CHAPTER V.

THE TWO MINISTERS.

'The creature's neither one nor t'other.

I caught the animal last night,

And viewed him o'er by candle-light;

I marked him well, 'twas black as jet.

You stare, but sirs, I've got him yet,

And can produce him.' 'Pray, sir, do;

I'll lay my life the thing is blue.'

'And I'll be sworn, that when you've seen

The reptile, you'll pronounce him green.'

'Well, then, at once to end the doubt,'

Replies the man, 'I'll turn him out;

And when before your eyes I've set him,

If you don't find him black, I'll eat him.'

He said--then, full before their sight

Produced the beast, and lo! 'twas white!

MERRICK.

Mrs. Ponsonby had seen in the tropics birds of brilliant hues, that

even, whilst the gazer pronounced them all one beaming tint of gorgeous

purple, would give one flutter, and in another light would flash with

golden green or fiery scarlet. No less startling and unexpected were

the aspects of Lord Fitzjocelyn, 'Every thing by starts, and nothing

long;' sometimes absorbed in study, sometimes equally ardent over a

childish game; wild about philanthropic plans, and apparently

forgetting them the instant a cold word had fallen on them; attempting

everything, finishing nothing; dipping into every kind of book, and

forsaking it after a cursory glance; ever busy, yet ever idle; full of

desultory knowledge, ranging through all kinds of reading and natural

history, and still more full of talk. This last was perhaps his most

decided gift. To any one, of whatever degree, he would talk, he could

hardly have been silent ten minutes with any human being, except

Frampton or his father, and whether deep reflections or arrant nonsense

came out of his mouth, seemed an even chance, though both alike were in

the same soft low voice, and with the same air of quaint pensive

simplicity. He was exceedingly provoking, and yet there was no being

provoked with him!

He was so sincere, affectionate, and obliging, that not to love him was

impossible, yet that love only made his faults more annoying, and Mrs.

Ponsonby could well understand his father's perpetual restless anxiety,

for his foibles were exactly of the sort most likely to tease such a

man as the Earl, and the most positively unsatisfactory part of his

character was the insouciance that he displayed when his trifling or

his wild projects had given umbrage. Yet, even here, she could not but

feel a hope, such as it was, that the carelessness might be the effect

of want of sympathy and visible affection from his father, whose very

anxiety made him the more unbending; and that, what a worse temper

might have resented, rendered a good one gaily reckless and unheeding.

She often wondered whether she should try to give a hint--but Lord

Ormersfield seemed to dread leading to the subject, although on all

else that interested him he came to her as in old times, and seemed

greatly refreshed and softened by her companionship.

An old friend and former fellow-minister had proposed spending a night

at Ormersfield. He was the person whom the Earl most highly esteemed,

and, in his own dignified way, he was solicitous that the household

should be in more than usually perfect order, holding a long conference

with the man of whom he was sure, Frampton. Would that he could have

been equally sure of his son! He looked at him almost wistfully

several times during breakfast, and at last, as they rose, gave an

exhortation 'that he would be punctual to dinner at half-past seven,

which would give him ample time, and he hoped he would be--' He paused

for a word, and his son supplied it. 'On my good behaviour, I

understand.' With that he walked off, leaving Lord Ormersfield telling

Mrs. Ponsonby that it was the first introduction, as he had 'for

various reasons' thought it undesirable to bring Fitzjocelyn early to

London, and betraying his own anxiety as to the impression he might

produce on Sir Miles Oakstead. His own perplexity and despondency

showed themselves in his desire to view his son with the eyes of

others, and he also thought the tenor of Fitzjocelyn's future life

might be coloured by his friend's opinion.

Evening brought the guest. Mrs. Ponsonby was not well enough to appear

at dinner, but Mary and Mrs. Frost, pleased to see an historical

character, were in the drawing-room, enjoying Sir Miles's agreeable

conversation, until they caught certain misgivings reflected in each

other's looks, as time wore on and nothing had been seen or heard of

Louis. The half-hour struck; the Earl waited five minutes, then rang

the bell. 'Is Lord Fitzjocelyn come in?'

