A CONFESSION TOO MANY
People were talking. That system of wireless telegraphy which
ante-dates Marconi's invention by ten thousand generations, had done
effective service. In the remotest farm-houses it was known that
Justin Ware had called on Persis Dale twice within a week. He came
between half past eight and nine, so said reliable rumor, and the
lateness of the hour of his arrival as well as of his departure, made
only too plain the relaxing influence of city life on country-bred
standards.
Annabel Sinclair heard and turned faint and sick, so closely does
jealousy counterfeit love. As far as Justin Ware was concerned, the
news of his untimely death would have affected Annabel less than the
information that the chops had not been sent from the butcher's in time
for dinner. But he was a man and that he should choose to spend two
evenings in a week with another woman, after she had given him to
understand that his society would be agreeable to herself, argued a
decline in her powers of fascination. She told herself that she hated
Persis, that she hated Justin, that she loathed life and the miserable
business of being a woman, and she ended by finding pretexts for daily
excursions past the Clematis House, always arrayed in the most fetching
street costumes. When on the third day she encountered Justin, that
gentleman responded gallantly to her pensive tender reproach. His was
no Jericho heart, to demand a seven-day siege. He had found Persis
Dale unexpectedly interesting, but Annabel was unexpectedly pretty, and
a liking for pickles does not preclude a taste for sweets.
Thomas Hardin's married sister, Mrs. Gibson, heard the news with
consternation. She had long been aware of the state of her brother's
affections, this indeed arguing no especial insight, since an infant in
arms would have possessed sufficient intuition to read the heart of the
guileless Thomas. Mrs. Gibson had regarded Persis in the proprietary
light of a prospective sister-in-law, even going so far as to criticize
her with the frank freedom which is the prerogative of kinship. When
the first rumor of Justin's attentions reached the good woman's ears,
she made a hurried trip to town for the sole purpose of interviewing
her brother.
As good luck would have it, business was slack at the moment of her
arrival, and Thomas left two lanky country-women to the care of his
assistant, and followed his sister to a dingy space in the rear which,
primarily serving as a store-room, was also by virtue of a certain
gloomy privacy, peculiarly adapted to the discussion of a subject of
such delicacy.
Mrs. Gibson dusted a chair with needless ostentation and then focused
her regard on her brother who stood before her a self-confessed
culprit, conscious guilt as manifest in his attitude as in the flaming
confusion of his face.
"Thomas, what's this I hear about Persis Dale?"
"I don't know, Nellie. What have you heard?"
Mrs. Gibson's glance expressed her scorn of the evasion.
"Is it true that Justin Ware is going with her?"
"Why, I've heard, Nellie, that he's been over there once or twice. Old
friend of Joel's," explained Thomas, with a futile effort to speak
convincingly.
"Fiddlesticks! If I thought you really believed that any man would
walk from the Clematis House out to the Dale place for the sake of
hearing Joel Dale talk about the latest cure-all, I'd be ashamed to own
you for my brother. If he goes, he goes to see Persis. Now, what do
you mean to do about it?"
"Nellie, I haven't any right to interfere. If she wants Justin Ware's
company it's her own business. She's not beholden to me."
"No," snapped Mrs. Gibson. "And why ain't she? Because you've been
shilly-shallying along as though 'twas her business to pop the
question. You men are getting nowadays so you can't do a thing for
yourselves, you just hang back and leave us women to do it all."
Thomas squirmed like an impaled beetle. "Guess I'd better go back into
the store, Nellie. George means well, but he hasn't much of a
head-piece--"
"Thomas Hardin, you stay where you are till I'm done with you. Now
tell me straight. Have you ever asked Persis Dale to marry you?"
"Well, Nellie, to be candid, I never have got really to the point. I
want her to know the worst about me first. I wouldn't take her in for
all the world, and then have her sorry afterward."
"Take her in! Of course, you'll take her in. If all men stopped for
that, weddings would have gone out of fashion long ago. And it's well
for women's peace of mind that they don't have to know the worst about
the men they marry. I'm ashamed of you, Thomas! To think you've got
no more gumption than to stand around like a ninny and let that city
man walk off with the woman you've always wanted."
"If she'd rather marry Justin Ware," Thomas began and failed to finish
his sentence, his voice strangled by his inward anguish. His sister
snorted.
"Good lord! Thomas, a woman's going to marry the man that asks her.
By all accounts that Ware won't be mealy-mouthed. If he wants her,
he'll not stand back and let another man have the first say."
There was a reasonableness in this presentation of the case which
impressed Thomas as his air of irresolution showed.
"Then you think I've got a chance, Nellie?"
