From the Spanish of ANTONIO MARÉ.
It was a great city in the far North, a gloomy city with pointed
roofs that seemed to have been carved out of the fog. The birds that
hurried past it on their journey south said to themselves that it
looked like a forest of steeples. Under one of these pointed roofs
lived two young people whom the coldness of emigration had huddled
together in a closer intimacy. They were very unconscious of the
fog, and it never occurred to them that the city looked like a
forest of steeples; in fact, they never thought of the city at all,
and would scarcely have been surprised if they had heard it spoken
of as an orange grove,--for they were lovers. The little nest they
had built themselves under the pointed roof was bright with the
sunshine that came from them; and the few people who entered there
became intoxicated with a strange aroma of tenderness that surged to
their brains like the fumes of old wine, in sweet reminiscences or
disturbing suggestions.
It would not be perfectly correct to say that these young people
lived entirely alone; and had they not been so absorbed in each
other, living that life of double selfishness peculiar to lovers,
they could scarcely have helped feeling a soft blue gaze fixed upon
them, evening after evening, as they took their accustomed places
before the hearth.
On the mantel-piece which overhung the hearth was a small black
marble clock, a statuette of Psyche with butterfly wings made of
plaster, a little Italian shepherd of very primitively tinted clay,
and a bisque vase. Now, this vase was the gem of the drawing-room. On
its bosom was painted a running stream that broke into cataracts here
and there over glossy brown stones. Its pitch was amazingly abrupt.
It started at the brim of the vase and disappeared under it. On its
banks, far away in a misty perspective of pink and violet trees,
were a number of shadowy little shepherdesses, some carrying tender
lambs, others dancing the minuet, but all very blithe and merry. At
some distance from them, and at the very front, where the cataract
roared its loudest, stood a much larger shepherdess in clear relief,
thrusting herself boldly forward as though she meant to leap from
the parental vase, to which she was bound only by the tip of her
flowered skirt and the heel of her slippered foot. She held her crook
high in the air as if to balance herself in her flight. In her other
hand was a wreath of corn-flowers, with which she shaded a pair of
dreamy blue eyes that gazed in perpetual wonder at the world below.
Her sisters were simple little things, who were content to play with
a lambkin all day long in the sun, or dance the minuet under the
trees, but who had absolutely no ideas. Now, this particular little
shepherdess had not only ideas, she had thoughts, and what was more,
she was conscious of them. It was not to be wondered at that all
things fell in love with each other in this peculiar little room;
nor was it surprising that most things fell in love with the little
shepherdess. The wonder was that she, on the other hand, fell in
love with nothing. This superiority of thought was very isolating,
and her aloneness would have been unendurable but for the gratifying
nature of its cause. The clock was an unpleasant neighbor,--childless
and critical, which sometimes means the same thing. Its conversation
invariably took the form of a colloquy, stiff with rules, bristling
with maxims; besides, having gone through life measuring out time,
it had reached that stage of indiscriminate scepticism which is the
greatest possible damper on the open-mindedness of others.
There was the little clay shepherd, to be sure, who was very
well thought of by the community at large. The shepherdess liked
him,--certainly she liked him,--and she sometimes spoke her thoughts
to him, but she never could have loved him, had the drawing-room been
the Desert of Sahara and he its only other inhabitant. She was always
perfectly frank with him whenever he broached the subject.
"In the first place, I do not believe that you are really in love,"
she said to him kindly; "you only think you are, because everybody
else seems to be. Reflect a little, and I am sure you will agree with
me,--for my part, I have given it a great deal of serious thought.
The air seems full of thrills for all of you lately, but you should
be very careful; a thrill is a dangerous prism through which to look
at life." And to herself she said, "Poor little fellow! he thinks he
can build a bonfire out of two straws."
She could not associate love with his healthy plumpness. He was
even-tempered, and had an occasional idea, but no theories; he
wanted things without longing for them; his love was tender but not
invariably delicate. She felt the fault to be in his head rather than
in his heart; he always acquiesced, but seldom understood.