'No, my Lord.'

'Bring in the dinner.'

Mary longed to fly in search of him, and spare further vexation. She

had assumed all an elder sister's feelings, and suffered for him as she

used to do, when he was in disgrace and would not heed it. She heard

no more of the conversation, and was insensible to the honour of going

in to dinner with the late Secretary of State, as she saw the empty

place at the table.

The soup was over, when she was aware of a step in the hall, and beside

her stood a grey figure, bespattered with mud, shading his eyes with

his hand, as if dazzled by the lights. 'I beg your pardon,' were the

words, 'but I was obliged to go to Northwold. I have shot a

rose-coloured pastor!'

'Shot him!' cried Mary. 'Was he much hurt?'

'Killed! I took him to Miss Faithfull, to be sketched before he is

stuffed--'

A clearer view of the company, a wave of the hand from the Earl, and

the young gentleman was gone. Next he opened the library door, saying,

'Here's my pretty behaviour!'

'Louis! what is the matter?' cried Mrs. Ponsonby.

'I entirely forgot the right honourable, and marched into the

dining-room to tell Aunt Catharine that I have killed a rose-coloured

pastor.'

'Killed what?'

'A bird, hardly ever seen in England. I spied him in the fir-wood,

went to Warren for a gun, brought him down, and walked on to the House

Beautiful, where Miss Faithfull was enchanted. She will copy him, and

send him to the bird-stuffer. I looked in to give directions, and old

Jenyns was amazed; he never knew one shot here before, so early in the

year too. He says we must send the account to the Ornithological--'

'Do you know how wet you are? exclaimed Mrs. Ponsonby, seeing rivulets

dropping from his coat.

'I see. It rained all the way home, and was so dark, I could not see

the footpath; and when I came in, my eyes were blinded by the light,

and my head so full of the pastor, that the other minister never

occurred to me, and remains under the impression that I have confessed

a sacrilegious murder.'

'You really are incorrigible!' cried Mrs. Ponsonby. 'Why are you not

dressing for dinner?'

'Because you are going to give me a cup of your tea.'

'Certainly not. I shall begin to think you purposely mortified your

father, when you know he wanted you to be reasonable.'

'The lower species never show off well to strangers,' said Fitzjocelyn,

coolly; but, as he lighted his candle, he added, with more candour, 'I

beg your pardon--indeed I did not do this on purpose, but don't say

anything about appearances--there's something in me that is sure to

revolt.'

So noiselessly that the moment was unknown, the vacant chair was filled

by a gentleman irreproachably attired, his face glowing with exercise,

or with what made him very debonnaire and really silent, dining rapidly

and unobtrusively, and never raising his eyes even to his aunt,

probably intending thus to remain all the evening; but presently Sir

Miles turned to him and said, 'Pray satisfy my curiosity. Who is the

rose-coloured pastor?'

Louis raised his eyes, and meeting a pleasing, sensible face, out

beamed his arch look of suppressed fun as he answered, 'He is not at

all clerical. He is otherwise called the rose-coloured ouzel or

starling.'

'Whence is that other startling name?'

'From his attending flocks of sheep, on the same mission as jackdaws

fulfil here--which likewise have an ecclesiastical reputation--

'A great frequenter of the church.''

Fearing alike nonsense and ornithology, Lord Ormersfield changed the

subject, and Louis subsided, but when the gentlemen came into the

drawing-room, Mrs. Ponsonby was surprised to see him taking a fair

share, and no more, of the conversation. Some information had been

wanted about the terms of labour in the mining districts, and Louis's

visit to Illershall enabled him to throw light on the subject, with

much clearness and accuracy. Sir Miles had more literature than Lord

Ormersfield, and was more used to young men; and he began to draw

Fitzjocelyn out, with complete success. Louis fully responded to the

touch, and without a notion that he was showing himself to the best

advantage, he yielded to the pleasure, and for once proved of what he

was capable--revealing unawares an unusual amount of intelligence and

observation, and great power of expression. Not even his aunt had ever

seen him appear so much like a superior man, and the only alloy was his

father's, ill-repressed dread lest he should fall on dangerous ground,

and commit himself either to his wildly philanthropical or

extravagantly monarchical views, whichever might happen to be in the

ascendant. However, such shoals were not approached, nor did Louis

ever plunge out of his depth. The whole of his manner and demeanour

were proofs that, in his case, much talk sprang from exuberance of

ideas, not from self-conceit.

