Maraton led the way on to the roof of one of London's newer hotels.
"They won't give us dinner here," he explained. "London isn't civilised
enough for that yet, or perhaps it's a matter of climate. But we can
get all sorts of things to eat, and some wine, and sit and watch the
lights come out. I was here the other night alone and I thought it the
most restful spot in London."
He called a waiter and had a table drawn up to the palisaded edge of the
roof. Then he slipped something into the man's hand, and there seemed
to be no difficulty about serving them with anything they required.
"A salad, some sandwiches, a bottle of hock and plenty of strawberries.
We shan't starve, at any rate," Maraton declared. "Lean back in your
chairs, you children of the city, lean down and look at your mother.
Look at her smoke-hung arms, stretched out as though to gather in the
universe; and the lights upon her bosom--see how they come twinkling
into existence."
Both of them followed his outstretched finger with their eyes, but Julia
only shivered.
"I hate it," she muttered, "hate it all! London seems to me like a
great, rapacious monster. Our bodies and souls are sacrificed over
there. For what? I was in Piccadilly and the parks to-day. Is there
any justice in the world, I wonder? It's just as though there were a
kink in the great wheels and they weren't running true."
"Sometimes I think," Maraton declared, "that the matter would right
itself automatically but for the interference of weak people. The laws
of life are tampered with so often by people without understanding.
They keep alive the unworthy. They try to make life easier for the
unfit. They endow hospitals and build model dwellings. It's a sop to
their consciences. It's like planting a flower on the grave of the man
you have murdered."
"But these things help," Aaron protested.
"Help? They retard," Maraton insisted. "All charity is the most
vicious form of self-indulgence. Can't you see that if the poor died in
the street and the sick were left to crawl about the face of the earth,
the whole business would right itself automatically. The unfit would
die out. A stronger generation would arise, a generation stronger and
better able to look after itself. But come, we have been serious long
enough. You are tired with your day's work, Miss Julia, and Aaron, too.
I've been in the committee room of the House of Commons half the day,
and my head's addled with figures. Here comes our supper. Let us drop
the more serious things of life. We'll try and put a little colour into
your cheeks, young lady."
He served them both and filled their glasses with wine. Then, as he
ate, he leaned back in his chair and watched them. For all her strange
beauty, Julia, too, was one of the suffering children of the world. The
lines of her figure, which should have been so subtle and fascinating,
were sharpened by an unnatural thinness. Aaron's cheeks were almost
like a consumptive's, his physique was puny. There was something in
their expression common to both. Maraton was conscious of a wave of
pity as he withdrew his eyes.
"Sometimes," he said, "I feel almost angry with you two. You carry on
your shoulders the burden of other people's sufferings. It is well to
feel and realise them, and the gift of sympathy is a beautiful thing,
but our own individualism is also a sacred gift. It is not for us to
weaken or destroy it by encouraging a superabundant sympathy for others.
We each have our place in the world, whether we owe it to fate or our
own efforts, and it is our duty to make the best of it. Our own
happiness, indeed, is a present charge upon ourselves for the ultimate
benefit of others. A happy person in the world does good always. You
two have a leaning towards morbidness. If I had time, I would undertake
your education. As it is, we will have another bottle of wine, and I
shall take you to a music hall."
It was an evening that lived in Julia's mind with particular vividness
for years to come, and yet one which she always found it difficult to
piece together in her thoughts. They went to one of the less
fashionable music halls, where the turns were frequent and there was no
ballet. Aaron was very soon able to re-establish his temporarily lost
capacity for enjoyment. Maraton, leaning back in his place with a cigar
in his mouth, appreciated everything and applauded constantly. It was
Julia who found the new atmosphere most difficult. She laughed often,
it is true, but she had always a semi-subjective feeling, as though it
were some other person who was really there, and she the instrument
chosen to give physical indication of that other person's presence.
Only once life seemed suddenly to thrill and burn in her veins, to shoot
through her body with startling significance, and in that brief space of
time, life itself was transformed for her. Maraton by chance found her
hand, as they sat side by side, and held it for a moment in his. There
was nothing secret about his action. The firm pressure of his fingers,
even, seemed as though they might have been the kindly, encouraging
touch of a sympathetic friend. But upon Julia his touch was magical.
The rest of the evening faded into insignificance. She understood
feelings which had come to her that afternoon in the park with absolute
completeness for the first time. From that moment she took her place
definitely amongst the women who walk through life but whose feet seldom
touch the earth.
When the performance was over, Maraton called a taxicab.
"Aaron," he directed, "you must take your sister back to her lodgings.
No, I insist," he added, as she protested. "No 'buses to-night. Go
home and sleep well and think about yourself."
She shook her head.
"I will go home in a taxi," she agreed, "if you will do one thing for
me. It won't take long. It has been in my mind ever since you said
what you did about charity. I want us all to go down to the Embankment.
It isn't late enough really, but I want you to come."
He sighed.
"You are incorrigible," he declared. "Never mind, we will go. How good
the air is! We'll walk."
