“SIMPLE FAITH THAN NORMAN BLOOD.”
“You’ll look at least on love’s remains;
A grave’s one violet!
Your look? that soothes a thousand pains.
What’s Death? You’ll love me yet!”
“Just be careful who mounts that chesnut to-day, Hargreaves,” Challen,
the riding-master, says, pausing on his way at the door of the stable,
and passing a keen glance over the horse in question. The chesnut is a
big, good-looking hack, with a sleek satin coat, and just what would
take a woman’s fancy, but there is a look about his eye that Challen
does not like. “Put Miss Edwards on him, she has pluck enough to ride to
the devil, but mind none of the new pupils go near him.”
Hargreaves assents, but he does not look content.
“She wants to ride the chesnut,” he says to himself. “She’s set her mind
on it, and I hate to disappoint her! Bless her heart! Why, what’s the
matter with you?” he continues aloud, going up to the chesnut, and
passing his hand over the long, lean head. “I like you, because she
likes you! You’d never think of hurting her, I’ll be bound, no more than
anyone would, I know! My pretty one! I’d kill myself if any harm came to
you--that I would!”
And Gladstone Beaconsfield Hargreaves, quasi village veterinary, but now
assistant-master of the Belgravian riding-school, pulls out a tiny
locket from his breast and kisses it a dozen times, then holds it up to
the light reverentially as if it was the holiest thing to him on earth.
“Just like a bit of gold it is, for all the world! The same colour that
angels’ hair is. Oh! my pretty one; my sweet one! There’s never a night
I don’t go down on my knees and thank God that you don’t scorn me!”
It is the morning after the State Ball, and while the other Beranger
girls take an extra hour or two of slumber, Baby, fresh as a lark, dons
her dark-blue habit that fits her lovely little figure like wax--and is
off for a riding lesson.
The weather is true summer, and the little lazy breeze that floats
across the Serpentine is a boon to man and beast. Right away in the
upper portion of Kensington Gardens, the trees throw down some grateful
shade, and Challen’s riding-school wend their way down the broad walk at
a snail’s pace, for the heat is awful.
Up above there is not even a cloudlet to temper the sun’s rays; the sky
is as clear and as blue as Baby’s own eyes, and everything around looks
as bright as her smiles.
There are not as many aspirants to equestrian honours as usual to-day.
The season is on the wane, and the Ball and Reception givers pile on the
agony fast and strong, so that the young _débutantes_, fagged and worn
out by nocturnal exertions, find the arms of Morpheus more to their
liking than the caresses of Boreas.
Miss Juliana Edwards, a strong-minded, steel-nerved brunette, and
Challen’s show pupil, is here, well to the front of the small cavalcade,
but she does not ride the chesnut.
Her dare-devil propensities find but small play, for her mount is a
dapple-grey gelding, who looks as if neither whip nor spur will rouse
him out of riding-school jog-trot.
There are only eight riders in all, and the first lot go in threes,
while some little distance in the rear Hargreaves keeps close to the
chesnut, on whose back is Baby.
“You’ll kindly look to the other ladies, Miss Edwards, won’t you?” he
had said on starting, with a deprecatory smile. “I think I had better
keep an eye to Miss Mirabelle Beranger’s horse. She doesn’t ride like
_you_ do, you know!”
And Miss Juliana Edwards, to whom a compliment on her horsemanship is
dearer than anything, smiles in return at the handsome assistant, and
agrees to keep a sharp look-out.
The chesnut goes steadily enough--so steadily in fact, that Baby, who is
an awful little coward, forgets all about him, and gives her whole
attention to her teacher, who, in the neatest of grey tweed suits, and
with an unimpeachable wide-a-wake perched jauntily on his curly head,
looks quite _the gentleman_.
“I _wish_ you had been at the State Ball last night!” she says, with a
beaming smile, that almost takes the young fellow’s breath away.
“_I!_ fancy me at a State Ball, Miss Mirabelle!”
“Why not? I am sure there was no one so good-looking as you there!” she
cries, looking admiringly at the trim, slight figure, and the straight
features and undeniably winsome eyes of her companion. “I _wish_ you
would not call me _Miss_ Mirabelle!” she adds with a little pout of her
charming red lips.
He reddens visibly as he hearkens.
“I _dare_ not call you anything else, Miss Mirabelle!” he almost
whispers, his heart throbbing violently under his tweed waistcoat.
“There it is again! _Miss_ Mirabelle! why can’t you say ‘Mirabelle,’
when--when--we are _quite_ alone?” she asks impatiently, throwing a
covert glance towards the other riders to see if they are out of
earshot.
“Oh! _I couldn’t!_” he murmurs very low--shy of speech--but his large
hazel eyes are eloquent enough. “I would as soon think of calling the
angels by their names!” he goes on nervously.