His sister groaned her exasperation. "You had all the chance till this
Ware turned up. Of course when a woman's got a choice it makes a
difference. But there's nothing gained by holding off and letting him
have everything his own way. If you don't ask her, of course she'll
take him, provided she gets the chance. And if you do ask her, she may
take you. So you won't lose anything by trying."
As a result of this plain unflattering counsel, Thomas Hardin dressed
that evening with unusual care, and with the approach of darkness
turned his face toward his familiar goal, his emotions befitting a
participant in the charge of the Light Brigade. His throat was
parched, his heart hammered. While absolutely certain that Persis was
aware of his aspiration, the thought of expressing it, of making a
formal offer, was distinctly terrifying. And moreover there was a
disagreeable preliminary that must receive attention, the confession of
another of those misdemeanors of his past, as irrepressible a brood as
hounded poor Macbeth. The episode dated back to his twentieth year,
when Annabel Sinclair was just waking up to the knowledge of her beauty
and the power it gave her over the susceptible sex. Thomas blushed to
recall how ignominiously he himself had capitulated.
Fate was on his side that evening. Joel was absent. Persis was kind.
She sat by the lamp stitching, and the inevitable suggestion of
comfortable domesticity was in itself an inspiration. He thanked
Heaven for her lowered gaze, confident that if he were forced to meet
her candid eyes, he should never find courage to begin.
"Persis, there's something I want to tell you. It ain't pleasant to
speak about it, but I think it's one of the things that ought to be
said before--I mean I'd be a good deal easier in my mind if you knew
all about it."
"I don't believe it's anything so very bad, Thomas," Persis said with
unaccustomed gentleness.
"Well, I don't know. She was so pretty and cute that it sort of went
to my head, but that's no excuse."
"Who was pretty?"
Persis let her work fall. Her eyes met her lover's with a challenge
that did not tend to lessen Thomas's confusion.
"Well, Persis, you've a right to know. Of course I wouldn't mention it
to anybody else. Not that she was a mite to blame," interpolated
Thomas with instinctive chivalry, "for it was all my fault from start
to finish. It--it was Stanley Sinclair's wife."
Absorbed as he was in relieving his conscience of its intolerable load,
it did not occur to Thomas to emphasize the fact that on the occasion
when he had played so culpable a part, Annabel still bore her maiden
name. It was a good two years before the dignified Stanley Sinclair
had recognized in the giddy, shallow, little beauty, the fitting mate
for his staid maturity. And that his failure to make this point clear
might lead to a serious misapprehension on Persis' part, failed to
present itself as a possibility to the honest blunderer.
"Well?" Persis' tone was crisply interrogative. "What happened?"
"Why, she looked so like a kitten, Persis, that you can't hardly help
petting, that I put my arm around her. And I--" He cleared his throat,
his eyes, fortunately for his resolution, fixed upon the floor. "Well,
I might as well make a clean breast of it. I did kiss her. Of course
I ought to be ashamed--"
"Yes." Persis agreed icily. "You ought."
She had listened with a sort of sickened revolt to Thomas' stammered
confession. Nothing that Annabel Sinclair could do would surprise her,
nor did she wonder when boys of Thad West's age yielded to her lure.
But that this man, this staid, stanch Thomas, on whom she had counted
more implicitly than she knew, should have proved so easy a victim
shook her native faith in humankind. "All men are alike," thought
Persis, in her haste betrayed into one of those sweepingly unjust
generalizations such as King David penitently acknowledged.
Thomas' eyes came up from the carpet at her tone. He looked at her
with a sort of terror. The fixed sternness of her face made her seem a
stranger. Little as he had relished the idea of acknowledging his
bygone weakness, he had not dreamed of a result like this.
For a moment he gazed at her with dumb appeal, then faltered: "I
was--was afraid you'd be disgusted with me, Persis."
"I am."
He swallowed hard as if her answer were a mouthful that resisted
mastication. For a little they sat silent. Persis picked up her work
and resumed her sewing with a brave show of indifference though the
seam ran into a blur before her eyes. And at last Thomas spoke.
"I'm sorry you take it this way, Persis, but it couldn't be helped. I
had to clear up things before--I didn't feel it would be fair to ask
you anything that would bind you till you knew the worst about me. And
now--"
There was another long silence. Then Thomas found himself upon his
feet, feeling for his hat, groping like a blind man.
"Good-by, Persis. I wish I'd been a better man. But the fact is I
ain't fit to tie your shoe-strings, and that ends it. Good-by."
He held out his hand, a formality unprecedented. She realized that he
meant it for good-by, not good night. Some perversity kept her eyes
upon her work, her hands occupied.
"Good-by, Thomas."
The door creaked ajar. There was a pause. It closed reluctantly. She
heard him stumble at the steps, go haltingly down the path. She
stabbed the fabric in her hand with her needle as if that minute tool
had been a weapon.
