CHAPTER XIX

IN THE COUNTRY

They sat on the edge of the wood, and a west wind made music for

them overhead among the fir trees. From their feet a clover field

sloped steeply to a honeysuckle-wreathed hedge. Beyond that,

meadow-land, riven by the curving stream which stretched like a

thread of silver to the blue, hazy distance. Arnold laughed softly

with the pleasure of it, but the wonder kept Ruth tongue-tied.

"I feel," she murmured, "as though I were in a theatre for the first

time. Everything is strange."

"It is the theatre of nature," Arnold replied. "If you close your

eyes and listen, you can hear the orchestra. There is a lark singing

above my head, and a thrush somewhere back in the wood there."

"And see, in the distance there are houses," Ruth continued softly.

"Just fancy, Arnold, people, if they had no work to do, could live

here, could live always out of sight of the hideous, smoky city, out

of hearing of its thousand discords."

He smiled.

"There are a great many who feel like that," he said, his eyes fixed

upon the horizon, "and then, as the days go by, they find that

there is something missing. The city of a thousand discords

generally has one clear cry, Ruth."

"For you, perhaps," she answered, "because you are young and because

you are ambitious. But for me who lie on my back all day long, think

of the glory of this!"

Arnold slowly sat up.

"Upon my word!" he exclaimed. "Why not. Why shouldn't you stay in

the country for the summer? I hate London, too. There are cheap

tickets, and bicycles, and all sorts of things. I wonder whether we

couldn't manage it."

She said nothing. His thoughts were busy with the practical side of

it. There was an opportunity here, too, to prepare her for what he

felt sure was inevitable.

"You know, Ruth," he said, "I don't wish to say anything against

Isaac, and I don't want to make you uneasy, but you know as well as

I do that he has a strange maggot in his brain. When I first heard

him talk, I thought of him as a sort of fanatic. It seems to me that

he has changed. I am not sure that such changes as have taken place

in him lately have not been for the worse."

"Tell me what you mean?" she begged.

"I mean," he continued, "that Isaac, who perhaps in himself may be

incapable of harm, might be an easy prey to those who worked upon

his wild ideas. Hasn't it struck you that for the last few days--"

She clutched at his hand and stopped him.

"Don't!" she implored. "These last few days have been horrible.

Isaac has not left his room except to creep out sometimes into mine.

He keeps his door locked. What he does I don't know, but if he

hears a step on the stairs he slinks away, and his face is like the

face of a hunted wolf. Arnold, do you think that he has been getting

into trouble?"

"I am afraid," Arnold said, regretfully, "that it is not impossible.

Tell me, Ruth, you are very fond of him?"

"He was my mother's brother--the only relative I have in the world,"

she answered. "What could I do without him?"

"He doesn't seem to want you particularly, just now, at any rate,"

Arnold said. "I don't see why we shouldn't take rooms out at one of

these little villages. I could go back and forth quite easily. You'd

like it, wouldn't you, Ruth? Fancy lying in a low, comfortable

chair, and looking up at the blue sky, and listening to the birds

and the humming of bees. The hours would slip by."

"I should love it," she murmured.

"Then why not?" he cried. "I'll stop the car at the next village we

come to, and make inquiries."

She laid her hand softly upon his.

"Arnold, dear," she begged, "it sounds very delightful, and yet,

can't you see it is impossible? I am not quite like other women,

perhaps, but, after all, I am a woman. It is for your sake--for your

sake, mind--that I think of this."

He turned and looked at her--looked at her, perhaps, with new eyes.

She was stretched almost at full length upon the grass, her head,

which had been supported by her clasped hands, now turned towards

him. As she lay there, with her stick out of sight, her lips a

little parted, her eyes soft with the sunlight, a faint touch of

color in her cheeks, he suddenly realized the significance of her

words. Her bosom was rising and falling quickly. Her plain black

dress, simply made though it was, showed no defect of figure. Her

throat was soft and white. The curve of her body was even graceful.

The revelation of these things came as a shock to Arnold, yet it was

curious that he found a certain pleasure in it.

"I had forgotten, Ruth," he said slowly, "but does it matter? You

have no one in the world but Isaac, and I have no one in the world

at all. Don't you think we can afford to do what seems sensible?"

Her eyes never left his face. She made no sign either of assent or

dissent.

"Arnold," she declared, "it is true that I am an outcast. I have

scarcely a relative in the world. But what you say about yourself is

hard to believe. I have never asked you questions because it is not

my business, but there are many little things by which one tells. I

think that somewhere you have a family belonging to you with a name,

even if, for any reason, you do not choose just now to claim them."

He made no direct reply. He watched for some moments a white-sailed

boat come tacking down the narrow strip of river.

"I am my own master, Ruth," he said; "I have no one else to please

or to consider. I understand what you have just told me, but if I

gave you my word that I would try and be to you what Isaac might

have been if he had not been led away by these strange ideas,

wouldn't you trust me, Ruth?"