He was equally good in the morning: he had risen early to hunt up some

information which Sir Miles wanted, and the clearness and readiness

with which he had found it were wonderful. The guest was delighted

with him; gave him a warm invitation to Oakstead, and on being left

alone with Mrs. Ponsonby, whom he had formerly known, expressed his

admiration of his friend's son--as a fine, promising young man, of

great ability and originality, and, what was still more remarkable, of

most simple, natural manners, perfectly free from conceit. He seemed

the more amazed, when he found, what he would hardly believe, that

Fitzjocelyn was twenty-one, and had nearly finished his university

education.

The liking was mutual. No sooner had Sir Miles departed, than Louis

came to the library in a rapture, declaring that here was the

refreshing sight of a man unspoilt by political life, which usually ate

out the hearts of people.

Mary smiled at this, and told him that he was talking 'like an old

statesman weary of the world.'

'One may be weary of the world beforehand as well as after,' said he.

'That does not seem worth while,' said Mary.

'No,' he said, 'but one's own immediate look-out may not be flattering,

whatever the next turn may bring;' and he took up the newspaper, and

began to turn it over. ''As butler--as single-handed man--as clerk and

accountant.' There, those are the lucky men, with downright work, and

some one to work for. Or, just listen to this!' and he plunged into a

story of some heroic conduct during a shipwreck. While he was reading

it aloud, with kindling eyes and enthusiastic interest, his father

opened the door. 'Louis,' he said, 'if you are doing nothing, I should

be obliged if you would make two copies of this letter.'

Louis glanced at the end of what he was reading, laid the paper down,

and opened a blotting-book.

'You had better come into the study, or you will not write correctly.'

'I can write, whatever goes on.'

'I particularly wish this to be legible and accurate. You have begun

too low down.'

Louis took another sheet.

'That pen is not fit to write with.'

'The pens are delusions,' said Louis, trying them round, in an easy,

idle way: 'I never could mend a quill! How is this steel one? Refuses

to recognise the purpose of his existence. Aunt Catherine, do you

still forbid steel pens in your school? If so, it must be the solitary

instance. How geese must cackle blessings on the inventor! He should

have a testimonial--a silver inkstand representing the goose that laid

the golden eggs,--and all writing-masters should subscribe. Ha! where

did this pen come from? Mary, were you the bounteous mender! A

thousand thanks.'

If Louis fretted his father by loitering and nonsense, his father was

no less trying by standing over him with advice and criticisms which

would have driven most youths beyond patience, but which he bore with

constant good-humour, till his father returned to the study, when he

exclaimed, 'Now, Mary, if you like to finish the wreck, it will not

interrupt me. This is mere machine-work.'

'Thank you,' said Mary; 'I should like it better afterwards. Do you

think I might do one copy for you? Or would it not suit Lord

Ormersfield?'

Louis made polite demurs, but she overruled them and began.

He stretched himself, took up his Times, and skimmed the remaining

incidents of the shipwreck, till he was shamed by seeing Mary half-way

down the first page, when he resumed his pen, overtook her, and then

relapsed into talk, till Mrs. Frost fairly left the room, to silence

him.

As the two copies were completed, Lord Ormersfield returned; and Mary,

with many apologies, presented her copy, and received most gracious

thanks and compliments on her firm, clear writing, a vexation to her

rather than otherwise, since 'Fitzjocelyn' was called to account for

dubious scrawls, errors, and erasures.

