisso knew what he

wanted, and although he had half repented of what he had done, the

renewed possibility of selling the precious drug was a temptation he

could not withstand.

One day succeeded another, and each morning saw Arnoldo Meschini

crossing the Ponte Quattro Capi on his way to the apothecary's. In the

ordinary course of human nature a man does not become an opium-eater in

a day, nor even, perhaps, in a week, but to the librarian the narcotic

became a necessity almost from the first. Its action, combined with

incessant doses of alcohol, was destructive, but the man's constitution

was stronger than would have been believed. He possessed, moreover, a

great power of controlling his features when he was not assailed by

supernatural fears, and so it came about that, living almost in

solitude, no one in the Palazzo Montevarchi was aware of his state. It

was bad enough, indeed, for when he was not under the influence of

brandy he was sleeping from the effects of opium. In three days he was

willing to pay anything the apothecary asked, and seemed scarcely

conscious of the payments he made. He kept up a show of playing the

accustomed game of cards, but he was absent-minded, and was not even

angry at his daily losses. The apothecary had more money in his pocket

than he had possessed for many a day. As Arnoldo Meschini sank deeper

and deeper, the chemist's spirits rose, and he began to assume an air

of unwonted prosperity. One of the earliest results of the librarian's

degraded condition was that Tiberio Colaisso procured himself a new

green smoking cap ornamented profusely with fresh silver lace.

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