THE LOVER
Thomas Hardin, trudging through the dusk of the spring evening, his
shoulders stooping and his hands thrust deep into his pockets, wore an
expression better befitting an apprehensive criminal than an expectant
lover. As he approached the Dale cottage where the light of Persis'
lamp shone redly through the curtained window, his look of gloom
increased, and he gave vent to frequent and explosive sighs.
The sense of unworthiness likely to overwhelm the best of men who seek
the love of a good woman, was in Thomas' case complicated by a morbidly
sensitive conscience and ruthless honesty. To Thomas, Persis Dale
represented all that was loveliest in womankind, but he would have
resigned unhesitatingly all hope of winning her rather than have gained
her promise under false pretenses. "I can stand getting the mitten if
it comes to that," Thomas assured himself with a fearful sinking of the
heart, which belied the boast. "But I can't stand the idea of taking
her in." When she knew him at his undisguised worst, it would be time
enough to consider taking him for a possible better.
Unluckily for his peace of mind, confession was more intricate and
protracted than in his complacency he would have believed. It seemed
impossible to finish with it. Whenever he nerved himself to the point
of putting the question which had trembled on his lips for a dozen
years, dark episodes from his past flashed into his memory with the
disconcerting suddenness of a search-light, and further humiliating
disclosures were in order before he could direct his attention to the
business of love-making. Sometimes Thomas felt that his reputation for
uprightness was a proof of hypocrisy, and that his friends and
neighbors would shrink away aghast if they suspected a fraction of his
unsavory secrets.
Persis was alone when Thomas entered. Not till the last lingering
tinge of gold had deserted the west, would Joel venture to leave the
room barricaded against the hostile element. But at any moment now he
might think it safe to risk himself down-stairs, and knowing this,
Thomas resolved to waste no time in preliminaries.
"How's your sister and the children?" Persis asked, shaking hands and
returning to her sewing. She offered no excuse for continuing her
work, nor did Thomas wish it. There was a delicious suggestion of
domesticity in the sight of Persis sewing by the shaded lamp while he
sat near enough to have touched the busy fingers, had he but won the
right to such a privilege.
"Nellie's well. Little Tom's eyes have been troubling him since he had
the measles, but the doctor thinks it's nothing serious. Look here,
Persis, I was wondering as I came along if you knew that I _chewed_."
Persis' lids dropped just in time to hide a quizzical, humorous gleam
in her eyes. The rest of her face remained becomingly grave. "I may
have suspected it, Thomas."
"It's a filthy habit," he said, inordinately relieved by her astuteness
and yet with wonder.
She looked up from her work to explain. "It's this way, Thomas.
Sometimes when I go into the store I catch sight of you before you see
me, and maybe one of your cheeks will be all swollen up as if you had
the toothache. Then you slip into the back room, and come out in
quarter of a minute with both of 'em the same size. It's a woman's
way, Thomas, to put two and two together."
Thomas' face was radiant. That weight was off his conscience. He had
a right to proceed to more agreeable disclosures, undeterred by the
fear of practising deception on the noblest of God's creatures. It
contributed to his joy that Persis had known of his weakness, and yet
had not crushed him with her contempt. She had not even expressed
agreement when he had called chewing tobacco a filthy habit.
"Persis," he began in his deepest tones, "I was thinking as I came
along--"
The stairs creaked and Persis interrupted him. "There's Joel. It
makes it hard for him when the days are getting longer all the time.
He'll be glad when we have to light the lamps at five."
Thomas was in a mood to wish that the village of Clematis basked in the
rays of the midnight sun. He forced a smile to his reluctant lips as
Persis' brother entered and magnanimously put the question, "How do you
find yourself to-night, Joel?" though he knew only too well the
consequences to which this exposed him. There was no surer passport to
Joel's favor than to inquire about his health if one was also willing
to listen to his answer. The people who said, "How do you do?" and
immediately began to talk of something else were the objects of Joel's
detestation, while his grateful affection went out to the select few
willing to hear in detail his physical biography since their last
meeting. Joel experienced the same satisfaction in describing the
pains in his abdomen or an attack of palpitation that a bride feels in
exhibiting her trousseau.
"I've nothing to complain of, especially when you take into account
that I'd have been six feet under the sod by now, if I hadn't
discovered that sunshine was poison to my constitution. It sort of
draws all the vitality out of me, same as it draws the oil out of goose
feathers. I'd have improved a good ideal faster," Joel continued with
sudden irritation, "if it hadn't been for Persis' carelessness in
leaving the door open. You'd think that I had a good big life
insurance in her favor, the way she acts. As the Frenchman said,
'Defend me from my friends, I can defend myself--'"
"I've always understood that sunshine was about the healthiest of
anything," interrupted Thomas, reddening angrily at the criticism of
Persis. "And if you want my opinion, you look to me a good deal like a
plant that's sprouted in the cellar."
The last thing Joel wanted was another's opinion. He continued as
though Thomas had not spoken.
"And besides that, I've been eating too much meat. Science tells us
that the human body is pretty near all water. Don't that show that
most of the needs of the body can be supplied by drinking plenty of
water?"
