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Why must I always think of her in this place.... It is always worst just
along here.... Why do I always forget there's this piece ... always be
hurrying along seeing nothing and then suddenly Teetgen's Teas and this
row of shops. I can't bear it. I don't know what it is. It's always the
same. I always feel the same. It is sending me mad. One day it will be
worse. If it gets any worse I shall be mad. Just here. Certainly.
Something is wearing out in me. I am meant to go mad. If not I should
not always be coming along this piece without knowing it, whichever
street I take. Other people would know the streets apart. I don't know
where this bit is or how I get to it. I come every day because I am
meant to go mad here. Something that knows brings me here and is making
me go mad because I am myself and nothing changes me.