He meekly took another sheet, consoling himself, however, by saying, 'I

warn you that pains will only make it Miss Fanny.'

'What do you mean?'

As if glad to be instigated, he replied, 'Did you never hear of my

signature being mistaken by an ingenious person, who addressed his

answer to 'Miss Fanny Jocelyn? Why, Fanny has been one of Jem's

regular names for me ever since! I have the envelope somewhere as a

curiosity. I'll show it to you, Mary.'

'You seem to be proud of it!' exclaimed his father, nearly out of

patience. 'Pray tell me whether you intend to copy this creditably or

not.'

'I will endeavour, but the Fates must decide. I can scrawl, or, with

pains, I can imitate Miss Fanny; but the other alternative only comes

in happy moments.'

'Do you mean that you cannot write well if you choose?'

'It is like other arts--an inspiration. Dogberry was deep when he said

it came by nature.'

'Then make no more attempts. No. That schoolgirl's niggle is worse

than the first.'

'Fanny, as I told you,' said Louis, looking vacantly up in resigned

despair, yet not without the lurking expression of amusement, 'I will

try again.'

'No, I thank you. I will have no more time wasted.'

Louis passively moved to the window, where he exclaimed that he saw

Aunt Catharine sunning herself in the garden, and must go and help her.

'Did you ever see anything like that?' cried Lord Ormersfield,

thoroughly moved to displeasure.

'There was at least good-humour,' said Mrs. Ponsonby. 'Pardon me,

there was almost as much to try his temper as yours.'

'He is insensible!'

'I think not. A word from Aunt Catharine rules him.'

'Though you counselled it, Mary, I doubt whether her training has

answered. Henry Frost should have been a warning.'

Mary found herself blundering in her new copy, and retreated with it to

the study, while her mother made answer: 'I do not repent of my advice.

The affection between him and Aunt Catherine is the greatest blessing

to him.'

'Poor boy!' said his father, forgetting his letters as he stood

pondering. Mrs. Ponsonby seized the moment for reporting Sir Miles's

opinion, but the Earl did not betray his gratification. 'First sight!'

he said. 'Last night and this afternoon he is as unlike as these are,'

and he placed before her Louis's unlucky copies, together with a letter

written in a bold, manly hand. 'Three different men might have written

these! And he pretends he cannot write like this, if he please!'

'I have no doubt it is to a certain extent true. Yes, absolutely true.

You do not conceive the influence that mood has on some characters

before they have learnt to master themselves. I do not mean temper,

but the mere frame of spirits. Even sense of restraint will often take

away the actual power from a child, or where there is not a strong

will.'

'You are right!' said he, becoming rigid as if with pain. 'He is a

child! You have not yet told me what you think of him. You need not

hesitate. No one sees the likeness more plainly than I do.'

'It is strong externally,' she said; 'but I think it is more external

than real, more temperament than character.'

'You are too metaphysical for me, Mary;' and he would fain have smiled.

'I want you to be hopeful. Half the object would be attained if you

were, and he really deserves that you should.'

'He will not let me. If I hope at one moment, I am disappointed the

next.'

'And how? By nothing worse than boyishness. You confirm what my aunt

tells me, that there has never been a serious complaint of him.'

'Never. His conduct has always been blameless; but every tutor has

said the same--that he has no application, and allows himself to be

surpassed by any one of moderate energy!'

'Blameless conduct! How many fathers would give worlds to be able to

give such a character of a son!'

'There are faults that are the very indications of a manly spirit,'

began the Earl, impatiently. 'Not that I mean that I wish--he has

never given me any trouble--but just look at James Frost, and you would

see what I mean! There's energy in him--fire--independence; you feel

there is substance in him, and like him the better for having a will

and way of his own.'

'So, I think, has Louis; but it is so often thwarted, that it sinks

away under the sense of duty and submission.'

'If there were any consistency or reason in his fancies, they would not

give way so easily; but it is all talk, all extravagant notions--here

one day, gone the next. Not a spark of ambition!'

'Ambition is not so safe a spark that we should wish to see it lighted.'