They turned along the Strand and descended the narrow street which led
to the Embankment. Then they walked slowly as far as Blackfriars
Bridge. They neither of them spoke a word. From time to time they
glanced at the silent and motionless figures on the seats. For the most
part, the loiterers there were either asleep or sitting with closed
eyes. Here and there they caught a glance from some spectral face, a
glance cold and listless. The fires of life were dead amongst these
people. The animal desires alone remained; their faces were dumb.
They stood together at the corner of Blackfriars Bridge.
"Well," Maraton said, "I have done your bidding. I have been here
before many times, and I have been here in the winter."
"Tell me," she asked, "there is a girl there on that third seat, crying.
Am I doing wrong if I go to her and give her money for a night's
lodging?"
"Without a doubt," he answered. "And yet, I expect you'll do it.
Principles are splendid--in the abnegation. If we are to be illogical,
let me be the breaker of my own laws."
He thrust some money into her hand and Julia disappeared. For some time
she remained talking with the figure upon the seat. Aaron and Maraton
leaned over the corner of the bridge and looked down the curving arc of
lights towards the Houses of Parliament.
"I shall end there, you know, Aaron," Maraton sighed. "I am not looking
forward to it. It's a queer sort of a hothouse for a man."
"I wonder," Aaron murmured thoughtfully. "I used to think of you
travelling from one to the other of the great cities, and I used to
think that when you had spoken to them, the people would see the truth
and rise and take their own. I used to be very fond of the Old
Testament once," he went on, his voice sinking a little lower. "Life
was so simple in those days, and the words of a prophet seemed greater
than any laws."
"And nowadays," Maraton continued, "life has become like a huge and
complex piece of machinery. Humanity has given way to mechanics.
Aaron, I don't believe I can help this people by any other way save by
laws."
They both turned quickly around. Julia was standing by their side, and
with her the girl.
"I told her," Julia explained, "that it was not my money I was offering,
but the money of a gentleman who was the greatest friend the poor people
of the world have ever known. She wanted to speak to you."
The girl drew her shawl a little closer around her shoulders. Her face
bore upon it the terrible stamp of suffering, without its redeeming
purification. Save for her abundant hair, her very sex would have been
unrecognisable. She looked steadily at Maraton.
"You sent me money," she said.
"I did," he admitted.
"Are you one of those soft-hearted fools who go about doing this sort of
thing?" she demanded.
"I am not," he replied. "I object to giving money away. I am sorry to
see people suffering, but as a rule I think that it is their own fault
if they come to the straits that you are in. I sent the money to please
this young lady."
"Their own fault, eh?" she muttered.
"I qualify that," he added quickly. "Their own fault because they
submit to a heritage of unjust laws. It is your own fault because you
don't join together and smash the laws. You would fill the jails,
perhaps, but you'd make it easier for those who came after."
She stood quite silent for a moment. When she spoke, the truculent note
had departed from her tone.
"I came here," she said, "meaning to chuck this money in your face. I
thought you were one of these canting hypocrites who salve their
consciences by giving away what they don't want. My baby died this
morning in the hospital, and they turned me out. If I keep your money,
do you know what I shall do with it? Get drunk."
He nodded.
"Why not?"
She looked at him stolidly.
"When I've spent it, I shall go into the river. I'm not fit for
anything else. I'm too weak to work, and for the rest, look at me. I'm
as ugly as sin itself--just a few bones held together."
"Take the money and get drunk," Maraton advised. "You're quite right.
There's no help for you. You've no spirit to help yourself. If you
hang on to the crust of the world through charity, you only do the world
harm. You're better out of it."
She gathered up the money and shivered a little.
"I'll drink yer health," she muttered, as she turned away.
Julia half started to follow her, but Maraton held her arm.
"Useless," he whispered. "She's one of the broken creatures of the
world. Whilst you keep her alive, you spread corruption. She'll
probably hang on to life until it gives her up."
He called a taxi.
"Now I am going to have my own way," he announced. "Aaron is going to
take you home. I came here because you wished it, but it's very
amateurish, you know, this sort of thing. It's on a par with district
visiting and slumming, and all the rest of it. A disease in the body
sometimes brings out scars. A doctor doesn't stare at the scars. He
treats the body for the disease. Get these places out of your mind,
Julia. They are only useful inasmuch as they remind us of the black
truth."
He took her hands.
"Remember," he added, "that you've finished with the tailoring for a
time. Aaron will want you to-morrow, or as soon as you can come. We've
piles of work to do."
Her eyes shone at him.
"Work," she murmured, "but think of the difference! If it wasn't for
what you've just said about individualism, I think that I should be
feeling cruelly selfish."
"Rubbish!" he exclaimed. "You're secretary of the Women's Guild, aren't
you? You can keep that up. I'll come and talk to your girls some day.
Your work has been too narrow down there. There are some other women's
industries I want you to enquire into. Till to-morrow!"
He strode vigorously away. The taxicab turned eastward over Blackfriars
Bridge.