Thomas shook his head. "I'd hate to try it. When I'm hungry, I
wouldn't swap a good piece of beef-steak for a hogshead of water."
"You eat too much meat." Joel, extending an almost transparent hand
toward his sister's caller, shook a bony forefinger in warning.
"You're undermining your constitution. You're shortening your days by
your inordinate use of animal food."
"Me! Why, bless you, Joel, I never was sick a day in my life."
"Well, that don't prove that you never will be, does it? And anybody
with half an eye can see that you're not in good shape. Flesh don't
show nothing. A man who weighs two hundred is the first to go under
when disease gets hold of him. Your color, as like as not, is due to
fever. How many times a day do you eat meat?"
"Well, always twice, and sometimes--"
Joel groaned. "Rank suicide! Suicide just as much as if you put a
revolver to your head. It sounds well to talk about prime cuts of beef
and all that, but when you come down to cold facts, what's meat? Dead
stuff, that's all. It ain't reasonable to talk of building up life out
of death."
Persis' quick ear had caught the sound of stealthy movements in the
adjoining room. She wove her needle into the seam, a practise so
habitual that probably she would have done the same if the lamp had
exploded unexpectedly, and crossing to the kitchen door, opened it
without warning. A small untidy woman, the shortcoming of her
appearance partly concealed by the old plaid shawl that enveloped her
person, dodged away from the key-hole with a celerity perhaps due to
practise.
"It just struck me that there was more voices than two," she explained
with self-accusing haste. "And I didn't want to intrude if you was
entertaining company. Sounded to me like Thomas Hardin's voice."
"Yes, it's Mr. Hardin. Will you come in, Mis' Trotter?" Persis'
invitation lacked its usual ring of cordiality.
"Oh, I wouldn't want to intrude. But I says to Bartholomew this very
day, 'I'm going to run over to Persis Dale's after supper,' says I, 'to
see if she can't let me have some pieces of white goods left over from
her dressmaking.' You're doing a good deal in white this time of the
year, as a rule," concluded Mrs. Trotter, a greedy look coming into her
eyes.
"Mis' Trotter, I always send back the pieces, even if they're no bigger
than a handkerchief. If anybody's going to make carpet rags out of the
scraps, I don't know why it shouldn't be the people who bought and paid
for the goods."
"And that's where you're right," Mrs. Trotter agreed, with the
adaptability that was one of her strong points. "There was Mattie
Kendall, now, who kept up her dressmaking after she married Henry
Beach. Well, she set out to dress her children on the left-overs, and
it went all right while they was little. But Mamie got grasping.
After her oldest girl was as long-legged as a colt, she'd send word to
her customers and say that they needed another yard and a half or two
yards to make their dresses in any kind of style. Of course it got out
in time, and everybody who wanted sewing done went to a woman in South
Rivers. I often say to Bartholomew that honesty's the best policy,
even where it looks the other way round."
During the progress of this moral tale, Persis' thoughts had been
self-accusing. She reflected that curiosity is not among the seven
deadly sins, and that if Mrs. Trotter found in listening at key-holes
any compensation for the undeniable hardships of her lot, only a harsh
nature would grudge her such solace. Moreover ingrained in Persis'
disposition, was the inability to hold a grudge against one who asked
her a favor.
"I don't know, Mis' Trotter, but maybe I've got some white pieces of my
own that aren't big enough for anything but baby clothes. I'll look
over my piece-bag to-morrow. If there's anything you can use, you'll
be welcome."
Mrs. Trotter expressed her appreciation, "With all the sewing I done
when Benny was expected, I did think I was pretty well fixed, come what
might. I didn't reckon on the twins, you see. And then when little
Tom died, they laid him out in the embroidered dress I'd counted on for
the christening of the lot. Not that I grudged it to him," added the
mother quickly, and sighed.
This had the effect of dissipating Persis' sense of annoyance. "I'm
pretty sure I can find you something, Mis' Trotter. And I'll speak to
one or two of my customers. Some of 'em may have things put away that
they're not likely to want again."
Mrs. Trotter received the offer with a dignity untainted by servile
gratitude.
"Me and Bartholomew feel that in raising up a family the size of ourn,
we're doing the community a service. So we ain't afraid to take a
little help when we happen to need it. And by the way, if you should
find some of the white pieces you was talking about, maybe you wouldn't
mind cutting out the little slips and just stitching 'em up on your
machine. The needle of mine's been broke this six months, and anyway,
something's the matter with the wheels. They won't hardly turn."
"Need oil, probably," commented Persis. She knew she was wasting her
breath in making the suggestion. The shiftlessness which left the
sewing-machine useless junk in a family of eight was a Trotter
characteristic. If Bartholomew could have appreciated the value of
machine oil, he would have been an entirely different man, and probably
able to support his family. In view of this, Persis felt that she
could do no less than add: "To be sure I'll stitch 'em up. 'Twon't
take much of any time."
"Now I'm not going to keep you a minute longer. I guess Thomas Hardin
don't come here to talk to your brother the whole evening." Mrs.
