Loved by a Dog

Anthony Dexter sat on the porch in front of his house, alone. Ralph

had been out since early morning, attending to his calls. It was the

last of April and the trees were brave in their panoply of new leaves.

Birds were singing and the very air was eloquent with new life.

Between Anthony Dexter and the lilac bush at the gate, there moved

perpetually the black, veiled figure of Evelina Grey. He knew she was

not there and he was fully certain of the fact that it was an

hallucination, but his assurance had not done away with the phantom.

How mercilessly she followed him! Since the night he had flung himself

out of her house, tortured in every nerve, she had not for a moment

left him. When he walked through the house, she followed him, her

stealthy footfall sounding just the merest fraction of a second after

his. He avoided the bare polished floors and walked on the rugs

whenever possible, that he might not hear that soft, slow step so

plainly. Ralph had laughed at him, once, for taking a long, awkward

jump from rug to rug.

Within the line of his vision she moved horizontally, but never back

and forth. Sometimes her veiled face was averted, and sometimes,

through the eternal barrier of chiffon, he could feel her burning eyes

fixed pitilessly upon his.

He never slept, now, without drugs. Gradually he had increased the

dose, but to no purpose. Evelina haunted his sleep endlessly and he

had no respite. Through the dull stupor of the night, she was never

for a moment absent, and in every horrible dream, she stood in the

foreground, mute, solitary, accusing.

He was fully aware of the fact that he was in the clutches of a drug

addiction, but that was nothing to be feared in comparison with his

veiled phantom. He had exhausted the harmless soporifics long ago, and

turned, perforce, to the swift and deadly ministers of forgetfulness.

The veiled figure moved slowly back and forth across the yard, lifting

its skirts daintily to avoid a tiny pool of water where a thirsty robin

was drinking. The robin, evidently, did not fear Evelina. He could

hear the soft, slow footfalls on the turf, and the echo of three or

four steps upon the brick walk, when she crossed. She kept carefully

within the line of his vision; he did not have to turn his head to see

her. When he did turn his head, she moved with equal swiftness. Not

for a single pitying instant was she out of his sight.

Farther on, doubtless, as he thought, she would come closer. She might

throw back her veil as she had done on that terrible night, or lay her

cold hand on his--she might even speak to him. What hideous

conversations they might have--he and the woman he had once loved and

to whom he was still bound! Anthony Dexter knew now that even his

marriage had not released him and that Evelina had held him, through

all the five-and-twenty years.

Such happiness as he had known had been purely negative. The thrill of

joyous life had died, for him, the day he took Evelina into the

laboratory. He was no longer capable of caring for any one except

Ralph. The remnant of his cowardly heart was passionately and wholly

given to his son.

He meditated laying his case before Ralph. as one physician to

another, then the inmost soul of him shuddered at the very thought.

Rather than have Ralph know, he would die a thousand deaths. He would

face the uttermost depths of hell, rather than see those clear, honest

eyes fixed upon him in judgment.

He might go to the city to see a specialist--it would be an easy matter

to accomplish, and Ralph would gladly attend to his work. Yes, he

might go--he and Evelina. He could go to a brother physician and say:

"This woman haunts me. She saved my life and continually follows me.

I want her kept away. What, do you not see her, too?"

Anthony Dexter laughed harshly, and fancied that the veiled figure

paused slightly at the sound. "No," he said, aloud, "you need not

prepare for travel, Evelina. We shall not go to the city--you and I."

That was his mate, walking in his garden before him, veiled. She was

his and he was hers. They were mated as two atoms of hydrogen and one

of oxygen, forming a molecule of water. All these years, her suffering

had reacted upon him, kept him from being happy, and made him fight

continually to keep her out of his remembrance. For having kept her

out, he was paying, now, with compound interest.

Upon a lofty spire of granite stands a wireless telegraph instrument.

Fogs are thick about it, wild surges crash in the unfathomable depths

below; the silence is that of chaos, before the first day of creation.

Out of the emptiness, a world away, comes a message. At the first

syllable, the wireless instrument leaps to answer its mate. With the

universe between them, those two are bound together, inextricably,

eternally bound. One may fancy that a disorder in one might cause

vague unrest in the other. In like manner, Evelina's obsession had

preyed upon Anthony Dexter for twenty-five years. Now, the line was at

work again and there was an unceasing flow of communication.

Perhaps, if he had the strength, he might learn to ignore the phantom

as he had ignored memory. Eventually, he might be able to put aside

the eternal presence as he had put aside his own cowardice. There was

indefinite comfort in the thought.

Having preached the gospel of work for so long, he began to apply it to

himself. Work was undoubtedly what he needed--the one thing which

could set him right again. After a little, he could make the rounds

with Ralph, and dwell constantly in the boy's sunny presence. In the

meantime, there was his paper, for the completion of which one more

experiment was absolutely essential.

He stirred uneasily in his chair. He wished that Ralph had not been so

womanish, or else that he had more diplomatically concealed his own

opinions, to which, indeed, Ralph had admitted his right. Condemnation

from Ralph was the one thing he could not bear, but, after all, was it

needful that Ralph should know?