On the table in the centre of the room was a Chinese mandarin, who
was also in love with the little shepherdess, but she absolutely
abhorred him. To her mind he was coarse and repulsive, in spite of
his wealth. His jokes never amused her. Still he was a humorist,
and had a way of wobbling his head and poking out his tongue that
threw the whole drawing-room into convulsions of laughter. Poor
little shepherdess! Well, she did what we all do under similar
circumstances. She built herself a world of her own,--a little
intellectual laboratory into which she dragged bits of careful
observation to be submitted to the tests of her theories. So, poised
like a sparrow on a twig, she continued to peer over the edge of the
mantel-piece, where she saw quite enough to set her thinking.
Her master and mistress were a source of constant study to her. Late
in the evening, when he sat on a broad, low chair before the fire,
and she on the floor resting her head against his knees, the little
shepherdess's eyes fairly glowed with concentrated attention. "So
that must be love," she thought, as she made a note of something
indefinable that quivered on their lips, or trembled on their eyelids
and made them droop. "I wonder how they feel! I wish I knew!" She was
watching her mistress with peculiar interest one night, when she saw
her slip her hand into her husband's coat-pocket, and draw out an
envelope with no stamp upon it. This she held for a second or two,
undecided as to whether she would read its contents. She looked up
inquiringly at her husband, then with a quick movement thrust it back
unopened, and laughingly threw her arms about his neck to drive away
the unpleasant impression. "That is a grave mistake," thought the
little shepherdess. "Why should there be anything that he should not
want her to know? As a principle, it is wrong. It is because people
build their love on illusions that they fear revelations. Why are
they so cowardly? I do not believe the truth to be as black as it is
painted. We should love, knowing,--that is the way. There must be
such a thing. Oh, when I love--" and her eyes grew misty at the very
thought, and the lace on her little bodice rose and fell.
The days came and went, and found her growing ever more dainty, and
more thoughtful too. At last she opened her blue eyes, one Christmas
Eve, upon what struck her at first as something alarming. It was
midnight; and a stealthy sound of creaking boots awoke her from her
first sleep and in the very midst of a wonderful dream. Her little
heart was beating very fast. At first she thought it might be a
burglar who had heard of her cleverness and her philosophies, and
who had broken into the house to steal her away, but in a second a
match was struck and she understood her mistake. Her master stood
before her in the middle of the room. She saw him tiptoe to the
door, close it tightly, then stand listening for a moment before
lighting the gas. What could he be so mysterious about? She rubbed
her eyes and watched him attentively. She soon discovered that he
held a bundle under his arm, and she smiled to herself knowingly.
"A Christmas present," she said; and she leaned so far forward that
she almost tipped off the mantel-piece. Her master sat down, laid
the package on his lap, and cut the strings with his penknife;
then he removed the wrappings as noiselessly as possible. Though
the little shepherdess had entirely recovered from her alarm, she
began to experience a sensation entirely new to her. She felt as
though there were a tight band around her waist that kept her
from breathing freely. Her head grew hollow; and a sickened sense
of misery--physical and mental anguishes writhing and knotting
themselves in the pit of her stomach--made her feel strangely faint.
What could this mean? Was it a foreboding? When the last wrapping was
carefully laid aside, she opened her eyes with a great effort and
looked upon the most beautiful thing she had ever seen. On the little
table directly opposite her, stood a figure about eight inches
high,--exquisite, dazzling! "A prince!" she thought at first; for he
was richly dressed, had a noble air, and on his short dark curls he
wore a crown. But no; he was not a prince.
As she looked at him again she realized that his crown was made of
laurels; then she saw too that he held a violin in his hand. He was
something greater than a prince; he was an artist. The master stood
off and looked at him with beaming joy, and the little shepherdess
felt her admiration increase with corroboration. Then he drew from
his pocket a pink wax taper, which he fitted into the laurel crown.