Trotter smiled pleasantly, but with a distinct tinge of patronage, the
inevitable superiority of the wedded wife to the woman who has carried
her maiden name well through the thirties. And indeed in Mrs.
Trotter's estimation, the hardships of her matrimonial experience were
trivial in comparison with the unspeakable calamity of being an old
maid.
After Joel was once fairly launched on the subject of hygiene, it was
difficult, as a rule, to introduce another topic of conversation under
an hour and a quarter. Persis was almost startled, on her return, to
find the two men discussing an alien theme. More surprising still,
instead of sulking over the curtailment of the dear privilege of
self-dissection, Joel was plainly interested.
"It's one of the games where you can't lose, if you take their word for
it," Thomas was explaining to his absorbed listener. "The company
begins to pay you int'rest on your investment just as soon as you hand
over the money, six per cent. every year up to the time the orchard
gets to bearing. Then it goes up little by little, and by the tenth
year they guarantee you twenty-five per cent. Even that doesn't cover
it. They say that orchard owners in the same locality are making as
much as a hundred per cent. most years. Anybody who could spare a few
thousand would be sure of a good income for the rest of his days."
"But there's the off years," objected Joel, a crackle of greed in his
high-pitched voice.
"There's not going to be any off years the way those fellows figure.
They say that by thinning out the apples when the yield is heavy, they
can be sure of a crop every season." Thomas' gaze wandered to Persis
who had resumed her seat and taken up her sewing. "We're talking of a
chance to put your money where it'll get more than savings bank
int'rest," he said, resolved that Joel should not monopolize every
topic of conversation. "The Apple of Eden Investment Company, they
call it."
"I heard you say something about twenty-five per cent," returned
Persis, sewing placidly. "'Most _too_ good to please me."
"Now if that ain't a woman all over," Joel interjected excitedly. "The
toe of a stocking is a good enough bank for any of 'em, and as for
using foresight and putting a little capital where it'll bring in an
income for your old age, you'd think to hear 'em talk, that such a
thing was never heard tell of. If I'd had the handling of the money
that's come into this house for the last twenty years, we'd have been
on Easy Street by now. But Persis has the kind of setness that doesn't
take no account of reason. And as the poet says:
"'He is a fool who thinks by force or skill
To turn the current of a woman's will.'"
Thomas, purpling with resentment, addressed his next remark to Persis.
"I don't s'pose our folks would take so much stock in all these fine
promises if there wasn't a Clematis boy secretary of the company. I
guess you remember him, Persis. Ware, his name was. Justin Ware."
"Yes, I remember him." An abrupt movement on Persis' part had
unthreaded her needle. She bent close to the lamp, vainly trying to
insert the unsteady end of the thread into the opening it had so lately
quitted.
"I've been telling you right along you needed glasses," triumphed Joel.
"And to keep on saying that you don't, ain't going to help the matter.
'When age, old age comes creeping on,' as the poet says--"
"I don't need glasses any more than you need a crutch." The denial
came out with a snap. Persis Dale, patient to the point of weakness,
enduring submissively for twenty years the thankless exactions of her
brother, proved herself wholesomely human by her prompt resentment.
"My eyes are as good as they ever were," she insisted, and closed the
discussion if she did not prove her point, by putting her work away.
Secretary of an investment company making such golden promises! That
looked as if at last fortune had smiled on Justin Ware.
The two men had the talk to themselves. Persis' absorption was
penetrated now and then by references to the miracles wrought by
scientific spraying and pruning, or the possibility of heating orchards
so that late frosts would no longer have terrors for the fruit grower,
sober facts which the literature of the Apple of Eden Investment
Company had enveloped in the rosy atmosphere of romance. Like many
people who have never made money by hard work, Joel believed profoundly
in making it by magic. His pallid face flushed feverishly, and his
eyes glittered as he discussed the possibility of making a thousand
dollars double itself in a year.
It was ten o'clock when Thomas again had the field to himself and in
Clematis only sentimental visits were prolonged beyond that hour.
Thomas' opportunity had arrived, but with it unluckily had come the
recollection of a misdeed for which he must receive absolution before
the flood-gates of his heart were opened.
"Persis, do you remember that old Baptist minister who lived opposite
the schoolhouse when we were kids? Elder Buck, everybody called him."
With an effort she set aside her own recollections in favor of his.
"Oh, yes, I remember. The one whose false teeth were always slipping
down."
"His picket fence was all torn to pieces one night. He had a way of
calling names in the pulpit, the elder had,--children of the devil and
that sort of thing--and it got some of the boys riled. And to pay him
back, they tore down his fence. Persis, I--I was one of those boys."
He looked at her appealingly and felt his heart sink. Persis' eyes
were lowered. Her face was grave and a little sad as befits one who
has been tendered irrefutable proof of a friend's unworthiness. Thomas
gulped. Well, it was only what he had expected all along. A woman
like Persis could not be asked to overlook everything.
"Good night, Persis," he said huskily, and he thought it more than his
deserts when she answered him with her usual kindness, "Good night,
Thomas."