'A man must wish to see his son hold his proper station, and aim high!

No one can be satisfied to see him a trifler.'

'I have been trying to find out why he trifles. As far as I can see,

he has no ambition, and I do not think his turn will be for a life like

yours. His bent is towards what is to do good to others. He would

make an admirable country gentleman.'

'A mere farmer, idling away his time in his fields.'

'No; doing infinite good by example and influence, and coming forward

whenever duty required it. Depend upon it, the benefit to others is

the impulse which can work on Louis, not personal ambition. Birth has

already given him more than he values.'

'You may be right,' said Lord Ormersfield, 'but it is hard to see so

many advantages thrown away, and what sometimes seems like so much

ability wasted. But who can tell? he is never the same for an hour

together.'

'May it not be for want of a sphere of wholesome action?'

'He is not fit for it, Mary. You know I resolved that the whole

burthen of our losses should fall on me; I made it my object that he

should not suffer, and should freely have whatever I had at the same

age. Everything is cleared at last. I could give him the same income

as I started in life with; but he is so reckless of money, that I

cannot feel justified in putting it into his hands. Say what I will,

not a vacation occurs but he comes to tell me of some paltry debt of

ten or fifteen pounds.'

'He comes to tell you! Nay, never say he has no resolution! Such

debts as those, what are they compared with other young men's, of which

they do not tell their fathers?'

'If he were like other youths, I should know how to deal with him. But

you agree with me, he is not fit to have a larger sum in his hands.'

'Perhaps not; he is too impulsive and inexperienced. If you were to

ask me how to make it conduce to his happiness, I should say, lay out

more on the estate, so as to employ more men, and make improvements in

which he would take interest.'

'I cannot make him care for the estate. Last winter, when he came of

age, I tried to explain the state of affairs; but he was utterly

indifferent--would not trouble himself to understand the papers he was

to sign, and made me quite ashamed of such an exhibition before

Richardson.'

'I wish I could defend him! And yet--you will think me unreasonable,

but I do believe that if he had thought the welfare of others was

concerned, he would have attended more.'

'Umph!'

'I am not sure that it is not his good qualities that make him so hard

to deal with. The want of selfishness and vanity seem to take away two

common springs of action, but I do believe that patience will bring out

something much higher when you have found the way to reach it.'

'That I certainly have not, if it be there!'

'To cultivate his sympathies with you,' said Mrs. Ponsonby, hesitating,

and not venturing to look into his face.

'Enough, Mary,' he said, hastily. You said the like to me once before.'

'But,' said Mrs. Ponsonby, firmly, '_here_ there is a foundation to

work on. There are affections that only need to be drawn out to make

you happy, and him--not, perhaps, what you now wish, but better than

you wish.'

His face had become hard as he answered, 'Thank you, Mary; you have

always meant the best. You have always been kind to me, and to all

belonging to me.'

Her heart ached for the father and son, understanding each other so

little, and paining each other so much, and she feared that the Earl's

mind had been too much cramped, and his feelings too much chilled, for

such softening on his part as could alone, as it seemed, prevent Louis

from being estranged, and left to his naturally fickle and indolent

disposition.

Mary had in the mean time completed her copies, and left them on the

Earl's table; and wishing neither to be thanked nor contrasted with

Louis, she put on her bonnet, to go in search of Aunt Catharine. Not

finding her in the garden, she decided on visiting old Gervas and his

wife, who had gladly caught at her offer of reading to them. The visit

over, she returned by the favourite path above Ferny dell, gathering

primroses, and meditating how to stir up Louis to finish off his rocky

steps, and make one piece of work complete. She paused at the summit

of them, and was much inclined to descend and examine what was wanting,

when she started at hearing a rustling beneath, then a low moan and an

attempt at a call. The bushes and a projecting rock cut off her view;

but, in some trepidation, she called out, 'Is any one there?' Little

did she expect the answer--

'It is I--Fitzjocelyn. Come!--I have had a fall.'