The experiment would not take long, as he wished to satisfy himself on

but one minor point. It could be done, easily, while Ralph was out

upon his daily round. Behind the lilac bushes there was yet room for

one more tiny grave.

One more experiment, and then, in deference to Ralph's foolish,

effeminate sentiments, he would give it up. One more heart in action,

the conclusion of his brilliant paper, and then--why, he would be

willing to devote the rest of his life, in company with Ralph, to

curing whooping-cough, measles, and mumps.

The veiled figure still paced restlessly back and forth, now on the

turf and now on the brick walk. He closed his eyes, but he still saw

Evelina and noted the slight difference of sound in her footfalls as

she crossed the walk. He heard the swish of her skirts as she lifted

them when she passed the pool of water--was it possible that his

hearing was becoming more keen? He was sure that he had not heard it

from that distance before.

It was certainly an inviting yard and the gate stood temptingly ajar.

The gravelled highway was rough for a little dog's feet, and Laddie and

the Piper had travelled far. For many a mile, there had been no water,

and in this cool, green yard, there was a small pool. Laddie whined

softly and nosed the gate farther open.

A man sat on the porch, but he was asleep--anyhow, his eyes were

closed. Perhaps he had a dog of his own. At any rate, he could not

object to a tired yellow mongrel quenching his thirst at his pool. The

Piper had gone on without observing that his wayworn companion had

stopped.

Except for a mob of boys who had thrown stones at him and broken his

leg, humans had been kind to Laddie. It had been a human, Piper Tom,

in fact, who had rescued him from the boys and made his leg good again.

Laddie cherished no resentment against the mob, for he had that eternal

forgiveness of blows and neglect which lives in the heart of the

commonest cur.

Opening his eyes, Anthony Dexter noted that a small, rough-coated

yellow dog was drinking eagerly at the pool of water past which Evelina

continually moved. She went by twice while the dog was drinking, but

he took no notice of her. Neither robins nor dogs seemed to fear

Evelina--it was only men, or, to be exact, one man, who had hitherto

feared nothing save self-analysis.

The turf was cool and soft to a little dog's tired feet. Laddie walked

leisurely toward the shrubbery, where there was deep and quiet shade.

Under the lilac bush, he lay down to rest, but was presently on his

feet again, curiously exploring the place.

He sniffed carefully at the ground behind the lilac bushes, and the

wiry hair on his back bristled. There was something uncanny about it,

and a guarding instinct warned him away. But what was this that lay on

the ground, so soaked with rains that, in the shade, it had not yet

dried? Laddie dragged it out into the sunlight to see.

It was small and square and soft on the outside, yet hard within.

Except for the soft, damp outer covering, it might have been the block

of pine with which Piper Tom and he would play by the hour. The Piper

would throw the block of wood far from him, sometimes even into the

water, and Laddie would race after it, barking gaily. When he brought

it back, he was rewarded with a pat on the head, or, sometimes, a bone.

Always, there would be friendly talk. Perhaps the man on the porch had

thrown this, and was waiting for him to bring it back.

Laddie took the mysterious thing carefully in his strong jaws, and

trotted exultantly up to the porch, wagging his stub of a tail.

Strangely enough, just at the steps, the thing opened, and something

small and cold and snake-like slipped out. The man could scarcely have

seen the necklace of discoloured pearls before, with an oath, he rose

to his feet, and, firmly holding Laddie under his arm, strode into the

house, entering at the side door.

The Piper had reached home before he missed his dog. He waited a

little, then called, but there was no answer. It was not like Laddie

to stray, for he was usually close at his master's heels.

"Poor little man," said the Piper to himself, "I'm thinking we went too

far."

He retraced his steps over the dusty road, searching the ground. He

discovered that Laddie's tracks ended in the road near Doctor Dexter's

house, and turned toward the gate. Tales of mysterious horrors,

vaguely hinted at, came back to him now with ominous force. He

searched the yard carefully, looking in every nook and corner, then a

cry of anguish reached his ears.

Great beads of sweat stood out upon Piper Tom's forehead, as he burst

in at the laboratory door. On a narrow table, tightly strapped down,

lay Laddie, fully conscious, his faithful heart laid bare. The odour

of anesthetics was so faint as to be scarcely noticeable. At the dog's

side stood Doctor Dexter, in a blood-stained linen coat, with a pad of

paper and a short pencil in his white, firm hands. He was taking notes.

With infinite appeal in his agonised eyes, Laddie recognised his

master, who at last had come too late. Piper Tom seized the knife from

the table, and, with a quick, clean stroke, ended the torture. Doctor

Dexter looked up, his mask-like face wearing an expression of insolent

inquiry.

"Man," cried the Piper, his voice shaking, "have you never been loved

by a dog?"

The silence was tense, but Doctor Dexter had taken out his watch, and

was timing the spasmodic pulsations of the heart he had been so

carefully studying.

"Aye," said the Piper, passionately, "watch it till the last--you

cannot hurt him now. 'T is the truest heart in all the world save a

woman's, and you do well to study it, having no heart of your own. A

poor beast you are, if a dog has never loved you. Take your pencil and

write down on the bit of paper you have there that you've seen the

heart of a dog. Write down that you've seen the heart of one who left

his own kind to be with you, to fight for you, even against them.