“I have heard of Michael as the name of an archangel, but I don’t think
the female angels _have_ any names,” Baby says irreverently. “Do you
think _me_ an angel? because I’m not, not the very least bit in the
world. The governor calls me a little devil, and I know my sisters don’t
think me an angel!” she laughs.
“You are an angel to _me_, anyhow!”
A little pause, while she looks straight into his eyes, with the
prettiest, faintest pink colour creeping over her cheeks.
“I say, Hargreaves, how long are we going on like this?” she asks
abruptly.
He gazes at her amazed, and Baby laughs again, a little, low, musical
laugh that entrances him.
“I mean that--that--as we care for one another, why should we pretend
not to?” she asks in a hushed voice, putting her hand on her pommel, for
the chesnut pricks up his ears and frightens her. Hargreaves’ hand is on
hers in a second. He is really rather nervous about the horse after
Challen’s warning, and besides, it is Heaven to him to feel the soft
velvety skin of the dainty little hand that gleams up like a morsel of
alabaster statuary under the sunlight.
“Miss Mirabelle, for God’s sake don’t go and make me forget what I am. I
try night and day to remember the distance between us, and though I
could go down on my knees and worship you all my life--though I could
die for you willingly--_willingly_, I know I dare not _live_ for you! I
love you--_there!_ Only God knows _how_ I love you, but it isn’t a love
like a fellow gives to his sweetheart! It’s a love like a faithful dog,
that would lick your pretty hand and be content; that would watch over
you so that no harm came near you; that would just lie down and die by
the side of _your_ grave.”
Baby listens with an involuntary tear twinkling in her eye. She is only
seventeen, but she has been too long in a Belgravian world not to know
that this young fellow loves her with a beautiful, unselfish, honest
love--the like of which no Belgravian fine gentleman would feel. This
primitive, self-abnegatory sort of courtship is so novel that it has a
glamour for her, and Baby is--undoubtedly--a little fast.
“I would rather _live_ and find out how much you _do_ love me,
Hargreaves,” she answers, with a tender smile; “do you think you love me
to--to--the extent--of--marrying me?”
“Miss Mirabelle!” he gasps.
The veins swell on his forehead, his eyes fix on her with a bewildered
look, and his breath comes quick and fast. Then he droops his head, and
a forlorn expression sweeps over his white face.
“Don’t laugh at me, for my dead mother’s sake,” he whispers in a hoarse
tone.
“I am _not_ laughing,” she says slowly, “not laughing one little bit,
Hargreaves. Would you think it very fast of me if I said
something--something quite out of the way, you know?”
“I could not think ill of you, no matter what came,” he replies
earnestly.
“Well then, here goes! I am ready to be Mrs. Hargreaves as soon as you
like.”
He stares at her like a man in a dream, and as he lifts his eyes to her
lovely little face, Baby’s snowy lids droop over her cerulean orbs,
while her mouth twitches with something between a quiver and a smile.
He is not a gentleman born and bred, but he has a heart that can love.
Blue blood may not flow in his veins, but honest, devoted, even
chivalric feelings live in his breast, and he _knows_ that this girl--in
spite of the words she has just spoken--is a thing he dare not grasp.
No, if her love and her presence are Heaven, the loss of her undying
misery and regret, he does not dream of hesitating between them for her
dear sake.
She has offered herself to him--the sweetest, most precious gift he
could have on earth--but sooner than take her, sooner than drag his
dainty high-born darling down to his own level, he would shoot himself.
“No, no, Miss Mirabelle! I should be a rascal, a cur, if I thought you
were in earnest. I have no right to love you; but love is a thing that
comes alike to all, and I may feel it so long as I don’t let it harm
you, Miss Mirabelle. God bless you for liking me, for speaking to me
kindly; but I ask no more than that--only--_only_--may I just kiss your
hand--_once_--Miss Mirabelle.”
He raises a white, stricken face as he speaks. He has made up his mind
to throw up his situation this very night and to go away--to
America--Australia--anywhere so that she may never see him again, and
regret perhaps that she has spoken to him thus. He will pass right away
out of her life, but he wants one kiss of her little white hand to take
away with him; that kiss and the locket that holds a bit of her shining
hair--his two priceless treasures.
Baby’s eyes are full of tears now. The young fellow’s voice has such a
ring of pathos in it--a ring she has never heard in the voices of
Belgravia--but she says nothing, only pulls off the gauntlet from her
right hand and holds it towards him.
“_Good-bye_,” he whispers so incoherently that she doesn’t catch the
word, and stooping, Hargreaves fastens his trembling lips on the soft
white flesh, _when_----
The Chesnut has started forward, and, off her guard and terrified out of
her senses, his hapless rider loses all presence of mind and clings on
as the horse careers madly along.