"It isn't that!" she exclaimed. "Trust you? Why, you know that I

would! It isn't that I mind for myself either what people would

say--or anything, but I am thinking of your new friends, of your

future. If they knew that you were living down in the country with a

girl, even though she were an invalid, who was no relation at all,

don't you think that it might make a difference?"

"Of course not," he replied, "and, in any case, what should I care?

It would be the making of you, Ruth. You would be able to pick up

your strength, so that when our money-box is full you would be able

to have that operation and never dare to call yourself an invalid

again."

She half closed her eyes. The spell of summer was in the air, the

spell of life was stirring slowly in her frozen blood.

"Ah! Arnold," she murmured, "I do not think that you must talk like

that. It makes me feel so much like yielding. Somehow, the dreams

out here seem even more wonderful than the visions which come

floating up the river. There's more life here. Don't you feel it?

Something seems to creep into your heart, into your pulses, and tell

you what life is."

He made no answer. The world of the last few throbbing weeks seemed

far enough away with him, too. He picked a handful of clover and

thrust it into the bosom of her gown. Then he rose reluctantly to

his feet and held out his hands.

"I think," he said, "that the great gates of freedom must be

somewhere out here, but just now one is forced to remember that we

are slaves."

He drew her to her feet, placed the stick in her hand, and supported

her other arm. They walked for a step or two down the narrow path

which led through the clover field to the lane below. Then, with a

little laugh, he caught her up in his arms.

"It will be quicker if I carry you, Ruth," he proposed. "The weeds

twine their way all the time around your stick."

She linked her arms around his neck; her cheek touched his for a

moment, and he was surprised to find it as hot as fire. He stepped

out bravely enough, but with every step it seemed to him that she

was growing heavier. Her hands were still tightly linked around his

neck, but her limbs were inert. She seemed to be falling away. He

held her tighter, his breath began to grow shorter. The perfume of

the clover, fragrant and delicate, grew stronger with every step

they took. Somehow he felt that that walk along the narrow path was

carving its way into his life. The fingers at the back of his neck

were cold, yet she, too, was breathing as though she had been

running. Her eyes were half closed. He looked once into her face,

bent over her until his lips nearly touched hers. He set his teeth

hard. Some instinct warned him of the dangers of the moment. Her

stick slipped and a lump arose in his throat. The moment had passed.

He kissed her softly upon the forehead.

"Dear Ruth!" he whispered.

She turned very pale and very soon afterward she insisted upon being

set down. They walked slowly to where the motor car was waiting at

the corner of the lane. Ruth began to talk nervously.

"It was charming of Mrs. Weatherley," she declared, "to lend you

this car. Tell me how it happened, Arnie?"

"I simply told her," he replied, "that I was going to take a

friend, who needed a little fresh air, out into the country, and she

insisted upon sending this car instead of letting me hire a taxicab.

It was over the telephone and I couldn't refuse. Besides, Mr.

Weatherley was in the office, and he insisted upon it, too. They

only use this one in London, and I know that they are away somewhere

for the week-end."

"It has been so delightful," Ruth murmured. "Now I am going to lie

back among these beautiful cushions, and just watch and think."

The car glided on along the country lane, passing through leafy

hamlets, across a great breezy moorland, from the top of which they

could see the Thames winding its way into Oxfordshire, a sinuous

belt of silver. Then they sped down into the lower country, and

Arnold looked at the milestones in some surprise.

"We don't seem to be getting any nearer to London," he remarked.

Ruth only shook her head.

"It will come soon enough," she said, with a little shiver. "It will

pass, this, like everything else."

They had dropped to the level now, and suddenly, without warning,

the car swung through a low white gate up along an avenue of shrubs.

Arnold leaned forward.

"Where are you taking us?" he asked the driver. "There is some

mistake."

But there was no mistake. A turn of the wheel and the car was

slowing down before the front of a long, ivy-covered house, with a

lawn as smooth as velvet, and beyond, the soft murmur of the river.

Ruth clutched at his arm.

"Arnold!" she exclaimed. "What does this mean? Who lives here?"

"I have no idea," he answered, "unless--"

The windows in front of the house were all of them open and all of

them level with the drive. Through the nearest of them at that

moment stepped Fenella. She stood, for a moment, framed in the long

French window, hung with clematis,--a wonderful picture even for

Arnold, a revelation to Ruth,--in her cool muslin frock, open at the

throat, and held together by a brooch with a great green stone. She

wore no hat, and her wonderful hair seemed to have caught the

sunlight in its meshes. Her eyebrows were a little raised; her

expression was a little supercilious, faintly inquisitive. Already

she had looked past Arnold. Her eyes were fixed upon the girl by his

side.

"I began to think that you were lost," she said gayly. "Won't you

present me to your friend, Arnold?"

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