When it was lighted it shed a soft radiance. "What a beautiful idea!"
thought the shepherdess; "that is the halo of art, glorifying,
transfiguring everything." The master then blew out the light, and
smiling complacently, reached up to the chandelier. Just as he was
about to turn out the gas, the little artist looked up and saw
the shepherdess,--one long look of surprise and eagerness; their
glances met, and in that look they understood each other. Through
the darkness of that whole night he played her beautiful strains
of dreamy music that opened to her visions of blue skies and balmy
orange groves; for he came from Italy, where the very air must be
heavy with poetry and love, she thought. He told her wonderful tales
with his violin. He alternately flooded her mind with moonlight and
fairies, or peopled her fancy with vague forms of sorrow that filled
her little breast with sobs. What a rapturous night that was! A
bewitched moonbeam that peered in through a broken slat in the blind
lay there entranced. In the pauses of the music the plaster wings of
the little Psyche quivered audibly. As for the shepherdess, something
had permeated her soul like a subtile essence, and opened one by one
great vistas of feeling of which she had never dreamed even in the
boldest flights of her imaginings. All her senses seemed suddenly to
have grown exquisitely acute. "What a bursting heart there must be
behind it all!" she thought. "What a fund of sentiment! What must
he feel who, with a stroke of his bow, can change the aspect of the
world! It is he! It is he at last!"
Christmas morning dawned upon the world. The first rays of light
that penetrated into the drawing-room brought with them the muffled
sound of carriages hurrying over the snow, and the occasional shout
of a belated reveller mingling with the faint murmur from groups of
early church-goers. But what was this to the little shepherdess? The
day that had dawned for her was more momentous than Christmas. She
was almost surprised to find that it was not a dream. No, there he
stood; and he smiled at her with the eager smile of those who meet
again after a separation.
"You look as though you were about to take flight, you beautiful,
blue-eyed thing. Fly down to me. I will catch you in my arms," he
said, at which the little shepherdess blushed crimson. "Perhaps you
do not love me now that you see me in the light of day."
She was just about to answer something very clever about not fearing
revelations because she had all her life scorned illusions, when the
door suddenly opened, and her master entered on tiptoe. He walked
over to the table, stood looking at his purchase with satisfaction
for a few seconds; then taking it up in his hand, he discovered
that the pink taper did not fit tightly enough into the little
laurel crown. In moving the figure, it was apt to topple first to
one side, then another. So he stood it down, and twisting the upper
part carefully, he screwed it off, crown and taper, from the pretty
head, and carried them both into the next room. During this incident
a thought flashed through the little shepherdess's mind, and like
a flash too she determined to execute it. She pulled her left foot
with a jerk, and gave a little tug at her gown, and there she stood
on the edge of the mantel-piece, free. She threw a hasty glance at
the little shepherd, who looked on with a parched throat; it is even
possible that she smiled a kindly smile upon the black clock. Then
she gathered her skirts with both hands and jumped down. It was a
supreme moment. The lovers stood looking into each other's eyes.
"My precious one," he said, "you are mine at last. I have waited for
you through the ages, and you have come!"
And the little shepherdess, stepping up on a book, held her wreath of
corn-flowers over his head.
"I have no laurels to bring you," she said, "but I will crown you
with my trusting love." And she rose on her tiptoes and leaned
forward to lay her corn-flowers on his brow. But what was it? Why did
she start, and then lean farther forward and look again? What could
she have seen to make her eyes grow suddenly dim,--those clear eyes
that meant to see everything?
The fact of it was that under the laurels it was all hollow, hollow
down to his belt. Where his heart should have been, she saw a little
dust that exhaled a musty odor, and the wings of several dead flies.
Her brain reeled. Was this all, then? And the music, where had
the wonderful music come from, or was the music all? This was the
shepherdess's last speculation. She felt the book sinking beneath
her little feet; she grasped her crook nervously; then there was a
blank in her thoughts; she tottered, and crash! she fell and broke
into a thousand pieces at the feet of her lover. At first he felt
that he would die too. Then he composed himself, and when he came
to understand how it had all happened, he shrugged his shoulders.
"Women are all alike," said he. "They fancy they are thinking when
they are only brooding. They want to be analytical, and they are only
cavilous." And he tuned his violin, while his eyes rested on the
little plaster Psyche.
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