The rest of the school have turned to the right and disappeared from
view. Hargreaves, horror-struck, almost stunned, does not follow for a
moment, and only the Chesnut with its helpless burden dashes on and on.
Turning sharply to the left he gallops furiously--so furiously that all
obstacles give way before him. On and on, on and on! till the gardens
are left long behind, and the road by the Park is reached, while the
poor pale little rider clings desperately on with all her might and main
for dear life.
Suddenly the horse swerves to the right down a narrow street, and losing
her hold, the girl falls off.
Pray God that the horror of her fate is over! _but no!_
The tiny foot is entangled in the stirrup, and for nearly thirty yards
the brute drags her along, when all at once he stops dead short,
frightened and quivering, and the jerk snaps the stirrup leather in two.
_But it is a little too late!_
They pick her up, a little white dainty thing. Her hat has fallen off,
and her long hair--angels’ hair, as Hargreaves has called it--streams
down in such long rich shining waves that it seems to envelop the small
slender figure in an armour of burnished gold.
She is not dead--her blue eyes, blue as the sunny sky--are quite wide
open, and some one, a slight young fellow, who has just ridden
breathlessly up, falls down prone on his shaking knees and looks into
them with the poor piteous look of a faithful hound.
“Miss Mirabelle, Miss Mirabelle!” he calls in wild despairing tones.
But she cannot rebuke him now for his formal address, poor little soul!
Presently her eyelids droop, and the long curling lashes rest close
against cheeks that are almost ashy now.
They lift her up gently and carry her--“Home,” the home she had left
only two hours before gay and blithesome as a bird and so full of life,
and when it is reached they take her straight into the library, the
door of which is ajar, and laying her down on the couch, they leave her,
all but one, and he does not enter the room that contains her, but
stands trembling near the threshold.
Another moment and the awful thing that has happened is known to all in
the house, and Hargreaves shrinks away still further as father, mother,
sisters of the girl he loves pass him with scared faces and stricken
hearts to find Baby--_so!_
Not a word is spoken. At such a moment what word can be said? Even Lady
Beranger bows her proud head beneath the fiat of Heaven, while Lord
Beranger sobs aloud over this little one--this brightest, merriest one
of all the flock.
After a moment, revived by a stimulant, Baby opens her pretty blue eyes.
“Don’t cry, governor!” she says in a voice so faint--_so faint!_--that
it seems to come already from that distant shore. “It serves me right! I
was going to leave you--I was----”
She stops, struggling for breath.
“Let me just see her, my lady! Oh, for God’s sake let me just go near
her! I won’t dare to touch her--I won’t even dare to say _good-bye_!” a
voice whispers so hoarsely, so brokenly, that my lady starts and turns
round, but does not understand.
But Baby has heard, through the faint mists that are rising up around
her; the voice of the man who loves her finds an echo in her heart.
“_Let_ him come near, governor,” she says slowly, with an effort. “He
isn’t a gentleman, but I loved him and asked him to marry me, but he
wouldn’t, governor. He said he wouldn’t hurt me by doing it.”
“Quite right of him,” Lord Beranger falters through the tears that roll
down his cheeks. “Hargreaves, come closer.”
He draws closer and kneels down beside the couch, and taking up one
long, glittering tress, he puts his quivering lips to it.
“You may kiss me, Hargreaves,” Baby murmurs, with a half smile on her
pale lips. “There are no _convenances_ where I’m going!”
He rises from his knees and, bending over, kisses her for the first and
_the very last time_.
“Good--bye--all!” she gasps. “I have--had--a--jolly--time--but--I’m--not
sorry--to--go! Go--od--bye!”
Her eyes close, a grey hue runs round the pretty lips and the shadow of
the Angel of Death falls on her little face.
Only a few hours more and Baby is gone!--gone with her smiles and her
wiles, her coaxing ways and her naughty ways--gone to that land which
only faith can pierce and where only love can follow.
There is not a dry eye in the household, when with awesome spirit and
noiseless tread they go in to see the last of her.
She lies like an exquisite waxen image, her sweet voice silenced, her
blithe laugh hushed, her slender white arms crossed on her stilled
heart, and a snowy Eucharis lily resting upon her breast.
“Oh, my lord! put this somewhere near her from _me_!” poor Hargreaves
had said through blinding tears.
“One touch of nature makes the whole world kin,” and Lord Beranger,
knowing with what a true, honest, unselfish love this young fellow had
loved his lost child, places the lily on her breast with his own hands.
* * * * *
The day after Baby is laid to rest, Hargreaves is found near the
Beranger vault; one hand grasps a locket with a bit of golden hair in
it, near the other hand is the revolver with which he has shot himself.
It was true what he had said, that he loved her with the love of a dog,
that would just lie down and die beside her grave.
But the matter is at once hushed up, for the _convenances_ do not allow
of _canaille_ even _killing_ themselves for the sake of daughters of
Belgravia.