"Men are all alike," repeated Persis, the tears running down her
cheeks. "But there's a difference in women. And the Annabel Sinclair
kind, with brains enough to keep 'em from being downright bad and not
enough conscience to make 'em good, are the worst of the lot. If the
devil couldn't count on their help in laying traps for good men, he'd
be dreadful handicapped."
She swept the tears from her cheeks with a swift gesture, swallowed
those which had not yet fallen and fell to sewing frantically for there
were steps outside. But the late caller was not Justin Ware as for the
moment she had feared, but Mrs. West entering with the ponderous
dignity inseparable from two hundred pounds avoirdupois. Persis rose
hastily and pulled forward the big armchair, her action due to a
well-grounded fear for her furniture in addition to the impulse of her
native courtesy.
"Set down, Mis' West. You're looking first-rate."
"If I am it's more than I feel," the stout woman returned in a hollow
voice. "I'm so worried about Thad that I wonder there's anything left
of me."
Persis, politely forbearing to call attention to the fact that enough
of Mrs. West remained for all practical purposes, regarded her friend
with kindly concern. "My, is Annabel Sinclair pestering that boy yet?
I thought--"
"Persis, it's not Annabel now. It's the young one--Diantha."
"Oh!" Persis resumed her sewing, with heightened color.
"Yes. I used to think he was as crazy about that woman as anybody
could well be, but that wasn't to be named in the same day with the
state he's in now. He goes around as if he was in a sort of daze.
Sometimes I have to ask him three times over if he'll have another
helping of pie."
"Well, it may not be sensible, Mis' West, but it's nature. I guess
there's nothing to do except put up with it."
"But, Persis, she's so young."
"She's younger than her mother, that's sure. And that's in her favor."
"And she's Annabel Sinclair's daughter."
"Well, that's better'n if she was somebody's wife."
"It's easy for you to make light of it, Persis. But if he was your
boy--" Mrs. West produced a voluminous handkerchief from about her
person, hid her face in its folds and sobbed.
"If he was my boy, Mis' West, I guess I'd act as foolish as other
mothers. But seeing he ain't, I can look at the affair kind of
detached and sensible. I don't suppose you're especially set up over
the idea of Diantha Sinclair for a daughter-in-law, but if mothers
picked out wives for their sons, there'd be mighty few girls who'd pass
muster, and the balance would have to settle down to be old maids."
"It isn't that I don't think anybody's good enough for Thad," said Mrs.
West in hasty disclaimer. "I can see his faults fast enough."
"Yes, you can see his faults, and you can excuse 'em, too. That's what
being a mother means. And you can see Diantha's faults, and you can't
excuse 'em without a struggle. Yet she's as pretty as a pink, and a
sweet-dispositioned girl, too. She's a long ways yet from being a
woman, but as far as I can see, she's started in the right direction."
"I'd hate to think of my Thad leading the life Stanley Sinclair's had
to for the last fifteen years," said Mrs. West with feeling.
"Well the cases ain't the same. When youth mates with youth, there's
hopes of them learning their lessons together and not making such hard
work of it, either. But what can you expect when a man along in the
forties decides it's time for him to settle down, and ties himself up
to some giddy young thing, so brimful of life that it's all she can do
to keep her toes on the ground. It's like hitching up a colt with some
slow-going old plug from a livery stable. YOU drive 'em that way, and
either the colt's spirit is going to get broken, or else the plug will
travel at a good deal faster clip than he likes."
Mrs. West's attention had plainly wandered during Persis' homily.
"Beats all how that girl grew up all in a minute, so to speak," she
said irrelevantly.
Persis gave her entire attention to her work.
"It don't seem any time since I was here and she came in to ask about
some sewing of her mother's. Her dress was up to her knees, and her
hair hanging in curls. Except for being tall she looked about ten
years old. And the next thing anybody knows, she's a young lady with
all the airs and graces."
Persis preserved a guilty silence.
"I didn't know but you might have some idea," Mrs. West suggested
hopefully, "You know you agreed to see what you could do about Annabel,
and then Thad got tired of her all at once, so there wasn't any call
for you to interfere."
With a determined shake of her head, Persis declined the new commission.
"No, Mis' West. I'm not going to have a finger in this pie, and I
advise you to let the young folks alone. If you don't want him to
marry her, your one chance is to leave 'em be. And if they do make a
match of it, either one might have done worse."
While Persis gave no hint to her caller of her own complicity in the
situation Mrs. West deplored, at the bar of her own conscience she made
no effort to disclaim the responsibility. It helped to ease the hurt
due to the revelation of Thomas' weakness to busy her thoughts with
other people.
"If they do take each other it's got to be for better instead of worse.
I made that match without meaning to, but as long as I had a hand in
it, I'm going to see that both of 'em behave."