CHAPTER XXXVI

"'Perhaps you think he is too young for me?' the witch asked.

"'But you have the magic ring!'

"'Do I look so old?'

"'No, not old!' I saw she was angry.

"'Perhaps I am not a flapper. But I am not decrepit. I can still get

around. Ha, ha, ha, ha!' Her laugh scares me. It is make-believe. She

never feels like laughing.

"'Wouldn't you rather appear young and pretty?'

"'Pretty! Pretty, pretty, pretty! Suppose I was! The last witch would

look out through a girl's eyes.... Once I became a pretty girl and went

among people. Girls felt I was different; men feared me. Oh! It was

worse being a pretty girl mysteriously repellent, than a lonely old

woman....

"'But Spike Flecker is also different. He knows true values. Do you

think Flecker would notice you? Your eyes are empty. You have a flat

little face covered with paint!'

"I did not say a word.

"'There is true beauty in my face,' said the witch. 'You can't see

it because you don't know what beauty is!' She looked in the mirror,

holding her chin up. 'I even look rather young!'

"I said I was sorry I had spoken and pulled on my gloves. She followed

me down the passage. When I touched the doorknob she put her hand over

mine.

"'Let's not be silly!' she said. 'Let's be friends. You won't fling

insults at me again, will you? I am so tired, so incapable of defending

myself!'

"Her smile was wistful and patient. I had been very angry, but now I

was sorry for her.

"She has no imagination about the feeling of others. She can only

pretend to be kind to others, she feels so sorry for herself all the

time. Sometimes I couldn't believe even in her self-pity. I would think

she didn't feel anything. She was pretty bad when she pretended to be

humble--when she wept with pity for herself--but worse when she was

gay and started a sort of jig, kicking her feet up, and looking out of

the corner of her eye. She was all right when she told stories, and I

did not mind when she talked about you.

"I was sorry for her because she was so mean. Mean people have

feelings. They sit around thinking and thinking how much they suffer

and so their suffering grows bigger than other people's.

"She got so arrogant and insulting I could hardly stand it. She laughed

at my ignorance of history. She even asked me why was I coming each

day--to get free tea and cakes?

"Her friends have always dropped her after a day or two and she was

afraid I would stop coming so she tried to beat me to it by insulting

me. But I had to hear about you! When I came next day as if nothing

had happened, she was surprised and suspicious. Then she was almost

cheerful. But she could not help being a little condescending.

"She decided I had come back because she was so charming.

"'I am not young,' she said. 'I suppose I am not very careful of my

appearance sometimes. I am not witty. I wonder why I wield such a

powerful influence over my friends!

"'You and I have had a very pleasant time in my simple little house.'

She smiled modestly. 'It is such a neat and cozy home, isn't it?'

"'Yes, it is!' I said, though her house is dirty and bleak."

Spike whispered: "There she is now! Oh, my God, she is coming right

here!"

The witch stood on the sidewalk beyond the trees. The light was in her

eyes and she squinted.

She took a step toward them and halted, resting first on one foot, then

on the other. Strands of hair blew across her face.

"What does she want?" whispered Spike.

"Perhaps she is coming for the ring."

Spike slipped it off and held it in the palm of his right hand. "You

give it to her! Please, you give it to her." The witch came toward

them, step by step. Spike's fist nudged Marie's knee. "Take it!" he

commanded in a whisper. "Take the _ring_!"

Her hand accepted it under the table. "_Bon jour, madame!_" she

exclaimed, raising her voice so that the witch, still some distance

away, would hear.

The witch bobbed her head. Her dead eyes were fixed on Flecker.

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