Write down that 't is a good honest heart with red blood in it, that

never once failed and never could fail.

"When a man's mother casts him off, when his wife forsakes him, when

his love betrays him, his dog stays true. When he's poor and his

friends pass him by on the other side of the street, looking the other

way, his dog fares with him, ready to starve with him for very love of

him. 'T is a man and his dog, I'm thinking, against the whole world.

"This little lad here was only a yellow mongrel, there was no fine

blood in him; he couldn't bring in the birds nor swim after the ducks

men kill to amuse themselves. He was worth no high price to

anybody--nobody wanted him but me. When I took him away from the boys

who were hurting him, and set his poor broken leg as best I could, he

knew me for his master and claimed me then.

"He's walked with me through four States and never whined. He's gone

without food for days at a time, and never complained. He's been cold

and hungry, and we've slept together, more than once, on the ground in

the snow, with only one blanket between us. He's kept me from freezing

to death with his warm body, he's suffered from thirst the same as I,

and never so much as whimpered. We've been comrades and we've fared

together, as only man and dog may fare.

"When every man's face was set against you, did you never have a dog to

trust you? When there was never a man nor a woman you could call your

friend, did a dog never come to you and lick your hand? When you've

been bent with grief you couldn't stand up under, did a dog never come

to you and put his cold nose on your face? Did a dog never reach out a

friendly paw to tell you that you were not alone--that it was you two

together?

"When you've come home alone late at night, tired to death with the

world and its ways, was there never a dog to greet you with his bark of

welcome? Did a dog never sit where you told him to sit, and guard your

property till you came back, though it might be hours? When you could

trust no man to guard your treasures, could you never trust a dog?

Man, man, the world has fair been cruel if you've never known the love

of a dog!

"I've heard these things of you, but I thought folks were prattling, as

folks will, but dogs never do. I thought they were lying about

you--that such things couldn't be true. They said you were cutting up

dogs to learn more of people, and I'm thinking, if we're so much alike

as that, 't is murder to kill a dog."

"You killed him," said Anthony Dexter, speaking for the first time. "I

didn't."

"Yes," answered the Piper, "I killed him, but 't was to keep him from

being hurt. I'd do the same for a man or a woman, if there was need.

If 't was a child you had tied down here with your blood-stained

straps, cut open to see an innocent heart, your own being black past

all pardon, I'd do the same for the child and all the more quickly if

it was my own. I never had a child--I've never had a woman to love me,

but I've been loved by a dog. I've thought that even yet I might know

the love of a woman, for a man who deserves the love of a dog is worthy

of a woman, and a man who will torture a dog will torture a woman, too.

"Laddie," said the Piper, laying his hand upon the blood-stained body,

"no man ever had a truer comrade, and I'll not insult your kind by

calling this brute a cur. Laddie, it was you and I, and now it's I

alone. Laddie--" here the Piper's voice broke, and, taking up the

knife again, he cut the straps. With the tears raining down his face,

he stumbled out of the laboratory, the mutilated body of his pet in his

arms.

Anthony Dexter looked after him curiously. The mask-like expression of

his face was slightly changed. In a corner of the laboratory, seeming

to shrink from him, stood the phantom black figure, closely veiled.

Out of the echoing stillness came the passionate accusation: "A man who

will torture a dog will torture a woman, too."

He carefully removed the blood stains from the narrow table, and pushed

it back in its place, behind a screen. The straps were cut, and

consequently useless, so he wrapped them up in a newspaper and threw

them into the waste basket. He cleaned his knife with unusual care,

and wiped an ugly stain from his forceps.

Then he took off his linen coat, folded it up, and placed it in the

covered basket which held soiled linen from the laboratory. He washed

his hands and copied the notes he had made, for there was blood upon

the page. He tore the original sheet into fine bits, and put the

pieces into the waste basket. Then he put on his cuffs and his coat,

and went out of the laboratory.

He was dazed, and did not see that his own self-torture had filled him

with primeval lust to torture in return. He only knew that his

brilliant paper must remain forever incomplete, since his services to

science were continually unappreciated and misunderstood. What was one

yellow dog, more or less, in the vast economy of Nature? Was he

lacking in discernment, because, as Piper Tom said, he had never been

loved by a dog?

He sat down in the library to collect himself and observed, with a

curious sense of detachment, that Evelina was walking in the hall

instead of in the library, as she usually did when he sat there.

An hour--or perhaps two--went by, then, unexpectedly, Ralph came home,

having paused a moment outside. He rushed into the library with his

face aglow.

"Look, Dad," he cried, boyishly, holding it at arm's length; "see what

I found on the steps! It's a pearl necklace, with a diamond in the

clasp! Some of the stones are discoloured, but they're good and can be

made right again, I've found it, so it's mine, and I'm going to give it

to the girl I marry!"

Anthony Dexter's pale face suddenly became livid. He staggered over to

Ralph, snatched the necklace out of his hand, and ground the pearls

under his heel. "No," he cried, "a thousand times, no! The pearls are

cursed!"

Then, for the second time, he fainted.

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