'I'm coming--are you hurt?' she cried, as with shaking limbs she

prepared to begin the descent.

'Not that way,' he called; 'it gave way--go to the left.'

She was almost disobeying; but, recalling herself to thought, she

hurried along the top till the bank became practicable, and tore her

way through brake and brier, till she could return along the side of

the stream.

Horror-struck, she perceived that a heavy stone had given way and

rolled down, bearing Louis with it, to the bottom, where he lay,

ghastly and helpless. She called to him; and he tried to raise

himself, but sank back. 'Mary! is it you? I thought I should have

died here,' he said; as she knelt by him, exclaiming, 'Oh, Louis!

Louis! what a dreadful fall!'

'It is my fault,' he eagerly interrupted. 'I am glad it has happened

to no one else.'

'And you are terribly hurt! I must go for help! but what can I do for

you? Would you like some water?

'Water! Oh! I have heard it all this time gurgling there!'

She filled his cap, and bathed his face, apparently to his great

relief, and she ventured to ask if he had been long there.

'Very long!' he said. 'I must have fainted after I got the stone off

my foot, so I missed Gervas going by. I thought no one else would come

near. Thank God!'

Mary almost grew sick as she saw how dreadfully his left ankle had been

crushed by a heavy stone; and her very turning towards it made him

shudder, and say, 'Don't touch me! I am shattered all over.'

'I am afraid I should only hurt you,' she said, with difficulty

controlling herself. 'I had better fetch some one.'

He did not know how to be left again; but the damp chilliness of his

hands made her the more anxious to procure assistance, and, after

spreading her shawl over him, she made the utmost speed out of the

thicket. As she emerged, she saw Lord Ormersfield riding with his

groom, and her scream and sign arrested him; but, by the time they met,

she could utter nothing but 'Louis!'

'Another accident!' was the almost impatient answer.

'He is dreadfully hurt!' she said, sobbing and breathless. 'His foot

is crushed! He has been there this hour!'

The alarm was indeed given. The Earl seemed about to rush away without

knowing whither; and she had absolutely to withhold him, while,

summoning her faculties, she gave directions to Poynings. Then she let

him draw her on, too fast for speaking, until they reached the spot

where Louis lay, so spent with pain and cold, that he barely opened his

eyes at their voices, made no distinct answers as to his hurts, and

shrank and moaned when his father would have raised him.

Mary contrived to place his head on her lap, bathed his forehead and

chafed his hands, while Lord Ormersfield stood watching him with looks

of misery, or paced about, anxiously looking for the servants.

They came at last, all too soon for poor Louis, who suffered terribly

in the transport, and gave few tokens of consciousness, except a cry

now and then extorted by a rougher movement.

None of the household, scarcely even Mrs. Frost, seemed at first to be

able to believe that Lord Fitzjocelyn could really have hurt himself

seriously. 'Again!' was the first word of every one, for his many

slight accidents were treated like crying 'Wolf;' but Frampton himself

looked perfectly pale and shocked when he perceived how the matter

really stood; and neither he nor Lord Ormersfield was half so helpful

as Mrs. Frost. The shock only called out her energy in behalf of her

darling, and, tender as her nature was, she shrank from nothing that

could soothe and alleviate his suffering; and it did infinitely comfort

him, as he held her hand and looked with affection into her face, even

in the extremity of pain.

Fain would others have been the same support; but his father, though

not leaving him, was completely unnerved, and unable to do anything;

and Mrs. Ponsonby was suffering under one of the attacks that were

brought on by any sudden agitation. Mary, though giddy and throbbing

in every pulse, was forced to put a resolute check on herself--brace

her limbs, steady her voice, and keep her face composed, while every

faculty was absorbed in listening for sounds from her cousin's room,

and her heart was quivering with an anguish of prayer and suspense.

Could she but hide her burning cheeks for one moment, let out one of

the sobs that seemed to be rending her breast, throw herself on her

knees and burst into tears, what an infinite relief it would be! But

Mary had learnt to spend her life in having no self.